It’s Still Complicated: …because I Am Still Waiting (9 page)

I was surprised to see that on the first day everyone was speaking in very good English and I have never been so fluent but somehow I managed to communicate with everyone. Soon the Professor of Accounts Mr. Alok Khanna entered the class; he was 6 feet tall wearing a white shirt and black suit with a blue color tie having white dots on it. He said that he was not going to teach us and would keep it as an introduction class. Everybody then introduced themselves to the professor and I learnt that I had classmates from almost all the states of the country, with different religions and different graduate degrees. Well it was my turn now and I was quite nervous I stood up and introduced myself “Hello! I am Chandra Kant, I have completed my B.Com from SOL and I am from Delhi,” I have been here for 3 years now, after all.

The next class was on Executive Communication, the professor was Gita Negi. When she entered the class everybody thought that she must be a newly recruited teacher as she looked too young and beautiful. What I thought was that she would not be able to handle the class. But when she started speaking everybody was quiet and paying attention to her. A lady who was5 feet in height in cream colored formals with her hair tied back, and clearly had a passion towards her work which made her more confident. After an introduction with all the students she started an activity where we have to do mimicry of any celebrity. I was very much nervous because it takes guts to do mimicry in front of 150 students and having 300 eye balls looking at you. I was busy thinking about which actor I could copy and I was not paying much attention to the class but when a guy who looked like Amir Khan came to the podium, I paid attention. Ma’am asked him to mimic any actor or celebrity he came out with the Amir Khan in him and did a fantastic mimicry of Amir Khan. This person was Nitesh Anand who was an SOL student like me and had never been to college before, looking at his guts and talent I became confident that if he could do it, I can also do it. When it was my turn I acted like Sunny Deol. I delivered the three famous dialogues of Sunny Deol – “
Tarik pe tarikh…, Mai sirf ek police officer nahi hu mai Indian hoon…, and dhai kilo ka hath…
” I don’t know how the mimicry was but at the end of it everybody burst out laughing, and that’s my job to make everyone smile. I missed those days when I used to be the best comedian of my school and whenever there was any function, our school teachers always included my name and asked me to prepare something to make everyone laugh.

31st August, 2011

Since we were now classmates, we three on the bus Sahiba, Simran and I introduced ourselves to each other. On this day our professor asked us to make groups of four people each, as in MBA we have to give presentation in groups, so we had to make groups. Iman and Simran and I decided to be in one group and now we needed one more partner, so Simran came up with a suggestion, it was her new friend Vatsala. I saw the girl sitting on the 3rd bench wearing a red shirt and a blue capri. Though the gal looked very low in energy, she was a studious type and I was somehow not convinced to take her in the group because of her slow voice, but we dint knew anyone else and everyone had already made their groups so I had to take her in my group. I introduced myself to Vatsala and then I came to know that she was a Psychologist and she was from Delhi itself. The phone numbers and email ids’ of the group members were exchanged with each other and we were now set to prepare for the presentations.

September 2011

After one week of joining the college we were given the date of the first presentation of our group. I have never given any presentation before that, but I learned how to deliver a presentation by looking at the presentations given by my other classmates. Now as it was time for us to prepare, we all decided what needed to be done and by whom. We made a presentation and we delivered it very well on the allotted date. We were all given feedback that we had made a good presentation.

After the presentation, while having a conversation with Vatsala I asked her that being a Psychologist she must have developed some point of view about me and she said that she had. Being curious to know what a Psychologist thinks about me, I asked her to tell me what she thought. She said “Before our introduction with each other I thought that you are a ‘High Achiever, introvert and an egotistical person’, but when we started getting to know each other, I realized that you are a ‘Goal Oriented’ person who is confident enough to achieve it, and you do not trust anyone easily.; You always want things to be done in the way you want them to be done, you need instant results and get frustrated when you don’t get results according to your expectations and demoralize yourself, but simultaneously you are a good leader and accept the challenges and have the capacity to win. You are also caring and have a very empathizing nature.”

Listening to her I got to know a lot about myself and I was happy that I now had a good friend also, who understands me completely – in and out.

14th October, 2011

It was a regular conversation between me and Megha. She was a bit busy that day so she was disconnecting the call again and again and I was getting bored so I asked her the reason for her being so busy. She said that tomorrow is ‘Karwa Chauth’, the traditional Hindu festival when a wife does fast for her husband’s well-being and long life. She said her mom was preparing something special for her father and she was helping her mom in that. I asked her whether she was keeping the fast for me like all other girls keep it for their boyfriends. To which she said she could but what if her mom comes to know that she had kept a fast… then she would have questions to answer, so she won’t be able to. Then she asked whether I can keep the fast for her unlike other boyfriends. She knew that I can’t remain hungry for even a short period of time in the day and that it would be difficult for me to remain hungry for the whole day. Though few people eat at one time during the whole day at the time of the fast, I told her that I can remain hungry for her for the whole day and that too without drinking a single drop of water. She laughed and asked me to prove it and I agreed.

15th October, 2011 (Fast)

Just before 12:00am I had some water and was prepared to keep the fast and was determined to complete it. In the morning I left for the college without having breakfast. When Mami asked me the reason behind it I told her that I am not in the mood to have breakfast so I would not have it. I went to the college and attended the classes regularly. That day, coincidentally, I had my presentation and in the presentation we have to speak a lot, while delivering the presentation I felt very thirsty but I had to survive without the water. The presentation went very well as usual and I got a positive feedback from the professor.

It was 1:30pm when the classes were over, while travelling on the metro I called up Megha and she asked me whether I had breakfast or not, when I said I didn’t she said you can have food and water if you want to. She said she was happy that I can remain hungry and thirsty for her but she didn’t want me to remain hungry and become ill. I said it’s just a matter of few more hours and that I wanted to complete it so I will not back down.

I reached home at 3pm. and was immediately asked by Mami to have lunch. I said I had it some food in the college and she now understood the reason for not eating the food. She smiled and asked are you keeping fast for her and I told her the truth. Mami is quite frank and understands my feelings very well just like a typical Indian mom. I was feeling hungry and I usually get headache when I am hungry and my head started bursting because of the pain. Like a normal human being I thought I should eat something and Megha would never know that I have had food but my heart didn’t allow me to cheat her.

At 6pm she called me and asked me if I had eaten and I said to her that I had not had anything yet. She said come to meet me outside my house. When I asked her the reason she said she wanted to meet me. I went outside her house and called her, she said she was coming out in 2 minutes. Though it was dark outside due to winter, it takes guts to come out of the house and meet your boyfriend outside your house when your family is very strict about it. She came out, smiled at me, gave me a Dairy Milk Chocolate and went inside her house again. I started my bike was going towards my apartment, she called me up and said “Before having anything to eat, please have the chocolate I gave you first and then drink some water; and I am happy that you proved what you said,
I Love You Jaan
,”.

I was hungry, I was thirsty, my head was paining, and I was feeling weak, but her love made the tears of happiness come out of my eyes. My throat choked up and I couldn’t speak much except for a few words “
I Love you too
”…

I reached home, had that chocolate first and then had my dinner. The chocolates tasted far better than the normal chocolates as it was given to me by Megha. She was happy that I did something which was special for her, and I was happy that she cared enough for me and gave me a chocolate of love. This only made our love stronger than ever and we were so happy to have each other.

22nd October, 2011

Megha and her cousins used to go to Ram Lila in the pre- Diwali time, and coincidentally me, Ravi and Mama, Mami also planned to visit the same Ram Lila where Megha was with her cousins. When we reached I called her up to ask where she was and she came out to see me. Mami saw Megha and said she was not beautiful but it’s okay if you love her truly, beauty doesn’t matter. That was the first time when I attended the Ram Lila of Delhi and I was very surprised to see that people in Delhi celebrate Ram Lila as a big event and they spend not only their money but also their time to make it a perfect celebration. Though Megha was around me for few hours but I couldn’t meet her as her big brother was with her and he didn’t know about us. I stayed at Ram Lila for a while but as soon as Megha left I also went home with Mama and Mami. I called her and praised her for her beauty; I told her she was looking awesome in her purple top and black jeans. She smiled and asked what Mami had said. I told my Love that Mami said that she had liked you and she was happy for us. After all Mama and Mami were going to help me ask her father to allow me to marry you. She was happy that Mami liked her and I reaffirmed to her that I was really serious about our relationship.

The Good and the Bad Year

January 2012

A
ccording to the Chinese calendar and the MAYAN calendar, the world was going to end on 12/12/2012,

the news said. People had different views and thoughts about it. On being asked by Megha “What if we die, we will not be able to marry each other?”

I said “Love doesn’t only means living together, it also means to die for each other, I will come to you on 12/12/2012 and we will die together so that we will always be together,”

She couldn’t speak a word after this because she knew I meant what I say and I do exactly what I say.

We celebrated my birthday on the 23rd just like every year and I got a lot of gifts from her this time. These gifts played an important role in our relationships as they defined how much love we had in our hearts for our partner. She gave me a heart shaped box, which had a small book with a lot of Love quotes, she said to me “Whatever this book says is what my heart thinks about you, so do read it when you are sad, you will feel good,” then there was a set of two candles, I asked her the use of those candles “ she said she has a dream to go for a candle light dinner with me and she wanted me to light those candles when “We go for such dinner,”

Then there was a dancing couple globe, she said to me earnestly “This is a crystal ball which has a couple dancing in it. I hope we always remain happy and keep dancing in each other’s love,”

She also gave me a coffee cup and said “I know you love coffee, but not more than me, always have your coffee in this cup you will miss me…”

And finally she had a pillow which has two hearts pierced by an arrow, she said to me “These are our hearts, which will always be together and whenever you feel alone just hug this pillow and think that it’s me.”

My happiness knew no bounds and no end; she loved me so much, and I could never imagine that she would think so much for me. I had the best girl in my life and I promised her that I’ll never ever leave her, no matter what happened that I would always be on her side.

16th February, 2012

Though we celebrated the proposal anniversary every year, this year it was not to be enjoyed as she had some family problem. She asked me not to bring any gift for her and she told me that she would come to meet me but for a few hours only. I, being a caring boy friend, told her not to worry about anything and that I was with her in each and every decision of her life. I felt bad that we would not be able to enjoy ourselves but she being an understanding girlfriend came and met me at the Dominos’ Pizza outlet at Metro Walk. We both ordered our favorite cheese burst farm house pizza and started discussing about her family problems. I tried to somehow make her understand that she didn’t have anything in her hands and that maybe this year was not lucky for us, that’s why everything had become bad in the very beginning. But she knew that I am always with her and she somehow convinced herself that everything would be okay on its own, thinking much about it would not solve the problem.

March 2012

One day Megha’s mom suddenly asked her if she was having an affair with someone; Megha said that she wasn’t have any affair with anyone. Her mother was having a strong doubt and being a religious woman she took her to the Mandir in her house and asked her to put her hand on Lord Krishna and swear that she didn’t have a boyfriend. Megha was very much afraid and she swore on god that she didn’t have a boyfriend. Maybe her mother was happy hearing this but Megha called me and started crying. I was worried and asked her what had happened, why was she crying? She said that she was very sad. She narrated the whole incident to me and started crying again. I was confused about what to say, I asked her if she was unhappy with the relationship, she said she is happy being with me but she doesn’t like speaking lies and, cheating her parents for me. I knew what she was feeling and I understood how difficult it was for a girl to cheat her family for her boyfriend. She had to tell a lie when she came to meet her boyfriend, she had to lie when she talked to her boyfriend in the nights. She had to feel the guilt when she sleeps with her guy before marriage. She had to forget about her dreams to fulfill the dreams of her boyfriend and she had to face the relatives when they pointed their fingers at her and a whole lot of things where she had to adjust. But I couldn’t do anything about it, I had two options either I leave her which I couldn’t because I loved her more than anything else in this world and I knew that I cannot survive for a day without her. Another was to console her and make her understand that if we had to lie to keep our relationship alive we should not feel bad about it.