It’s Still Complicated: …because I Am Still Waiting (6 page)

“I understand sweet heart…”

“Order Sir???” the Pizza Hut boy popped up in between.

I have never been to Pizza Hut before and did I knew how to see a menu. I was a small town boy after all.

“One ‘Veggie Lover’s Pizza’ medium, one ‘Garlic Bread’, and two lemonades for us please…” she said.

She ordered in such a way that she was very frequent at all these restaurants. She smiled and asked me “Anything else you would like?”

No, it’s enough I guess. “I mean anything else?? I dint even knew what she had ordered till now, I do not have any idea,”

But she knew it that I have never been to any Pizza Hut type restaurant and she made me learn how to look at a menu.

“Oh! It’s so simple. I never knew it,” I said smiling. “Hmm, next time you will order,” she said.

The pizza arrived and we both had our lunch. “How was the Pizza?” she asked me.

“It was awesome, just like you; after all it was your choice,” I said.

“To tease me she said, you are also my choice, but you are not that awesome.” and smiled mischievously.

Now it was the time for her to go home and as usual I felt very bad about it, as I never wanted her to go away from me and I wanted her to be with me forever. But we had to depart and I was happy to spend my time with her, after all she was everything for me now.

February 2010 (Simran Kaur)

I had my exams for B.Com 2nd year in the month of June so I had to join the crash course classes for subjects like Tax and Mathematics. Again it was the first day of the same institute NGPA. A few faces were the same but many of them were new to the institute. Then I saw the same girl who never used to talk to me and always used to sit on the back bench, Simran Kaur.

She came to me and asked me if she could sit on the chair to my left side. I had no problem and she was comfortable sitting next to me. I was more confident in the classes now. I had nothing to feel nervous about because I had learned to behave well and maintain myself.

Slowly we became friends and exchanged numbers too. Sometimes she used to message me to ask about the classes, or the schedules but very soon because of frequent chats through messages we became good friends and then we always used to sit next to each other in the classes. She was beautiful and of course she was good at heart.

The Mathematics classes were very boring for both of us; as none of us had any interest in Math’s, so often we used to play “Zero Kata” on the note books. Two, three times our teacher caught us playing and ordered us to sit apart from each other. But who cared, we always used to sit together, after all we were the disturbing elements in the class.

Megha knew everything about me and my friendship with Simran and how we disturbed the whole class, but she never had any problem with this, as she always trusted me blindly and she knew that I’ll always
Love
her and never ever cheat on her.

One day Simran asked me to come half an hour before the class; I wondered what was going on in her mind. I reached the institute and asked her for the reason behind calling me so early. She said she wanted to spend some time with me, and I was confused how to behave. I thought maybe she was sad and she considered me a good friend that’s why she wanted to spend some time with me. So I was okay with it.

The next day she did the same but I couldn’t reach before the class. We attended the class and after the class I asked her the reason behind calling me half hour before the class every day, but she dint replied and left for the home.

As soon as I reached home I got a call from her. “Hey!”

“Hello, did you reach home safely?” she asked.

“Yes, I did. My home is just a kilometer away from the institute, did you reach home?”

“No, I am on the way; I am in the bus right now,” “Okay,”

Then I asked her about the purpose behind calling me before the class every day, she said she just wanted to spend some time with me alone. I was feeling very indifferent, I mean I dint know what was going on with her and I was very surprised from her behavior towards me. I asked her whether everything was okay at her home. She said everything was alright but still she was feeling very alone. I told her that I could not come before the class timings every day and if she was feeling sad about something or if she had some problem she could share it with me and then I’ll try to solve it. She said she was also confused about what was going on in her mind and she would try to figure it out.

In the evening she called me and said she that she was Love with me. That is why she wanted to spend time with me, that is the reason behind calling me after the class and asking me whether I had reached home or had my food on time or not.

I had mixed emotions now, on the one hand I was happy that after meeting Megha. I had improved so much that the girl who never even talked to me a year ago had now proposed me, but on the other hand I was worried about what Megha would feel listening to this - that I had been proposed to by another girl. I never hide anything from Megha and I had to first tell Simran that I was committed and I couldn’t say yes to her. I knew that I was going to break her heart but I had no choice and I had too.

I tried to convince Simran that I was already committed to someone for the last one year and I couldn’t cheat on her for anyone in this entire world. I told her that I always considered her as a good friend of mine and I did not have any feelings for her. Listening to this she cried a lot and disconnected the call, and I knew may be she will not talk to me ever after this.

I was more worried about Megha, I called her and explained her everything. I thought Megha was going to shout at me and would get angry with me, but she was not. She said few words “I know you are mine, and I know you will always be.”. This narrates the whole story of her trust in me. These few words of her melted me and made me love her more.

The next day Simran Kaur was behaving as usual and she had convinced herself that I am committed and we can be good friends always. Sometimes she used to become a bit sad because I dint accept her proposal but she was a fun loving girl so she always convinced herself that she deserves someone else and we were good friends again.

The First Fight

After her board exams for the 12th Standard, Megha started taking classes for her BBA entrance exams in an institute. Sakshi and her friends also joined the same institute for their BBA entrance preparation. One day Megha called me to ask me whether I could meet her outside the Movie Time cinema hall, she said Sakshi was going to meet Lalit (her boyfriend) so we can also meet at the same place as she either way she had to go along with Sakshi. I agreed and went to the pre-decided place, Lalit and I were waiting for our girlfriends and then they came. We unlike others used to meet in the stairs of the Movie hall as no one was there to disturb us. It was a bit awkward for me but Megha had called me to meet her, so I had to adjust myself to sit on the stairs and spend time with Megha, till the meeting of Sakshi and Lalit finished. I never wanted to meet her like this but Megha had to go with Sakshi and she would have got very bored if I had not joined her there.

Whenever Sakshi had to meet Lalit, she always used to tell her mom that she was going for the class and her mom knew that Sakshi and Megha were in the same class. So when Sakshi was meeting Lalit, Megha couldn’t be at home. Sakshi and Lalit started meeting frequently and Megha had to go along with Sakshi. Sometimes the plans to meet were made so quickly that I had to go leaving everything I was doing unfinished. This started building frustration in my mind, as I didn’t wanted Megha to go along with Sakshi just to get bored and I also at the same time I did not want to meet her like this. Many times we had a lot of small fights between us on this issue but somehow we both managed to keep each other happy.

On her 2nd birthday with me I wanted to gift her something different so I asked her what she would like to get as a gift for her birthday. She said she would love if someone sent her a bouquet at her home at the stroke of midnight. Though her family is strict on these things on birthdays they say nothing.

I said her that I am never going to do it as maybe her family would ask her who had sent her the flowers and they might doubt Megha and suspect that she has a boyfriend. I said this to her because I wanted Megha to not to expect the bouquet in the night as I would have not been able to surprise her with the bouquet.

A day before her birthday I went to the florist near her house and asked him to send the best bouquet he had to Megha at midnight. With the flowers I sent a card which contained the name of the sender. The florist wanted me to write the sender’s name but I wrote “From all your Friends”. The florist sent the bouquet to her in the night and she was very surprised to get it as she never expected it. I called her to wish her happy birthday and she thanked me for the bouquet.

One day I asked Megha to meet me at the Movie Time hall, she came to meet me bunking her classes, this time we met alone and after having spent some time with each other she got a call from her Grandmother. Her Grandmother thought that Megha was in the class, but she was with me. Her grandmother said “Megha I am coming towards your institute as I have some work in the nearby market. By the time I am done with the work your class will be over so you can come home with me,”

Megha got very worried and she now had to reach her institute somehow. I asked her to board an auto, but she said she would not be able to reach their quickly and what if her Grandmother saw her sitting inside the auto while going towards her institute. Then I asked her to sit on my bike and I would drop her to the institute. She had no choice, so she had to go with me. This was the first time when she was riding on my bike and I had to drop her to the institute as quickly as possible. From the movie hall where we met, her home was on the way to her institute, so I had to take a different route to reach her institute, but that route was blocked. So I had to take a reverse and I said “Megha, either we will reach your institute before you Grandmother reaches or someone is going to see us together, because your house is on the way to your institute, so get ready to face the consequences if anyone from your family sees us together,”

This was the first dare which we both did together and I drove my bike as fast as I could towards her institute.

Though we both were very afraid of getting caught by her family members, we reached the institute on time and nobody could see us together. This was the first time when she praised my bike driving and it was a completely adventurous ride which we had together that day. Sometimes while driving towards the market I still miss that day.

After her exams in June, because of not getting selected in good college for BBA, she got admission in Laxmibai College with was affiliated to Delhi University. She started doing her BA from there, she has to go to her college by auto and it took a lot of time to reach there so soon she got her first car. She learned driving during her BBA entrance exam preparations and I was a bit jealous that she knew how to drive a car and I didn’t.

She was fond of trying new dishes and visiting new places, just as I was. I love to eat but I am very choosy. Sometimes when we went to the restaurants, she was okay with anything which I ordered in the restaurant but I had few choices and I sometimes did not like the food which she ordered, so many times we ordered different things for both of us. In the month of August she took me to a place where she used to eat “Corn Chat”, she wanted me to try it as I had never tried it. I tried the “Corn Chat” and liked it too. After having it we both went inside her car, we were love birds and I always wanted to park her car in a place where no one can see us sitting inside the car, it was because of two reasons. One, her relatives are everywhere in Delhi as she said. Two, I wanted a kiss before going away from her. So as I insisted she drove her car through many roads to find a suitable place to park the car and she hated driving because of the traffic. She used to shout at me for this “Is it necessary to park a car and have a chat with me?” and always my answer used to be “While driving you cannot pay attention to me, while driving I cannot see you properly. I want to see your eyes while talking to you; I want to get lost in your beauty, I want you to see my expression while I am talking to you, I want to kiss you before you leave me alone for the next few days and she used to smile and always find a place where we could park the car, talk to each other, hug each other and kiss each other before leaving.

But that day was different, she found a place to park the car and we started talking to each other. I don’t know from where it came, the topic of a guy started. Actually she was talking to an unknown guy on Yahoo messenger the last few days and I knew about it and I have read all the chats between them because we both ensured that we had transparency in our relationship. We knew each other’s ids and passwords. That guy sent her the request to add her and she accepted it. I told her that every guy is same in case of a girl, but she said every guy is not the same. She said I am talking to him just as a friend and

I knew that she was talking to him just as a friend; but being a man I couldn’t see her talking to an unknown guy. I had an objection to her chats with that guy but she said that I was also unknown to her once, and that she said she knows her limits and when the guy is going to cross his limits she would not talk to him. I said just wait for few days, he is going to propose you and she said that it was not going to happen. Guess what? The guy tried to show her that he was in love with her and he showed that he became unwell when Megha didn’t talk to him, I mean really?? Does it happen?? It happens only when we are in a relationship, not in a friendship. I told Megha to block that person and not to talk to him after this. She blocked him and I said “See all guys are same in case of a girl!” She again disagreed to this and said that they aren’t. I got angry with this and I said you are behaving just like a characterless woman that would talk to anybody on the street and share anything. I knew I was wrong and out of my limits, as Megha had already stopped talking to him and she was doing everything according to me. “The biggest crime is to blame someone who is truly innocent.” and I committed this crime for which she was very angry with me for several days. She didn’t talk to me for two, three days and I had to say sorry to her for that.