Tangled Dreams (31 page)

“How did I get so lucky?” I countered back at him.

“To think I thought you were going to go back to Clay. It still kills me to know that he was kissing you.” His anger building all over again.

“Shh.” I said putting my lips to his. “Don’t think about it. You’re the person I want to be with. Not him. You’re the only one that matters to me.” Standing in the shower we talked and kissed and I was looking forward to the future.

The rest of the day we couldn’t keep our hands off each other. We talked non stop like we hadn’t talked in months. Which we kinda hadn’t. For once in my life, I felt like I was looking forward to the future. And that future I wanted to continue with Gavin. When we heard the car pull up and I decided to head to my room while he stayed downstairs. Last time William knew we weren’t really talking, and I didn’t want him thinking any different. It would be easier seeing each other at night after everyone went to bed. I chose to skip supper that night. I felt like I ate all day and I wasn’t hungry at all. So, I stayed in my room to read a book instead dreading for the next day to come and having to go back to school and see Clay. But, now I would have Gavin. If Clay was smart he would steer clear of him. I don’t know If I could convince him to hold back for long. Our relationship taken to a whole new level. Getting out my journal I had to write down into words how amazing prom was leaving out the unpleasant parts and how so in love with Gavin I was. Seeing it in print it felt more real. Hearing a tap on the adjoining door Gavin walked in.

“Hey Sweetie.”

“Hey Maddie. How are you baby?” He said sitting down on the bed next to me leaning down to give me a kiss. “You look as delicious as ever.” Kissing my neck.

“Gavin.” “

So, what are you doing? Writing in your Christmas present?”

“Yes, I am.”

“Let me read.” He said leaning over me. He was liking what he was reading especially the last part claiming to be so in love with him. Taking the pen out of my hand I was wondering what he was doing. Leaning down he wrote in my journal. “I love you to.”

“You know Gavin, this is only going to get harder for us.” I said looking up into his eyes.

“I know babe.”

“You do love me right Maddie?”

“Of course.” I said confused.

“Then we can get through it.” Leaning down giving me a light kiss on the tip of my nose.

“As far as school, I think after last night everyone pretty much thinks were together anyways.”

“This is going to be complicated.”

“Nothing good ever comes easy Madison. And your as good as it gets.”

“Gavin, I don’t know how you do it.”

“Do what babe?” Now caressing my arm gently.

“How you can even make the hardest situations seem so easy.”

“Everything seems easier when were together.” Staring in disbelief that they were finally together.

“I hope you feel that way when it gets really hard. I think you underestimate your father.”

“Maybe. Maybe not.” Leaning in for a kiss. “Either way. It’s worth it. I’ll do whatever it takes to be with you. And I feel sorry for whoever tries to get in my way.”

“You know for some reason I believe you.” I said giggling.

“And as far as school, to hell with all those jealous assholes. They’re just pissed because I have the most beautiful girl in school, and they don’t.”

“I don’t think it’s me that has as many admirers as you do.”

“Don’t be ridiculous. You don’t hear what all the guys say in the locker room about you. They’re lucky I haven’t kicked all their asses for it already. But, I knew if I did that they would see right through me. I just made sure they didn’t act on any of there little horny fantasies about you.”

“Gavin!”

“What?” He asked defensively. “I’m being serious.”

Laughing. “Okay, I believe you. Just don’t tell me in detail.”

“You kidding? I’m not going to. You might go for one of them.”

Punching him in the arm as hard as I could, I barely budged him. But, I did show him my displeasure about his comment. “Don’t even say something like that. I have barely looked at another guy since I laid eyes on you.”

“Oh is that right? Huh?”

“Oh yeah, especially when I came into your room one of the first nights I was here. You had just gotten out of the shower and you had your shirt off. I thought I had died and gone to hot guy heaven.” I said giggling now embarrassing myself.

Laughing. “Yeah, I thought you were going to drop my food and turn around and run straight into the door.”

“Okay, smart alec. When did you really take a second look at me.”

“Oh, that’s easy.”

“When you wondered out into the woods and I carried you back in the house and put you in the shower. You came out in that night gown. That drove me crazy. You were so beautiful that night.”

“Are you kidding me? I was a mess that night. I was bruised up, dirty, tired. And then after the shower I looked like a drowned rat, my hair all wet and tangled.” I said laying back my head on my pillow.

“Babe, you looked far from a drowned rat. You were, and still are the most gorgeous girl I had ever laid eyes on. I was so nervous that night.” Laying down next to me putting his arm under my head.

“You nervous? I don’t believe it.”

“Well, believe it. I thought I was going to drop you going up those stairs I even stumbled on one of them. Don’t you remember?”

“No, I remember being really tired and just enjoying being close to you. Oh, and of course I remember being really embarrassed about my sheer night gown. I can’t imagine you stumbling on a step or anything. Your mister baseball man. Mr sporty. I’m the klutz.” I said teasingly.

“Well, that night you knocked me off balance. What can I say? I was totally smitten with you. I knew you were the one for me that night. It made me happy. It made me sad. It made me scared. And it made me hopeful all at the same time.”

“I know how you felt. I felt the exact same way. That’s why I tried to get closer to Clay. But, the closer Clay and I got the worse I felt. I felt like I was losing you completely. I told myself repeatedly that’s what has to happen. I couldn’t convince my heart however.” I said looking away.

“It’s okay babe. He said wrapping his arms around me completely. You don’t have to tell me this. I know it is hard for you. I’m here now.”

“No, I want to. I saw the sadness in your eyes so many times because of me and I want to explain.”

“Did you really love Clay? I want the truth.”

Sighing. “ No, I cared for Clay. I think I could have fallen in love with him. Under different circumstances, in a different place or time, I think I could have. But, after meeting you. There was no one else ever. I would only think of you every time I was with him. You were always there. He wasn’t completely stupid to this.”

“So, you didn’t ya know with him?”

“Ya know?” I asked confused.

“No. Oh god. No.”

“Gavin, you are my first.”

“Well, I thought so.”

“Why would u think other wise?”

“I don’t know. I thought maybe one of those times you were lonely and sad and I wasn’t around that you might of turned to Clay.”

“So, what about you? How many girls have you had?”

“Why do you ask how many? Instead of have I?” Staring seriously into my eyes.

“Well, I just assumed.”

“Well, you know what they say what happens when you assume.”

“Yes I know.”

“Maddie, I haven’t been that way completely with another girl. I always felt like there was something stopping. They were never good enough. And they’re definitely not good enough after I met you.”

Smiling I pulled his head in for a kiss. “I love you so much Gavin.”

“I love you to Maddie.” Looking over at the clock it read 11:00.

“It’s getting late. I wish I could sleep with you tonight. Well every night Gavin”

“I know babe I wish it to. We just have to be careful. We have to not get to careless like on Christmas.”

“I know. Please don’t remind me.”

“You know after you left, I felt like a part of me died. I thought I would never see you again. It killed me inside every minute of every hour of every day.”

“I know. I’m sorry Gavin. I thought I was doing the right thing. I saw you that day when you came to Andreas. I wanted to run out and straight into your arms right then. I had to literally hold myself back. I thought I could never feel so sad after my dad died. And I haven’t but, that day was just as painful for me.”

“I wasn’t trying to make you feel guilty. I just want you to know that I never want you to leave me like that ever again. Promise me.” Staring deeply into her eyes.

“I promise the only way I will ever leave your side ever again is if someone literally rips me out of your arms.”

“I don’t plan on that happening. I finally have you and I plan on keeping it that way.” Saying with intensity in his eyes. “I have one more question Maddie.”

“Yes?”

“The day I told you that I love you. You said you didn’t. Why?”

“I’m sorry Gavin. I did not mean that at all. I just didn’t want to hurt your relationship with your family particularly your father any more than I already had. I thought I was doing the right thing. I lied through my teeth. I loved you just as much then as I do now.”

“You killed me that day.”

“I know. I really am sorry Gavin.” I couldn’t even look at him at that moment I felt so guilty.

“It’s over with now Maddie. Lets quit talking about all of this. It’s depressing.” Leaning in for a long kiss. Pulling away he sucked in his breath like he was in pain.

“What’s wrong Gavin?” I asked concerned.

“Nothing, I just want you so bad. I want forever. I’m afraid of what’s to come.” Saying now looking out the window.

“I know. I am to.” I said wrapping my arms even tighter around him, afraid to ever let go.

The next morning I was up dressed early looking out the window for Gavin. He was trudging inside from his chores to change for school. He has to much on his shoulders for someone so young. Actually for anyone for that matter. Hearing him come up the stairs I quickly snuck into his room to lay on his bed waiting for him to come in. The door opened and he already had his shirt peeled off damp with sweat, toweling himself.

Looking up “Well, you are the best looking thing I’ve seen all morning.” Instantly cheered with a smile on his face.

“Like wise.” I said enjoying the view. Leaning down he planted a kiss on my lips. I grabbed him wrapping my legs around his back forcing him on top of me.

Laughing out loud. “Maddie are you sure you want to start this.” Asking with a glint in his eyes.

“I just wanted to feel you near me. I miss you already.”

“I miss you every second that your not near me.” He said kissing me again this time deepening it.

“You are absolutely amazing.” Pulling away enough to look at me.

“Nothing compared to you Gavin. I suppose we need to get up and go to school.”

“Yeah, shit! I guess so.” Sensing there was something wrong. “Maddie?”

“Yeah Gavin?”

“Don’t worry. No one will bother you today. I’ll take care of you.”

“I’ll be alright. Besides if your taking care of me all the time, you can’t watch out for yourself.” 

“Don’t worry. I can protect both of us.” He said reassuringly.

Pulling into the high school I felt like all the eyes were already on us. Of course I was paranoid. That is until we actually got into the front doors. Then all the eyes really were on us. Andrea ran up to us immediately.

“Madison, how are you? I couldn’t get a hold of you. Gavin’s dad wouldn’t let me talk to either of you.”

Pissed off, “That does not surprise me at all. So what’s up?” Shyly she just stood there unsure to say anything in front of Gavin who was standing over me like a guard dog. “It’s okay Andrea you can say anything in front of Gavin.”

“Well, there is tons of rumors going around that you and Clay are back together and that you slept with him after the Prom. One story being in the bathroom another being outside, another in a classroom.”

My body shook like I had just had a cold bucket of water dump over me. Looking over at Gavin he was standing rigid with clenched fists.

“Then there are other people arguing that it never happened and that you are dating Gavin now.”

“Well, at least that one is closer to the truth.” Not realizing I said it out loud until Andrea shrieked and launched herself in my arms.

“Oh, I’m so happy. You guys are so perfect for each other. I knew it would happen soon. Well, I didn’t know but, I was hoping.” She rambled on as fast as she could.

“Okay, Andrea calm down.” I said trying to calm myself down to.

“Okay, I gotta go! We’ll talk later.” She said running off towards her locker. Looking up at Gavin who had a serious look on his face.

“Oh Gavin, what am I going to do?” I asked almost whining now. “I don’t want people thinking I slept with Clay.”

“Well, there is only one thing we can do.” Grabbing me by the arm and taking me down to his locker which happened to be the busiest hallway in the school.

“Gavin what are we doing? My locker is the other way.”

Not saying a word he stopped in the middle of the hallway close to his locker in a crowd of people locked his arms around me and lifted me up planting the hottest kiss on me. One of anger, passion and frustration. But, for Gavin it completely worked for him. And for one second I forgot where I was. All the world was a blur. That is until he put me back down on the ground and I opened my eyes to find everyone staring at us. Of course my face flushed red.

“I hope that resolves any question about her and Clay.” He said angered out loud to everyone who stood around with there mouths gaping open. Everyone started whispering back and fourth to each other. Grabbing my hand he started walking me away from the crowd when I seen Clay back in the crowd looking unhappy his eyes to the ground. Right then I knew it was him who spread the rumor. I wanted to go over and punch him in his face myself.

“Gavin, your dad is going to find out about this.” I said in a panic while he pulled me along myself running to keep up.

“I don’t give a shit if he does. Don’t worry I’ll make sure he deals with me and not you.” He stomped on with me to my locker. “Get your stuff you need.” He bossed me looking around like he was paranoid about something.