A Beautiful Mess (23 page)

Laughing I said, “Jade, I don’t hate you but I just don’t want you to make another mistake. I want my best friend to find what I have with her brother, that’s all. So if this is – “

“Wow, let’s rewind Ash and I will explain everything to you, okay?”

Nodding, she began to explain what happened here.

Looking back at the Neil’s room, my old room, she said, “You’ve seen him and he’s extremely good looking. Just seeing that eyebrow ring makes me go bananas.”

Raising my eyebrows she waved her hand in the front of her face and said, “Anyway, he really took care of me after dad passed away. I was just so torn up over what happened and I started to lean on Neil. We talked a lot and grew close to one another. I guess you could say that we formed a friendship and I felt comfortable with him.”

After he moved in we got closer and one night…” Waving her hand in the air she shook her head. Looking back at me she said, “I know you’re probably going to think it was a big mistake but we decided to be a sort of friends with benefits.”

Mouth hanging open I looked at her. Shaking my head I said, “Jade I will love you for as long as I live. I mean for fuckssake you are my best friend and I know that I am yours. So as your best friend I will tell you that this is a big mistake. You guys are fucking roommates for hellfire. I mean were you really not thinking when you had this brilliant plan?”

I felt so bad because next thing I knew she was tearing up. Getting up from my seat I walked over and sat next to her. I wrapped her up in my arms and pulled her as close to me as my seven months pregnant belly would allow.

Kissing her on the top of her head I rubbed up and down her back and whispered, “I’m so sorry Jade. I didn’t mean for it to come out bitchy. But you are the sister I never had and I’m trying to look out for you. I’m not saying that Neil is a bad guy because from what I know of him he’s really nice. But Jade, did you not think about the consequences to your actions? Did you not think that this could be a big mistake?”

Lifting her head from my shoulder and releasing her arms from around me she wiped away her tears and sniffled. Slumping her head she said, “For the longest time I didn’t think I would ever get what you and Jason have. But –”

“But?”

Sucking in a breath Jade whispered, “But with Neil I have it. I fell in love with him Ash.”

It was now my turn to suck in a breath. With tears forming in my eyes I said, “He’s it?”

Nodding her head slightly she looked at me and whispered, “Yes.”

A small smile appeared on my face. I was so happy for Jade, but then my smile disappeared because of something. Or should I say someone.

Opening my mouth I uttered, “We have to tell Jason.”

Immediately shaking her head Jade jumped up from the couch and said, “No please Ash! Please don’t tell him!”

Shaking my head back and forth I said, “I can’t lie to him Ash.”

With tears falling from her face Jade whispered, “Please, don’t tell him Ash. For once I’m happy and I just want to enjoy it for a little while before it all goes to hell. Because you know Jason will get pissed off and start something with Neil.”

Letting my head backwards and land on the couch I closed my eyes and said, “This is a big mistake, Jade.” Lifting my head up I looked at Jade and said, “You know that, right?”

With a small smile on her face she shook her head and said, “I don’t care because I’ve learned that every mistake I’ve ever made has taught me a lesson in one way or another.”

Letting out a breath I said, “I’m giving you until graduation Jade.”

Closing her eyes Jade nodded her head. Slowly opening her eyes I saw unshed tears in them. Before I could contemplate it Jade wrapped her arms around my neck and hugged me.

Wrapping my arms around her waist I whispered in her ear, “I love you Jade.”

Nodding her head in the crook of my neck she kissed it and whispered, “Right back ‘atcha.”

Holding onto each other for a few seconds we released and sat back on the couch. I watched as Jade looked down at her intertwined fingers and smiled. In turn I smiled but I wondered what would happen when Jason found out just exactly what his sister was up to.

Two months have gone by since school has started and I’m doing great. I thought online classes would be a piece of cake but they are actually really difficult. I have to write a lot of papers and there are a ton of group discussion chat forums I have to do a week. I no longer work at the library because it was just too much on my poor swollen ankles. I’m now eight and a half months pregnant and it’s March 12
^th
. It’s a rather difficult day because this was the day my mom was born and I kept tearing up because I miss her so much.

Calling my dad I cried and told him about how much I missed mom and how I wish she was going to be here for the birth of Jaylin and Bennett. Dad did something unexpected and laughed. He said, “Ashlynn, your mother will be there with you every step of the way whether you can see her or not.”

Smiling through the phone I told him that I loved him and I would see him in a week then hung up.

Dad and Janie were going to be staying in a hotel for a week and helping Jason and I with the twins. Those little lovebirds were still going strong and I saw wedding bells in their future. I was just so happy that dad had found someone because over the years I worried about him living in the house all by himself.

As soon as I hung up the phone I went back to our room to take a nap. Before lying down on the bed I looked at the calendar. Jason and I were counting down the days until we got to finally see Jaylin and Bennett. We can’t wait to hold them in our arms and watch them grow right in front of our eyes into amazing beautiful people. I’m also excited to finally be able to sleep again. The little troublemakers move around all night long so I don’t really get a lot of sleep. Just a ton of cat naps here and there.

I have totally given up reading romance books and have filled my Kindle shelf with baby books instead. Jason and I read together at night about anything and everything baby related. He loves laying on his side and resting his head on my stomach. He gets a kick out of feeling the little ones kick in my stomach. While he finds it to be the coolest thing ever I find it rather uncomfortable now.

I remember the first time I felt the babies kick I was so scared because I didn’t know what it was. Jason was cooking dinner as I was reading in the baby book and I jumped in my seat. He dropped the spatula in the omelet mixture and ran right over to me and asked, “Are you okay Ashlynn? Is it the babies? Do I need to take you to the hospital?”

Jumping again I smiled and said, “I think the babies just kicked. Jason put your hand on my stomach and talk.”

With tears in his eyes he knelt down so his head was right next to my stomach and said, “I love you both and your mommy so mu – Whoa!”

Looking up at me he got up from his knees and said, “I love you so much Ashlynn.”

Letting a tear escape my eye I said, “I love you too.”

Just as we were about to kiss the babies kicked again and I jumped. Resting his forehead against mine he said, “Those little ones aren’t even here and they’re already getting in the way of us having sex.” I couldn’t do anything but laugh.

Jason had late night classes every Tuesday and Thursday so I decided to make us a romantic dinner and surprise him. Of course I had to ask Jade for her help because my feet were just killing me so much from these little munchkins. After she helped me make Jason’s favorite meal, spaghetti with garlic bread, I thanked her for all of her help and she went on home.

Placing the table I poured us some ginger ale and waited for Jason to come home. Of course I only had to wait maybe five minutes and when he walked in he dropped his backpack on the floor and looked over at me. “What’s all this for?”

Getting up from the couch he ran over to me and I said, “I just wanted you to know how much I love you.”

Kissing me on the lips he said, “Thank you so much baby.” Kneeling down in front of me he kissed my stomach and asked, “How have you guys been for mommy today?”

Giggling I said, “Good for the most part. Although in the afternoon, they were bouncing all around. I swear I had to pee like fifty times.”

Looking up at me he said, “How are you doing today Ashlynn?”

Through teary eyes I said, “Good, I talked to dad and he said that he loved you and would see us soon.” That made Jason smile. After kissing me again because he just couldn’t resist he took my hand in his and walked us over to the dinner table and helped me in my seat.

During dinner Jason told me all about his classes and how he did all of his homework beforehand because he just wanted to spend the night with me. Looking at him it still took my breath away. I don’t think I would ever get over the fact that we took a chance and we came out on top. We made it through all of our messes we finally made it to a place of happiness. A place of tranquility. A place filled with love.

Tilting his head Jason asked, “What are you thinking about Ash?”

Letting tears fall from my eyes I said, “Just how everything has changed. This time last year we were getting ready to leave for Vegas. I just don’t think I’ll ever get over the fact that this is what I had in store for me. What we had in store for each other and I can’t even begin to imagine where we’ll be next year. Six years from now. Twenty years from now. Jason, with you anything is possible. The word
impossible
doesn’t exist in my vocabulary when it comes to you.”

Moving his chair back Jason got up from his seat and walked over to me. Taking my hand in his he pulled me up out of my seat and we walked back to our bedroom. Closing the door behind him he turned to me and kissed me. I started to wrap my arms around his neck but he took my hands in his and lifted them up above my arms.

Placing his hands to the bottom of my shirt he pulled it up and over me. Biting his lower lip he unclasped my bra and he let it fall to the floor never taking my eyes off Jason. He then knelt down in front of me and pulled down my sweats and panties.

Looking up at me he said, “I love you so much Ashlynn.”

Standing up he walked me backwards to the edge of his bed but just before I was going to sit down I placed a hand to his chest. He was breathing really heavily and I looked up at him and smiled. I undressed him as well never taking my eyes off his. They were filled with such love and hunger and I started biting my lip.

I was about to get up from my knees but his cock was right in front of my face and mouth instantly watered. Gripping him in my left hand while my right hand massaged his balls I wet my lips and sucked the tip of him into my mouth. He put a hand in my hair to pull it away because I knew he loved watching me do this to him.

Moaning he said, “Oh god Ash.”

I took as much of him into my mouth without gagging and began to bob my head up and down. A few bobs in I knew Jason was close because he sucked in a breath and said my name. Even though I always swallowed he always said my name before my mouth was filled with his cum.

Growing in my mouth he stilled and squirted into my throat. I sucked everything he offered up to me and then wiped him clean with my tongue. Looking up at Jason I licked my lips. Before I knew it he was lifting me up onto the bed and kneeling in front of me. I could no longer lay on my back because it was too uncomfortable so I had to sit up whenever he went down on me which I did not mind at all.

He first kissed my lips and then slowly moved down to my nipples. Sucking one into his mouth while he twisted the other I got goose bumps all over. I was hypersensitive and aware of everything when Jason and I had sex while being pregnant. It just took every emotion and action to a whole new level.

I put my hands in his hair as he moved to give the other nipple the same attention. As soon as he sucked my nipple into his mouth he pushed two fingers inside me. I gasped because I was just so head over heels, completely crazy in love with Jason Williams. I felt the beginnings of an orgasm and as soon as he pushed another finger in I went overboard. I fell off the cliff but this time something felt wrong. It didn’t feel right and I automatically knew why.

Releasing my nipple from his mouth and taking the three fingers out of me Jason looked up at me. Barely whispering he asked, “Ash?” I looked at him in pure amazement and let out a laugh.

Looking at him for a minute I then smiled and said, “Jason, my water just broke.”

I had just heard the most beautiful words come from Ash’s lips. Putting her head in my hands and cradling her I asked, “Say it again Ashlynn.”

With tears in her eyes she said, “My water just broke.”

I felt tears forming in my eyes and before I knew it salty liquid was falling from my face but I could not take my eyes off Ashlynn. She lifted her fingers to my face and started wiping them away but it was not even worth it.

Kissing her on the lips, I pulled away and said, “We’re going to be parents.”

Nodding with my hands on either side of her face she said, “I know Jason.”

Laughing I screamed, “WE’RE GOING TO BE PARENTS!”