Without You
Authors: Julie Prestsater
Tags: #second chance love story, #Second Chances, #prestsater, #against the wall, #romantic comedy, #new adult
Without You
Julie Prestsater
Published by Julie Prestsater, 2014.
“
Without You
had my heart singing to every sweet tune that came from Evan's gorgeous mouth! My new book boyfriend for sure!”
-Toni Aleo
New York Times and USA Today best selling author
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"
Without You
is so sweet and fun. Evan and Madison definitely make beautiful music together and I loved every minute of this second chance love story."
-Nyrae Dawn
New adult author of The Games Series
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“
Without You
is one of those reads that makes you want to plunge into the pages and truly live with each and every character.”
-Gretchen de la O
New adult author of The Wilson Mooney Series
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opyright © 2014 by Julie Prestsater
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ll rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission except in the case of a reviewer using brief passages.
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This book is a work of fiction. Any references to historical events, real people, and real locales are used fictitiously. Other names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination, and any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
Edited by Marion Archer
Cover Design by Sommer Stein with
Perfect Pear Creative Covers
Cover Photo: © Mystock88photo | Dreamstime.com
Visit Julie on the Web at www.juliepbooks.com.
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n April 27, 2013, I sat in Slater’s 50/50 eating beer-cheese fries and drinking Bacon Marys, and talking obnoxiously loud with a group of awesome women. It was at this lunch when I first shared the prologue of
Without You
. The ladies fell in love, urging me to finish a story that had started out with an obsession of a popular song. Almost ten months later, here we are...
I’d like to dedicate this book to my Dirty Birdies: Sister, Mom, Lyndsi, Tiffany, Debbie, Kim, Olga, Marcie, & Amy. Your need to hear more than just the first three hundred words motivated me to finish Evan’s story. Thank you so much for all your love, support, and inspiration. I couldn’t have done it without each and every one of you.
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oly moly. How can I possibly thank everyone for all they’ve done to support me? The list is long and full of love, that’s for sure.
First, I’d like to thank Sommer “Best Fucking Graphic Designer Ever” Stein for the amazing cover design. She quickly became one of my favorite people to talk to on Facebook. Lord, help everyone when we finally meet. Each of us thinks we’re funnier than the other, and damn, our conversations are hilarious. Shizzle! Word!
To my stellar editor, Marion Archer. Dammit, I don’t know how she does it, but somehow she makes my work the best it can be. I trust her completely, knowing that she will ask all the right questions to make my stories complete and a thousand percent better than what I originally gave her. I love her comments, even though I have been banned from posting them on Facebook, and I always feel like she truly listens. She gets me. She completes me. Thank you, Marion! (yes, that’s an exclamation point!)
To my amazing readers! You’re the effing best! How did I get to be so lucky? I had the best time in 2013 meeting so many of you: from Glorya, Stacey, Cindy, and Sharon in Pomona to Misty, Keli, and Tracy in Portland to Marybeth to Tami in Pittsburgh to Michelle, Nora, Jan, and Cynthia in Las Vegas, and many, many more. I look forward to meeting more readers in 2014.
Bloggers and Reviewers, I love your faces! To Dawn & Abby (Up All Night Book Blog), Karleigh (Confessions of a Book Heaux), Slick & Shey (Guilty Pleasures Book Reviews), Ellie (Ellie LoveNBooks), and Sandy and the Michelles (Lovely Ladies and Naughty Books)... thank you so much for all your support. It was so great to meet and spend time with each of you this year. I know I missed so many others, but know I love you just the same. Your never ending support and the countless hours you spend promoting the books and authors you love is truly amazing. I will forever be grateful for everything you do!
Let’s not forget the awesome group of authors that have been a huge support system and sounding board for me. Thank you, Catherine Bybee and Raine Miller, for being my writing fairy Godmothers. One of these days I’ll be able to make a decision without asking for your wise input. Nyrae Dawn, I could gush all day about how much your friendship means to me. It’s such a good feeling to know that you’re always in my corner and we are there for each other to toss ideas around or ask questions or go wine tasting. Thank you, my friend. M.R. Joseph, my Philly sister. I love you so much I have totally ignored your poor taste in football teams. You’re the sweetest person in the world and I’m glad our love for each other’s books has brought us together as friends.
Gretchen de la O, Toni Aleo, Renèe Carlino, Hadley Quinn, Emmy Montes, Rebecca Shea, and A.L. Jackson... ladies, we have created something special and I can’t wait to see where this takes us. I just know that several books from now your names will still be on this page with me thanking you for everything we have accomplished together. To Authors Off The Shelf, cheers! Love you all so much I could squeeze the crap out of you.
To my family and friends, thank you a million times. Words will never be enough to tell you how much I appreciate you and everything you do for me. Thank you to my mom, my sister, Lyndsi, Debbie, Tiffany, Olga, Amy, Stacia, Cousin Kim, and Darlene for going to Vegas or jumping on planes and traveling with me, carrying my shit, picking up receipts, and setting up my tables. I seriously could not do it without you. Just thinking about doing it alone makes me twitch. To my kids, thank you for always supporting me and telling your friends to read your crazy mama’s books. It’s not weird at all! To James, I love you! Thank you for taking care of me so I can work and continue to do something I love. My world would fall apart without you. Get it,
without you
. LOL! I crack myself up. But seriously, I love you so much! Thank you!
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VAN
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had no idea what made me stop at the piano bar. I was driving down Sunset and spotted the billboard. My manager said I would know when I was ready to perform again. Maybe he was right. It had been months since I’d sung live in front of an audience. I just hadn’t been feeling it. I barely made it through the last tour. The music didn’t sound the same. Singing sure didn’t feel the same. The overwhelming response from my fans didn’t give me the same rush it once did.
Not without her.
I had been in town for two weeks. With every passing minute, hour, day, I wanted nothing more than to call her. To stop by her house and just knock on the door. But I didn’t. I didn’t know what stopped me. Maybe it was the memory of the pain in her voice, screaming at me to leave her alone and never come back. There were times when the sound of her sniffling cry had still wakened me from my sleep.
I deserved the sleepless nights. The ringing in my ears reminding me that I fucked up.
If I could have done it all over again, there were so many things I would have changed. So many things I would have done.
For her.
But it was too late.
The piano bar’s call had been far too loud. Not only did I stop, but I found myself on stage once again. The time had come. I was ready. Apparently.
As I finished pouring out my wounded heart into the microphone, finished tapping the keys of the piano for one last note, the crowd was silent.
Except for the screeching of a chair, the clinking of a tipped-over glass, and the familiar sob of a woman.
I peered out into the sea of darkness to find the most beautiful eyes I had ever seen staring right back at me. Somber and angry; the fiery light, seemingly long gone.
It was her.
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ADISON
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y mouth dropped as I watched the next performer saunter onto the stage like it was made for him. I would have had to pinch myself to confirm I wasn’t dreaming if it weren’t for his trademark wink and the tip of his fedora at the audience as he took a seat on the black bench in front of the piano.
“Good evening,” his deep and smooth voice purred into the microphone. “Thank you for letting me drop into the rotation.”
Whispered chatter could be heard throughout the bar as people realized who was about to perform.
“I’m going to play a song I’ve been writing for the last few years.” He paused, peering down and softly tracing his fingertips over the ivory keys of the piano. “Being back in town has inspired me to finish it.”
I was completely still, my eyes trained on him like they had been so many times before. I inhaled a long breath as he played the first chords of his song. I finally exhaled as he began to sing.
I hung on his every word and it didn’t take long for me to realize that he was singing about me. The lyrics were perfection. He sang about how he had taken me for granted. How he blew the little things, thought I’d always be there.
But now, I’m without you.
He sang about how he wished he could do it all over again and this time make it right. He apologized. Said he wanted to dance with me on our wedding night. He sang of daisies, fresh air, and sunshine.
Remind me that I’m... Without you.
The sweet cadence of his crooning tone called out to me and settled deep in me belly. The honest words poured from his heart and I couldn’t help but allow one lone tear crawl down my cheek as the song came to an end.
He cleared his throat and looked out into the audience just as I rose to my feet in a frenzy tipping over a glass in the process and drawing unwanted attention my way. I glanced up at the stage and his gaze met mine before I could look away.
It seemed like a lifetime of memories past through us as our gazes held one another.
“Why? Why would you do this?” I cried out to my best friend, after summoning the strength from deep within to tear myself away from his gaze. My lifetime friend began to fumble her words like a tongue-tied child getting caught in a lie. I didn’t want to hear it anyway. The touch of Michael’s hand on my waist startled me and it was only then that I remembered my boyfriend was there beside me, witnessing my avalanche of emotions. It was no wonder why the look in his eyes was that of pure confusion.
“Just sit back down, honey,” he said. “I’ll get someone to clean up the mess.”
Good luck with that.
“She didn’t do it on purpose.” He gestured to my best friend. Is that what he thought? That I was angry over a spilled glass of Chardonnay? Besides, my friend wasn’t the one who tipped the glass. I did. When I saw
him
. When I
heard
him.
“I’m sorry, Michael.” Pulling my sweater from the back of my chair and my clutch from the table, I stole a glance at him before saying. “I have to go. Take me home.”
“Don’t go,” Genna said, reaching out to grab my hand. “Or if you have to, let me come with you.”
“Are you crazy? After what you pulled tonight, you’ll be lucky if I ever speak to you again.” She had to have known he was going to be there. There was no way it was a fluke, right?
I turned on my heels and didn’t look back as I weaved throughout the circular tables to get as far away from that stage as possible.
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o I’m guessing that wasn’t about a spilled drink? Mind telling me what happened to make you want to leave?” Michael asked, after we started down the freeway.
“That was my ex-boyfriend back there.”
“Back where?” He glanced quickly from side to side as if he might still catch sight of him.
“At the bar,” I responded, suddenly annoyed.
“Where?”