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Falls, I manage to say loud enough for him to hear me. and he turns to me.

No Rain, stay where you are. I have called for backup. To Tyler he says, right here in front of the hospital, you dumb fuck she was released what 20 fucking mins ago. Didn’t have time to get away this time did you.

No, Falls, I yell again, well I try. He brings Tyler over with him and sits him on the ground beside me. I don’t give Falls a change to say anything else.

Falls, you have to let him go. He didn’t do anything. I fell, he tripped over me and he was just getting up when you walked up. I swear that’s what happen. You have to let him go, he didn’t do anything. I know that falls knows im lying. I can see it in his eyes that he is going to try and fight me on this. I have to get Falls to let Tyler go.

Falls, please listen to me, he wasn’t doing anything wrong.. I don’t get to finish before Falls is talking over me

He wasn’t doing anything huh, so I guess he foot just happen to connect to your ribs 4 times before he went down or was it when he was getting up. Fill me the fuck in Rainy because I have three witness that say your lying your ass off right the fuck now.

Im not pressing charges, uncuff him so he can get me home Falls.

Rain you don’t have to press charges. It happen on a public street and there are witness. Tyler is going down for this.

I look at Tyler. This isn’t looking good for me or for Genesis. Who knows what his goons are doing to her right now.

SONVABITCH, I yell, then I grab my ribs. Shit I bet they are cracked again. Falls phone rings, he pulls his phone out of his pocket and  looks at the caller id then looks to me anwering his phone with his eyes still on me, Falls he says. I know it can only be my brother. Storm must be telling him that they cant find Genesis. If Falls would let Tyler go then she would be home and safe. But he wants to sit here and fuss with me about letting Tyler go. Whatever Storm says has Falls on his feet.

Slowly I stand, my arm around my ribs. I look at Tyler and he mouths the words “fixs this shit”.  Im trying, I say. Not worried about anyone hearing me.  Falls is walking back toward us, he had started pacing about the time he stood up. Making his way back to us. He is not wearing a happy face. Falls stands behind Tyler and puts his knee in his back. Tyler trys to hide the pain, but not fast enough because I see it before he replaces the pain with anger. Anger that he means for me.

Why did I notice all the evil in his eyes when we were younger. Why didn’t I listen to everyone in my family when they said to walk away from him. Since I met Tyler my mom has said, if you stay with him for all time Rain, he will be the death of you. I never listen to her. She never allowed him in the house. Even after we were married he wasn’t allowed in the house. Not for anything. I remember when I went into labor with the twins. I was so scared. I was at moms house Tyler was at work. The doctor had said I shouldn’t be alone because I could go at any moment. At the time I had no idea that I was in labor. My water hadn’t broken. I just had really bad pains when I stood up from the sofa hoping that it would relive some of the pain I looked down at the sofa and where I was sitting was all blood. I had no idea wat was going on. I was 16 almost 17 years old I had never had a kid before. I just started yelling for mom, and she came running. I kept telling her to cll Tyler, mom please call Tyler. All she would say is lets get you to the car baby. We can call him from the car. At that time in my life all I wanted was Tyler.

It was after the boys were born that Tyler started changing. He would say things like the boys didn’t like him then it changed to they didn’t look like him. Than on April 22,1999, our son Jeremiah Dean Childs died in his sleep. The doctors said it was sids. There was no cause, no reason as to why my baby was taken. They said no one was to blame, but I blamed myself anyway, and Tyler felt the same way. He said I wasn’t a good mother and that our son was dead because I couldn’t take care of him. The day I buried my son is the first time Tyler ever laid hands on me. at the time I didn’t say anything, I felt like I deserved it. I believed myself and Tyler when he said I killed Jeremiah. I also knew that day, that what my mother said about me staying with Tyler and him killing me was the truth. I still believe it to this day, the only difference between then and now is that I now know I didn’t kill my baby and I couldn’t have stopped it. I wanted him to kill me back then, sometimes now I wish he would just so it would all stop.

Coming back to the present I see Falls uncuffing Tyler and hear Falls tell Tyler that he is one lucky motherfucker, and that if he thinks that he is finished with him or thinks that he is walking away then he is sadly mistaken. Falls turns Tyler around, gets two inches from his face and says, “I’m coming for you, Childs, and I won’t stop until I have you. Every time you are out know that I am watching you. I know your every move. Think of me as an STD that you can’t get rid of. When you feel someone watching you, just know you aren’t losing your mind. It’s me, just waiting for you to fuck up.”

Tyler’s face changes again. He had this shit-eating grin on his face but with each word that comes from Falls the anger fills Tyler’s face. Falls decides that he isn’t done. He hasn’t poked the snake enough right. The snake that is going to the same place as me. All Falls wants is for Tyler to hit him.

“Oh, look at the big boy getting mad,” Falls says. Tyler’s hands are now fists. My fear is that he will throw a punch at Falls, after that I can’t help. Falls takes his fingers and moves Tyler’s hair from over his eye.

“I can’t wait to lock your pretty ass up. I want you to feel what it’s like to be beaten, I want you to know what it’s like to be raped, to have something taken from you that you don’t want to give. I’ll be hand picking a few guys that are looking forward to some fresh meat. I’ll hear all about it.”

Then falls kisses Tyler right on the mouth and gives him the biggest grin I have ever seen. Tyler is spitting on the ground and wiping his mouth. Falls makes his way to me. My first question to him is very weird and maybe I shouldn’t have asked but at that point my word filter was gone.

“Dude, are you like gay? I mean if you are, that is really fine with me.”

I keep talking, not really making any sense, he is laughing at me. So I look up at him.

“Rain, I’m not gay, Tyler isn’t gay. But look at his face right now. He wants to deck me so bad. He knows I’m not backing off and that I will get him. And it is pissing him off that he can’t do anything about it.”

“Falls, his friends have Genesis, we have to find her. Tyler isn’t going to let me go anywhere. Hell, the way my day has gone I will end up right back here before the night is over.”

I realize what I just said and try to cover my tracks. Laugh it off. But Falls doesn’t buy it.

“I know what is going on Rain. That was your brother, he and the boys are out looking for here. I told them to head home and I’ll release Tyler. That’s the only way any of us know to get her back. But Rain know, I wasn’t lying when I said he has eyes on him. You have eyes on you, too. We are all watching. Don’t worry, baby girl. We will get Gen back and when we do we will be coming for you. So don’t get comfortable.”

Falls cups my face in his hands, then walks to his car.

I watch Falls walk away. I have this feeling that things are about to get a lot worse for me. Tyler has just seen Liam touch me and kiss my forehead then Falls touches me. I didn’t mind because I know that Falls knows my heart is with Liam but Tyler will see it as men putting their hands on me and I belong to him.

Tyler grabs my arm and starts dragging me down the sidewalk toward our apartment.

“Bring your fucking ass on, Rain. What’s with these cocksuckers putting their fucking hands on you? Shit, you aren’t anything special.”

Tyler stops suddenly and pulls me around to face him. He looks pissed and he is squeezing my arms so tight that I know I will have his hand prints when he lets me go. If he lets me go.

“Did you fuck them, Rain? Is that why they think they can be touching all over you? They think they can touch what’s mine, so you must have gave it up to them for them to think that.”

I’m shaking my head No, but he doesn’t listen. He doesn’t want to hear what I have to say. He doesn’t want an answer. This, whatever he has planned, is just to get back at me for whatever he thinks I have done wrong. He just keeps talking, so I shut my mouth look him in his eyes and listen. It’s all I can do.

“So did you fuck them, Rain? Did you let them inside your tight body? In my body? Is that their smell on you?”

One of Tyler’s hands moved down my body slowly while he was talking. His hand has reached my pants. He slides his hand inside my jeans, rubs my clit, and then thrusts three fingers inside me. It hurts. It always hurts. Tyler doesn’t get me ready anymore, he just forces himself inside me. I want to cry out but we are standing on the street. I squeeze my eyes shut and bite my lip. I bite my lip so hard that I break the skin. When the taste of blood hits my tongue, I suck my lip inside my mouth. I feel his breath on my face, I can smell the alcohol, I can smell a perfume that isn’t mine. I’m trying to not focus on the pain. If I can’t feel the pain, the pain can’t hurt, right? Maybe I’m just cracked in the head, one too many kicks to the face or something.

He is rubbing his cheek on my cheek, to the world he is just a husband happy to have his wife in his arms. He is good at acting. “You want to act and be treated like a whore, Rain? I can help you with that. Let’s make sure you’re doing it the right way.”

Tyler steps away from me, turns me so that I am walking again. I get a bad feeling when he pulls his phone out. But with the calls he makes and from what I hear from his side, I know that shit is about to get bad. The last call he makes has my skin crawling and I know tonight will not end well for me. The last call he makes is to a guy name Reggie. I have always hated Reggie and I think he gets off on the fact that I hate him so much. So I begin to truly panic when I hear Tyler say, “I know you have wanted your chance at her for a long while, now you have your chance. You just make sure you keep that tiny dick hard. We all remember what happen last time you tried fucking in a group.”

Tyler has just arranged a fucking gang bang with me and his friends. I tune back in to what Tyler is saying. I want to know as much as I can before tonight.

“Don’t worry, fucker, I’ll have her ready. I don’t think she will put up much of a fight once I’m done with her. Don’t worry so much. Once you get there the party will begin. We have all night with this bitch.”

He doesn’t say bye, just hangs up. He puts his arm back around my shoulder and says, “You know, Rain, I never knew you would be into this. You really should have told me you like more than one guy at a time. If I had known, I never would have had to work. Now, I’m thinking I could retire early. A lot of the guys want a shot at you.”

“Tyler, what about Genesis? I’ll do whatever you want, just call and tell them to let her go, please. I won’t fight. I’ll do anything. Please, Tyler, just let her go.”

He pulls his phone back out and dials.  This is what I hear,

“Yeah, it’s me. Let the little bitch go.”

“Oh, really, was she any good?”

“Well, I didn’t tell you to do that. I told you to hold her. She was mine. Now it’s best if you leave town. I’m gonna sell you out to save my own ass, you dumb fuck. You took what was mine to take, maybe next time you will listen. Her uncle and brothers will be looking for you soon.”

Oh my God, Genesis. I feel like I’m going to be sick. This is all my fault. What have they done to my baby? I stop in my tracks, look toward Tyler. Tears are coming down my face and I can’t control them. He has a shit-eating grin on his stupid face.

“What did he do to her, Tyler?”

“You don’t worry about what happen to the little whore in training. You don’t have time to worry about her. What you are to worry about is getting your ass home, getting it cleaned up, and getting ready for your fucking coming out party. Now move your fucking ass.”

I walk into the apartment and wish I was still in the hospital. It is a fucking mess. There are beer bottles, used condoms, dirty clothes, food, and food wrappers everywhere. Tyler walked me to the apartment then got in his truck and left. He told me he would be back in an hour and the apartment better be ready for tonight.

So I have an hour to get this shit clean. I find me a play list, I always clean better when I have music. I can clean and clear my head. I know what is coming. Tyler told me in detail what was going to happen. I could leave right now. He isn’t around and he left me alone, but if I left would he go after Gen again? Would she be safe? It’s not a risk I can take.

Riders on the storm by the doors comes on. I love the beat to this song. I want to get lost in the music but I have work to do. I don’t want to do anything to make tonight any worse.

I’m finishing the kitchen when the home phone rings. No one ever calls other than Tyler. I run to the phone, turning the music down on the way.

“Hello,” I say. For a minute there is only silence. Then I hear the smallest voice. It’s so quiet I have to cover my ear to hear.

“Mom, please leave. Dad is a bad man. His friends are meaner. Please, Mom, I’m sorry I have been so mean to you. You were right about dad. I’m so sorry. Please come home to me, Mom.”

My daughter’s tears destroy me. “Genesis, baby, I’m going to make sure that he never hurts you again. Are you ok, baby? What did those monsters do to you?”