Divided (16 page)

Ryan pulled out of me and I quickly turned around and got on all fours. His hand rubbed each one of my cheeks. “Your ass is so perfect.” He said grabbing handfuls. “And the way it looked in that dress tonight. I was fucking hard all night.”

He took his hand and slowly dragged it down my backside. He inserted his index and middle finger inside my soaking vagina as his thumb put pressure on my other,
forbidden
opening. I felt myself tighten around his finger, aftershocks of my vaginal and clitoral orgasm.

He knelt right behind me I locked my eyes with his through the mirror above the dresser. “You’re dripping.” He said as he pulled his fingers out of me and brought them to his mouth. “And you taste like heaven.”

His words made me even wetter if that was even possible. Ryan put the head of his erection against my opening and pushed deep and hard right into my core. I cried out with pleasure as he grabbed the side of my hips. Holding me in place he drove himself deeper into me.

I screamed out his name multiple times. The pleasure becoming too much to bear. “Oh Ryan, fuck me.” What started out, as a romantic sexual encounter had turned animalistic.

Driving into me one last time I felt him pour his semen into me, his body shaking on top of mine, before he crashed over me, kissing my shoulders.

“I’m sorry.” He said completely out of breath.

“For what?” I panted. “That was mind-blowing fucking amaze balls.”

He chuckled as he continued to place soft kisses along my back. “I didn’t ask you if I could finish inside of you.”

“There’s no need to be sorry, I’m on the pill and we’re both clean.”

He pulled out of me and I crashed into the mattress, my legs numb.

“Don’t move, Bug.” He said before he quickly ran into the bathroom. When he came back he had a warm wet washcloth and a dry one. I reached up to grab it from him but he pulled away.

“Turn around, I’ll do it.” Obediently I turned around, lying on my back. When he was finished, he tossed the two towels towards the bathroom. He lied down on the bed and pulled me to his chest, wrapping his arms around me. We lay that way for over an hour before I moved. The way I felt about him was knocking at my chest. I took a deep breath letting my heart consume the feelings that were rapidly growing for him.
 

Chapter 10
Stay

L
aying my head on top of Ryan’s chest, I rubbed my hand over his heart. I knew that the wall that I had created to block everyone out was crumbling. I had allowed Ryan into my heart the way I never let anyone in before. He was becoming a part of me. At first it was hard for me to admit it but now I could see it crystal clear.

When I first met him, the look in his eyes, was as if I was looking deep into his soul and recognizing who I was on the other side. He was my mirror. This feeling was different than anything I had with Marco. Marco and I were comfortable with each other; We clicked. It wasn’t that I hadn't loved Marco, I had. I’d loved him deeply but what I was sharing with Ryan was a different feeling. It was altruistic, it came natural.

“What are you thinking about?” He said rubbing my shoulder and taking me out of my deep thought. 

“Hmmm. I was just thinking about you holding me like this is the best part of my trip.”

“Just the holding part?” He joked with me. I could feel his laugh from deep within his chest.

“No, the past two hours have been amazing.” I looked up at him and saw fear and pain. “What’s wrong? What are you thinking about?”

He let out a long sigh. “I was thinking about when I fell into the frozen lake.”

I didn’t understand so I just continued to look at him waiting for him to explain. “It was my freshman year of college and Mike had dared me to walk on the lake. We both knew that it wasn't completely frozen but I wasn’t one to back out of a dare. Anyway I walked about ten feet out when the ice underneath me gave out and I fell straight in, at first it was the worst pain that I had ever felt. It felt like millions of needles stabbing me all at once. But once that pain was over, I felt numb drowning in that water.”

He slowly moved me from his chest and rose so we were both sitting on the bed facing each other. I had no clue where he was going with this. His voice wasn’t bubbly or free; there was sadness in it. “I didn’t know it until that night when I met you. But I‘ve been living my life numb to everything ever since Trent passed away. I was just carrying on with life, not really living. It was like a piece of me died in that car accident along with Trent. I focused on hockey because that took out my frustration and I renovated my house to give me something to do. I started coaching to feel wanted. I went day by day functioning but something was still missing and all of that changed when I met you. What I felt that night brought back something inside of me. It was as if this whole time I had been drowning in that ice water and you saved me. You gave me a reason to breathe. A reason to feel” I didn’t realize there were tears in my eyes until I blinked. “What I’m really trying to say is stay. Stay with me. Don't leave me. I want to be with you, forever.”

“You want me to stay?” I asked, shocked.

“Yes. Don't go home tomorrow, just stay here. Well not here, at my place. I know it may not make sense, but I need you and I don't want to lose you.”

I didn't have enough time to process the words as they came out of my mouth. “Ok.”

“Yeah?” He sounded surprised.

“Yeah.” I agreed. “Just let me go home and get my stuff in order and I’ll come back. I'll come back to you.” I didn’t think of the mess I had left behind all that mattered at that specific moment was the love I had for Ryan.

Kneeling next to me on the bed, his lips covered mine as his hands reached for me, pulling me in closer. Tugging on his soft hair I deepened our kiss before pushing him back and crawling on top of him with my legs on either side of his waist. He rolled over in one swift motion, laying me back on my back, his body now covering mine. He pulled away from my lips and looked deep into my eyes.

“I promise I’ll try every day to make you smile.”  He said, letting me know by the look in his eyes that I was making the right decision.

I leaned up and brought my lips to his once again, kissing him vigorously. He was my undoing. Being underneath him was my serenity. His hands slowly reached down and grabbed my breasts.

Reality set in and hit me like a ton of bricks. We were made for one another. Our bodies perfectly united as one, every part of my body fit his, and his hands fit perfectly around my breast, his lips molded perfectly to my nipples. Our bodies were synced as one.  He slowly lapped at the tip of my nipples with his tongue. I began to arch my back as the purest of pleasure began shooting down into my core. Again.

“Please.” I begged in between breaths. He pulled away bringing himself up so his mouth met my neck.
His favorite spot.

“Say it again. Beg for it.” He commanded with each soft kiss. Ryan moved down my neck, towards my collarbone. The sweet tingly sensation caused by his lips made my toes curled.

“Please.” I breathed out as his hand continued tantalizing my nipple. He made his way to my breast and looked up at me before he licked my pebbled nipple ever so slowly. My eyes rolled back into my head and he continued to lick one while softly pinching the other. The need for release was building but I didn’t know how much longer I could handle him teasing me. He switched his attention to the other side. The teasing no longer sweet but carnal. He was devouring each breast as if they were his favorite treat.

“Please. Baby please, I can't take it anymore.”  I begged, needing his help with the ache between my legs.

He rose from my breast slowly placing feather soft kisses along my abdomen. When he spread my legs my heart stopped. I gripped the sheets as I anticipated his dive into my core. Holding my breath I waited for his tongue to meet my clit. I felt my heart throbbing in my chest. When I finally felt his tongue on my most sensitive part, moans erupted from my throat as he began low in my opening, licking his way up to my swollen bead.

“I love how wet you are for me.” He whispered as he took his thumb and rubbed it up and down on my clit. “Will you come for me, Alani?”

“Uh-huh.” I could barely mange to think let alone speak. The only thing I could think about or focus on was the most desirable man currently sitting in between my legs, savoring me.

“I want you to watch. I want your eyes locked on mine when you come.” He commanded.

Lifting myself up on my elbows I watch as he lowered his tongue to my center and began to lick. The whole time, his eyes never left mine. His eyes bore straight into my heart as he placed one finger gently inside of me and slid it and out. He added a second finger and gradually sucked on my clit before pulling both fingers out and sucking on each one of them, forcing me to watch as he takes his time licking the moisture off his fingers. Ryan lowered back down only to repeat the process over and over again.  He licked my clit until I began to pulse; he inserted both fingers but would then remove them before I could come.

“Ryan, please, let me come. I need to come.” I pleaded, my voice raspy.

With a devilish grin he put both fingers deep in me, pumping while he sucked on my clit once again. I could no longer hold my release and I fell back as my body was rocked into a climax. Ryan didn’t stop there; I saw stars before I finally came back to reality. My body now in a tranquil state, I could barely feel my limbs Sleep. It was what my body needed.

I felt Ryan slide in behind me and pull the covers over us. He kissed the back of my head before inhaling deep at the junction between my neck and shoulder.

“You are so beautiful. I’m so lucky to have you in my arms.” It was the last thing I heard before sleep took over.

I woke up, late into the night, still in Ryan’s arm. The past couple of hours replayed in my mind. I couldn’t believe I was staying. We hadn't discussed much of it but I knew I didn’t want to leave him, not yet. I wanted to see where this would go. I would take it one day at a time, doing this for me. He could never know how I truly felt about him. I would climb mountains for him, but he couldn’t know that. Not until I knew how he felt about me first. I was just not ready to put myself in the predicament, to only end up hurt.

I pulled away from him and got up to use the restroom. When I returned he was lying on his back wide-awake.

“Hi, did I wake you?” I asked quietly.

“No, I thought you were leaving, figured it was to good too be true.” He said, concern evident in his voice.

I crawled into bed like a lion hunting its prey. “I'm not leaving you. I’m here as long as you want me to be.” I said as I slid the comforter down to reveal his rising erection. I pulled my hair into a ponytail and took his hand and made him hold it. “Show me how you like it.” I said as I took him into my mouth. Licking the tip of his head I bobbed my head up and down, each time taking him deeper and deeper.

I could feel that he was close by the throbbing vein on top of my tongue. I cupped his balls and continued to suck his length. “Alani, I'm going to come.” He moaned grabbing tight onto my hair but I didn’t stop, pushing him deeper in my throat. I tightened my lips around him when he began to pour into my mouth. I swallowed every drop he had to offer. His warm rich release filling my mouth.

When I came up for air, I licked the corners of my mouth and smiled at him before climbing back into bed. Ryan kissed me as we situated ourselves.

“You are going to drive me insane.”

I giggled. “Yeah you can say that again.”

“Goodnight, Bug.” He placed one more kiss on my neck.      

      “Night.”

 … 

I woke up around nine in the morning. Ryan was still holding me tight like he didn’t want to let go. I was so comfortable being wrapped in his arms that I didn’t want to move but I knew that I needed to go face the real world. Mostly I knew I had to face three people who weren’t going to be very happy with my news -- Katie, Caitlyn and Melanie.

Speaking of the devils, my phone vibrated on the nightstand. I was going to reach for it when Ryan hugged me tighter. “Don’t.” He said, arms still holding me against his chest. This was the way I wanted to wake up every morning.

“I have to get up eventually, you know.” I said to him.

“No. If you get up it means we will have to get ready and then you are going to leave.” He pulled me even closer

I rolled over to face him and kept my head tucked right under his chin. “I told you, I’ll come back.”

“Promise?” He asked, placing his lips on my forehead.

“I promise.” He kissed my forehead before I rolled back over and grabbed my phone; I had a missed text from Katie.

Katie: Yay!!!! You’re coming home today!! I’ll see you at the airport.

Me: :) I’ll see you soon.

 
      Ryan got up while I began to pack. He went down stairs to grab us breakfast. I hopped in the shower after all my stuff was put away and felt a cool draft pass when the shower door opened, Ryan standing behind me. His hands came up and began massaging my scalp.  “Here let me.”

I turned and faced him, keeping my eyes closed as he washed the remaining suds out of my hair. After he was done I grabbed the washcloth and lathered his amazing body, making sure not to miss a single muscle. Starting at his chest I washed his shoulders and then each arm. I paid a little more attention to his biceps and triceps.  He turned around so his back was facing me, his shoulders wide from years of hockey. As I made my way down, I reached in front of him and took his erection in my hand.

No words were spoken, Ryan quickly turned around, lifting me up and pinning me against the wall. The tile cold against my warm skin. He held me up as I slid right down onto him. My legs wrapped around him instinctively. I was still sore from the night before but I loved how his thickness filled me, stretched every aching fiber of my insides. His teeth met my neck as each thrust poured pleasure into me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and my nails dug into him as my need for release began to build. He placed one hand under me to hold me up as his other hand formed small circles on my clit. Each wave of desire tantalizing and harmonizing. I was
so
close. I felt myself tightening around him with each thrust.