Deeper (12 page)

“Kris,
I’m close,” she moaned, gently tugging at my hair.

“Come
for me Jess, let me taste you,” I murmured against her sensitive flesh.

My
words were her undoing and she came hard against my tongue, her body shaking
vigorously.

“God
that was amazing,” she breathed as I kissed her stomach and I leaned up on my
knees. I took my painfully hard dick into my hand again and stroked it as she
raised her head to watch me. Her chest was heaving as she watched me, a hungry
look in her eyes.

“Yeah?
Well it’s about to feel even fucking better baby,” I answered, wiping a bead of
moisture that was seeping out of the tip of my cock. I’d dreamed of so many
ways to make my girl crazy with need but right now I wasn’t going to tease her.
We’d been apart for three months and the only thing I wanted right now was to
be buried deep inside her and get lost.

“Hurry,
please,” she begged. I moved her knees up, opening her up more. I almost
started salivating when my eyes landed on her drenched folds. Seeing her
dripping for me from already being worked over by me was making it hard not to
come right then, but I wasn’t going to disappoint my girl tonight. Not after
we’d been apart for so long.

I
rubbed my cock on her swollen clit a few times before finding her opening and
slowly easing myself in. I inhaled sharply as I felt her damp walls clinging to
me as I slid into her tight pussy…
fuck
she felt incredible.

Jessie
screamed out in pleasure as I pushed her knees up and drove into her over and
over. Nothing had ever felt better to me in that moment as I was buried inside
her. Making love with Jessie was always earth-shattering, but being away from
her for months made this time with her so much better.

I
could feel her inner walls clenching and pulling me in deeper and I knew she
was close to another orgasm. She was digging her nails into my arms and that
spurred me on. I could feel a strong tingle at the base of my spine as I felt
my release building within me. She felt so fucking incredible that I could feel
tingling down my legs all the way to my toes. I was about to explode and I
needed to make her come soon before I lost control. I wasn’t about to leave her
hanging.

There
was something I’d always wanted to see her do and there was no time like the
present, I just hoped she’d go for it. I took one of her hands and lifted it to
my mouth and sucked her first two fingers inside. Her eyes flicked open and she
gasped as I rolled my tongue around them.

“W-what
are you doing?”

“Trust
me?” I asked through gritted teeth. She nodded and I moved her fingers down to
her clit. Her eyes went wide and her cheeks instantly turned red as I pressed
her fingers into her clit and swirled them around.

“Oh
my fucking god,” I groaned as I watched her pleasuring herself. I could tell
she was shocked and a little shy, but I could also tell that this made her feel
good and watching her was making it damn near impossible to keep from blowing
inside her way too soon.

“Feels
good, doesn’t it baby?”

“Y-yes,”
she whispered breathlessly.

“I
love watching you touch yourself, Jess. I want you to make yourself come.”

She
barely opened her heavy-lidded eyes and looked at me with uncertainty. “I…I
don’t know.”

“I
can feel that you’re close. Come on, let’s finish together,” I replied,
thrusting into her harder. Her eyes rolled back and she bit her lip as she
continued to roll her fingers over her tiny clit and worked herself into a
frenzy.

“Oh
God I’m coming,” she cried out as I moved my hand down and made her hand move
faster.

“Fuck
Jess,” I growled just as I felt her release start to roll down and over my
cock. I threw my head back and moaned loudly as my orgasm finally hit me and I
came hard inside her. As soon as I was drained, I collapsed on top of her,
completely sated.

“Oh
my God, that was incredible,” she stated, trailing her fingers up and down my
spine.

“That
was fucking hot, Jess. I’ve always wanted to watch you touch yourself like that
and it was the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen.”

“Really?
I have to be honest with you. I will always do what I can to make you happy,
but that was a little embarrassing.”

I
raised my head to look at her and smiled at her expression. Even in the dark I
could see she was still blushing.

“Jess,
you don’t have anything to be embarrassed about. You don’t have to do it again
if you don’t want to but if I’m being honest, watching you making yourself come
while I was inside you was literally the fucking sexiest you’ve ever looked to
me.” Even though I could tell she was trying to fight it, the corner of her
mouth turned up into a smile.

“You’re
a bad influence on me, you know that?” she teased, reaching her hand up and
ruffling my already messy hair.

“I’ll
gladly influence you like that anytime,” I replied, leaning in and kissing her
lips.

“So,
do you think Jude will mind that we had sex in his bed at the new place before
he could?” she asked.

I
chuckled and rolled onto my back so I wouldn’t crush her and tucked her into my
side.

“Nah,
this is Jude. If it were him he’d have done the same thing.”

“True,”
she answered, giggling. “So, are you really ready for us to be roomies?”

“Abso-fucking-lutely,
baby,” I answered as I kissed her forehead. “I can’t stand spending another
night without you. Don’t get me wrong; the tour was amazing and playing for all
those people was a total rush but nothing compares to the rush I get from being
with you.”

Jessie
let out a breathy sigh and I could feel her smile against my chest.

“I’ve
missed you so damn much,” she said sleepily.

“Believe
me, I’ve missed you more. No matter what happens from here on out because if I
have to leave you behind again I’m fucking walking.”

She
raised her sleepy head and looked at me with concern.

“W-what?
Why would you say that?”

“Because
I love you and you’re more important than anything else in my life.”

“You’d
actually quit the band that you helped build if someone tells you I can’t be by
your side?” she asked worriedly. She sounded like she was on the verge of a
panic attack and I smiled as I kissed her forehead.

“Calm
down, I didn’t mean it like that. I wouldn’t just walk away from them, they are
my brothers. I’m just saying that if there was a time that we had a chance at
something huge but it meant leaving you again, I’d say no in a minute.”

“Kris,
I can’t let you do that,” she said, her eyes wide with worry.

I
kissed her lips quickly and said, “Calm down Jess, we’ve not even been back a
day. Nothing’s going to happen. Come on, let’s go find my room so we can get
some sleep. You look like you’re about to crash.”

“Okay,”
she mumbled and half-smiled at me. I reluctantly got out of bed and Jessie
followed. We picked up our clothes along the way and walked out into the open
living room. Just as we found my room and were climbing into bed, I was
suddenly hit with a realization; I hadn’t used protection. I was so desperate
to be with her again that I didn’t stop to use a condom.

I
looked at Jessie and watched her sleepily climbing into my bed. She seemed
blissfully unaware that it had happened so I decided not to worry her with it
tonight. However, it was definitely something we’d have to talk about in the
morning because even though we’d talked about this before, I knew if she ended
up being pregnant I had absolutely no idea what to do about it.

The
next morning when we both got out of bed (I hadn’t slept for shit thinking
about us possibly having a kid) I immediately talked to Jessie about me forgetting
to use protection. She shrugged it off and told me not to worry because since
we’d left for our tour she’d gone to a clinic and had started taking birth
control. She said that after spending all that time apart that she knew we’d
not be able to keep our hands off each other so she decided to have a backup
plan just in case this happened. I had to hand it to her; my girl thought of
everything.

After
I breathed the hugest sigh of relief, I was able to relax and enjoy my time
with Jessie and was looking forward to having her living with me and the guys. She’d
only stayed a few nights at the apartment because she wanted to ease into
letting Crystal know she was moving out. She definitely wasn’t going to miss
the bitch, but she was afraid that she would try to destroy her things or find
her money stash before she could get out.

We’d
been home for only a week and things were starting to settle down into a normal
rhythm when we got the phone call that would change everything. Sticks and
Stones’ manager Steve Roberts had taken an interest in us while we were touring
with them and not only wanted to represent us, but had sent recordings of our
live shows to a major label scout from Bulldoze Records and they were seriously
interested in signing us. They wanted us to fly out to New York City for a
meeting with Stanley and Rick Isaacs, the two brothers that owned the label. To
say we were excited was a huge fucking understatement because if all went well
and we were signed, we’d be booked for more live shows, studio time, and get a
pretty big signing bonus. Everything the guys and I had been working for had
come true and things were finally going our way.

The
only problem we’d had with our good news was that Steve wasn’t going to let me
bring Jessie along. He said personally he had no problem with it, but didn’t
know if the label would go for it. I told him that I didn’t care what the label
said and that there was no way in hell I was leaving her behind again. This
summer away from her had been agony and there was no way I’d make it another
day or, if things went well, much longer if Jessie wasn’t by my side. There had
been some hesitation with Ryder, Beau, and Jude but I also knew that they
didn’t want to leave her here with Crystal any more than I did. I thought everything
was all set, but what I hadn’t been expecting was for my whole world to come
crashing down just as it was finally looking up.

Jessie
and I had spent our last night in our new apartment (at least for a while) in
the best way; with her writhing in ecstasy underneath me. The sex was
incredible like it always was, but something about it felt off to me and I
couldn’t figure it out. She was quieter than normal and it seemed almost as if
she was savoring it…like it was the last time we’d make love. I tried to shake
it off and chocked it up to nerves since she was about to come with us to New
York City and she’d never been outside of Ohio before. Steve had booked a
flight for us that was leaving in two hours so the guys and I were in our rooms
packing. Jessie was sitting on my bed as I was tossing things into my bad left
and right with a very calm look on her face.

“Can
you fucking believe this? I mean, we were hoping that being on tour would make
a label take notice, but only after one week? This is fucking crazy!”

“I
know. It’s so exciting,” she said sweetly, but something was off about her
voice.

“Hey,
Jess, is everything okay?” I asked as I tossed a few tee shirts in my bag.

“Yeah,
I was just thinking,” she said, toying with the blanket nervously.

“Thinking
about what?”

I
heard her sigh deeply and when I turned to look at her she had tears in her
eyes.

“I’m
not coming with you.”

My
head snapped up and I stared at her like she’d grown a second head. She had to
be kidding.

“Jess,
of course you’re coming. Quit joking around. We’ve got to be on that plane in
two hours and as soon as I’m finished here I’ll take you to the apartment
complex so you can grab everything you can.”

“Kris,
I’m not going. I’m staying here.”

I
looked at her and was waiting for her to start laughing and tell me that this
was all a joke, but when I saw a tear fall from her eyes and hit the blanket, I
felt my stomach drop.

“What
the hell are you talking about?” I asked, dropping down next to her on the bed.
“Why would you say that?”

“Kris,
I can’t go with you because this just isn’t going to work for us. I can’t be
the reason this band doesn’t succeed.”

“What
the hell do you mean by that? Who the fuck is saying shit?” I demanded.

“No
one has said anything, but Kris, your band is on the verge of being signed to a
major record label. This is huge for you and the guys and when the manager told
you that I had to hang back this time, you freaked on him and basically said ‘if
she doesn’t go I don’t go’. How can you do that to your band? To your friends?”
she replied.

“Is
this because you’re scared of being in a big city? You know that I’ll protect
you from anything.”

She
sighed frustratingly and ran her hands through her hair. She stood up and
walked across the room.