All of me (8 page)

‘Matt,’ I warn, he lifts me and I wrap my
legs around him instinctively as he moves me towards the wall, his lips on mine
as his tongue thrusts into my mouth.  This is hot sex, the angry kind and I
like it a lot.  My hands find his head and direct them to my nipple where he
bites hard causing me to cry out, before his tongue soothes it, my sex
clenching with need. He releases his erection from his trousers and thrusts
inside me, my insides clench him close as I circle him, ‘oh god Emily,’ he
groans as he circles my entrance his hands moving underneath, ‘I can’t get
enough of you,’ he growls, as he pushes his erection deep.

‘Oh god,’ I call, as I feel the waves
closing in building, and building, ‘I am going to come,’ I moan as he thrusts
continuously until I cascade around him the intensity of my release apparent,
he removes his erection from me his jaw tense.

‘I haven’t got a condom on,’ he pants.

I drop to my knees and suck on his
erection tasting myself on him, ‘oh yes,’ he calls ‘move your hands,’ he
instructs, and I drop them to my knees, ‘let me fuck your mouth,’ he demands
dominantly and I open up as he thrusts himself into me, his eyes closing in
pleasure. ‘What are you doing to me Emily?’ he groans as he quickens, I am
sucking for dear life as he pounds into me, my sex heavy with need, once
again.  I sense him nearing his release, before he explodes inside my mouth
stroking in and out, until I have sucked every drop.

‘Oh god, that was amazing,’ Matt pants,
pulling me up to him.

‘I want you again,’ I gasp, biting his
bottom lip before he pushes me against the wall.  His hand finds my core and he
strokes up and down, inserting two fingers thrusting them in and out. ‘You are
insatiable,’ he mutters, kneeling down placing one of my legs over his
shoulder, his tongue circles my clitoris causing me to shake uncontrollably.

‘Oh Matt, yes this is what I need you for,’
I groan, as he bites and sucks on my sex whilst he thrust his fingers in and
out. ‘More!’ I call, and he stands once again lifting me until he has entered
me in one swift motion.

********

I turn over and yawn, the bed beside me
is empty. I glance at the clock which signifies nine twenty-seven, I have
overslept.  I stretch, before throwing off the duvet and walking into the
bathroom, I stand under the shower once again remembering last night’s antics. 

I dry my hair in waves for a change
applying a considerable amount of makeup and dress in my short skirt and tight
V-neck t-shirt, I feel sexy as hell today, despite the fact that I have nowhere
to be.  I move to the kitchen and switch the kettle on, it is then that I
notice Matt’s clothes are draped over the sofa.  Frowning, I walk to the window
to notice his car is still parked outside, being a tiny flat I am puzzled as to
his whereabouts, before I hear him running up the stairs panting.

‘Good morning, sexy,’ he is in shorts and
a vest top, sweat dripping from his brow.

‘Well good morning yourself, I wondered where
you were,’ my mind computes his gym gear, ‘did you bring your running gear with
you?’

‘I always keep some in the back of the
car for my various stops’ he is stretching in front of me.

I frown for a minute before he adds, ‘at
the gyms,’ and grins, ‘do you think I am a machine? You are more than one man
can handle, I assure you’

‘Hmmm,’ I answer as confusion runs
through me, ‘I don’t want a relationship but I don’t really wish to share all
this sex with anyone else either,’ I admit.

‘Point taken,’ he moves towards me to
kiss me before I send a ‘
don’t you dare,’
glance in his direction, he
grins, ‘you look edible this morning, Miss Taylor, do you have plans?’

‘That depends on where you wish to take
me,’ I answer naturally.

‘I will have a think, in the shower,’ he
ducks into the bathroom.   I open the fridge, bringing a box of eggs out to
scramble.

********

We spend the day at the zoo relaxing in
each other’s company, Matt naturally takes my hand and reluctantly I allow him
to, as we wander around the enclosures.  I find that at every opportunity we
touch, I realize it is only a sexual attraction, but it feels so good
nonetheless. My senses are on high alert, aware of every touch, and every word
spoken, it feels so alien, and yet so right.

‘Are you busy tonight?’ Matt enquires.

‘No, why?’

‘I thought we would have a rerun,’ his
hazel eyes appraise me and my insides tingle.

‘Sounds good,’ I croak, as I struggle to catch
a breath.

‘I need to stop off, is that ok?’ he
checks.

‘Sure, where?’

‘Home, to get a change of clothes, and
the gym, to just check in with one of my managers.’

‘Ok, do you want to drop me off first or?’

‘No, you come with me,’ he insists, ‘it
isn’t our gym, it is the one in the city.’

We firstly, visit the gym where I realize
how successful Matt is, the gym in question is out of my budget and is huge
offering every sport imaginable, an indoor and outdoor pool, crèche and huge
children’s play area, along with a spa and hairdressers.

‘I didn’t realize you owned this gym, I
whistled, ‘you done good Ritchie.’ I smile.

‘Do you want a coffee?’ he ignores my
praise.

‘No, you go do your thing, I will people
watch.’

‘I will be five minutes,’ he insists,
moving to the office area.

A couple of staff wander past and one
whispers, ‘I didn’t realize the boss was in the house, that guy is sex on
legs!’

‘Hi, can I get you a drink?’ A blonde,
handsome, buffed up man walks into my view, ‘I understand you are a friend of
Matt’s.’

‘Yes hi, no I am fine thank you,’ I smile,
and the guy grins back,

‘You have a gorgeous smile,’ he insists,
‘not to mention the legs,’ he whispers and I flush.

‘Why, thank you.’ Having sex has
definitely turned me into a flirt.

‘I am Simon, one of the Personal Trainers
here,’ he holds a hand out, which I shake although he refuses to release it, ‘I
didn’t catch your name?

‘Emily,’ I grin up at him, ‘now, can I
have my hand back Simon?’

‘Of course, sorry,’ he rolls his blue
eyes, ‘sucker for a beautiful face,’ he purrs.

‘No work, Simon?’ a cold voice cuts through
the atmosphere and Simon winces before turning.

‘Hi Matt, just checking on your guest
here to see if she required anything,’ he winks at me, I shake my head
suppressing a grin, as I find Matt’s eyes which are cold.

‘I can give her anything she needs thank
you, Simon,’ Matts eyes send darts my way and I sigh, he has issues.  Simon
salutes to me, before moving away from the area.

‘Matt!’ I scold.

‘What? He is a sleaze bag and he doesn’t
really need your encouragement,’ he reprimands me.

‘He was harmless, kept me entertained.’ I
scowl at him.

‘Come on,’ he takes my hand, ‘let’s go.’

‘How can you be jealous really?’ I ask,
as we enter the car.

‘I am not jealous,’ he drones.

‘Well, you are doing a good impression of
someone who is,’ I mutter angrily.

Matt has a huge house with iron gates at
the entrance. I am astounded by his wealth, how can he enjoy spending time in
my tiny flat when he has this to come home to?

‘Wow, quite a place you have here,’ I
mumble feeling out of my depth.

‘Thank you, it was my granddads.’

‘Oh right, you are an only child.’ I
recall him informing me of this.

‘Yes, just me and mum, so Granddad
stepped in as a father figure,’ he expresses.

‘Yeah us too, my father disappeared when
we were babies,’ I offer him a rare insight to my childhood.

‘Your mum?’ he questions gently.

‘Died of cancer, when I was 12.’ I
divulge.

‘I am sorry.’ His voice is kind.

‘Is your mum still around?’ I divert the
attention away from me.

‘Oh yes, she will outlive me’ he grins,
‘I had a good childhood.’

‘Lucky you,’ then I add, ‘I didn’t mean
that to sound sarcastic, I genuinely meant it. lucky you.’

He just nods, before stating, ‘you make
me feel extremely insecure.’

‘Me! Why?’ I shock.

‘Because you form no attachments to
anyone, other than your sister.’

‘No I don’t.’ I agree.

‘You enjoy our time together though?’ he
queries.

‘I love our time together Matt, but I am
incapable of a relationship at this point in my life. I am just beginning to
live, after spending the last eleven years being a responsible adult shielding
my sister from the horrors of the foster care system.’

‘Who shielded you?’ he asks.

‘No one,’ I shrug, ‘which is why I
struggle with relationships. I am aware of my issues Matt believe me, and be
assured that you have helped in more ways than you can imagine.  I have one
last thing to do for my sister then she is her husband’s responsibility and I
can attempt to bring myself into the living.’ I confide.

‘What is that?’ his hazel eyes regard me
curiously.

‘I am going to have a baby for her.’

‘A baby!’ his eyebrows hit the roof.

‘She has some problems, which prevent her
from getting pregnant, so I am going to be a surrogate, it will be their baby
they will just use my womb for nine months.’

‘You cannot be serious,’ he appears
shocked.

‘Absolutely serious,’ I frown, ‘is that
not the biggest gift you can give someone?’

‘Yes, one of the most selfless things you
can do for a human being, but what about your health, you have no regard for
yourself Emily.’ His lips are tight, his face angry.

‘Pregnancy isn’t detrimental to your
health Matt,’ I scoff.

‘Surrogacy is, they pump you full of
chemicals.’ He speaks as if I have not researched this to its life.

I shrug, ‘they deserve their own baby.’ I
state sternly.

‘When?’ his beautiful hazel eyes locate
mine.

‘Soon. Which is why I want to enjoy this
while I can because once the treatment begins I will, of course, be celibate.’

‘How soon?’ he presses.

‘Within the next month, or so.’ I glance
up to his face which has hardened.

‘I see,’ his gaze diverts from mine.

‘I don’t really see what the problem is
Matt, we are both aware of what exactly this is, why are you acting as if we
are having a huge love affair?’ it is my turn to appear astonished.

‘Maybe I want a relationship now,’ his
eyes burn into mine.

‘Matt,’ I warn although I cannot the
fluttering that appears at his declaration.

‘How do you know you are incapable if you
have never experienced a relationship?’ he argues.

‘Believe me Matt, I have serious trust
issues, the only way I managed to survive my teenage years was to cut off my
emotions.  I am an extremely insular person, the sex aside what do you know of
me?’

‘Enough to know that with a bit of time
trust can be built, look at Lucy and Tom,’ he stands, hands in his pockets, his
handsome face angry.

‘Lucy’s personality is nothing like mine
she is suspicious, definitely, but is forever hopeful which is why I need to do
this for her. Without hope, she will disappear within herself, it is what keeps
her alive.’

We are standing in the luxurious kitchen
of Matt’s house, the silence deafening.

‘I think I should go,’ I mumble after a
few minutes of staring down at my hands.

‘Ok, I will drive you,’ he utters coldly,
grabbing his keys and moving to the front door.

We drive in silence only this time it
isn’t through contentment the tension is apparent within the small confines of
the vehicle.  When we reach my drive, I turn over my shoulder as I open the
door, ‘thank you Matt, for everything,’ and I slam the door behind me,
hurriedly moving into my flat.

********

Matt skids the vehicle out of the drive,
fury rising within him.  Shit, shit, shit what the hell did he push her for? 
He doesn’t want a relationship, why did he say he did?  He thumps his fists on
the steering wheel before exhaling a huge breath, calming his insides. 

What the hell was Lucy and Tom thinking
agreeing to this surrogacy thing?  Isn’t Emily entitled to her own life?  Jesus,
he had thrown it all away through his impatience, he didn’t want her having sex
with anyone else.

He had scared her off that is for sure,
she isn’t as screwed up as she imagines at least she is aware of her issues. 
The whole temping thing, not allowing herself to become close to anyone, that
just proves that she is choosing to be screwed up, she has never had a
relationship as she doesn’t stay in one place long enough.

He sighs, oh well that is that then,
there is no point proceeding any further with the knowledge that she is going
to be pregnant for the next year!  Why does this information send a piercing pain
through his chest?