The Full Experience (34 page)

“
God
babe,” Beck groaned as his cock hit the apex between her thighs.

“I need you. Beck,” she whispered against his lips. “I need you right now. I missed you so much.”

“I missed you too. Baby,” he replied. “I really fucking missed you.”

Raven took the elastic in her hands and pulled down impatiently. Beck assisted, pushing the fabric down his legs. She reached down to stroke his hard dick, and Beck flinched when her fingers wrapped around the smooth shaft, making him hiss as her hand worked up and down.

Beck’s jeans were on the floor, his cock was bare and he wasn’t attempting to reach for anything from his pockets. Raven could tell he hadn’t expected to be in that position, which made her happy to think he hadn’t assumed anything would happen.

Raven eagerly nodded her approval. There was no way she was going to stop.

He
 
ran his hands up her thighs, until one was gripping her ass, holding her to him, the other found its way between her legs.

Raven gasped when his fingers stroked up her wet center, circling her nub. Lights flashed behind her eyes, and her stomach tightened. Her breath caught in her throat as his fingers slipped inside her.

“Fuck, Beck!” she squealed as her toes curled. She was about to fall to pieces and there was no way she could stop it. It had been so long since she’d felt that way, and her body was clearly overjoyed at being back in Beck’s arms that the sensations were heightened more than ever. “I…oh…”

Beck’s fingers left her just before the final push, replaced with the large head of his naked cock.

“Yes!” she gasped when he pushed the hot tip inside. Her core still on the brink of erupting.

Beck gripped her hips tight and surged forward, entering her in one swift movement.

Raven screamed in pleasure as he hit her end.

“I’m not going to last long,” he ground out as though trying to control himself. “Baby…
fuck!”

Beck’s hips pulled back and thrust hard into her again, almost lifting her off the counter.

Raven held onto him as their bodies connected, her breasts pushed into him.

Beck lifted his head and took her mouth. His hips pounded into her and Raven came apart.

“
Ahhh!”
she cried out her head falling back as her eyes rolled. Every nerve ending in her body sparked, and every fiber contracted as Beck continued to pump into her, his cock thickening and pulsating.

He was coming too.

He buried his face into her neck as he emptied inside her, his lips sucking on her skin.

Beck’s movements slowed as they came down from their climax. He pressed his face into her neck, his hot breath fast and furious against the sensitive skin there. Both still panting heavily when he stilled.

Raven wrapped her arms around his shoulders, one hand in his hair.

Beck’s head remained buried in her hair as Raven held him close to her.

“I love you, Raven” he said, his voice soft.

Raven’s heart stopped.

She didn’t know if she’d heard what she wanted to hear, or Beck had just said the three words she felt for him.

Beck lifted his head and looked into her eyes. He had a nervous expression on his face, as though he was afraid of what she would say at his declaration. Her chin wobbled, and her nose stung as the tears filled quickly, overflowing just as fast, falling down her cheeks.

Beck pushed her hair back out of her face, wiping her tears with his thumbs.

“I love you,” he said again, closing his eyes and pressing his forehead to hers.

Raven placed her hand to the side of Beck’s face.

“I love you too, Beck.”

“You do?” he asked, his face lighting up like a kid at Christmas.

Raven nodded, her smile growing bigger too.

“Tell me again, babe. I really need to hear it right now.”

Raven smiled, then kissed his lips softly.

“I love you.”

Beck grinned, showing his perfect teeth. “I love you, too.”

*****

Once out of the shower Raven led Beck into her bedroom.

Her room, with its pastel yellow painted walls, was her favorite part of her apartment.

As soon as Raven had moved in, she’d bought a rug to match her paint and placed it on the pine-wooden floor next to her bed so she had something fluffy to step on in the morning.

The large square window, to the left of the bed, that sat in the center of the back wall had long white vertical blinds for privacy, and long white drapes like her dorm in college.

She’d also hung her collage of pictures, minus a few obvious ones, on the wall at the foot of the bed, next to the door.

Raven and Beck climbed into her double bed, and crawled under the huge white quilted duvet.

“I have something of yours,” she said, getting back up, and walking over to her closet.

“You do?”

“Yeah. I don’t know why, but I just couldn’t let it go.”

Raven had held onto the last thing she had of Beck. She’d tried to throw it away, but when the time came she couldn’t do it. Nobody was allowed to do it for her either. She’d said that if she was ready to give it up, then she should be able to do it herself.

“Ray, come on,” Ava said as Raven sobbed for the third time that day. “If you want to get past this, let it go.”

“I can’t,” she cried. “It’s all I have left.”

It didn’t matter that Beck had left her and broken her heart; it was the only thing she had of him that she could hold on to. She knew it wasn’t healthy, but right then she didn’t care.

“Honey, throwing it away will give you closure,” her mom said, rubbing her back.

“It won’t. I’ll only get closure when I know why he left.”

“Do you want one of us to get rid of it for you?” Ava asked.

“No!” Raven snapped. “I don’t want anybody to touch it.” She held it to her chest one more time and walked over to her closet. “It’s going to stay in here until I’m ready to give it up.”

“Ok, Ray,” Ava said soothingly.

“Whatever you need, sweetie,” her mom added.

She didn’t know why she did it to herself. Every couple of days she went into her closet and opened the box, looking through the contents. The tears would begin, and Raven would feel deserted all over again.

They hadn’t even been together that long, but what she felt was real enough to hurt as much as though they had. Raven had chastised herself enough times for holding onto the past, but she didn’t know whether she would be the same again. It had taken a while, but she’d managed to go longer without looking.

Even moving out of her parent’s house three months later, Raven still couldn’t bring herself to throw it away. It remained in her new closet, untouched for the last few weeks; finally.

Raven went to her closet, that was on the other side of the collage, and opened the bottom cabinet. She pulled out the box that sat in there. Holding it to her chest she walked over to the bed and sat next to Beck.

“Here,” she said, handing it to him.

She was a little nervous about showing what she had kept for all that time, especially when she saw the recognition on his face.

Beck slowly opened the lid, seemingly just as nervous as she. A smile spread across his face and Raven released the breath she was holding.

The item on the top was his T-shirt. The same one that Raven had gone back to her dorm in when he’d torn Ava’s dress from her body. She’d given back his sweats, but kept the shirt.

His smile widened when he saw the next item.

“
You
stole my slippers,” she said, pointing at him and narrowing her eyes. Her lips pursed as she held back her smile.

“I did,” Beck chuckled. “You looked so goddam gorgeous wearing your morning after outfit.” He licked his lips. “I couldn’t help myself. I took them when you were all bouncing about. Then when Donnie texted me that you were leaving, I watched you walk barefoot to your dorm.”

Raven’s heart thudded as Beck’s eyes looked her up and down. He was remembering exactly how she looked that night, and glancing down at his towel, she could see the effects of that too.

“What happened to the others’ pairs?”

“I dumped the others. It looked too obvious if I left theirs behind.”

She had to give it to him; he’d covered his tracks.

Beck looked back inside again and pulled out the photograph of their first day, and his eyes lit up.

“My first ever picture of you. I took it with the old Blackberry I had back then, after you told me to go fuck myself,” he laughed.

He pulled out the card from the flowers her dad had sent to her -that he’d written on- and smiled mischievously.
 

Then, he picked up the last thing from the box.

“My phone,” he said, his voice was so quiet he almost mouthed the words. “You kept it.”

“I did.” Raven nodded, as Beck held the iPhone he’d left behind.

“Did you erase anything?” he asked, a worried look on his face.

“No. As soon as Donnie got your dad’s number, I switched it off. I thought you would’ve deleted it through the cloud.”

“No. I don’t know why, but I never backed it up, and I’d never switched on the find my phone feature. I lost everything when I dropped it. I just transferred my contract to my new phone.” Beck tried the power button, but it didn’t switch on.

“It was in the doorway of your closet,” she said, remembering the unusual place to find a phone.

Raven took it out of Beck’s hands and placed in on the charging dock on her nightstand.

“Thank you,” Beck whispered, pulling her close to his bare chest. “For keeping everything.”

“You’re welcome,” she replied against his warm skin. “I’m just glad I could give it back.”

Beck put the items back in the box and placed it on the other nightstand. He turned, cupped Raven’s face and gently pressed his lips to hers.

“I love you,” he whispered against her lips.

“I love you so much.”

Beck kissed her once more, then pulled her into him in a loving embrace. Raven tangled her legs with his and took a deep breath against the skin on his chest, sighing contentedly.

*****

Raven woke up to an empty bed, and her heart leaped into her throat until she heard male laughter coming from outside the door.

Getting out of bed, she opened the bedroom door a fraction, and peered out towards the kitchen area. Beck and Donnie were chatting as though it was a normal day.

Raven smiled when she saw what they were doing. They were cooking breakfast.

Going to her bathroom she quickly showered, and dressed into her black leggings and long V-neck red and white striped tee, before leaving her room.

“Good morning sunshine,” Ava whispered as she opened her own bedroom door. A wide smile on her face.

She had regularly stayed over, Donnie with her, for a few days of their semester breaks -before visiting their own families- and had their own room there. Raven was always glad to see her best friend, and she was also glad to be able to provide some privacy for them whilst they were looking for their own place.

“Good morning,” Raven whispered in reply.

The girls exited their rooms and walked through the living room to the kitchen.

“I see you had a good night last night.” Ava winked then looked pointedly to the folded up clothes on the sofa.

Raven’s face flamed. Ava and Donnie had not only seen the clothes scattered, but had tidied up after them.

“You could say that.”

Beck turned, and Donnie looked over when they heard their voices. Beck’s face lit up, making her smile, and he put down the bowl and whisk he was holding and walked over to her.

Raven opened her mouth to speak, but her words were stopped by Beck’s mouth on hers. His arms banded tightly around her, holding her tight to his body.

“Wow,” Raven sighed, when Beck released her mouth.

“We’re making breakfast,” he said, a huge smile spreading across his face.

Raven looked down at Beck’s clothes.

A plain black tee and dark blue jeans. Sexy as sin, and by the way his lips curled at the corners, he knew it too.

She wondered where he got clothes from.

Beck took her hand and led her to the kitchen as he explained. “Yeah, I kept a spare set in the car” he grinned. “If you wouldn’t hear me out, I was going to book a hotel room and pester you again today. Donnie kindly went out to my car and got them for me this morning.”

“Otherwise his naked ass would’ve been on show,” Donnie said from across the room, Ava sitting on his lap. “When we saw the state of the place we knew you’d definitely worked things out,” he chuckled.

“I don’t know how you got your bra to hang from my door handle, but from where the other clothes were strewn over the floor, I’m guessing it was thrown,” Ava laughed.

“You can’t learn that,” Beck said, a huge grin on his face.

“Sure,” she narrowed her eyes playfully. “Well at least you didn’t leave your empty packets lying about.”

Raven blushed.

She noticed Ava looking at her funny and glanced down at the floor before turning back to Beck.

“Do you have to work today?” she asked. Raven didn’t want him to leave her so soon, even it was only for work.

“No, baby.” He pulled her close again. “I’m not going anywhere without you today, if that’s ok.”

Raven beamed. “That’s more than ok.”

“I love you,” he said, running his thumbs over her cheeks.

“I love you too.” Raven’s smile widened when Beck’s did. His eyes lit up just like the had when she’d told him the previous night.

“Aww!” Ava sighed, her hands over her heart. A tear rolled down her cheek.
 

Donnie grinned too, and wiped her tear away before kissing the wet trail.

“Let’s carry on making you girls breakfast,” he said, and Ava got up off his lap.

Raven stared at Beck as he poured the mixture from the bowl into the frying pan. Being apart for all that time, she would have expected it to feel somewhat strange with him there; it didn’t.
 

She let her eyes wander over every perfect inch of his muscular physique from head to toe. Her eyes paused when they reached his tight ass, that was shaking as he stirred the contents of the pan, and she licked her lips.