Resolution (Saviour) (16 page)

I climb up on the bed and kneel opposite him; he doesn’t touch me but leans forward and whispers so close to my ear
, “You. Fucking. Amaze. Me.”

My nipples harden and my skin is covered in goose bumps, I close my eyes and open my mouth slightly so that I can draw in more air
. Without touching any other part of me, he leans forward and sucks my nipple into his mouth, finally he is unable to keep his hands to himself and grabs each of my bum cheeks and pulls me to him, almost slamming his mouth onto mine and fucking it with his tongue, I put my arms up and around his neck and grab a handful of hair and allow him to keep up his assault on my mouth, he sits back on his knees and I straddle him and he slides insides me sweetly. Fuck it goes in a long way and is just a little bit painful and good god when he moves his hips, in that way, I can’t help but let out a moan.

“
Jesus fucking Christ woman, fuck!”

He grabs my hair quite roughly and pulls it so that I have to look at him and the way he lo
oks down at me has me confused, is he angry with me? He’s almost gritting his teeth as he speaks to me and I can’t decide if I should be terrified or totally turned on by it, turned on wins out. Like I ever had a choice.

“
I just wish you knew, just for a minute, what I feel for you, what you do to me, I hate that you doubt how fucking sexy you are, I hate that you turn the lights out, if you could get in my head for just a second, you would get it, you’re it Lauren, you’re my everything, there’s never been anyone like you in my life, you are my forever, I love you so fucking much, don’t ever, ever doubt that.”

Obviously I cry but he kisses and sucks and licks my tears away as he fucks me into another toe curling orgasm.

Saturday dawns bright and sunny with a beautiful day forecast. I wake to the sensation of Gabe stroking and tweaking my nipple, I stretch and look across at him, he’s lying on his side propped up on his elbow watching me and I smile, of course I fucking smile, he shagged me senseless last night and now here he is, beautiful and sexy and just more gorgeous than it should be legal to be, in my bed, playing with my nipple, with those blue eyes on me and that lopsided smile on his face, what woman wouldn’t smile? Fuck, most would come on the spot and I almost do.

“
Marry me?”

“
I love you, good morning, no.”

He trails his fin
gertips down though my cleavage, all the way down my body and starts circling my clit, I let out a little sigh of contentment and close my eyes. There’s a knock on the bedroom door and we both freeze.

“
Can I come in?”

“
Yes Ava.”

We both adjust ourselves, making sure we are covered and Gabe’s hard on is only apparent to me as it sticks into my
hip; I look across in shock as he rocks into me as Ava comes through the door.

“
Are you two going to get out of bed today? Didn’t you do enough sex stuff last night? The whole house is talking about how noisy you were, I’m so glad I slept in the tent, it’s soooo embarrassing Dad.”

I nearly die, she knows we have sex, of course she does, she’s fourteen tomorrow and has spent all of her life around Gabe and his ‘No subject is off topic’ family but knowing we are being talked about and the fact that I know we did get a little bit noisy last night mortifies me, I pull the doona over my head.

“Don’t be embarrassed Lauren, I hear you all the time when I stay with you and Dad, I just put my beats on.”

I hear Gabe laugh so I grab his dick and he giggles like a girl
.

“
What was it you wanted Ava?”

“
Oh gross Dad, I can’t talk to you like this, get up, you said we could get the Jet Ski’s out today.”

I hear the bed room door slam and Gabe throws the doona off of me and rolls over on top of me, I wrap my legs around him
. Just as the bedroom door swings open and Zac comes in. I scream.

Gabe shouts
, “What the fuck Zac, ever heard of knocking?”

“
Dude, nice tat. Morning Lauren, nice legs.”

I smile and wave over Gabe’s shoulder, expecting him to leave, instead he
comes all the way into the bedroom and smacks Gabe’s arse.

“
So, are you two shagtastic lovebirds getting out of this sex pit today or do the rest of us have to spend the weekend pretending not to hear all the moans and groans coming from in here and seriously, you need to open a window, it smell just like fresh fuck in here and it’s so fucking sweet it’s making me jealous…and hard”

“
Zac, I swear to god, if you don’t get out of here.”

Sam appears in the door way
, “Whoa, seriously you two, open a window, smells of fresh fuck in here.”

I’m actually now dead; I’ve died of embarrassment and am now listening to these comments from the afterlife!

“Get. The. Fuck. Out!!!”

Gabe roars and the pair of them walk off laughing as Zac calls back to us
, “Chill man, just pulling your pissa… But seriously, open a window and shower, both of you, you smell of pheromones and hormones and sexmones and all that shit.”

Bastards!

We give up on our morning quickie and shower and join the rest of the family for brekkie, Gabe points at all of them and says, “One word, one fucking word about what you think you heard last night and we will pack up and leave.”

I hide behind him and blush from the roots of my hair to the tips of my toes, Charlie laughs
, “Stop taking it so serious Gabe, they are just jealous, make as much noise as you like mate.”

We sit down at the table and every single one of the grownups makes a point of giving out a little moan, Gabe looks seriously pissed off, I feign indifference and shrug my shoulders as I lean across to Gabe and stroke his face
.

“
They’re just jealous baby, coz you are soooo good.”

He laughs, they cheer and we all get on with breakfast
.

The boys have promised to take the boat and the Jet Ski’s out with the kids today and I can’t wait. Ja
son and I have had a couple of Jet ski’s for years and I love getting out on the bay, going as far out as is safe and looking back at the beautiful coastline of the Mornington Peninsula. The house here has its own boat ramp so we don’t even have to leave the back garden. By the time the boys have got the boat and Jet Ski’s on the water it’s around noon and because of the beautiful weather the lake is getting busy. Charlie is really strict on safety around the water, all the kids and adults have to wear Safety vests and all of the kids over twelve hold a PWC license, as do the adults. Luckily mine is still in place and not up for renewal until March.

Gabe, Zac and Cooper take all of the older kids out on the Jet Ski’s while Charlie offers to take some of the younger ones out on the boat. Jackie looks at me with disdain when I volunteer to go out with him
, “Wouldn’t you rather stay here and lounge around the pool Lauren, you really are looking quite pale, your tan could do with some work.”

Before I get a chance to speak, Stella harks up
, “I’ll come with you Loz, I don’t want to lie around here getting baked and wrinkly from the sun, taking the kids out on the boat will be a blast…Dad you ready?”

I shrug at Jackie and can’t help bu
t smile; we round up the kids and enjoy an hour out on the water before the boys find us, just as Charlie’s mobile rings.

“
Gabe would you go and pick Jackie up, she’s bored and wants to come out on the water.”

Gabe doesn’t get chance to answer before Cooper jumps in…

“I’ll go; Gabe wants to take Lauren out.”

I spend the next half hour with Gabe squeezed between my thighs
, my arms wrapped around his waist as we dodge and weave our way across the lake; when we get back to the boat the kids are all desperate for another turn so I take Ava with me. Jackie instantly volunteers to take one of the other kids but none of them want to go with her, so Charlie jumps on, everyone seems to be amazed, apparently Jackie renews her license every year but none of them have ever seen her on the boat or a Jet Ski…ever. CJ jumps on the back of Gabe and we all head out. I love the sensation of the wind and the spray off the water on my face as we pick up speed.

“
Hold tight,” I shout to Ava as I turn in the water. She screams “Woohoo Lauren you’re the best” as she squeezes me tight; I never thought it was possible to love a child that wasn’t of your flesh and blood as much as you do your own but in that moment I realise that I do, I love Ava as if she were my own and quite possibly feel even a little more protective of her because she’s a girl and I have never had that dynamic. We stop just as we get back to the boat, Gabe pulls up alongside us, with a boyish grin on his face; I squirm and smile back at him stupidly; he stands and leans forward and gives me a salty kiss.

“
Having fun?”

“
Hell yeah.”

“
Get a room you two” Ava and CJ say in unison and laugh.

Gabe’s eyes are on me, all intense and hooded and I know exactly what’s on his mind
. We had been thwarted at our attempts to have a quickie this morning by the amount of people coming in and out of our bedroom and despite last night’s antics, I am so desperately horny for him.

“
Let’s head back, it’s getting late” Gabe states.

Mouthing to me
“I wanna fuck you” I start to blush in case Ava has worked out what he just said from over my shoulder. I’m vaguely aware of the sound of an engine…then, nothing, black.

GABRIEL

I jolt awake, taking a few seconds to get my bearings, a few seconds before cold, icy reality sinks in, fuck off, fuck off, fuck off, I don’t want this to be real. The smell and the sounds are the first to invade and shatter my oblivion. Antiseptic, disinfectant, bleach, sickness, death? Whatever the fuck it is, all hospitals smell of it, public or private, they all have that 'hospital smell'. Then there are the sounds; the quiet hum of conversation, the occasional sound of someone crying, trolleys squeaking, machines bleeping. I'm aware of all of this before my world once again comes crashing down around me. Fuck, no, no, no.... Please, I don't want this to be true, I don’t want any part of this to be true. I kiss her hand as she lies there in the bed, looking tiny, fragile and yet so peaceful. There are tubes in her hand, up her nose and down her throat, machines bleeping at the end of the bed and a blood pressure cuff that tightens around her arm every so often. I don't think I have cried so many tears in my life, I have begged and I have pleaded for divine intervention, I've asked my Mum, who I have always believed is watching over me to help. I've offered myself. Let it be me, please, take me, just let her live, because if she doesn't, I don't think I will be able to go on; but nothing, nothing at all has changed, she still just lays there looking serene and beautiful and totally oblivious to the chaos and heartache that's going on all around her and every now and then that makes me angry, if she just knew, just for a split second, what we are all going through, how much we love her and want her well again, I just know she would wake up; but she doesn't and that makes me angry and helpless, I can't do anything, I can't change anything, I can't make her wake up and I can't make it all go away; and that makes me so fucking angry.

I've made her hand wet with my tears. I sniff and wipe my face on my T-shirt.

“Baby, please wake up, please, I love you so much, so, so much, please try, for me, please try.”

I stand up and stretch and crack my jaw and knuckles, anything to try and take the edge off this rage I feel: why, why us? In the blink of an eye my world has been changed forever, the three people I love most in the world all affected…and there’s not a thing I can do to change it. My
Dad’s dead, my Dad, Charlie Wilde, is dead, gone, I no longer have living parents, both of them now gone, but people lose their parents all the time right? Doesn’t make it any easier when it happens to you though, but we always knew it was something that would happen one day, we all grow up knowing that one day we will lose our parents at some stage, I know that more than most! But not this, not Lauren and definitely not Ava, not my child and the woman I love, the two people I’m supposed to protect and right in front of my eyes, they were almost wiped out, both now lying in separate hospitals, both comatose because of their injuries caused by a Jet Ski accident, right in front of my eyes, if Cooper hadn’t been there, Lauren would probably be dead and I would be trying to live with my decision to jump into the water and save Ava first, right now I owe my brother everything, he didn’t hesitate, as the accident unfolded in front of us, he jumped straight in and pulled Lauren to safety while I dragged Ava onto the boat but it still might not be enough, I still might lose them both and I can’t change it, I can hope and pray and beg but I can’t actually change it and I feel like an absolute failure; I’ve promised Lauren on more than one occasion now, that I would protect her, keep her safe and once again, I’ve failed to keep my promise.

I sit back down on what is quite possibly, the most uncomfortable chair on the fucking planet and drop my head in my hands and think back to the night that I first set eyes on Lauren; I hadn’t planned on going out that night, Friday the fourteenth of September 2012, the day that changed my life! When I woke up on that Friday morning my weekend was planned, I was picking
Ava and Sophie up from Nina’s and they were coming to stay at mine for the weekend but then Ava called to say that Sophie was sick and she didn’t really feel like coming on her own and as school holidays were coming up and she would be staying with me for a week then, she wanted to spend some time with her Mum, Nina, my ex, who was expecting her third baby sometime soon.

Although why anyone would want to spend time in that woman’s company is fucking beyond me, or even get her pregnant for that matter, I shudder at the thought, grateful every day that I was too pissed to remember the night I fucked her and made her pregnant. Anyways…Ava cancelled and I was pissed off, I went to work with the biggest sook on, planning on calling Alyssa or one of my many other fuck buddies as I was now going to be at a loose end all weekend; I clear my schedule when I have Ava over, no work and definitely no women
, but…I haven’t had a root in a couple of weeks so I might just tap one of my sure things tonight and maybe a different one tomorrow night, I might actually see if I can get Alyssa over tomorrow night with her mate, Kelly or Cally or whatever her name had been for a threesome, shame Jake wasn’t around, we had done some freaky shit with them two, really freaky shit, those two were wild and up for absofuckinlutely anything; the last time we had all been together at Alyssa’s place, the girls had fucked each other with a double header, while they let me and Jake fuck them up the arse at the same time, the pair of them had screamed so loud, someone had banged on the front door and asked if everything was alright! I had thought at the time, that I was living the dream but when I think back to what we did with those girls that night now, I feel nothing, I don’t even get a twinge…I let out a big sigh and walk out to the family room and make myself a cup of coffee, it’s dire, instant shit…I must remember, when Ava gets better and I have a moment to myself, I will donate a descent coffee machine to the ward so no other parent has to drink this shit, I walk back to Ava’s bed and as I pull the curtain back, a young nurse is there writing something down on Ava’s charts, I panic.

“
Is everything okay?” I ask.

“
Yep, everything is fine, Dr Tan will speak to you tomorrow about slowly bringing her out of the coma, the swelling is nowhere near as bad as he thought and has gone down considerably and the small bleed that she had doesn’t seem to have done any damage but we won’t know for sure until we bring her round. I will leave it to the Dr to explain everything in detail tomorrow but that’s the plan. Do you have any questions?”

I shake my head
, “No but thanks for letting me know, I, will, I need to go and see Lauren later, my partner, but I will wait till Ava’s Mum gets here, she will be okay won’t she? I won’t be gone long.”

“
She will be fine, you really should go home and get some sleep. You will want to be awake when they bring her round.”

“
I’m fine thanks.”

Go home and sleep
, she’s kidding me, right?

I sit down on the arse numbing, back breaking chair and take a sip of the shithouse coffee
. I can’t wait for Nina to get here so I can shoot back to the Alfred and see Lauren. Lauren, the love of my love. I’m not known for being a romantic but I am happy to stand up in front of anyone and declare my love for that woman and nobody is more surprised by that fact than I am.

Going back to September fourteenth, Zac had worked out I was pissed off about ten minutes after I had arrived at our office and had shouted at Michelle, our receptionist for the third time
.

“
Bro, chill out, stop shouting at the staff, what the fuck is wrong with you this morning?”

I shrugged, he would only take the piss and tell me to go and spend the weekend
getting laid if I told him Ava had cancelled, but oh well.

“
Ava cancelled, Sophie’s sick so she wants to stay home and spend time with Nina, before the new baby comes but I’ve cleared my schedule and don’t know what to do with myself.”

“
Well me and Coop are going for a few beers down Main street tonight, you’re welcome to come with, you’d be doing me a massive favour, Coop always wants to talk about work and shit and it gets boring after a while.”

Cooper shouted from his office
, “I heard that, you cheeky cunt, I do not always talk about work. I only talk about work if we’ve run out of things to say about Gabe, which let’s face it, doesn’t happen often.”

Cooper’s lanky six foot frame appears in the doorway to his office
. His space is bigger and separate from mine and Zac’s, Coop deals with contracts and planning and all the complicated shit and he complained that he couldn’t focus when Zac and I were both in the office at the same time, so we sectioned him off and gave him his own space.

“
Come and have a beer with your big brothers tonight and then tomorrow morning you can come and help me and Zac gently persuade Frank Carroll to pay the money he still owes us.”