Resolution (Saviour) (11 page)

“
Gabe.”

“
Shhhh, let’s just try this baby, I know you’re gonna love it. If it’s too much, just say and I will stop, but I have toys and I have lube, let’s just try.”

He has lube, fucking hell, am I really going to let him do this? He kisses my shoulder, then bites it gently
.

“
Okay?”

I nod, not really sure if I am.

He rummages around on the bed for a second, and then he’s back.

“
Just relax baby and push back when you’re ready.”

I push my bum up as I drop my shoulders down to the bed and fold my arms underneath my forehead. He reaches between my legs with his left hand and very gently strokes the skin right at the very top. His right fingers slide inside me and I flinch and jerk.

“Shhh, it’s okay, I’ll be gentle, just getting you ready.”

As he talks, he slides his fingers out and I feel something cool and wet slide in, it goes deeper than his fingers ever have and I am amazed at how good it feels, I push back
.

“
That okay? You want more Lauren? Tell me.”

“
More,” is all I can manage. I can only assume it’s some kind of butt plug he’s using on me, I’ve never actually seen one in ‘Real life’ so I have no idea how big they are. He pushes it in deeper and again I push back on him.

“
Fuck Lauren, I want this, I want to be inside you, in here, where no one else has ever been, are you ready; can we try?”

Again I simply nod. He kisses my temple.

“Good girl.”

He pulls out whatever was in me and I feel the cold lube hit the bottom of my back, he places a slim, purple vibrator on the bed between my legs as he rubs the lube in between my cheeks

“Don’t touch the toy Lauren, I’ll tell you when, are you ready baby, just relax, relax.”

Fucking relax, he’s kidding right, I’m about to lose my anal virginity, something I had never ever considered doing until I met him and now, now I actually want to do it
. I take a deep breath in through my nose and offer my arse up to him. He rubs small circles with his thumbs as he pulls my cheeks apart, I feel him nudge the tip of his cock at my hole, he feels wet and hot; very gently, very slowly he pushes his tip inside me. I instantly tense.

“
Gently,” I whisper. Yay, I can still speak.

“
I know, I am. Can I push in some more?”

I nod
. He has one hand holding onto my hip and the other still guiding himself in to me; he nudges deeper and I can’t help but let out a little moan. It burns for a second, then it’s just all sensation.

“
Fuck Lauren, more?”

I nod and he slides right in, there is no pain this time, just a full and stretching sensation. He’s completely still, letting me adjust to him
. He grazes his teeth down my neck and shoulder and I let out a moan. He kisses between my shoulder blades and whispers against my skin.

“
Lauren, you make all my dreams come true, do you get that? Do you understand just how much I fucking love you? You’re my everything, my always, my forever.”

His hand traces down my spine and holds on to my other hip as I try to process his words, this whole moment is so intense, our reunion, this sex, his words and the amazing sensations I am now feeling as he very slowly starts to move inside me. He kisses me one last time on my back as he says

“Okay baby, I’m gonna move, very slowly I’m gonna move, if it’s too much, too painful or too intense tell me and I will stop. Lauren, you okay?”

I bite down on the inside of my lip
. Am I? I don’t know what I am right now, but I nod anyway. Very gently he pulls back a fraction and then slides back in, my muscles clamping round him, I can feel every single ridge and vein and bump on him and it just makes me want more of him. It’s not painful at all, it’s like nothing I have ever experienced and I am now wondering why I have never tried this. He eases back once more and this time as he slides back in, I push back on him.

“
Fuck.” Is all that he says.

I say nothing
, because I can’t. Right now, for me, there’s nothing, no one else anywhere, just me and him, now, doing this, my head is spinning with desire like I have never known, could never imagine and I just want more, more of this, more of these sensations, more of him. We find our rhythm and I know I am going to explode soon. I just need, something.

“
Twist on the vibrator and rub it on your clit baby, I’m gonna come soon.”

I do as he says; the sensation is amazing, I push back against him so that he fills me further and slide the vibrator inside me, if I can feel it, I know he will be able to as I push it against my walls, against him. I have no control over what happens next, my orgasm is so intense it’s more like a convulsion, the instant I felt the vibrator touch him through my skin i
t shakes me, the instant he feels the vibrator against him, he explodes, I feel every single pulse and throb inside me. Both of us totally out of control, rocking against each other, shaking, falling, together. Gabe is almost chanting behind me. He loves me. He wants to marry me. He wants to fuck me all weekend. He wants to marry. I can’t leave him again, ever.

“
Fuck Lauren, God, fuck,” are basically what he says, I on the other hand am rendered speechless, boneless and breathless.

I fall down flat on the bed, his body following mine but he somehow keeps from crushing me. I close my eyes, try not to pass out and wait for the world to stop spinning. He kisses my hair and my head, my ear, my neck, I adjust my position, inadvertently pushing back onto him and let out a contented sigh
. I instantly feel him twitch inside me and I can’t help but smile.

I feel him laugh against my back as he says into my ear
, “Did you feel that?”

I smile and nod
.

“
See what you do to me? Fuck Lauren, I’m possessed, this ain’t normal, surely this can’t be normal, I will happily die fucking you.”

I smile, make a sort of stifled laughing sound and nod; I’m not capable of more.

“Come and shower with me, I want to wash and look at you. I’m gonna pull out, okay?”

He eases out gently, only causing me to wince slightly. He stands up from the bed and I feel cold without him pressed against me and suddenly, also, very embarrassed. He squats down beside the bed and brushes my hair off my face…

“You alright?”

I nod, not looking at him, my bottom lip suddenly quivers and that solid bloody ball of emotion is lodged firmly in my throat again
.

“
Baby talk to me, what’s wrong? I didn’t hurt you or anything did I? Lauren?”

I wrap my arms around his neck and whisper into his ear
, “You didn’t hurt me, it was amazing, is it wrong to say that – that I liked what we just did?”

He strokes
his fingers down the side of my face, “Of course it’s not wrong. Whatever we do, as long as it’s what we both want, it will always be right, and that was about as close to perfect as it gets baby.”

He leans down and kisses me gently on the cheek
.

“
I love you, let’s get showered,” I whisper.

I drag my eyes open to the sound of my phone ringing. I don't move though, instead I take a few seconds to get my bearings. I know instantly who I'm
with: The smell of him is on me, in me, over me, I'm exactly where I want to be. Wherever Gabe is!

I'm just not sure which room we
ended up in last night though. Last night. Oh. My. God. Last night. My face burns at the memories and I squeeze my eyes shut, I am a dirty, dirty girl and I don’t give a fuck, everything, all of it was amazing, although some parts are a little blurry.

My cheek is pressed to his chest, my arm thrown across his hip, the other folded underneath me, one leg over his
, his leg over mine. I blink a few times and try to focus. A message alert goes off on a phone. I'm not sure whose it is, I really don't care much either. I stretch out my hand and run my palm over his hip and feel for his cock, he has a semi on and it twitches as I squeeze at his base and kiss his chest, then move lower and kiss his belly. His hand grabs my hair and pulls so that I have to look up at him. Jesus fuckin Christ almighty. Just look at him. Just look, he's taken my breath away with just a look, but what a look, I have to take a long blink to steady myself. I feel myself sway, despite the fact I'm lying down.

He seems to follow su
it, he blinks then swallows, “Don't ever leave me again Lauren; I don't think I could take it.”

I instantly fill with tears and they fall onto his chest and I cling to him, this man that's rocked my world in such a short space of time, my heart is fit to burst with the love I feel for him and something else. Hope. I finally have, over these past few days, allowed myself to hope
again. Hope that we can find a way through all this bullshit, bollocks and drama and just be together. He pulls me to him as tightly as possible.

I can barely breathe
, “Shhh, shhh baby, don't cry, what's wrong, talk to me, I hate that I keep making you cry.”

“
I'm sorry... Nothing's wrong, you don’t make me cry, everything is right, I'm sorry.”

I kiss him, long and hard, with everything I have I kiss him.

“Let's put a line under this past week and fuck it off shall we?”

He says exactly what I'm thinking and I nod as he pulls me in and tucks my head under his chin and squeezes me tight again
. I finally gather my senses and look around, this isn’t the bedroom.

“
Why are we on the lounge room floor?”

He laughs into my hair.
“It's where we ended up last night. After the bedroom, the shower, the bathroom floor and the kitchen bench. We didn't end up making it out to your new car. We will have to christen that later.”

He's tracing circles with his fingertips from my shoulder, up the curve of my neck, to behind my ear, the sensation along with the memories of
all that we did last night make me physically shudder... And smile...

“
You cold?”

“
Na, I'm toasty warm, that was a shudder not a shiver.”

“
Ahhh, is it all coming back to you now? You've gone all goosy.”

“
It sure is,” I blush – in fact I burn, from head to toe.

“
Was almost worth being without you for those few days.”

I raise my eyebrows and look up at him. He has half a smirk on his face.

“I'm joking; I'm joking for fucks sake, jeez, touchy much?”

“
I can soon leave again. If you would prefer.”

“
Try it; I'm keeping you tied to the bed for the rest of the weekend.”

“
What about after the weekend?”

“
We will see; I might take you to work with me.”

“
I have work on Monday myself, I'm up at the Palmers place.”

“
Well I might just go with you, our blokes started there yesterday.”

“
They did?”

“
Yep.”

“
I don't want you up there.”

“
But I'd be with you.”

“
I don't care... I don't want you up there.”

“
Why?”

“
Because you've fucked her, I'm jealous, in case you hadn't noticed and I don't want you near her.”

He draws in a deep breath and I can feel
my cheeks burn again at my confession, “She holds no interest for me Lauren.”

“
I don't care, it's a deal breaker.”

“
A deal breaker? I didn't know we had a deal.”

“
Well we do and I don't want you near her, whether I'm there or not, end of.”

“
End of ehh? I love it when you get all green eyed. You're making me hard.”

He thrusts his hips slightly as he speaks so I grab his balls.

“You won't love it when I rip these off and shove them down your throat.”

I squeeze tightly as I speak and in a moment he has flipped me onto my back and is on top of me with both my arms above my head
.

“
If you rip my balls off I will be of no use to you.”

“
Yes you will, you'll still have your dick. If I let you keep it. I might rip that off too and use it to shove your balls further down your throat. Then I will shove your dick up your own arse”

“
Your very aggressive this morning Lauren.”

“
You've seen nothing yet Wilde... Let me catch you within spitting distance of any of your previous fucks and then you'll see aggressive.”