Let Me Love You (Love #4) (28 page)

There’s nothing sexier than a woman who doesn’t care that I was just licking her pussy. Jaylinn doesn’t care one fucking bit because her tongue finds mine. My hands move from beside her to her face, cradling her head and pressing my weight against her. She can feel me now, hard against her inner thigh, but I don’t move yet, there’s some hesitation from me and I know she feels it. This is it. There’s no going back.

“Please.” She begs, her eyes fluttering open when I stop kissing her.

I’m staring at her, watching her reactions again when I smile. “I’ll never deny you again.”

Jaylinn smiles back, tears in her eyes and falling on my fingertips. I take my thumb and brush them away. Her legs move and widen, bringing me flush against her center.

This is it, there is no turning back.

I push forward as gently as I can, waiting on her reaction but was surprised when she didn’t let on if she was in pain. She’s so fucking tight I can barely move but I have to, I
need
to. When I give her all of me, that’s when she tenses, her thighs squeezing my waist. “Shit.” She mutters against my lips, whimpering out in pain. Her hands move to my shoulders, gripping them hard.

“I’m sorry, baby.” I whisper against her lips. “I can stop.” I start to pull out.

She shakes her head immediately, her legs wrapping around my waist as if to keep me there. It only brings me deeper inside her. Damn, it feels so fucking tight I can barely breathe, barely think about anything but wanting the sensation, the feeling of being inside her to never end.

I pull back and give her a gentle smile. “Just breathe.” I’m not sure if I’m saying this to her or myself.

She does and I move a little and her eyes squeeze shut. “I can stop.” I tell her again.

Jaylinn shakes her head. “No, I want you. I need this. I need you, all of you.”

“I want you…” I say against her lips, moving again. This time I slide out for the first time and then in again. Each time I do this, her grip on me eases up and she begins to relax. I try to distract her with my kisses. I keep my movements slow but it’s not easy; it’s torture moving this slowly.

“I love you.” I kiss the corner of her mouth. “So fucking much.”

Jaylinn’s breath hitches, “I love you too, Cooper.”

For the longest time I didn’t think I would ever get over the past. Now, in this moment we have, it’s exactly how it should be. Even the pain. I knew there’d be that but if anyone was going to be with her like this, it needed to be me.

“Oh, Coop.” She whispers in my ear.

My lips move from her neck and find her lips. I can’t take much more of this and I think she can sense it too.

“I want to feel you come inside me, please.” She begs.

I can’t take it, not for another moment. With three quick movements, my body lets go and I groan against her lips, my body trembling with undeniable pleasure.

I rest my forehead against her, trying to slow my breathing down. Jaylinn runs her finger nails up and down my back. Finally, getting my bearings, I go to pull out and that’s when I realize I made a huge fucking mistake.

I brace myself up on my elbows and look into Jaylinn’s pretty blue eyes. She senses that something is wrong.

“Coop, what’s wrong?” Jaylinn’s whole body tenses. Her pussy squeezes my dick and I squeeze my eyes shut and try to keep my concentration on the problem instead of wanting to thrust back in.

“I fucked up.” I come straight out and say. No sense beating around the bush. I brush my thumbs on over her temples. “I was too caught up in the moment and didn’t use a condom.” I look away before realization washes over her face. I’m so fucking stupid, I always use one, always.

Jaylinn relaxes and I wince as the pressure from her pussy releases me. “It’s okay, I’m on the pill, have been for years.”

I slip out and pull her into my arms. A huge weight lifts off me. “Good. I don’t think I could ever use them with you after this.” I kiss the top of her head. “I’ve always used them before though and we get tested by the team so I know I’m clean.”

Jaylinn rests her chin on my chest, “Are you okay?”

I stare into the eyes that I want to spend the rest of my life looking at. I don’t answer her right away, thinking for just a moment.
Am I really okay?
I am. I’m more than okay. Not once did I think of that night. All of this time that I’ve been battling myself to stay away from her was for nothing. “I’m more than okay. You?”

Jaylinn leans up and seals my lips with hers. “I’m better than okay.” Then a sly grin spreads across her face.

“What’s going on in that head of yours?” I hate that I can’t read her right now.

Her eyes dart towards the door that leads out to the deck. Then I remember that the hot tub is out there.

“Let’s go.”

It’s still raining when we make it outside and into the hot tub. The steam rolls over the deck and from our bodies in waves as we slip below the water. We’re still naked and I watch as her sexy body dips into the bubbles, so perfect and tight that my mind goes there again even though it’s only been like twenty minutes. I’m not surprised I want more. We held off for so long it’s all I can think about and I’m sure that will be the case for a while.

I’m pretty sure she can hear my thoughts because she smiles at me and moves from her place across from me. Her hands reach out and she steadies herself on my shoulders.

“What do you say we go for a double header?” Her hands slip off my shoulders and below the water as she straddles me. My dick was hard the minute she said double header.

“Fuck…” My head falls back against the side of the hot tub as she kisses my jaw and lower to my neck. My legs straighten at the sensation and I raise my hips so she grinds down on my dick, gliding along it until the tip is practically inside her again. The water helps but I can tell she’s wet by the way she slips back and forth against me.

“You sure you want more?” I’m more than ready but she has to be a little sore, right?

“I always want more.” She says, moving against me again, so I take one hand and wrap it around her waist to lift her up, my left hand slips between us. She’s tight still, so fucking tight that I feel the sensation as I enter her from my toes to my gut.

My breathing turns heavy when she starts to move and it’s so sexy, so fucking sexy that I’m captivated watching her ride me. She has one hand planted against my chest, the other against the side of the tub as she moves up and down over me. I watch her, I just watch. I doubt she knows what she’s giving me, what we are right now.

Her head falls forward, she’s enjoying it, and I start to feel that pressure building already. I don’t know what it is about her but I don’t want to stop, not now, not ever. I have a feeling we’re not getting any sleep anytime soon.

“Cooper…” she moans, throwing her head back and moving a little faster. My hands grip her waist trying to still her motions. “No…” she shakes her hips trying to move my hands.

I lean forward, my arms wrapping firmly around her tiny body and up towards her shoulders, pushing her down harder than I ever would have before on my dick. “Slow down.” I tell her. “I don’t want to come yet.”

“I don’t want to slow down.” She whispers in my ear, her voice rougher than usual as her breathing gets shallow and heavy.

Jaylinn gets brave and starts swirling her hips. For this being only her second time the girls got it going on. I thought I’d have to teach her what felt good but to my surprise it seems that she already knows.

“Fuck.” I push down on her shoulders, pushing myself inside as far as I can go. We both gasp at the sensation. She moves again, this time she falls back in the water just enough that her hair touches it, and her hands go to my shoulders for support. Her back is arched giving me a full view of her body under the moonlight and the rain.

I close my eyes, wanting the vision of me inside her, like this, forever etched in my brain.

I start to move again, bringing her up and down on me as she starts to squirm, not from pain but pleasure. It’s different than on the bed just a little while ago. She’s more confident and relaxed out here. So am I. We’ve already moved past that awkward stage of the first time.

My hands are everywhere but mostly on her hips helping her move up and down. The water moves with us creating tiny waves. I know she’s close by the tiny moans she’s letting out and the way she keeps moving around for the right angle. My right hand moves from her hip to between her legs where I know I can get her off that way, help her get around the bases quicker. Shaking the water from my eyes, I lean forward to lick from the valley between her breasts, then higher over her neck where I bite down. “You. Are. So. Fucking. Sexy.”

That gets her and she gasps, my words sent her over the edge. I feel her clamp down on my dick. Squeezing my eyes shut I try to hold off, I’m not ready yet. I can’t hold it, not when she starts screaming, “Oh Cooper! Fuck! Oh God…so good!”

Yeah, I didn’t last.

I give in, riding out the waves with her. I feel the warmth as I come inside her. We don’t stop, we both keep moving as if we didn’t want it to end. I slip out of her and then press her against the side of the tub, my chest against hers, both of us breathing heavily. The moon shines in her eyes, the rain slowing down, like our breathing.

She gives me a look that says so much. It’s exhaling the past and inhaling the future. “It was worth the wait.” She whispers softly.

She has no idea how true those words are for me right now.

Our week at the cabin was wonderful and exactly what we needed. No distractions, just Cooper and me. We only left the cabin once the whole time and that was to go to the grocery store, the rest of the time was spent naked and in bed together.

Cooper and I talked a lot that week. I told him that I told my mom about that night and Cooper told me that he told Mason. He struggled telling me because he knew he broke his promise to me. I never realized how bad that night weighed on him until he explained it to me. I hate the fact that Mason knows, I feel like he’s going to look at me differently now. Cooper assured me that he wouldn’t and my secret is safe with him.

I broke down and confessed to Cooper that while we were apart I was still having the nightmares almost every night. He said that I needed to talk to someone other than him or my mom, I needed a professional’s help. After some sexual persuasion I agreed. The man knows how to run my bases and he was holding my homerun until I agreed. It was a no brainer.

“Baby,” Cooper nuzzles my neck. “Where’d you go?”

I lean my head on his, “Just thinking.”

Cooper continues to kiss and bite my neck, awaking this new desire in me. I can’t get enough of him, he’s all I want, all I need. When we’re like this the rest of the world fades away and everything is perfect.

Cooper trails his fingers up my bare thigh.

I reach up and run my fingers from his temples to his jaw, “I love you.”

Cooper slips off the couch and settles between my legs. He runs his hands on the inside of my thighs and I moan. Every time he puts his hands on me like this, like he can’t get enough, it makes me crazy.

When he gets to my center he detours and runs his hands up my hips to the top of my panties. Cooper leans forward and kisses the top of my right thigh as he slips his fingers in the waistband. I lift my hips letting him slip my panties off.

“I love you in my jersey.” Cooper says before placing a kiss on my pussy.

He bites the inside of my thigh. Cooper’s phone rings, groaning, he pulls away from me to answer it.

“Hello?”

He sits back and pulls me on his lap so my legs are draped over his.

“Yeah we’ll be there soon.”

He hangs up the phone and tosses it on the seat next to him. We’re expected to show up for a BBQ at Mason and Hailey’s, one last get together before Mason and Cooper’s baseball season gets underway.

“They wanted to know where we were.” Cooper explains.

I rest my head on his shoulder, “I guess we should get going.”

Cooper runs his hand up my bare leg, goose bumps being left behind. “You ready?”

“Yeah, let’s do this.” I kiss Cooper on his lips before climbing off his lap.

When we arrive at Mason and Hailey’s everyone is there, we were the last to show up. I was putting off coming until the last minute because I wasn’t ready to share Cooper with anyone yet.