Junk Miles (38 page)

She led me to the walk-in closet she and Thorsten shared; or, more appropriately, the big walk-in closet that she dominated. Thorsten had about a foot of space for his whole wardrobe, and Mom’s stuff popped out everywhere else. She pawed through hangers, holding things out now and then and rubbing them appreciatively before she moved to the next thing. Mom was a little bit of a fashion fanatic, so she had a ton of great stuff. Finally she gave a happy shriek and pulled something out.

“
Look, Bren. What do you think?”

It was perfect. It was a Mandarin style dress, form-fitting red silk with butterfly closures at the neck. It looked like it would fit.

“
I love it.” Before I knew it, Mom stripped me down like I was six years old and had the dress wiggled over my head. It fell in a whoosh of fabric that rubbed against my skin like flower petals. She spun me so that I was facing the mirror on the back of her door, and I took my own breath away.

The dress for Jake’s prom was pure princess loveliness, but this dress was hot siren sexiness.

“
You look incredible.” Mom gave me a quick, hard hug. “I have the perfect black pearl drop earrings. I love it.”

Mom decided that the waist needed to be taken in a little, so she pinned me and then got me out of the dress and shooed me away so she could sew.

When I got to my room, I caught my phone on the last ring.

“
Hello,” I gasped.

Jake laughed, and I felt a low, sweet heat in my stomach. “Hey, Bren. Were you running?”

“
When I heard the phone.” I unzipped the bag over my dress and trailed my fingers over the tulle. “Mom and I got a killer dress for the prom.”

“
I can’t wait to see you in it. What’s the color?”

“
Blue. Light blue.” Then I imagined a horrible fake blue rose wrist corsage. “That doesn’t mean you have to get me a blue flower, you know.”

He laughed again. “Don’t worry. Nothing tacky, I promise.”

And I felt a tiny smidge of guilt when I worried that he wouldn’t know for sure if something was tacky or not.

“
So, about prom…”

“
Yeah?” I could hear him attempting to keep it cool, be calm, not jump to conclusions, but the remnants of the past few months still had our nerves scraped raw.

“
Frankford’s is a week after VoTech’s, and Nate, from Folly, his date just cancelled on him. Kelsie told him I didn’t have a date.” I was not about to ask permission. But I was also letting him know. Getting the balance perfect wasn’t easy, but I was working on it.

“
Do you think seeing this wannabe rocker in a tux will make you fall in love? Or lust?” Jake’s voice was mostly joking, but there was a sliver of seriousness in it.

“
Absolutely not. He’s not remotely my type. Though it
is
kind of sexy that he’s in a band.”

“
Did I ever tell you I played the flutaphone when I was in third grade? My music teacher said I had real potential.”

“
You never told me you rocked a plastic recorder! Why did you give it up?” I inwardly cringed at the memory of my entire class whistling shrilly on our toy instruments. How had our music teachers been able to stand it? Not to mention our parents.

“
After I mastered ‘Mary Had A Little Lamb,’ nothing else really inspired me. I think it was a mistake to put ‘Three Blind Mice’ after ‘Mary.’”

I laughed. “So you traded your rockstar aspirations and became a motocross freak?”

“
Music didn’t have enough danger for me.” Jake chuckled. “I might have to shake this Nate character down before you go out with him. You’re ridiculously hot in everyday clothes. I don’t really want to think what you’re going to do to this poor guy when you’re all dressed up.”

“
No shakedowns. Nate’s a nice guy, and I don’t want you freaking him out,” I warned. “And you know you can trust me.”

Jake didn’t hesitate for a single beat. “I know that.”

“
Thank you.” I didn’t have to say it, but I liked him to know that I did appreciate his willingness to trust me, even after I’d screwed up.

“
No problem. So, can I see you tomorrow night? Or do you have a meet or a practice or something?”

I was technically part of the spring track team, but since distance was my thing, I didn’t really shine, so it was easier to wiggle out of things like practice.

“
I can get off. Do you have something particular in mind?” I fell back on my bed and listened for his voice.

“
Nope.” I could hear his smile through the phone. “Just a lot of you.”

“
Sounds good.” I felt like I had to clamp my mouth shut to keep from blurting out the truth about his father. I just hated this last thing between us, especially since it was also a thing between me and Saxon. Again. “Maybe we can go pick up a shirt and tie and shoes,” I suggested.

“
And socks. I know you’re picturing my big white tube socks.”

“
You would look like a fool.” I was all serious now. He thought it was hilarious, but I really, really didn’t.

“
Bren, who the hell would be looking at my socks?” he asked, and he sounded serious, but I couldn’t be sure.

“
Jake, you can’t have a fantastic suit and then ruin it like that.” I tried to stay calm.

“
God, you get so serious about fashion. I better step up my wardrobe if I want to keep in your good graces.” I could hear for sure that he was kidding now.

I tried to put the issue of Jake’s father out of my mind already. He wasn’t here, he wasn’t part of Jake’s life, and Jake didn’t need him. So what was the point of getting all crazy about it? By the time we said goodnight, I was resolved to leave it alone, just like I had been leaving it alone without any problem all these months.

Chapter Twenty

The next two weeks went by fast, and before I knew it, it was prom night. Mom had scheduled a hair appointment in the middle of the day on Friday. VoTech had given a half day, anyway. There was no point in trying to keep everyone around after lunch on the day of prom, so they just gave in and made the skips sanctioned.

Mom and her hairstylist, Darlene, discussed my do over my head while I got a pedicure, which I had never had and was heaven. Mom’s stylist desperately wanted to give me highlights, but my mother put her foot down and said no. They did agree on lots of curls and twists and they argued happily over hair pins. I also had my makeup done, and it looked good, like my version of sexy but heightened. By the time mom and Darlene finished their cappuccinos we barely had time to get back to the house and get the dress on.

I checked my reflection in the mirror under the sunvisor in Mom’s car. I looked really beautiful. I imagined all of the girls in all of the schools across the country doing the same thing on prom night; looking at their reflections and seeing a more beautiful version of their everyday selves. Maybe that was why there was so much sex on prom night. Maybe it was just the byproduct of the heightened vision of ourselves that we got that night.

Before I could sort out the American teenage sexual motivation, we were home and Mom was hurrying me in. I almost had a heart attack when I heard tires crunch in the driveway, since I was far from ready, but it was Thorsten. He’d left work early to see me off. And he’d picked me up a new memory card for my camera. Who could ask for a better dad?

Mom shooed him away and put the dress over my head, then slid the heels onto my feet, careful to maneuver around my French pedicure. She tweaked and pressed and pinched and then I was done.

And she was teary-eyed.

“
Oh, Brenna.” She held my hands and pulled away to look at me. “You look so beautiful.”

Then Thorsten came in and started snapping pictures until I heard the crunch of gravel again and knew that it was Jake. I felt my heart beat fast and my breath came quick.

Jake!

Mom and Thorsten left me to get the door, and I peeked out of my room. He looked amazing. He looked like he should wear a suit every day. It fit perfectly, and the brown was a great color on him. I had picked him an ivory button-down and a blue tie. He had dress socks and new shoes, good Kenneth Cole shoes that were expensive, but Jake didn’t even bat an eyelash. He promised he would put himself completely in my hands when it came to fashion.

Which was a smart move on Jake’s part.

Mom was going wild, pulling at his jacket and oohing and aahing over the hand-stitched mother-of-pearl buttons and the real silk lining. Jake laughed good-naturedly.

I put on a last spray of perfume and some more lipstick, then double checked my reflection. I looked like I could have been at a ball for the French aristocracy, pre-revolution. I took a deep breath and stepped out of my room.

“
Holy shit.” Jake’s mouth swung open. Mom and Thorsten looked at him in surprise. “Sorry. Excuse me.” Jake turned bright red. “But, seriously, wow. She looks amazing,” he said softly to them.

Which was sneaky and smart. Because Mom and Thorsten forgot that Jake just swore and got all teary over me. Then they placed us in front of the fireplace and took pictures, and moved us outside, in front of the azalea bushes and snapped more.

“
You look so beautiful,” Jake said lowly against my ear.

“
You look pretty great yourself.” I squeezed his hand. He smiled, then held up a cardboard box.

“
Your corsage.”

And if I had to describe why Jake was so completely, unexpectedly perfect, I could have done it shallowly by explaining what was perfect about the corsage. It was a cream colored orchid with just a little bluish purple inside of it, just enough that it hinted at my dress color. It was a wrist corsage, but he had asked that the florist put a ribbon over the rubber bracelet piece that holds it on your wrist. So when he slid it on, he could tie it and it looked gorgeous and old-fashioned and simple. And absolutely perfect.

I could have been easily talked into skipping the whole prom and just making out in his truck for a few hours, but Jake had no such deviant thoughts, at least that he was letting me know about. I kissed Mom and Thorsten, and we waved as Jake’s truck pulled out.

“
I’m excited. This is going to be a good night. I like your necklace,” he added.

It was the silver ’B’ he’d given me for my birthday that fall. I replaced the ribbon with one that matched my dress, and it looked great. And I had on my posey ring, the one I didn’t take off anymore.

“
I’m excited, too.” I wasn’t about to admit just how willing I had been, seconds before, to ditch the whole prom thing and just make out with him.

The place was a good half an hour away. Sussex County didn’t offer many upscale venues, so we had to go to nearby rich Bergen to find a really nice banquet hall. It was well worth the drive. The place was old and stately and gorgeous.

Jake pulled in and came around to open my door. He helped me out and then kissed me.

He put a hand on his chest and shook his head. “I swear to God, you look so beautiful it makes my heart hurt.”

“
Thank you.” I smiled and blushed, and smoothed my hands over my skirt. “I’m glad you like it.”

“
I love it.” He pulled me to him. “I love you.”

His mouth moved over mine hungrily, and I felt his hands tighten at my waist like he was willing himself to keep them right there and not go roving. I smiled a little, realizing that he was just as eager to roll around in the truck as I was. Finally he pulled away, his mouth smudged with lipstick. I found a tissue in my purse and blotted his mouth, then put more on my own lips in his rearview mirror.

“
Ready?” I asked.

“
Hell, yeah.” He folded his hand in mine. “Let’s go.”

The coolest thing about prom is seeing people you see a thousand times at school in their everyday clothes, but all decked out in their fanciest dresses and tuxes, dancing and going crazy. It’s like an alternate reality that lasts just one night.

I didn’t know the kids at Vo Tech as well, but I knew enough people from hanging out with Jake that I was comfortable there. Jake was obviously really proud and wouldn’t let go of my arm when we walked around and talked to everyone.

My heart jumped a little when I saw Nikki glaring from across the room. She was wearing a tight black halter dress. She looked really sexy and really pissed. For a minute, I was nervous that Saxon had come to prom with her, but that thought passed pretty quickly. He told me that he and Nikki only hooked up once or twice after the breakup, before they both got bored and moved on. She was here now with some guy I vaguely remembered from a motocross race Jake had been in.

“
Hey Jake.” She made an attempt to brush past me. Jake pulled me next to him before she could.

“
Hi, Nikki.” He was careful to keep his voice polite but uninterested. “You know Brenna. My girlfriend,” he said pointedly.

“
A bunch of us are going to the shore after prom. Wanna come?” She pushed her considerable cleavage towards him. She was completely ignoring the fact that I was there.

“
No thanks,” he said and started to maneuver me away. “Sorry,” he said in my ear.

And I tried to hold it together, because tonight was already great and Nikki was just a blip, and I had started everything when I broke up with Jake and threw myself into Saxon’s arms, so I had no just cause to feel what I did.