Forever Girl (9 page)

“Is Lyric in a relationship?” I ask

“I wondered how long it would take for you to ask me that question? No she’s not in a relationship. From what I gather she’s never been in one.” She says with a smirk.

That puts a huge smile on my face. I’m going to go get what’s mine and I won’t have to crush anybody to get to them. It’s 9 am and I’m ready to head to my girl’s house. I want to see her and meet my babies for the first time.

Chapter 13

Lyric

    It’s a little after 9 am and the kids are watching cartoons while eating their breakfast. I’m sucking down my coffee wondering if I should call Nic. Or if she’s going to call me. I go to the bathroom to get some pain reliever. I drank just a little too much wine last night. I hear a couple of motorcycles outside and I wish they would turn them off. They’re making my head hurt just a little bit more. Normally I like the sound and the looks of motorcycles. They’re some seriously sexy machines. I’ve seen some damn good looking guys riding them. I wonder what it would feel like to be on the back of a bike. Having a sexy as fuck man controlling the machine between our legs. I’m interrupted from my daydream by a knock the door. I look down at myself and think well this is about as good as it gets this morning. Hopefully I can send whoever’s at the door away. I want to be lazy with the twins until I hear from Nic. Normally I look to see who’s at my door. For some reason this morning I don’t even bother. As soon as I open the door I shut it immediately out of shock. I look to see if either of the twins are looking. They’re still watching TV upstairs. I open the door and he has a smirk on his face and his eyes are laughing. I step out of my door and shut it behind me.

“Hi babe.” He says to me in a rugged sexy as fuck voice.

I don’t know if I want to smack him, hug him, kiss him, or punch him in his fucking face. He’s changed from the boy I knew that for sure. He’s now a huge hulk of a man with bright green mischievous eyes. His hair’s pulled back into a man bun. I can still see how thick it is and I want to put my hands in it. His face has gone from boyish and soft to manly and firm. He has a beard covering the bottom half of his face. It’s groomed and I have to say it works for him. The tattoos on his neck and arms are sinful. The cut has a patch with the initials B.H.S.MC and another patch that says Treasurer. That tells me he’s definitely not the boy I once knew. He’s a sexy as fuck man that’s here to see his kids he just found out about. I don’t get out and about at all. However, everyone knows about the Bloody Harlan Saints MC. He’s the living breathing definition of a bad boy. He’s my living fantasy come to life. Oh man I’m in trouble because he’s not the boy I gave my heart too. He’s all man now. I’ll have to guard my heart against him. I can see heart break all over him even though that’s the last thing I want to do. I have to remember he’s here for the children and not me.

“Hi. When did you get into town?” I say after I clear my throat.

“I rode in last night after Nic called me.”

“The twins are eating their breakfast. I told them that you were on a special trip and when you could come back you would.”

“Babe I never would’ve let your cunt of a mom run me off if I had known you were pregnant. I should’ve grown a pair back then and stood up to her but I was a little pussy bitch. You don’t have to worry about that anymore. My balls dropped years ago. I take care of what’s mine.” He says to me with a look in his eyes that I can’t describe.

I stand there with my jaw dropped and he gives a little laugh.

“Let’s get in there. I want to meet my fucking kids babe.” He says

I walk in the door and he follows behind me. I can feel his eyes on my ass as I’m walking up the stairs to the living room space. I have to suppress the shiver that runs through my body. I think he knows because I hear what sounds like a groan and then he clears his throat.

    As we come up the stairs the children notice the person behind me. They’re paralyzed with an awe struck look on their faces momentarily. Jamie’s the first one out of his seat as he takes off running to his daddy.

“I knew you would come. I prayed super hard last night for you to come home.” He yells excitedly.

I make my way to jazz as she has tears running down her face.

“Is he really here or is this just a dream mommy.” She asks afraid she’s dreaming.

“He’s really here princess.” I say with a smile and my eyes brimming with tears.

Dean has Jameson in his arms and I don’t think my boy is going to be letting Dean go anytime soon. He’s making his way to Jasmine. When he gets in front of her he drops to his knees. She scrambles out of her chair and launches herself at him. She’s crying so hard I’m afraid she’ll not be able to catch her breath. He holds them both so tight and I see he’s got tears in his eyes. He’s whispering that he loves them and he’s sorry it took him so long to get home to them. I have tears running down my face at this point. This is what I’ve dreamed about for what feels like forever.

“Get your cute little ass over here.” He says to me.

I’m about to tell him to watch his mouth but both the kids start giggling. Jazz tells him he has to put money in the swear jar like Aunt Jess.

“I’ll put money in the jar but not until your momma comes over. I want to hug my whole family at the same time.” He says to them.

I want to tell him his whole family’s not here until I understand what it is he’s saying. I exhale a shuddering breath before I walk to him. I put my arms around our babies and he has his arms around us all. We stay like that for a few minutes. I can feel the twins wiggling to get out of the hold he has us in. I back up and he lets Jamie go and is about to release Jazz. She just holds on tighter. He stands up holding her and leans in to kiss the side of her face.

“I’ll hold you as long as you want princess. I’m not going to leave you again. So if you’re holding on because you’re scared; you have no reason to worry princess.” He says to her as he holds her tight.

I want to tell him not to make promises that he can’t keep. I keep my mouth shut for the time being. That’s a conversation we’ll have to have alone. Oh boy we will and it’ll be soon. Jazz lets him put her down but grabs his hand.

“I want to show you mine and bruder’s room.” She says to him.

Jamie grabs his other hand and they take him downstairs just as someone else knocks on the door.

“That’s my brothers and Nic.” He tells me as he is making his way downstairs with the twins.

I tell him to go on downstairs and I’ll answer the door. They hang out upstairs while he spends time with the children.

“Alright, but we’ll have to talk in a bit. There’s some things that I need to tell you.” He says to me.

I shake my head okay and answer the door.

    I open the door and there are three very large men all in cuts like what Dean’s wearing. Nic’s in jeans and hoodie with a pair of converse. I let them in and tell them that Dean’s downstairs with the kids. The first one in the door is a big guy about 6'2. He looks like he might have some Native American in him. He has Black hair that’s braided but the sides are shaved clean. His cut has a President Patch and he introduces his self as Zeus. He looks at me really hard like he’s studying me. He then gives me a smile that lights up his whole face. He hugs me and tells me we’ll have to talk later. I tell him “Okay” before he moves. A guy with a Vice President patch comes in for a hug. He tells me his name’s Shadow. He has light brown hair that’s cut short like he was in the military. He has grey eyes and a piercing in his lip, nose, eyebrow. He also has a tattoo on the side of his neck. That does nothing to take away how good looking he is. He is 6‘1 and is built like a brick shit house. The last guy comes in and he has a patch that says he’s the Sargent at Arms. He tells me his name’s Hound. He has salt and pepper hair and it’s in a faux hawk. He has ice blue eyes that I’m sure has gotten him more pussy that I could count. He is 6‘0 tall and stocky. I bet he got the name Hound because he’s a hound dog. They follow me up the stairs and ask if I can get them anything. They all respond that they’re okay. I tell them to excuse the mess but I didn’t plan on having company. They all shake their heads and say it’s not a problem. Nic comes up and hugs me.

“Don’t worry I’ll take care of the breakfast dishes. You want to go downstairs and get dressed.” She says to me.

I give her a grateful nod and excuse myself from my company. I make way to my room and shut the door. I take a deep breath and I open my closet to find something to wear. I find my most comfortable pair of jeans, a long sleeve Henley, a hoodie, and a pair of converse. I put everything on my bed. I go to my drawer and get a matching bra and underwear set along with some socks. I look at the bra and underwear and think they’re not expensive but I like to look pretty under my clothes. Even if nobody sees them but me. It makes me feel beautiful and sometimes a woman has to do that for herself. I have my pajamas off and I’m putting my underwear on when my door opens. I turn my head expecting to see one of the twins and see Dean instead. I turn my head back in the direction it was in and go to grab my pajama top. He steps into the room and shuts the door behind him. He walks up behind me and puts his arms around me. I think he just smelled my hair.

“You need to leave my room so I can get dressed. I don’t want the one of the kids to walk in and see you in here with me while I’m getting dressed.” I say to him even though that is the last thing I want him to do.

“Babe, you don’t have worry about that. Nic’s with them upstairs and they’re getting to know my brothers.”

The whole time he’s saying this he hasn’t let go of me. I find myself relaxing into him for a second. I realize I don’t even have my bra on. He can see the pebbling of my nipples and the goose bumps on my skin.

“You smell just like I remember. Your fucking skin is as soft as silk.” He whispers in my ear.

He kisses the crook of my neck and I think I just moaned out loud. He turns me around and kisses me and I find myself kissing him back. He groans into my mouth and I pull away reluctantly.

“We can’t do this right now.” I say to him.

“You’re right.” He says

I think my heart just crumbled as the little bit of hope I had that he was here for me vanishes. I’m afraid he can see the devastation on my face. I turn around to fasten my bra and get my shirt on.

“What I meant to say is that we will happen. Once we start I’m not going to stop until I’ve tasted ever part of your body. When I’m between your legs where I’ve always been meant to be. I won’t stop until I’m balls deep like I’ve wanted to be since the first day I saw you. Right now isn’t the time though. We’ve got a lot to discuss and we have people upstairs. We need to discuss things with them also.” He says to me as he pulls me into him.

I relax into him again. He hugs me and gives me a gentle kiss. Then smacks my ass and tells me to get dressed. I look at him and he’s shaking his head while adjusting his cock. He’s mumbling something about this is first time he’s told a woman to put her clothes on when all he wants is to take her clothes off and stay locked in a room for a year.

“I won’t be long. I just have to throw my clothes on and brush my hair and teeth. You’re right we do need to talk. I need to understand why you left me. I need to take our children into consideration and do what’s best for them. I understand that you want them and you say you want me, but I need more than just words. I can’t afford to be that naive little girl anymore. I won’t let you walk in here and make promises to our children. Then disappear back to your life. We have a lot to work through Dean.” I say to him in my mom voice.

“I know you’re not the naive little girl any longer. I’m not making open promises. I’ll show you that all of you are my world now. I’ll explain why I left and we’ll work this out. That’s a fucking promise babe. Now get dressed and we’ll talk more when you get upstairs.” He says as he looks me in the eyes.

He comes closer and grabs my face and kisses my lips hard. I about fall over when he releases me and walks out of my room.

“Can I take the twins to Jacobson Park? It’s right down the road.” Nic asks as I make my way upstairs.

“Do you think you can handle both of them?” I ask

“I won’t be alone. One of the prospects will go with me.” She tells me with a small smile.

I tell her okay and to have fun. I kiss the kids and tell them to behave and I love them. Dean’s right behind me telling them that he loves them.