even better shot at getting the clients covered."
"Sounds good," I croaked. I couldn't wait to get out of that office
and reread every word Abby had written. How did she have
any access at all? I thought bitterly about how she must have felt
when she'd stumbled into a gold mine that first night at Bungalow
8, the night I'd met Philip. It was all starting to fall into place: she
had been everywhere lately, always appearing out of the woodwork
like a Pop-a-Weasel, ready with a nasty comment or a sneering
look.
"Okay, enough of that. Don't worry about it too much right
now. Just focus on making sure everything works for tonight. It's
going to be great, don't you think?"
I murmured "great" a few times and shuffled out of her office. I
had already begun fantasizing about confronting Abby. There were
a million possibilities, and each sounded delicious. It wasn't until I
was back at the circular table, staring at my laptop, that I realized I
couldn't do one damn thing about it. 1 couldn't tell anyone I knew,
least of all Abby.
I tried to focus. After cutting out the Page Six clipping and taping
it to the center of the office's shared circular desk, I logged on to see
if the plane that would be bringing Jay-Z from LA to New York had
actually left New York on time, which would highly increase the
odds of its arriving in LA—and then coming back again—on schedule.
So far, so good. I assigned two interns to take cars to Newark
and stake out his arrival. This was not particularly necessary, since
the Hotel Gansevoort was sending two stretch limos for them, but I
wanted someone there to visually confirm that he'd arrived and got-
ten in his car without getting distracted by anything along the way. A
quick call to Sammy—be still, my heart—confirmed that the setup
was going smoothly. My to-do list complete, I tried to block out the
thoughts of Abby's viciousness. It was late afternoon, and the only
thing left to do was, well, absolutely nothing.
18
Not only was Jay-Z's plane on time, it was a few minutes early.
He was polite and attentive. Nearly every single person who'd
RSVP'd to the event showed up, and miraculously, the people who
materialized at the door with no invite were all actually people we
would've wanted to come. Mr. Kroner spent the evening tucked
away at a table with his associates, and we made sure the little RE
SERVED
sign was displayed prominently for them and that a steady
stream of pretty girls stopped by to say hello.
Most surprising was Philip. I'd been terrified he'd do something
in a drunken state to embarrass me or the firm, but he'd kept his
nose clean in every respect and even managed not to bury it in
anyone's cleavage—at least not in front of any photographers,
which is all that really mattered. I'd tried to warn him in a hundred
different ways that, as host, he would need to be friendly to everyone,
but my fear had been totally unfounded. From the moment
he'd stepped inside the front door, he'd performed brilliantly. He'd
rotated among all the groups assembled, shaking hands and nodding
sagely with the corporate types, ordering rounds of shots for
the bankers and mini-champagnes for the models, and backslapping
the celebrities with Clintonian charm. He strolled and
smiled and carried conversations effortlessly, and I watched as men
and women alike fell in love with him. It was instantly clear why
gossip columns tracked him and why women everywhere
swooned when he turned his attention to them. His ability to chat
and joke and listen came so naturally that when he was near, people
were left feeling like the volume had been turned down on
everyone and everything except Philip Weston. They warmed to
his touch, to his presence, and I found myself buzzing right along
with everyone else. I couldn't deny that I was bizarrely drawn to
him.
The only almost-disaster came when Samantha Ronson's flight
from London was canceled and we were left with no DJ. At the
exact same time, I'd received a call from Jake Gyllenhaal's publicist,
asking if he could be placed on the VIP list for the evening.
Having just read an article on do-it-yourself DJing, I asked Jake
and the other confirmed celebs to bring their personal iPods and
DJ for an hour each after Jay-Z did his twenty-minute set. It had
been a huge success; each of the famous names had arrived with
an iPod full of personal favorites, and soon everyone in attendance
knew Jerry Seinfeld's all-time favorite dance song. Everything else
had gone perfectly. There'd been no catfights over the gift bags, no
brawls at the door, pretty much no uninvited drama to distract
from the conveyance of the message: everyone young, hip, urban,
and remotely cool is partying to celebrate BlackBerry, which must
mean that BlackBerry itself is young, hip, urban, and cool. Therefore,
you—whoever you are and wherever you're reading about
this fabulous event—must own one so that you, too, may be
young, hip, urban, and cool.
All in all, the event was a complete success. Kelly was happy,
the client was thrilled (if slightly scandalized and extremely hung
over—apparently Mr. Kroner was unaccustomed to the sort of enthusiastic
and committed drinking that had encompassed the entire
evening), and the photogs had snapped, snapped, snapped just
about every celebrity that our rotating staff of interns and coordinators
physically threw in front of them. And then there was the effect
the evening had on my love life.
Taking a break, I slinked outside under my usual pretense of
wanting a cigarette. I found Sammy reading from another tattered
paperback, Richard Russo's
Empire Falls.
"Having fun?" he asked, lighting my cigarette. I'd cupped my
hands around his lighter to protect the flame from the wind and felt
a flutter in my chest when our skin touched. Was it lust, love, or just
early-onset lung cancer? At that moment, it didn't seem to matter.
"Shockingly, yes." I laughed, suddenly feeling that all was right
and good. "If you'd told me a few months ago that I'd be planning
a party at Bungalow 8 with Jay-Z as the entertainment, I would've
thought you were crazy. I hated banking. I'd sort of forgotten what
it was like to
want
to do something well."
He smiled. "You obviously do this well. Everyone's talking
about you."
"Talking about me? I'm not sure I like the sound of that."
He turned to check a few girls' names against the list and
let them enter. "No, no, all good stuff. Just that you've got this whole
thing figured out and that you know how to put it all together. I
can't remember the last time we had a party here that went this
smoothly."
"Really?" Part of me knew that this whole conversation was utterly
ridiculous—we were, after all, talking about event-planning—
but it was still really nice to hear.
"Sure. The question is, do you like it?"
"Well,
like
is a strong word for just about anything, don't you
think?" He laughed and I had to physically bury my hands in my
coat pockets to keep from grabbing his face. "It's a far cry from the
Peace Corps, for sure, but it's okay for now."
His face clouded over almost immediately. "Yeah" was about
all he could manage.
"So, what are you doing for Thanksgiving?" I blurted out, not
realizing that it might sound like I was asking him out when all I
really wanted to do was change the subject. "Going anywhere with
your girlfriend?" I added casually to show him I knew the situation.
He gave me another uncomfortable look, followed by some
obvious squirming, sending the message loud and clear: I had
overstepped my bounds.
"I, uh, I didn't mean anything by—"
"No, no worries," he cut in, leaning backward against the door
as though he felt dizzy. "It's just that, well, it's kind of complicated.
Long story. Anyway, I'm actually going home this weekend. My old
man's not doing so well, and it's been a couple months since I
made it up there."
"Where's home?"
He looked at me curiously, as though he were trying to read
my face, and then said quietly, "Poughkeepsie."
Had he said that he was born and raised in Laos, he could not
have shocked me more. Was he toying with me? Kidding? Had he
found out that I was from Poughkeepsie and going home this
weekend and thought this was funny somehow? A quick check of
his face—smiling sweetly as he watched me process this—indicated
no.
"Poughkeepsie, New York?" was about all I could manage.
"The one and only."
"That's crazy. I'm from there—"
"Yeah, I know. I just didn't ever know if you knew. I remember
you," he said softly, looking out across Twenty-seventh Street
at, as far as I could tell, absolutely nothing.
And, of course, it all came back then. Not that there were so
many clues, but there had always been the sense that he was familiar.
The time we'd stood right here and he'd joked that one of
the girls who'd just gone inside needed a lesson in hippie chic
since her flowing caftan was all wrong, and that she should head
upstate to be schooled by the pros. That day in Starbucks when
he'd brushed his hand up the back of his head and I'd sworn I'd
seen that before. The very first night at Penelope's engagement
party, when he wouldn't let me in and I couldn't shake the feeling
that he was staring at me, almost waiting for me to say something.
It was all so obvious now. Samuel Stevens, the guy in high school
who was too gorgeous for his own good. The guy everyone assumed
was gay because he was big and beautiful and didn't play a
sport, but who instead kept mostly to himself while working at a
few well-known local restaurants. The guy who came across as
conceited and arrogant when we were teenagers and too young to
realize that he was intensely shy, a loner, someone who didn't feel
quite right with any one group of kids. The guy who'd sat at the
table diagonally across from me in shop class, always focused on
the wooden serving trays or gumball machines we were learning to
make, never flirting or spacing or sleeping or whispering with his
tablemates. The guy every girl should have loved but actually
hated because he was somehow beyond her, already looking
ahead, past the idiocy of high school and social hierarchies and
seemingly unaware that anyone else existed. I did a quick calculation
and realized that I hadn't seen him in nearly twelve years. I
was a freshman and he a senior when we had that one shop class
together before he graduated and vanished altogether.
"Mr. Mertz's shop class, 1991, right?"
He nodded.
"Ohmigod, why didn't you say anything before now?" I asked,