planning and Philip hosting the event, so I think it works out perfectly!"
she sang, not the least bit aware that Philip most likely still
didn't even know my full name.
"Skye will help you with whatever you need"—a quick glance
at Skye informed me that she wasn't thrilled with this pronouncement—"
and we'll all be here to support you. The party is scheduled
for November twenty-second, which is the Tuesday before
Thanksgiving, so you'd better get started immediately."
I did a few mental calculations and realized that it was less
than three weeks away. I said as much.
"Oh, Bette, stop stressing," Elisa said with an exasperated eyeroll.
"It's nothing. Find a venue, get sponsors, order invites, work
The List, and save all your presswork until that week. Anything
that Philip hosts will be automatically covered, so this is not exactly
going to be a lot of work."
When the meeting finally ended, I ducked out with my laptop
and headed to Starbucks in a panicky effort to figure out exactly
what needed to happen for the BlackBerry event. I almost hoped
Philip would make it some sort of quid pro quo that he'd host the
event if I'd sleep with him . . . and then immediately felt pathetic.
Everyone assumed we'd already consummated our relationship,
but the reality was that we both seemed to avoid the situation entirely.
Which wasn't difficult, considering he only seemed to want
to mug for the cameras. He was great with the suggestive remarks,
but he never really followed up on any of them, and he seemed almost
relieved when I brushed him off and left alone each night.
There hadn't been much time to think about it, but I figured he
had some sort of top-secret girlfriend (or five) that he kept sequestered
away and was content to let the general public think we
were dating. It was vaguely insulting—I still wanted him to
want
to
have sex with me—but we seemed to have an unspoken agreement
to maintain the present arrangement.
I left a message with Amy Sacco's office asking if we could reserve
Bungalow for the BlackBerry event, just as Penelope called
on the other line.
"Hey, what's going on? What warrants the middle-of-the-day
call? How's Aaron? Have you seen him lately?"
"Do you know how much the quality of my work life has improved
since you left?" Penelope asked. "No offense, but it's almost
worth not having you around to never have him utter the word
powwow.
How's lover boy?"
"Oh, you mean my boyfriend? He's dreamy," I said.
"Tell me," Penelope said, trying to sound enthusiastic. I knowshe
couldn't stand the thought of Philip, but she'd been kind
enough not to say that outright . . . yet.
"Let's see. Things are, like, so amazing. We go to these wonderful
parties where he spends at least a few minutes talking to me
before flirting with every other girl there. Often I'm allowed to
bring him his favorite cocktail—gin and tonic, for the record. I let
him kiss me for the photographers and then we go our separate
ways. No sex, by the way. We haven't even spent the night together
since I passed out there the first time I met him."
"Maybe he's just so overwhelmed by the amount of sex he's
having with every model, actress, and socialite in London, Los Angeles,
and New York that he's just physically exhausted? it's possible,
you know."
"Did I ever tell you what a good friend you are, Pen? Seriously,
you always know exactly what to say."
She laughed. "Yeah, well, I don't have to spell out that I think
you're not doing yourself justice. But enough, let's talk about me
for a second. I have something to tell you."
"You're knocked up and feel guilty about getting rid of it because
you're engaged and old enough to take responsibility for
your own actions?" I asked eagerly, leaning in closer to the phone
as though she could see me.
She sighed, and I knew she was rolling her eyes.
"You're knocked up and it's not Avery's baby?"
When this elicited nothing but another exasperated sound, I
decided on just one more.
"You're knocked up and—"
"Bette." Her voice tightened and I could tell she wasn't enjoying
this nearly as much as I was.
"Sorry. What's up?"
"I'm leaving."
"You're what?"
"I'm leaving. Done. I'm finished."
"Ohmigod, no."
"Yes," she said.
"It's definite?"
"Yes."
"Are you serious? Just like that? Over? Are you okay with it?"
I was doing everything possible to contain my glee at the idea
that she wouldn't be going through with the wedding, but it was
difficult, especially since I knew she'd probably had to walk in on
Avery and some girl, a scenario I'd already decided was the only
way she'd ever believe it. That aside, she sounded good. Maybe it
was the best thing and she knew it.
"Honestly? I didn't expect this, but I couldn't be happier. I've
wanted to do it for a long time and, well, I'm just so excited about
what's next."
I slowly took a sip of my coffee and contemplated this new information.
"You wouldn't be this excited if you hadn't met someone
else. Who is he? I had no idea you and Avery were having
trouble—how could you not tell me?" I choked out. "What about
the ring? You know, etiquette dictates that if you're the one to
break off the engagement, you've got to give it back. Ohmigod, he
isn't cheating on you, is he?" I pretended to be horrified at even
the idea of it, as though it were just too impossible to even imagine.
"Is that bastard—"
"Bette, stop! I'm not leaving Avery, I'm leaving this job!" she
hissed, trying not to be overheard by her cubicle mates.
Serious one-eighty—and a major disappointment.
"You're leaving UBS? Really? What happened?"
"Well, I kind of had no choice. Avery got accepted to UCLA for
law school, so we're moving there. He doesn't start until January,
but we figured we'd go now to get settled and learn our way
around."
"UCLA?"
"Uh-huh."
"So you're not leaving Avery, you're leaving me?" I wailwhispered.
The juicy story of my best friend cheating on her
fiance had become the story of my best friend moving to another
coast.
"I'm not leaving you," she said, sighing. "I'm leaving this job
and this city and going to California. Probably just for the three
years, and then I'll be back. And we'll visit, of course. You'll love
coming out there when it's February and you haven't left your
apartment in twelve days because the temperature hasn't hit the
double digits."
"There aren't law schools on the East Coast? Avery really has to
be so selfish as to drag you all the way out, out,
there?'
"Oh, Bette, shut up and be happy for me. UCLA is a great
school, and besides, I could use a change. I've lived in the city for
five years since graduation, and eighteen before it. I'll be back,
there's no getting around that. But for now I think it could be nice
to do something different."
It occurred to me right then that as a friend, I was required to
express some sort of support, however lame it might come across.
"Honey, I'm sorry, this is just all so surprising—you didn't even
mention he was applying out west. If this is what you want to do,
then I'm excited for you. And I promise to try very, very hard to
stop only thinking about how it will affect me, okay?"
"Yeah, he did the UCLA application at the last second, and I
never thought he'd want to go there. But seriously, I'm not too
worried about you. You've got a whole new crew now, and I have
a feeling you'll be just fine without me. . . ." She let the words trail
off, trying to sound casual, but we both knew this was the closest
she'd ever get to saying something more important.
"Well, we'll have to have a great big going-away dinner for you
guys," I said with forced cheer, not quite acknowledging my opportunity
to disagree.
"As you can imagine, our mothers are already on that. We're
leaving sort of soon, so they planned a joint dinner at the Four
Seasons on Saturday. You'll be there, right? It'll be dreadful, but
you're obligated to attend nonetheless." She cleared her throat.
"And, of course, Philip is always invited."
"Pen! Of course I'll be there. And I'll certainly spare all of you
Philip's company."
My call waiting beeped with a 917 number I didn't recognize. I
decided to answer it in case it was related to the BlackBerry party.
"I'm sorry, Pen, I've got to take this call. Can I call you later?"
"Sure, no worries."
"Okay, I'll talk to you in a few. And congratulations! If you're
happy, then so am 1. Grudgingly, of course. But happy for you."
We hung up and I clicked over right before the phone went
to voice mail. "May I speak with Bette?" I heard a gravelly male
voice ask.
"Speaking."
"Bette, this is Sammy calling from Amy Sacco's office. You
called about a date you wanted to reserve the club?"
Sammy? Wasn't that the name of the Bungalow 8 bouncer?
Could there be more than one Sammy in her employ? I didn't
know that bouncers did office work.
"Yes, hi, how are you?" I said as professionally as possible, although
he certainly didn't know my name or remember me as the
cranky girl with no umbrella.
"Great. We got your message, and Amy asked me to call you
back because she's tied up all afternoon." The rest was drowned
out by the screech of sirens.
"Sorry, I missed that. It's just the loudest siren I've ever heard.
It must be eight fire trucks or something," I screamed, tiying to be
heard over the wails.
"I hear it, too, only not just through the phone. Where are you
now?"
"I'm at the Starbucks near Eighth and Broadway. Why?"
"That's weird. I'm literally across the street. I was just leaving
class when I got the message from Amy to call you back. Hold on,
I'm coming over." He hung up, and I stared at the phone for a second
before frantically yanking a lip gloss and brush out of my bag
and sprinting for the bathroom, which, naturally, was occupied. I
watched as he approached the front door and then bolted back to
my table in a side nook, falling back into my seat before he even
saw me.
There was no subtle way to fix anything right now since I
needed to focus my energy on pretending to look both busy and
indifferent, which was impossible. I knew I'd choke if I tried to
drink or drop my phone if I pretended to be talking, and so I just
sat, staring at my Filofax with such determined interest that I briefly
wondered if it might just up and ignite from the intensity of my
gaze. A quick mental survey of my physical state revealed a list of