Broken Desires (11 page)

“Oh baby,” he gasped
, pressing her face to his shoulder. “It’s not stupid.”

Sofia sucked in a breath and pulled away, staring at him in horror. “You fucking bastard!
” Her fists flew, connecting with various parts of his body in semi-drunken array. “Who the fuck is she? How could you!”

He grabbed her
, pressing her arms into her body, putting his mouth on her ear. He wasn’t’ sure what had happened, but anything to do with a
she,
he knew. “Shhhh, I’m sorry. It was before you, I promise. She’s history.”

The raw emotion in his tone s
eemed to soothe her and she flopped her head onto his shoulder. “Good,” she croaked weakly. She suddenly went still on him and he realized she’d fallen asleep.

God
, what was he going to do with this beautiful woman he didn’t deserve? 

****

Sofia woke in Daniels bed with a migraine. And a note on his pillow.
Be naked when I get home from work.

N
o pain on earth could stop the electrical charge that gave her. Shit, it was
Monday?
She grabbed her head and quickly called Amelie and let her know she was coming. She stumbled out of bed and into her clothes, then made her way home to the medicine cabinet and popped a few pain killers.

She remembered the night before then and her body hummed in the respective places as her mind replayed everything with amazing clarity.
She smiled as joy slowly filled her entire body till she felt like she’d float away.

She checked in with Gammie then went to her room to give the meds a chance to work. An hour later, she sat at her computer, unable to believe how frign jealous she was about Daniel going to that Vaginashop of his. The idea of him touching other women even with gloves made her nuts. How was she supposed to help him with that
mentality?

Time to probe into the dark recesses of this beautiful man’s mind and see about troubleshooting things. She typed in the words
sexual effects of childhood abuse
in three different ways until she found what related
.

The information was so fascinating and engrossing and sad, that two hours flew by without her noticing.
Heartbroken for Daniel, she finally got up from the computer and stretched, realizing the only thing she’d really learned was that there were waaaay too many variables involved on the subject to be able to gain any solid solutions. She needed to know specifics about him. And she didn’t know how else to get them but ask.

Sofia’s phone rang and she
swan dove onto her bed and snatched it off the side table. Yes! It was him! “Hello.” Calm and collected.

“Sofia.”

Her heart and womb fluttered at the sound of his voice. It was
loaded
with…passion. “Daniel? Are you okay?”

“No. I can’t stop thinking about you.”

She smiled and bit her lip, flipping onto her back. “Where are you?”

“Hiding in the bathroom.”

“Mmm. I’m lying in bed.”

“My bed?” His tone was hopeful
.

“No, mine. I had to come see about my grandmother.

“Oh damn. I kind of forgot.”

“
So, what have you been thinking about? Spanking me?” She clenched her eyes, hoping that wasn’t the wrong thing to say to him in his condition, whatever it was.

“Fffffuck Sofia, I need you.”

Her eyes rolled shut in ecstasy at his tormented voice. “What do you want me to do?” she barely whispered.

“I want you to go to my
room as soon as you can. I want you naked in my bed. Then I want you to play with yourself while you think about what I’m going to do to you when I get back this evening. I want your knees back and wide open. I want your finger inside your pussy as deep as you can while you rub your pretty clit. And when you come, I want you to call my name.”

His voice was firm and commanding
with a hint of sweet, and Sofia could’ve orgasmed right there. Is this what he liked? She could surely handle that. “You didn’t say the magic word.”

She bit her lip waiting in the sudden silence. “
I don’t have one.”

“I do.”

Again there was silence and then a low whispered, “Tell me.”

She smiled at the excited edge in his sexy voice. “The magic word for you is…Sofia.”

He groaned low. “God, I like that.
Sofia.
”

The way he said her name touched her in so many ways. It wasn’t just
insanely erotic, but reverent and tender.

They hung up and she realized she forgot all about asking what he planned on doing to her that evening.

God, she couldn’t wait.

Chapter Ten

Daniel
never ceased to amaze her. When he returned home from work, she met him at the door. He stood there, staring at her like he was awestruck and amazed. Without a greeting, he simply led her to his bed, undressed, and climbed in with her. Then he turned her so that her back was against his front and held her possessively tight, petting her, his touch sensual and heartbreakingly sweet. She’d been so eager for the sexual pleasure, until he did that. It was so much more than she’d ever experienced in a man’s arms. So utterly satisfying. 

About an hour later
he whispered in her ear. “I missed you.”

She purred, smiling. “Is this what you had planned for me?”

“God, no.”

“When did your plans change?”

“When you opened the door.”

She smiled to herself. “Why?”

“So many questions.”

There had been a hesitation before he threw up the road block. Either he wasn’t sure of the answer or he wasn’t comfortable with telling it to her.

He rubbed his nose on her shoulder. “Shower with me.”

She
purred, liking that idea. Then had an even better one. “I’d rather a bath.”

“Mmm, yes. We can break in the tub together.”

“You’ve never used it?”

His chuckle was sexy deep
.
“I’m a man.”

She grinned
and pulled his hand under her chin. “Men don’t bathe?”

“No,” he murmured,
sliding his nose in her hair. “Men shower.”

“Really.”

He bit on her shoulder blade lightly. “Unless there’s a beautiful woman that wants to bathe.”

“Just any beautiful woman?”

He groaned and his hard cock twitched against her butt. “As far as I’m concerned Sofi…” He pumped his erection against her with slow strokes. “You’re the only woman in the world.”

She grinned
then gasped, pushing back with her butt. Was this what heaven felt like?

The tub thing was new for her. She’d never bathed with a man. With bubbles up to her chin and her back against
Daniel, she was very aware of how erotic it was. His legs were drawn up, his knees open and she could feel his cock and balls against her lower back.

“Tell me about the men in your life.” This while he sponged her shoulders and neck
and chest.

“Ugh, I’d rather not.”

“Come on,” he said, his voice a low timbre. “I want to know.”

Sounded more like he needed to know. She relented, not wanting to deprive him of anything he needed or wanted.
Plus she could fairly ask a few questions herself. “Not much to tell. I’ve been with three men. The first one was when I was sixteen. Back then, I thought being a virgin was a disease. At least it seemed that way. We did it in an abandoned house full of fleas.” She snickered. “So romantic.”

He let out a chuckle
, rubbing her shoulder blades with his thumbs. “No kidding.”

“The second guy was my
geeky neighbor, believe it or not. Did it with him cause he was a virgin and he was head over heels for me. And…he’d had a really rough life and I couldn’t say no. I mean I wanted his first time to be something he enjoyed even though I had serious moral issues about charity sex.”

“Charity.” His voice was low. “That means love. The agape kind.”

“Agape?”

He
pulled her head back so it rested on his chest. “God kind of love. Selfless. And sweet in your case.”

“Pfft, please, I wouldn’t say all that.”

“I would.” He pressed the softest kisses into her temple.

She smiled, loving his words.
“Then there was the last guy, my…last boyfriend. Actually stayed with him for four years.”

“Tell me,” he half whispered
, running his fingers very slowly over her arms.

She took a breath
, letting his touch soothe her. “He was an asshole. The kind with a roving eye. Does wonders for a person’s self-esteem.”

Daniel
kissed along her neck and the adoration she felt in his lips gave her courage to face a past she never really liked to ponder or rehash.

“Let’s just say I never felt cherished or special like I’d had dreams of. If I’d let him, he’d have had me believing I wasn’t worthy of that kind of love.
The man didn’t realize he was dealing with a stubborn mule. Not that I came away unscathed, but at least he hadn’t crushed my dreams and hopes for real love.”

She looked over her shoulder. “
And this excites you?”

He chuckled. “I swear I’m not getting off to hearing about your asshole ex. I think it’s just me wanting to make it all better.”

“Ahh, the multi-tasking pleasure wand.”

He circled his arms around her and pulled her closer, pressing his face into her neck. “Sorry. Seems my dick
has a one track mind with you.”

Her pulse sped up at feeling his cock twitch
against her back. She suddenly wanted to make love to him, felt like it had the power to erase her past and his. She pushed against him with her butt and his breath caught in his chest. She loved having that erotic power over him. She turned her face up toward him. “Sex was never good with him, Daniel. Not once. I think I hated it.”

“And with me?” His fingers found her hard nipples and brushed against the tips. “Do you like it?”

She arched into his touch and dug her fingers into his hamstrings. “God yes,” she sighed, breathless, heat flooding her veins. “So amazing. Never imagined it could be so good.”

He leaned forward with her and she gasped when his hot mouth burrowed on her neck, wide and hot, and his finger
plunged inside her. She gasped and held on to his legs while pumping her lower back against his rock hard length.

He broke away from her neck with a shaky breath, followed by a groan as he thrust his cock against her and his finger deeper. She
pumped her hips, wanting more.

“I want to sit on you,” she moaned.

Daniel couldn’t comply fast enough. He watched her straddle his hips, the look on his face intense and masculine. “Fuck yes,” he whispered as she lowered onto his length.

His eyes slowly rose over her body, devouring her curves along the way. He lingered at her breasts, bringing his hands
up to cup both of them. “I wasn’t lying,” he breathed, “when I said you were beautiful. God, you are. So perfect.”

Sofi
a’s heart filled with emotion and her body with fire. She let her head fall back with the amazing combination, gripping his abs and moving faster on him.

H
e tormented her nipples with his thumbs, and without thinking, she began rubbing the heat it built in her clit while moving on his hard length.

“Jesus, fuck yes, rub it for me.”

For him. Anything for him. But this time, it wasn’t just him, it was them. Together. She brought her head forward, wanting to see his face while she made love to him. His sexy mouth was open as he devoured every inch of her body as though he wanted to see it all at once. When his stormy gaze hit her face, his hands gripped her waist and began moving her faster. His fingers dug into her flesh and the cacophony of sounds and sensations took them over—water splashing, groans and gasps mingling as his cock slammed home over and over. Sofia felt the heat in her clit catching up.

“Fuck, Sofi!” He threw his head back and shoved her hips down onto his cock as he came hard, his beautiful head thrashing
, his hips pumping with the pulsing wave. The satisfaction that gave her was unimaginable. She watched the cords in his neck flex tight, muscles in his pecs and abs ripple beneath his shiny skin.

It pushed her over that wonderful edge.
She bucked on top of him as her limbs were taken by the spasms. Her head fell back then forward as she cried out and gasped through the ecstasy, grinding herself on him, milking the perfect experience for all she could.

She finally fell forward and he caught her in his embrace. Safe embrace. Possessive embrace.

“Damn Sofi,” he gasped. “You were amazing.”