Alexia Eden (FairyTales Don't Exist) (30 page)

Frankie looks at Drake then me and smiles as he says, “Look after her my son.” Then he walks out the office.

Jax pulls me into his chest and I hold him tight crying for the mother I thought I had.

“Shhh baby…it’s okay…everything is going to be okay. I’m not going to let anyone hurt you anymore. I love you Lex.”

“I love you too Jax. I need to tell you something but I don’t want the others to hear like this and I know wolf hearing is pretty darn good so... will they hear me if I whisper?” I ask him.

“No Lexi this room is sound proof. No one can hear anything, what’s wrong?” he says nervously shifting in his seat.

“You know I was staying at Alex’s for a while? Well while I was there I enrolled in homeschooling at the local high school where Alex goes. I do everything that a normal student does but I don’t go into the school, I will only go in when I write exams. I’ve been thinking a lot and I wana finish my senior year there…” I say.

“Oh no Lex , please don’t tell me you're leaving us…please don’t leave Lex.” Jax pleads and his face is full of sadness.

“No Jax, don’t get upset, just listen. I’m not leaving for good I promise, I’ve already thought about it and if I work hard from Monday to Thursday I won’t have to study Friday so what I will do is after I study on Thursday I will come over and stay here with you guys till Monday morning before you guys leave for school? I will still see you guys every week and since I’m ahead with my studies already I didn’t want to come back to the high school here and have to go over everything I’ve already done at the other school. I should have enough credits to graduate a month or two earlier than you guys do, so then I will come and stay here as soon as I’m done?” I say and notice his smile widen when I say that I will stay with him, he relaxes and sighs.

“Okay baby, if that is what makes you happy then that’s fine with me. I just don’t know how Drake is going to take it.” He says.

"I will speak to him about it today. Thanks Jax.” I say and hug him as we leave the office.

I go to breakfast with Ronny and she takes me to this little diner on the edge of town. We order stacks of pancakes with chocolate chips and syrup to share. 

We finish the whole serving and I lean back rubbing my full tummy, “Ahh Ron that was so good. I'm stuffed.”

“Me too.”  She says as she drops her knife and fork on the plate with a loud clank.

“I need to tell you something Ron and I hope you will understand.” I say as I lean my elbows on the table and get serious.

“Oh shit that doesn’t sound good.” Ronny says looking scared.

I explain to her just as I explained to Jax, my reason for staying with Alex and completing school there but her response surprises me.

 “Ah Lex that’s great, I suppose I would also run away from this place if I had gone through all the shit that you’ve been through.” She says with only a little sadness in her voice.

“Ron, I’m not moving away for good.” Then I explain to her how I plan to come every week and stay with them and when I graduate early how I will be staying with them mostly.

“So you are coming back? You’re not leaving us?” she says in surprise, “I’m still going to get to see you?” I smile at her and nod. She smiles and lets out a deep breath.

”Thank God, I was trying to be strong for you and make you think that I’m okay with you moving away…but I’m not… you make our life so much happier and brighter. We all need you Lex.”

“I need you guys just as much.” I smile and pat her hand.

We pay and head out the café. I notice a familiar red car parked next to Ronny’s and I see Drake leaning against his car with his arms folded smiling at me.

I walk up to him and give him a long hug and kiss his lips softly. “What are you doing here?”

“I just wanted to spend time with you, everyone else got a chance. You happy I’m here babe?” he says as he tightens his hold on my hips.

“Yeah Drake… I’m happy you here, I love you.” I sigh and give him another kiss I turn and wave Ronny off as she leaves.

Drake takes me to the beach, we sit in his car and look out at the ocean, it’s raining slightly outside so I sit cuddled up to his warm side. He leans down and pulls out a small paper bag and puts it on my lap.

“I know how you love these damn things.” He says smiling down at me, I look into the packet and see it filled with caramel sweets.

I give him a big smile and kiss his cheek, “I love you Drake.”

He chuckles, “I love you to babe, you’re so fucking cute Lexi.”

We listen to the radio and enjoy each other’s company when Drake blurts out. “You seem nervous? What’s wrong?”

“Drake I gotta tell you something…” I say, he nods quietly and I tell him about living with Alex and the arrangement to visit on weekends.

“Lex, I don’t like that. You staying with people I don’t know and at the pack house no less. I don’t like it. You will be surrounded by unmated males, and even though you are not a wolf, you are beautiful, they’re going to try get with you and I’m not going to be around if they do.” He says in a gruff voice.

“Please Drake, they all know I’m already taken and I don’t hang out with everyone, besides I’ll be focusing on my studies so I can graduate early and then at least I will be able to see you more often. Please be okay with this.” I beg him and I watch as he relaxes but he’s still contemplating everything.

“Okay babe…” he sighs, “As long as you spend every weekend with us then that’s fine I suppose, but if
any
of the other guys from that pack even touch you, you better tell me okay?” he says sternly and I nod.

We sit and cuddle each other for a while longer before we head back to the house.
  After taking a shower, I head to Ronny’s room, I notice Jax’s door is open so I pop my head in to see if he’s around. I spot him sitting by his desk running his hands through his hair, he looks deeply frustrated.

“What’s wrong Jax?” I say as I walk over to him and put my hand on his shoulder looking down at the books that cover his desk.

“Hey Lexi, just trying to go over this, I’m really battling with this one section and its causing me to be behind so I thought I should get a head start before we get back to school and maybe it will help.” He sighs.

“Shit Jax! I was supposed to help you but with everything going on I totally forgot. Here, let me help you while I’m here, shit I’m sorry Jax…” I say feeling terrible for letting him down.

“It’s okay you don’t have to help me, I know you’ve got a lot on you plate already.” He says sincerely as he looks at me.

“Jax, don’t argue with me. I’m helping you okay.” I say pulling a chair to sit next to him.

I spend two hours with Jax helping him with his work;.Drake was busy with others on border patrol so at least we weren’t interrupted. Jax really got the hang of it and fully understood what I taught him, I guess he just needed to see it from someone else's point of view. Jax sits at his desk redoing a couple of equations while I lay on his bed and page through a couple of his car magazines.

His bed is massive, just like my one at Alex’s house, It’s four poster bed, all dark wood and manly with red and black furnishings.
  I lie on my stomach paging through the magazine as Jax gets out his chair and makes his way over to me. He lies on his back and stretches out letting out a big yawn making me giggle.

“Sorry …think I fried my brain with all that knowledge.” He says through another yawn.

“It’s okay…do you feel better about it now?” I ask him as I look at his gorgeous face. He turns on his side, leaning against me, he leans on his elbow with his hand holding his head up. He looks at me and reaches out to twirl a piece of my hair with his finger.

He looks me in the eye, “Yeah baby you helped me so much, all the other stuff I know, it was
 just that section that confused the livin shit outta me, thanks so much for all your help.” He says in a slow rough voice.

“I want to ask you something Lexi, it’s about what happened on the beach.” He says as he continues to look into my eyes. “Okay…” I say nervously.

“You kinda scared me baby, I’ve never seen you so angry before and the way you spoke and raised your voice? It was…like… you...had Alpha in you. I can’t explain it. It was strange and your eyes... they were glowing. Drake doesn’t submit easily, even to me and I’m going to be his Alpha but when you yelled and your eyes started changing…he submitted. Do you know why that happened Lexi?” Jax asks me as he looks down at my hair in his fingers avoiding my gaze.

I can’t tell them about the fact that I can heal or better yet that I just discovered that I can also cause harm, I don’t know why all this is happening to me and the less people that know about it... the better.

“I was so angry Jax; I don’t think I’ve ever been that angry in my life. I though Drake slept with her and I just felt so disgusted because we were intimate the evening I came back. I guess I was under the impression he hooked up with her then he was trying to get with me. I was embarrassed and shocked and you know my eyes tend to change colour but it most probably just looked extra shiny because of the huge bonfire.” I try and explain to him.

I look up to meet his eyes and see pain covering his face, I instantly know why that look was there,  I just told him I was
intimate
with Drake.

Fuck…

“What do you mean you were
intimate
with him?” Jax says clearing his throat and avoiding the rest of my explanation.

“We never had sex Jax.” I say avoiding the glare his perfect emerald eyes are giving me.

“And that’s okay?” his tone changes and his voice deepens. “You wana know how many girls I’ve been with since I’ve met you? NONE! I know we aren’t together but seriously Lexi, do you honestly think I’m going to stick around while you shack up with him? Is it that hard for you to fucking keep your legs closed?” he runs his hands through his hair as he sits on the side of the bed looking away from me, I don’t know what to say or do while he goes on with his mean rant.

“I’m done waiting for you Lexi while you act like a slut with him.” Jax says harshly, sitting up with his legs over the side of the bed.

I can’t believe he just said that, he’s never been that mean to me, ever. I close the magazine, sit up and wipe the tears from my face, his eyes widen when he see’s my face. His angry face instantly looks regretful as he frowns.

“Lexi…fuck…wait…” he says looking back to me running his hands through his hair.

I don’t say anything as I make my way out of his room ignoring him as he calls my name.

Even though what he said hurt me deeply…it was all true. I was acting like a slut, getting intimate with Drake sexually and getting intimate with Jax in a completely other way. This is not me, I’m not this person who strings guys along as if it’s some sick game and I sure as hell never acted this way before.
What the fuck is wrong with me!
I know I want Jax but I need Drake too.

I’m just not sure who I need more…

It’s my last day in Point Bright, tomorrow I move back to Alex and Johnny’s. Avoiding Jax these last couple of days has been horrible and I’ve also been avoiding Drakes sexual attempts, I know he's probably horny as hell because he’s constantly touching me and passing sexy comments. He’s also become more possessive, wanting to rip apart any of the guys that look at me wrong.

The others obviously see the tension between Jax and I because we don’t talk to each other and we don’t spend as much time with each other like we used to, but no one has mentioned anything to me about it and I’m thankful because I’m not sure what could even be said. What he said to me was horrible but true and I’ve just been too ashamed to face him.

These past few days that I haven’t had contact with him have been driving me insane, I’m miserable and constantly sad, Drake hasn’t noticed because I’m good at hiding it but Ronny asked me about it a couple of days ago and I just said that I was going to miss them. I guess that was true, I haven’t seen Jax around so I guess he was probably making good on his word about not waiting around for me anymore.

Guess I can’t really blame him…

It’s killing me knowing that Jax is probably sleeping with other girls because of my stupidity and because I was such a coward not telling him how I felt about him and not letting Drake know about how strongly I felt for Jax. I know I have no right to be jealous and I definitely don’t have the right to be selfish and expect him not to be with other girls when I have a boyfriend. Even though I know I have no right, I am jealous and I want to be selfish.

I roll in bed at night with these thoughts consuming me, the more I think about it…the more I want to leave Point Bright and get as far away from him as possible. Maybe the further away I get…the less I will think about him.

Doubt it...

Tonight Drake took me out for a romantic dinner so we could spend time alone on my last night here. The date was perfect and I had a great time with him. We arrived back at house after midnight and I was so exhausted, the house was dark and everyone was asleep so I got dressed and made my way to my bed where Drake was already tucked in. 

I climb in bed not facing him hoping tonight he won’t bug me about getting some action like he’s done every night since the argument with Jax.