Unfinished Hero 03 Raid (41 page)

“Rachelle’s Café, Grand Goddess of Cuisine and All Things Gastronomical, Rachelle
speaking. How can I help you?” his sister answered.

Normally this would make him laugh or at least smile.

He did neither.

“Rache, Hanna there yet?” he asked.

“And hello and how are you, too?” she answered.

“Rache. Is. Hanna. There. Yet?” he repeated.

She was silent then, with zero attitude, “Yeah.”

He put the car in gear, checked his mirrors then moved back onto the road, ordering,
“Call Mom. Get her down there. After you do that, go to Hanna and find a way to get
Clay from her. I’ll be there in ten.”

“What’s wrong?”

“I wanna tell my wife first. Call Mom and get my son.”

Another silence then, “Okay, Raid.”

“Thanks, Rache.”

He disconnected and did as promised, parking in the lot at the end of town, jogging
across the street and down the block. He was there in ten.

Rachelle had done as asked, not that he questioned she would. She was sitting with
Hanna at a table by the window, cuddling Clay close, bent over her nephew, cooing.

His eyes went to Hanna to see her eyes on him, smiling.

“Hey, sweetheart,” she called.

Christ, he fucking loved it when she called him sweetheart.

And he fucking hated what he had to do.

He didn’t move from the door and crooked a finger at her.

Her brows drew together, her smile got bigger and she looked at Rachelle. Muttering
something he couldn’t hear that made Rache give her a smile she didn’t fully commit
to, Hanna got up and moved to him.

The instant she was close enough, he reached out, grabbed her hand and pulled her
out the door.

“What on earth? Have you gone loopy?” she asked his back as he dragged her down the
street.

“Hush a minute, baby.”

“Whatever,” she murmured then finished, “Macho man, loopy.”

He wanted to smile at that
,
too.

He didn’t.

He looked both ways, led them across the street and to his Jeep. Once there, he turned
her, pushed her into its side and closed in.

She blinked
and
looked around, got the wrong idea and her face changed as her eyes lifted to his.

“You know, we’re married now so I think it’s okay if you kiss me in public even if
you’re in the mood to taste me,” she informed him. “Though I’ll also remind you that
even when we weren’t married and just living in sin, you had no problem doing that
,
so this has got me a little confused.”

Raid lifted his hands to either side of her neck, bent deep and whispered, “Hold onto
me.”

Her eyes moved over his face. She finally read it and he knew it when her body tensed.
Without further hesitation, she lifted her hands and curled her fingers into his jacket.

“What’s happening?” she asked, her eyes now anxious, her voice holding a tremble.

“Honey…” he started then clipped, “
fuck.
”

She jerked his jacket out then in. “Raid
—
”

He slid his hands up to her jaw, got closer and laid it out fast, “Got a call from
the visiting nurses. Fran went there this morning and found Miss Mildred passed away
in the night.”

Pain seared through him as he watched th
at
same pain blister over his wife’s expression leaving it stricken, pale
and
vulnerable.

And agonized.

Fuck yeah, he hated having to do this to her.

Hanna pushed through his hands and planted her face in his chest, her arms going tight
around him.

Raid gathered her closer, bent his neck and whispered into the top her hair, “I’m
so sorry, honey. I’m so
fucking
sorry, baby.”

She didn’t say anything.

But she did hold on tight
,
even as she started trembling.

“Mom’s comin’ to the café. We’re gonna get Clay
and go home. She or I’ll stay with you and the other will go deal with shit,” he shared.

Hanna said nothing.

“I’ll call your folks when we figure out who’s doin’ what,” he continued.

Hanna still said nothing.

“Baby, look at me,” he urged.

She didn’t move.

Raid lifted a hand to her jaw, trying to force it away so he could see her face
,
but she pressed deeper into him so he stopped.

“Hanna
—
”

“He won’t remember,” she told his chest.

“What, honey?”

“Clay. He’s named after a man he’ll never meet and he’ll grow up and won’t remember
that she told him the lightning story.”

Raid closed his eyes, wrapped his arm around her again and held her tight.

With no room to move, his wife still managed to burrow deeper.

“We can’t ever let him forget,” she said.

“We won’t let him forget,” Raid promised.

“We can never let him forget.”

“We’ll never let him forget.”

Hanna held on.

So did Raid.

Silence ensued.

His wife broke it.

“She thought you were the cat’s pajamas,” Hanna told him.

He fucking loved that.

But Raid said nothing.

“She also told me she thought you were the bee’s knees,” she continued.

He fucking loved that
,
too.

Raid again said nothing.

Finally, her voice broke when she whispered, “She was always right.”

Raid slid a hand into her hair and held her cheek close to his chest as she poured
her grief into his sweater.

Through her tears, she shared, “This is okay. Even Grams would think being in your
arms was an okay place for a Boudreaux to cry.”

Raid closed his eyes and kept holding tight.

When she quieted, he led his wife to his sister’s café
and
shared the miserable news with his family
. H
is mother took off to deal with things, he got his son and Raid took his family home.

Though, at Hanna’s request, they made one stop.

He left his wife and son waiting in the Jeep while he went into Miss Mildred’s house
to pick up Spot.

* * * * *

One month later…

Raid moved through the house to the front door.

He pulled it open
and
pushed out the storm door, stepped on the front porch, turned right and stopped dead.

There was Hanna. In a wool sweater, scarf wrapped around her neck, wide flannel headband
holding her hair back
,
but wrapped over her ears keeping them warm
.
T
he rest of her
was
wrapped in his black cashmere afghan that she took off their bed
.
T
heir swadd
led son, also under the throw,
was
lying asleep on her chest.

She was in her swing, one leg up and bent, one foot to the porch, swaying them.

His chest burned at the sight.

Her eyes came to his and she smiled.

His chest eased.

He walked her way and sat in the wicker chair closest to them.

“Sick of winter
.
I want my bike,” she informed him once he settled in.

“Time to plan a vacation to a beach,” he replied.

“A beach where they have places to rent bikes,” she amended
,
and he grinned.

He’d give her that.

He’d give Hanna Miller anything.

Her eyes dropped to his mouth and her lips tipped up.

That lip tip meant she knew he’d give her anything.

Then she turned her head, bent her neck and touched those smiling lips to the baby
beanie covering Clay’s head.

After that, her gaze moved to the yard.

Raid stretched out his legs, crossed them at the ankles and didn’t take his eyes off
his wife and child.

They stayed that way for a while. Silent. Comfortable. Together.

Hanna broke the quiet.

“It was a dare,” she announced.

“Come again?” he asked.

She didn’t move her eyes from the yard when she answered, “I’ve been thinking about
it and figured it out. She knew what I’d do when she told me you were dangerous.”

Raid felt his shoulders tense.

“What?” he asked.

Finally, her eyes came to his. “Grams. She loved you. She respected you. She wanted
me to have you. She knew exactly who you were. She knew everything. And she was worried
I might not go the distance. So she warned me off you
,
knowing the minute she did I would not back down. She did this by scaring the pants
off me then telling me that if I saw it through, I’d know nothing sweeter in my whole
life,” she snuggled Clay closer before she rocked his world, “than the love you’d
give to me.”

Raid held her eyes.

“She was always right,” Hanna finished
,
and that burn came back into his chest.

Fuck.

Fuck,
but he loved his wife.

And he missed her great-grandmother.

“Raiden?” she called even though his eyes were locked on her.

“Right here, baby,” he answered quietly.

“I figure she thought she knew something else and I have to know if she was right
about that too.”

“What?” he asked.

“Only you can answer,” she told him.

“What is it, honey?”

She gave it to him.

“She knew you’d know nothing sweeter than the love I give to you.”

Jesus, fuck.

“Was she right?” Hanna asked.

Raid held her eyes.

Then he unfolded his body from his chair, taking her in swaying on her porch swing
with his son held close to her chest, wrapped up in h
ome, warmth, comfort, nurture.

Love.

He got near
and bent deep, put his face close to hers, looked into her pretty blue eyes and curled
a hand around the side of her head.

Only then did he reply,
“Absolutely.”

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Author’s Note

Readers of the Unfinished Heroes Series and loyal readers of my books will note that
in
Raid
, I revisited a theme I have touched on before in other books, including the first
book in this series,
Knight.

This theme being Hanna’s issues with her figure, primarily her stomach.

In the editing phase of this book, my editor, Chas
,
and I discussed this repetition and I thought long and hard about deleting references
to Hanna’s “pouch” and the two scenes in Chapter 13
,
“That Kind of Love”
,
that explored Hanna’s hang-ups with her body and Raid’s response.

In finalizing this book, I found that, even though I was aware of this repetition
and my readers would certainly notice it, I could not delete it.

I’ll explain why.

First, I need to go where my characters take me and Hanna had a variety of lingering,
though vague, issues regarding Raid’s attraction to her after she crushed on him so
long. It was important that Raid have the opportunity to sweep these away, one by
one.

Second, there was a nuance of difference regarding this theme in this book as it manifests
itself during sex when Hanna adjusted Raid’s lovemaking unconsciously in order to
take his attention away from a part of her body that she disliked.

It’s a sad fact of life that many women have hang-ups about their bodies and these
can manifest themselves during intimacy in not very good ways. At best, it can inhibit
the experience for them
and
their partner. At worst, it can take them out of “the zone” so what is being shared
isn’t all it could be or even not enjoyed at all.

I have many heart’s desires and one of them is the slim chance that my books will
guide women to accepting themselves as they are, having confidence in their bodies,
brains and beauty and letting all that poison go so they can enjoy their lives, including
sexually. I know I’m drilling this home by repeating this theme. But I decided it
was important enough to do it. So I left those bits in.