The Scars of Us (23 page)

“No problem, baby. I rented some movies for us—which one do you want to watch first,” I asked as I held them out for her to see.

Her lips bunched to one side as she looked over the DVDs. She decided on an action flick, which surprised me, but she surprised me on a regular basis. I never knew what to expect with her, and I loved that.

Kaiya cuddled into my side after I started the movie. About ten minutes in, she started trailing her fingers under my shirt, lightly tracing the ridges of my abs. Just that small touch was causing my dick to harden. She ventured lower, making my breathing slightly erratic as her delicate fingers played under the waist of my jeans.

“What are you doing, baby?” My hand skimmed under the hem of her dress, rubbing the delicate skin of her inner thigh.

“Nothing,” she replied sweetly as she peered up at me, giving me a flirty smile.

“Oh, yeah?” Shifting her on to my lap, I rubbed my hands along the curves of her hips to her ass, squeezing the soft flesh lightly as I pressed her against me.

Her breath caught right before our lips met. Wrapping my arms around her, I pulled her tighter against me as I parted her lips with my tongue, letting her sweetness flood my mouth. I doubted I could ever get enough of her taste. She really was my addiction, making me want more and more.

Rising off the couch, I took us to my bedroom. My plan was in full swing as I set Kaiya on the bed. This wasn’t just about breaking her rules—this was about getting her to open up to me, to connect with her on a deeper level. I wanted her to trust me with her body, let me show her how it was meant to be touched.

I pulled down her dress as she simultaneously tugged my shirt over my head. Laying her back on the bed, I trailed light kisses down her body, hoping to ease her into letting go, into losing herself in pleasure. I wanted to erase the memories constantly tormenting her, to replace her pain with happiness.

She squirmed under my lips as I ventured down, hooking my thumbs under her lacy thong as I pressed more kisses on her lower abdomen. Looking up at her, locking our eyes, I slid her panties off as I traced her skin with my tongue.

Once she was completely naked in front of me, I admired her bare form.
Fuck, she’s gorgeous.
She had no idea how beautiful she was, how she caused an eruption of desire within me that was unmatched by anyone else. I wanted to show her exactly how she made me feel.

“Can I taste you, baby?” I pressed a soft kiss to her inner thigh.

Holding her gaze, I placed another kiss on the inside of her other thigh. She looked uncertain, unsure about giving me trust over her body. I wanted to shatter that doubt, reassure her that I only wanted to cherish her, not hurt her. “I won’t hurt you, baby.”

Using my lips to caress her skin, I traveled back up until I reached her mouth. Hovering over her, snug between her thighs, I darted my tongue out to trace her soft, lush lips before slipping my tongue inside.

A moan escaped her, vibrating the inside of my mouth as our tongues laced together. I pressed my erection against her bare, wet pussy, eliciting another sound of pleasure from her as she arched against me. I had to resist the urge to unbutton my jeans and sink into her right then, but I was on a mission
, one that would hopefully bring us closer together.

Breaking the kiss to nibble her bottom lip, I gruffly spoke, “Fuck, you taste so good. I bet your pussy tastes even better. Lemme taste you, baby.”

Whimpering, she writhed beneath me, shaking her head ‘no’ as I dragged my tongue along her jawline before sucking her earlobe into my mouth.

Shifting down, I moved my lips over her collarbone, pressing soft kisses as I continued lower. Reaching her breasts, I sucked one of her nipples into my mouth and played with it with my barbell. She jerked underneath me, fisting the sheets as I sucked her tits.

I moved to the other nipple before teasing it with my tongue. More moans escaped her as I repeated, “Let me taste you, Warrior. Let me show you how good I can make you feel.”

After a few seconds, she finally groaned, “Yes, yes, yes.”

Yes.
I trailed my mouth back down, back between her thighs. I wanted to take things slow, wanted to savor Kaiya while crushing her fears and doubts.

Slowly, I traced my tongue along the outside of her delicate center before flicking her clit with it. Sucking the sensitive skin into my mouth, I slowly sank two of my fingers inside her tight opening. Her hands tugged my hair as she arched against my fingers, pulling them deeper within her.

After several seconds, I swapped my fingers for my tongue, thrusting it inside her snug entrance.

Her hands tightened in my hair as she pushed at me, crying softly, “Stop. Please, stop.”

The pain in her voice immediately halted my actions. I sat up on my knees to look at her, and saw that tears were trickling down her face. I felt like a bucket of ice water had been dumped on me.
Fuck, I didn’t want this to happen.
“Baby, what’s wrong?” I asked as I moved from between her legs to by her side.

Sitting up, she brought her legs to her chest and wrapped her arms tightly around them. “I’m sorry,” she sobbed as she buried her face in her knees.

I rubbed her back in gentle circles. “Ky, look at me. Talk to me, baby.”

Peeking at me, she inhaled deeply before saying, “He… he used to do that to me. I… I can’t.”

Running a hand through my hair, I blew out a breath. I didn’t want her to think about him, about what he did to her. All I wanted was to take away her memories of him, replace them with better ones, make it so she never hurt again.

“Ky, I know this is hard for you. I know that he hurt you, that he mistreated your body. I don’t want to do that, baby. I want to erase what he did by showing you that your body was made to be cherished, not abused.”

She propped her head on her arms as she stared at me, sniffling before she replied, “Some scars can never be erased.”

“Lemme try, Warrior,” I urged.

Exhaling, she replied, “I don’t know, Ryker. I-”

“We’ll take it slow—if you feel overwhelmed at any point, just tell me, and I’ll stop. I stopped when you asked me a few minutes ago, right?”

“You promise?” she softly asked, locking our eyes again. I knew this was huge for her, to be able to trust someone not to hurt her. I wanted to kill that fucking bastard for doing whatever he did to her, making my warrior afraid of being intimate with someone.

I looked into those beautiful, blue eyes. “I promise, Ky.”

Leaning in, I gently pressed my lips to hers as I cradled her face in my hands. Laying her down on the bed, I separated our mouths to feather kisses over her face and neck, leaving no area untouched by the soft touch of my lips.

Using the tips of my fingers, I lightly caressed her skin as my mouth followed. I ventured down over her tits and stomach before kissing her hips and thighs, avoiding her pussy.

Descending down her body, I enjoyed the taste and feel of her supple flesh. I stopped to massage her legs as I placed kisses on the inside of her ankle before switching to the other. Retreating back up, I ran my hands along her skin, causing her to writhe under my touch.

I spread more kisses along the sensitive area of her inner thighs, eliciting moans of pleasure from Kaiya. Nearing closer to her pussy, I dragged my tongue along the tender skin before stopping at the juncture between her thighs. “Do you want me to stop, baby?” I murmured huskily. I sure as hell didn’t want to, but I didn’t want her to feel forced. I’d never force a woman to do anything she didn’t want to.

She only moaned incomprehensibly, lost in passion. I softly kissed her clit a couple of times before repeating my question. “Do you want me to stop?”

“No,” she cried out, her voice thick with desire.

Yes.

My lips curved as my tongue darted out to taste her again. Her body jerked slightly as her hands found my head and brought me into her pussy. Kneading her thighs, I began to slowly devour her, my tongue dancing inside her.

My fingers found her clit, deftly massaging the bundle of nerves as my tongue played with it and sucked it in my mouth. A high-pitched moan escaped Kaiya as her body jolted in pleasure again. Her hands tightened in my hair as she pushed me closer against her, her body squirming as she neared climax.

My hands moved around to her ass, gripping the voluptuous flesh and bringing her closer to me as I delved back inside her. The more I had of her, the more I wanted, the taste of her sweet pussy feeding my addiction, intensifying my desire for her.

Her thighs tensed and trembled along with the rest of her body as she moaned in orgasm. I eagerly consumed her sweetness as it flooded my mouth, savoring the evidence of the pleasure I gave her.

Trailing kisses back up her slender torso, my hands caressed the curves of her body before I finally stilled, hovering over her. Lidded with desire, her eyes met mine as she seductively smiled, raking her hands down my abs before stopping at my jeans.

I held her gaze as I ground my erection against her. “Did you like that, baby?

Her hands began to fumble with my jeans as she bit her lip and nodded. Voice throaty with arousal, she answered, “Yes. I want you inside me, now.”

I wanted to plunge my dick deep inside her, fill her until she repeatedly cried out my name, but I loved teasing her, loved unraveling her until she was overcome with desire.

“Oh yeah, baby? How bad do you want me?” I asked before grazing her nipple with my teeth.

Her hand slipped inside my jeans before grabbing my cock. “So bad,” she moaned.

“You want me to fuck you, baby?” I murmured against her tit before sucking it into my mouth.
Fuck, she tastes so good.

“Yes,” she moaned, arching against me. I nipped at her breasts as she pulled my dick out and slid my pants down with her feet.

Guiding me with her hand, she pressed my cock against her slick opening.

“You’re so wet for me,” I growled as I rocked against her.

When she wrapped her legs around me, pulling me to her, urging me to enter her, I couldn’t contain myself anymore. Gripping her hips, I thrust inside her, sinking my cock deep within her pussy as I captured her mouth with mine.

Kaiya’s nails dug into my back as I pounded in and out of her. Moving my hands to her ass, I lifted her upwards. Her pussy clenched tighter around my dick from the slight movement. Her moans increased with each of my strokes. Finding orgasm, her body shuddered as she cried out my name, waves of pleasure finally overtaking her.

As she throbbed around me, I could feel my release approaching. I moved my hands around to spread her thighs, burying myself further inside her.

Pulling out, I shot my cum on Kaiya’s breasts and stomach, loving how it looked on her flawless skin. I rolled off next to her before catching my breath and getting up to grab a towel for her.

As I stood at the edge of the bed, her gaze had traveled to my dick, and the lustful look in her eyes caused me to get hard again. “You want more, baby?”

She bit her bottom lip as she nodded. I was on her within seconds, and I spent the rest of the night showing her how her body was meant to be worshiped.

I left Ryker’s at around three in the morning. He wanted me to stay, but I’d already broken one of my rules for him, and that was enough for me for one night. It scared me how easy it was for me to break them for him, but I was happy for once in my life, and I wanted to focus on that and all the other wonderful things Ryker made me feel.

My whole body felt amazing, like I had a full body massage that released all the stress and tension plaguing me. Ryker was definitely gifted, and he spent so many hours showing me exactly how talented he was. The way his rough hands were able to caress me so softly, how he used that delicious mouth to please me so expertly, and how every movement was used to show me how my body should’ve been treated all along blew my mind.

I slept late Saturday, exhausted from my amazing night with Ryker. When I checked my phone, I had several text messages from both Ryker and Bryce. I opened up Ryker’s first, a smile involuntarily spreading over my face as I thought about him.

Ryker: Good morning beautiful

Me: Good morning

About a minute passed before he replied:

Ryker: You free today?

My fingers started typing my reply automatically:

Me: Yes :)

Ryker: Pick you up in an hour?

Me: Ok :)

Before I got out of bed, I looked at Bryce’s message:

Bryce: Haven’t heard from you in a while everything ok?

Me: Yeah I’m good

Bryce: When can I see you again?

Shit.
I needed to tell him that I couldn’t hook up with him anymore, but I felt terrible about it. He’d been there for me when I needed him, understanding when most guys would’ve blown me off. I hesitantly typed the text, but my thumb hovered over the send button. After several seconds, I finally pressed it.