Soul Cry: The Ten Year Girlfriend (6 page)

“ Come here.” he called from across the room. I swung my legs to the side of my bed and grabbed the sheet to wrap around my body.

“ It ain't cold in here. You don't need that sheet.” Roderick said reaching for an ashtray to lay down his blunt. Where did he even get that from? I don't even smoke. Katrina does. Had he been all over our apartment while I'd been asleep? Damn. How long had I been out?

I made my way over to the chaise lounge I had in my bedroom where Roderick had made himself comfortable. I could feel myself begin to melt all over again as  I straddled his lap. His large hands gripped my ass pulling me in close to him, his soft lips latched onto my my now hardened nipples. I could feel myself beginning to drip in anticipation of having him buried deep inside of me once again. My hips began to swirl involuntarily in his lap. I could feel Roderick's thick nine inches hardening beneath me. Our lips quickly found each other and we greedily licked and sucked at one another. I didn't know what it was about this man but my new craving for him was insatiable.

“ Mmmm,Roderick...,” I moaned,he grabbed a fistful of my hair gently yanking it back so my neck was exposed as he ran his teeth and tongue down the length of my neck.

“ Why didn't you wait?” Roderick hissed,his warm breath on my skin only heightened my growing,urgent need for him.

I continued grinding on his lap,my hand automatically reaching for his granite hard dick. The beautiful,bulbous head of his dick was poking out of the band of his boxers, resting against his hard abdomen glistening with the evidence of his arousal for me. I unconsciously licked my lips. My mind flashed to just hours ago when his thickness slid in and out of my throat. I wanted more of the salty,sweet taste of him. I couldn't help but lick my lips. I wanted to taste him again. My body was on ten at the thought of his smooth head between my thighs again.

Before I knew what was happening, I was literally tossed off Roderick's lap. The heat of his hands all over my body was replaced by cold air and he was standing over me glowering. His full lips pressed into a thin line of distaste.

“ You so ready to fuck you can't answer my goddamn question?”

“ Wha...what?” I shook my head in confusion.

“ I asked why didn't you wait?”

I felt like a pitcher of ice cold water had been thrown on me.

Why didn't
I
wait? Why the hell didn't
he
wait? Typical ass man. Trying to hold me to a different standard than him just because I'm a woman. I stood up from the chaise lounge to find something to put on. I definitely didn't want to stand here arguing with him buck ass naked. My mind told me not to sleep with his ass and I should have listened! My stupid heart was the one telling me he was something special and to take a chance. I was in a state of pure shock. How dare he pull this shit. Roderick firmly took hold of my arm preventing me from leaving his side.

“ Stand your ass right here. It ain't like you're shy about being naked. It's a little to late for that don't you think.” he stated the venomous glare still in his eyes.

“ So what? You made the decision just like I did to have sex on the first night now all of a sudden I'm a hoe? A slut. Well you know what Roderick so are you!”

Roderick shook his head at me like I was some dumb child.

“ You would think I'm asking you something as simple as that wouldn't you? I'll bet money all you've dealt with are the kind of men that would ask you why you fucked on the first night huh? Better yet that boy. If you're even telling the truth about only giving him the pussy. Amina do you think another man is going to make you feel like I make you feel? Don't you realize you met the man for you yesterday? Me. I'm the man you should have waited for.” he asked pulling me closer to him placing his hand on my jaw so that I couldn't escape his intense gaze.

“ What are you talking about Roderick? All I know is you have no right to try and judge me...judge your damn self. You're just as wrong as I am.” I said yanking my arm free.

“ I want to know why you didn't wait for me? You should have waited for me Amina.” Roderick screamed punctuating each word with a  jab to his chest.

Oh hell no! This brotha has lost his damn mind. What the hell is he talking about wait for him? He was starting to scare the shit out of me and I'd allowed him to stay at my place. Katrina was off Lord only knew where with his friend Damien.

“ You need to leave. This felt different to me...I thought
you
were different which is what allowed me to be with you tonight. I was wrong.” I said tying my robe around my waist.

“ You weren't wrong. That's why we're here now. Didn't you ever pray for the perfect man to come into your life. A man that was all yours. Made for you? Only you. You never prayed for that Amina?”

“ Oh course I did Roderick. What woman doesn't?” I asked still bewildered by his strange line of conversation. I began slowly making my way to my nightstand. I always laid my cellphone there. I may need to call 911 if he kept this crazy shit up or became violent.

“ So why didn't you wait for me? If you prayed like you just said you did, you should have known I was coming for you. Cause I'm here now... and I wish you'd kept your damn legs closed. The thought of you being with another man,letting another man inside your body is enough to make me sick right now.”

I was floored.

“ You mean to tell me you're asking me why I'm not a virgin? You're not complaining about the fact we slept together on the first night...but that I'm not a virgin period. Are you kidding me Roderick?”

“  Do I look like I'm kidding?That's exactly what the fuck I'm asking you.” he spat. Roderick leaned down and picked up his blunt taking a few long,deep puffs before his eyes landed squarely on me again.

I sat down on my bed looking at him. I should have been scared as hell since he sounded like a complete lunatic to me but I couldn't help but be slightly curious because he looked serious as hell. Did he forget the fact we'd only met hours ago? Yet he expected me to save myself for a man I didn't even know I was ever going to meet? Hell my ex-boyfriend was the man I'd thought would be my future husband and I'd given my all to him,including my virginity. The only reason we broke up is that we simply grew apart. We still spoke often and were the best of friends. I loved his family and they loved me. It was just time for the both of us to move on.

“ Roderick I hardly think judging by the performance you laid on me tonight that you were a virgin. Were you standing around with your dick in your hand, jacking off  waiting until you met me?” I hoped pointing out this small fact would help him get over whatever crazy ideas he had in his head.

“ I'm a man. I didn't need to wait you should have. Fast ass. A man is supposed to be able to sexually please his woman. Which is exactly what I did. Or were you not satisfied?” he asked sliding his boxers down his body and walking towards me.

Roderick pushed me back on the bed and untied my robe. My heart caught in my throat. All my anger about our current line of conversation was flying right out the window. I knew I should be insisting he get the hell out of my apartment. Out of my life while I could hopefully still walk away from him but already ,in one night I didn't have the strength to tell him to leave. My body was responding to him all over again even though my mind still took offense to the things he'd just said to me. 

“ I'm letting you know right here,right now I want you Amina. I  can feel it in my heart, in my bones. My spirit is telling me you're the one for me. That's why I'm tripping like this baby but I know how to fix this.” Roderick said climbing on me like he was a lion and I was his prey. I had no choice but to move onto the middle of the bed in an attempt to put a bit of distance between us. It was killing me inside because all I wanted to do was be close to him. So close I didn't know where I ended and he began.

“ That can't be fixed Roderick. I've only been with one other man if it's any consolation. Marquise was my boyfriend since I was 16 and we were together for four years. We broke up six months ago and you're the
only
man I've been with besides him. So please don't try and make me feel like a whore because I'm not.” I said softly. I was so wet it was embarrassing. Especially since his eyes were glued to my slit and I was getting wetter by the second. I attempted to close my thighs and exhibit a sliver of modesty,even the tiniest shred but Roderick wouldn't let me hide from him. His strong hands held my thighs raised and bent at the knees and spread apart. No escaping him.

“ I'ma make it brand new again.” Roderick said spreading my legs as wide as they would go.

“ Roderick...,” I began but was quickly quieted when he began rubbing the large head of his dick slowly around my lower lips. A shock of electricity coursed through my body and I couldn't contain my moans. Roderick then began slowly and meticulously assaulting my pussy with his dick yet never entered me, his dick issuing demands the entire time. Slapping his thickness all over my pussy until it glistened with my juices.

“ I'm willing to forgive you for not waiting for me but right now,you're going to have to forget every thought,every memory you have of that other nigga. I wont share any part of you with another man. Not if you're my woman. Are you willing to do that Amina?”he asked finally gracing my clit with the head of his dick. Roderick then suddenly pulled away from me slightly and I wanted to scream. I wanted him inside of me so bad  all I could so was grab the sheets in frustration.

“ Roderick please...,”

“ Tell me your mine Amina,all mine. Tell me I ain't gotta ever worry about another nigga diggin' up in my pussy. If you can't promise me that I'm leaving right now. You can see I don't wanna go anywhere,so tell me what I need to hear Amina.” Roderick demanded never once breaking our stare. His hand slowly moved up and down his dick, his thumb grazed the head of his dick my juices were now replaced by his own slowly seeping out.

I couldn't take another second of this slow torture.

“ I'm yours Roderick. All yours.” I quickly raised up and before he could say another word I'd taken his dick in my mouth and tried to swallow him whole. I couldn't think of anything but the fact I wanted him. Badly. My tongue circled the head of his dick before I released him from my mouth and kissed my way up his muscular stomach,I kissed his neck and made his way to his full lips. Our tongues played with one another as Roderick's hands roved all over my body.

“ Bend over.” he commanded,slowly guiding me down and positioning himself behind me. My breath came out hard and fast,I could hardly wait to feel him inside of me. Roderick palmed my ass spreading my cheeks apart.

I felt like I was going to lose my mind if he didn't hurry up and fill me with his thickness. What I felt instead was his long tongue sucking and lapping me from behind.

“ OH SHIT! “ I cried out bucking my ass and fucking his tongue.  Minutes later I was screaming his name as I came harder than I had come earlier with him. I didn't know what was happening to me. Sex with Marquise had never felt like this. I could still feel my pussy contracting as I fell to my stomach trying to catch my breath. Roderick flipped me over and drove his dick inside of me slowly snaking it in and out of me. I grabbed his sinewy arms and held on for dear life.

“ This belongs to me,you better never give my pussy away do you understand? You better not even wonder how another niggas dick feels.” Roderick hissed in my ear never missing a beat as he beat my lower lips into submission.

“ Anytime I want this pussy you better give it to me.  I don't like the word no. I don't give a damn if we fighting and you don't wanna talk to me....yo' ass better fuck me though. Do you understand me Amina?“

All I could do is moan.

“ Answer me Amina. Do you understand?”

“ YES  RODERICK!” I cried out.

My eyes rolled to the back of my head as my body began to convulse and shake as I came again. I screamed out it felt so good. It felt like my body was no longer my own. He had complete control of me and I loved every second of it. Moments later Roderick  let out a moan of his own that matched mine. He collapsed on top of me breathing heavily. I reached up to wipe the fat drops of sweat from his face.

“ I love you Amina.” he whispered as he rolled on his back and fell into a deep sleep. I laid there for hours watching him sleep and in shock. Love? I knew I'd been in lust with him on sight but love? I didn't know about all that but I did know I had to have this man in my life.

* * * *

“ S
o girl you knew this nigga was a fool from the jump!” Shavon said leaning past LaDaya to look at me. “ Your ass was sprung on the dick girl! That's all that was.”

I couldn't help but laugh because she was merely stating the truth. I knew Roderick was a natural fool day one.

“ Yes he did show his ass day one but it was easy for me to over look because I put this on everything, there was never another incident like that again. I mean we had the normal fights like every couple has but nothing too serious. I'll lay my hand on a stack of bibles! We were the perfect couple,everyone told us that.” I said shaking my head.

The driver came over the speaker letting the passengers know we were pulling into St. Louis. I couldn't have been happier, I was looking forward to the next hour off the bus and wanted to call Katrina. I could only imagine Roderick was blowing her phone up as well. I had to admit, I did feel better talking to LaDaya and Shavon about Roderick. It sure beat having all those thoughts running around in my head.

“ Well when we get back on the bus I want you to finish the story girl! I need to know what else happened because I know he had to have shown his ass again! When did he ask you to marry him the first time?” LaDaya said sucking her teeth.

“ I will girl let's just get off this bus! I feel like I'm going stir crazy all cooped up like this.” I said as we filed off the bus with the other passengers. “ I'll see you guys back here. I'm walking across the street to that smoothie shop. Then I'm going to make a few phone calls.”