Shimmers & Shrouds (Abstruse) (12 page)

She smiled and brushed my collar off.  "
Its eleven forty three, take care and drive slow." She blushed crimson again.
This was the girl I could cross seven seas for, or less interestingly, drive back to my hub which was thirty miles away even if it was eleven thirty in the night. I wouldn't do this for any other girl, never.
 ”Oceana―" I struggled to find the right words. “Whatever happened tonight, in the balcony―" I shook my head in disapproval. "I am sorry if you were offended. I shouldn't have done that." I took a deep breath after I was done speaking.
I waited for her to reply. And it happened again ; for the second time in the same night. While I explained her how sorry I was for the kiss just twenty seconds ago, she pulled me in an instant and kissed me once again. I was baffled to death.
" Don't." she whispered in her always seducing tone. She closed the distance between us. I noticed the unusual spark in her eyes; they were full of life, filled with colourful bright shades of happiness. “Don’t you ruin this beautiful feeling that I have from past thirty minutes, you don't have an idea how grateful I am right now." And once again her quivering mouth was on me. It felt heaven to know how beautifully her lips dissolved in mine, like I was the only one who was strong enough to melt her.
I tried to regain myself; this was too much to live with. What happened to the 'one man woman' concept?
"Oceana, wake up." I said, after breaking one of the loveliest kisses.
"I am in my senses ― and I want you." She stared at me desperately and recognized the thirst in my eyes. The thirst which could only be quenched by her.
I moaned, I was losing my mind and I knew the dreadful consequences of it. It was crazy how I controlled my senses when my body was screaming for her. I wanted to make love with her, all the time, and yet I was kicking this desire away.
What was I doing? I have got this rare opportunity to get laid with her like I did in my dreams and I was taking a step back! How ridiculous!
"Orpheus...” She distracted me and I was back in the present, repeatedly reminding myself to maintain some distance.
"I. WANT. YOU." Her hot burning gaze set me on a strange fire. I was burning, and all the emotions that I kept a check on were unleashed. Yes... I wanted to make her mine. All mine.
I grabbed her by the waist and kissed her fiercely. Almost biting the edge of her lips, I had never been so wild in my entire life. She always made me something very new to my knowledge. Around her, I was good cook, a nice helper, a patient friend and tonight, a fierce lover. The lust tore me from the inside. I wanted to love her so badly, luckily, she reflected it back. She felt the same way like I did. I closed the door behind me and took its support to lean back so I could get a better view of her slim, arched body. Yes, this was what I wanted. This was what I needed.' I need her and I am going to need her forever.' I thought.
I scooped her in my arms and carried her to put her on the bed, the muscles in my body tightened with anticipation.
This was better than anything I had desired for. The things I had dreamed, Orpheus, Oceana, and love.
I doubted on the maximum chances of her liking all what I was going to do. But I decided against my brain. It worked way too much. I closed the distance to a few inches, and slipped her strap over the shoulders. She willingly let go off the dress and wrapped her arms around my waist band.
"Will I be anything to you after everything ends?” Her voice shelled the frantic need.
"How About you being my everything?" I bent down to kiss her throat, and smiled. She was my everything, and now, she knew it.
"Sounds promising." She hugged me; skin against skin, wow.... I was mesmerized. This was what her touch could do to me. I was a crazy guy... crazy for her.
"You bet." I gave her a smooch, and both of us collapsed on the bed.
Life was so unpredictable for me since this beautiful lady emerged out of nowhere in it. Before her, it was just me and my career and some hot chicks to have night stands with. But now, I was unsure of the way my life was leading me. I had fallen for her and now my entire universe revolved around her. Exploring her body was something so new to me. With her, it was as if I was making love for the first time in my life. The ecstasy, the thrill, all this longing for her was worth it. She was worth every single risk of my life. I gazed at her beautiful face; I could stare at her for eternity. Everything about her made me crazy from the top. She was mine now. And nothing in the world was going to tear us apart. I was a part of her, and I belonged to her like she belonged to me.

Aura of love.

I woke up, startled by a shocking dream. It took me a bit longer to compose my ragged breathing. Though this nightmare had completely drained out the most beautiful night of my life, I was fortunate enough to reckon the traces of it, like, her hands on my back, my mouth on hers, our love, the touch of her skin against mine and the feeling of being inside her. This night had turned into a beautiful fantasy dream, a dream I never wanted to live without her. And then there was my life to share with her as well.
I smiled at the extent of the sweetness of my own thoughts. I was surely not going to have enough of her.

Unthinkingly I placed my arm on the part of bed she was supposedly sleeping, but her absence blew my senses. I jolted into an upright position and
analyzed the room. The blue couch, brown walls, and a flower vase; of course it was her room. I peeked inside my cover. Yes, I wasn't wearing anything. That meant I hadn't dreamt this up. It had happened, but where was she?
Just then I heard the bathroom door open, and out came Oceana, wrapped in a towel. Water was dripping from her hair and her beautiful body was glowing from all the washing. She didn't look at me, and went inside the other room as soon as she came out. My heart started bubbling with joy and the memories of the last night, that were extremely vivid, came flooding back to me.
I got out of the bed and donned my shirt and jeans. I made my way to the room. She had almost dressed herself in a pair of chocolate hot pants, and was halfway with her dull green strapped top. Her back stiffened when I entered the room, however she didn't stop with her job. I walked towards her held her by the waist, gently planting a kiss on the nape of her neck.
 "Hey, good morning." I whispered, relieved that she was as real as the last night.
"Morning" her voice was dry, but she didn't break free. A greater relief spread across my chest.
I started swaying her giving butterfly kisses on her back. "You have your college today?"
" No its a Saturday." She inhaled.
"Okay." I left her and she straightened herself. Something in the mirror caught my eye. My eyes were brighter, and I had a big grin on my face. There was an entirely different person I was witnessing right now.
"What do you want to eat?" I heard her voice and turned back to see her. She had disappeared into the kitchen. I strode over to her, wow. She was very quick with the vegetables.
"You." I smirked.
She froze in her place, and looked at me with her wide eyes. I winked at her and she eased her stiffened position considerably. Finally there was something I was good at.
A smile washed across her beautiful face."I hope that was possible."
I brushed her back with my hands as I reached for a glass to drink some water."I really wish that was, however I'll be happy to have you in my bed. It's almost the same" I grinned.
"Right now I'll just be happy if you let me know what you would like to have in breakfast." She moved swiftly from the platform to the fridge and took some bell peppers out of it. I spotted a bowl of boiled noodles. Perhaps, I would be fine with some change in my menu.
"Some noodles will just be fine, a glass of orange juice." I put my glass in the sink and stepped back to have a better view of her amazing body. "And a bed full of you." I added.
Oops, I suppose that was pretty shameless.
" I'll be right away with them."
Honestly, I was expecting a more romantic morning. This just wasn't it.
"Have you completed your assignments?" 'Why am I even trying? She is just not into a conversation with me.' I thought.
"I don't see why it bothers you" she stared at me coldly. Well. This was exactly what I was talking about.
"I'm just asking Oceana!" I realized my voice was pitched higher. She was ruining my mood
"Please be quite I am trying to focus" she snapped.
" On what?" I demanded. If she had ruined all of it, I wouldn't be happy to quit the conversation halfway.
" I'm in a mess right now Orpheus and I need peace." She grew calm.
She said she was in a mess. My hands were clenched into fists. Did she mean it was... me? Or was it our.. her first night.
But why would she be in a mess because of me. She wanted that to happen more than I could imagine. Damn. She must have meant me.
"Did I do something?" I asked sadly.
She shook her head in disapproval. "It’s not about you."
Those four words were soothing. But I noticed that my posture wasn't changed much. Perhaps my body knew the answer much better than me. It was all about me.
"Then?" I insisted. I was expecting an answer that would compensate the spoilt morning. She narrowed her eyes at me, what had happened to my chatty Oceana? "I am waiting." I added.
She stopped chopping the onions and put her hands on her waist tilting her head sideways. My favourite posture in the world. I was just crazy for this.
"Orpheus. Please stop annoying." She said curtly.
She turned to face away and continued chopping the vegetables. Oh god, why was she so stubborn?
I reached for her and grasped her hand. She was rooted to the spot again."Now I am annoying you." she softened and gave herself to me, again. I turned her to face me. "Oceana. Tell me. I want to know what's bothering you."
"You can't do anything about it." It sounded as if she was convincing herself more than me.
"Try me."
"You're so stubborn." she murmured. Jesus! That uneven crooked, heart smashing smile. This lady was amazing in every single way.
I tried to be serious. "I know. Now tell me."
The smile disappeared in another moment, like it was never there."You don't own me, I am not your goddamn property Orpheus." She shrugged my hands off her.
"Yes. But you're mine." I wanted to yell at her for being so― insensible, but she was already so distracted that I chucked the idea out of my brain.
"God help me..! Orpheus. Stop being in love. This is exactly why I am annoyed." She pushed me away. I was bewildered. What was making her so anxious?
"I am not being in love, for Christ's sake, Oceana." I frowned.
" Then stop trying to be cheesy. It doesn't suit you." She gawked.
For me, there was always a limit to tolerate something. Even if it was listening to the problems of the only girl I loved.
"What the hell is your problem?" Damn. Please.
"I told you I need peace." she closed her eyes.  I was sure that something was killing her from the inside. My poor girl. "All that has happened last night...I am a little scattered right now. Please Orpheus, I am all nice to you, and I need you to extend me the same courtesy." She begged.
The hell... she needed peace. For what? After stopping her repeatedly, she said those heart melting words that made it difficult for me to stay away, and now that she had lost herself with me, she wanted to examine whether she had taken the right decision. Like it would really create a difference if she found out that she couldn't bring that moment back. It was gone. And she was intelligent enough to understand that very well.
"I don't care whatsoever." I snarled and stalked out of the kitchen. "And If it is about last night"... wow... it was a long beautiful night. "I am sorry, I can't give you your virginity back." I buttoned my shirt, tucked it in and smoothened my hair. "Compose yourself, and call me when you're good. I'll be at your door then."
I picked my coat from the couch and slid my arms through it. I glanced at her. She was leaning on the edge of the couch, at a distance of few short feet. I could have grabbed her and kissed her with all my might if I wasn't extremely mad at her right now.
I buttoned my coat as well and helped myself with the socks.
"Orpheus, don't go." Finally, I heard her speak something that made my heart skip a beat.
I reminded myself that I was really mad at her; this emotional blackmail was not going to work out in any case. But after reaching the door, I hesitated a great deal to open it at nine in the morning. It wasn't a weekday, so obviously the entire neighborhood was going to be out enjoying the sun. That meant MEDIA, and PERSONAL QUESTIONS. I wasn't worried about myself as much as I was worried about her.
Just then I felt a warm hand clasping mine.
"Hey. Stop" She muttered. I noticed her voice cracking at the end.
I sighed. Why was it so difficult to keep my emotions in check around her.?
"It was all my fault. I should have stopped when I had to." I withdrew my hand from hers. I fought off the feeling, this urge to break free from her spell. I knew it wasn't going to work even if I wanted it to, quietly, I reached for the door.
"It wasn't you."

Curse me. I had forgotten
that I gave her the power to have such control over me. I stopped again, on hearing her voice.