SAVAGE LOVE (A Back Down Devil MC Romance Novel) (11 page)

eleven.

Miller gripped the sink and stared
at himself in the mirror.

You couldn
’
t hold back, could you?
You stupid fucking asshole.

He looked down at his dick, still
throbbing, still mostly hard, still glistening with the sweet wetness from Ella
’
s sweet body.

He wanted more. He hungered to
taste her body. Not just her tender and full breasts, but to savor the sweet
flavor between her legs, demanding it be burned into his mind for the rest of
his life.

But it couldn
’
t happen again.

This was a one time event. Nothing
more. Nothing less. Just some shit that had been lingering for years. They
never got their chance to really say goodbye. To talk, to fuck, to walk away
without worry.

So that fuck had been waiting
between them for a long damn time.

Worse than that, it was the best
sex Miller could remember having. No matter the women that came through the
clubhouse, from strippers to
relievers
, nothing compared to the body
that Ella had. Even post pregnancy, the little extra thickness to her hips,
ass, her tits bigger, fuck, it was all beautiful and perfect. There was nothing
goddamn wrong with a woman who carried some curves. They were natural and
worked to Ella
’
s advantage.

Miller looked down at the floor.
His t-shirt, his leather cut. His jeans were down to his ankles, looking like a
damn fool. But he had to hurry away from Ella. If he lingered for another few
seconds, he
’
d be hard again
and back inside her again.

After picking up his jeans, he put
his shirt and leather cut back on. He then crouched down and gathered up Ella
’
s clothing. Her shirt. Her bra.
He held the bra, his thumb running along the red, lacy undergarment. Miller
took a deep breath, gritting his teeth.

He left the bathroom and Ella was
in the bed, covers up to her chin. Miller knew she was fucking topless under
the blanket.

“
Here
’
s the rest of your clothes,
”
he said and dropped the shirt
and bra on the bed.

“
Thanks,
”
Ella said, her cheeks turning
red.

Miller took a seat at the edge of
the bed. He made fists and looked to the right, seeing the end of the little
bed he
’
d made for Beck.

What a fucking situation to be in.

“
This
is dangerous,
”
Ella said.

“
Yeah,
it is. But you have to be safe, darling. Until this all blows over.
”

“
Nothing
is going to blow over,
”
Ella said.

Miller looked at her.
“
It
’
s
all going to change.
”

“
What
’
s happening, Miller?
”

“
What
we used to have isn
’
t there
now. He
’
s changed his mind
on things. Instead of talking to the MC about it, he
’
s formed other alliances. Tried to take out some of
us. Attacked and almost killed Nate. He had a judge involved
…”

“
Jake?
”

“
You
knew?
”

“
They
met a lot. I haven
’
t seen
Jake lately. Is he out?
”

Miller didn
’
t respond. He just swallowed.

“
Jesus
Christ,
”
Ella whispered.
“
He
’
s
…”

“
It
’
s done,
”
Miller said.
“
Club
business. This is something almost out of my hands, darling. You need to
realize that. I
’
m in a
tough spot right now.
”

“
Yeah,
I see that,
”
Ella said.
“
Stuck with your ex-girlfriend
and her baby.
”

Miller laughed.
“
That part I don
’
t mind.
”

“
No?
”

Miller stood from the bed. He
stared at Ella, knowing it was still there. It was up to him now to control it.
To fight the urge off. To keep Ella safe but keep her at a safe distance.
Christ, right now, he could just start peeling the covers down her body.

“
That
can
’
t happen again,
”
Miller said.
“
That
…”

“
I
know. Because I
’
m married.
”

“
I
don
’
t give a fuck about
that. You signed divorce papers. And even if you didn
’
t, when I see something I want, I take it.
”

Ella
’
s
eyes went wide.
“
Yeah
…”

Miller closed in on the bed and
leaned down a little.
“
Whatever
you're going through, darling, I
’
m
here if you need to talk. I won
’
t
push at you though.
”
He
touched her cheek, right at the swollen spot.
“
You
’
ve been through hell tonight.
”

“
And
heaven,
”
Ella said.

Their eyes were locked tight.
Miller wanted to fucking kiss her so bad. He wanted to get right back at it.
Shit, they had years to make up, didn
’
t
they?

No.

Miller pulled away and collected
himself.
“
I have to go take
care of some business. You stay here. Don
’
t
move. I
’
ll have two
prospects outside the door at all times. Nothing is going to happen to you. Or
the little guy.
”

“
Thank
you,
”
Ella said. She
reached out and Miller gave her his hand.
“
I
mean it, Miller. I
’
ve been
so scared. I have no idea
…”

“
Hey,
stop,
”
Miller said. His
fingers rubbed the back of her hand.
“
Just
stop for tonight. You need rest. You
’
re
safe here with me. With the MC. We live and die for the patch, okay? And I
’
m the President of the fucking
club. If I tell someone to put their life on the line for you and the kid, they
will. So shut your damn eyes and sleep.
”

Miller took his hand back and left
the room. Going straight to the bar, Miller found two prospects to send back to
guard the door. He then ordered up a shot and a beer. The shot was good, the
beer cold. Miller pointed to the empty shot glass and he had himself another.

“
Whoa,
”
Gaige said as he approached the
bar.
“
That
’
s, uh, not going to be good.
”

Miller looked at Gaige. He turned
the shot glass upside down and slammed it to the bar.
“
Happy?
”

“
No,
”
Gaige said.
“
We
’
re
at fucking at war with the worst possible enemy. And you brought his goddamn
wife and kid into the clubhouse.
”

“
What
did you think I
’
d do?
”
Miller growled.
“
Kick her ass to the curb?
”

“
Isn
’
t that what she did to you?
”

Miller grabbed Gaige by the neck.
He pushed back and Gaige just went for the ride. Nate and Jace grabbed at
Miller
’
s tree trunk arms
and pulled.

“
Hey,
guys,
”
Jace said.
“
Come on. Talk it out. It
’
s too late for this shit.
”

“
You
don
’
t fucking talk like
that,
”
Miller said to
Gaige.
“
Ever.
”

“
I
’
m sorry,
”
Gaige said.
“
Tensions
are high, bro.
”

Miller pushed away from Gaige and
shook away the other guys.
“
Conference
room. Now.
”

Miller then got his beer and opened
the door to the conference room. It was a casual meeting, nobody needing to sit
down. No need for the gavel and all the MC formality bullshit right now. This
was a time of war and Miller was going to make sure everything was going to
keep charging forward.

“
First
thing I want to know is if the problem out there has been taken care of,
”
Miller said.

“
Yes,
”
Blaine said.
“
I took care of what you wanted.
Body is buried. Head and cut put out there. I
’
m
sure Coast Road has found it by now.
”

“
Good,
”
Miller said.
“
Be ready for some kind of
retaliation.
”

“
Think
they will?
”
Nate asked.

“
I
doubt it,
”
Gaige said.
“
They
’
ll retreat and figure something else out.
”

“
If
they do, we
’
ll be ready,
”
Miller said.
“
They
’
re the muscle behind Jerry
’
s push at this.
”

“
He
just wants to deal some drugs and make money, right?
”
Landon asked.

“
That
’
s what he says,
”
Miller said.

“
Then
why fuck with all this?
”
Landon asked.

“
Because
he
’
s greedy,
”
Blaine said.
“
Because he knows our MC is
stronger than his entire police department. We have more power, more respect,
and more ability. We don
’
t
abide by the law.
”

“
Truth,
”
Gaige said.

“
This
is about protection now,
”
Miller said.
“
We have to
protect ourselves and this entire club. He
’
s
not going to divide and conquer. We will wait him out and find the right time
to strike.
”

“
How
long?
”
Nate asked.
“
I know me and Griffin tangled
more than once
…”

“
His
death will be avenged,
”
Miller said.
“
We all knew Griffin and we all knew he was a patient and anal man.
”

“
I
love anal,
”
Blaine said.

“
Christ,
”
Jace said.

“
Taking
it?
”
Gaige asked with a
smile.

“
Hey,
”
Blaine said pointing two
fingers holding a cigarette at Gaige.
“
I
tried something a few times, okay? Each time was with a woman and she was the
one
…”

“
Goddammit,
”
Miller said.
“
I don
’
t want to hear any of this.
”
He sighed.
“
What
I
’
m explaining is that Griffin was a patient and understanding man. A lot of us are hot heads and would have
pulled the trigger already. I don
’
t
know what happens after the reaper gets us and our bodies are thrown into the
ground. Maybe Griffin is floating around above us. Maybe he
’
s watching us.
”

“
Jesus,
I hope not,
”
Blaine said.
“
If he saw what I just did
to some
reliever
in the bathroom
…”

“
We
wait,
”
Miller bellowed over
Blaine.
“
We fucking wait.
Jerry is trying to be mentally strong. We
’
re
stronger. The second he is officially broken, that
’
s when we strike.
”

Silence moved through the entire
room. Miller could see it in their eyes. They all fucking knew about Ella and
Beck being in the clubhouse. They were probably all gossiping about it like a
bunch of teenage girls.

“
Yeah,
I took in his wife and kid,
”
Miller said.
“
Anyone have a
problem with that?
”

Gaige waved his hand. Landon and
Erik did the same.

“
Sorry,
”
Erik said.
“
It
’
s
just
…”

“
I
appreciate the honesty. I won
’
t
punish you for being true. But nobody here understands the situation. And I
’
m asking you as my brothers and
commanding you as the President of this MC that you all respect her and make
sure she
’
s safe. Jerry is
an unstable man. And he
’
ll
kill her. And the kid. I don
’
t
need that shit on my conscience. Bad enough I
’
ve
had to bury a brother.
”