Postcards (44 page)

Start with the inside. The refrigerator noise. Like a jet taking off in the kitchen fifty times a day. The radio. The television. Music, the tapes and records. The damn VCR. The electric shaver. The roaring gurgle of the toilet. The water coming out of the faucets. The pump. The pump was bad. The freezer. The fan. The computer’s sickening hum and its chirping alarm. The clock by the bed. Tick. Tick. The energy-conserving automatic switch at 5:00 P.M. The flies knocking against the ceiling. The birds that smashed into their own reflections in the windows. The wind. No, the wind was an outside noise. Mice in the walls. Sounded like a western town, Mice-in-the-Walls, Montana. O.k., that was it for the inside.

Now the big problems. Outside. The trailer park. Cacophonous symphony of slamming doors. Shouting women, children crying and calling. Saturday afternoon target practice. Assorted trucks, cars, motorcycles, snowmobiles, three-wheelers, ATVs. Fifty, a hundred barking dogs. Men laughing, whatever the hell they found to laugh at. The carillon. Radios. And on the road below the trailer park the mailwoman’s truck, the UPS man. Log trucks, oil trucks, gas trucks, lumber trucks, milk trucks. Federal Express, the sheriff, fat Buddy Nipple going to the coon dog trials with his pickup full of howling contestants. The traffic.

Buddy Nipple leaning over the counter toward him, taking the money for the six-pack. ‘Yup! Yip! Haya! Yup! O.k.! You got it! You bet! You’re a good man! Wanna bag? O.k.! You bet!’

The planes overhead. Thousands of them every day. Jets and fighters, new pilots wobbling their way over him, the commercial flights taking a bead on Montreal a hundred miles north. And the helicopters. State police looking for marijuana plots. Game wardens looking for deerkills.
Fire spotters looking for smoke and burning. Christ! Yup! Yup! You bet!

And the birds. Do not forget the birds, he told himself. The loud, repetitive bird shrills and buns. Twittering buzzing over and over. The crickets, cicadas, cicadas with the terrible droning. The night heron’s shriek. In March the squalling of cats. The seasonal clanking of geese up and down his corridor of air. The sound of air through leaves, the falling leaves crashing his breathing like heavy wind fingers tapping deafeningly on the table … What’s thaaaat? That riiinght? Yup! Yup!

Beyond these maddening noises that wouldn’t let him concentrate on anything, on anything at all, there was the wind. The wind up here never quit, shook the house. And the rain, the rain against the windows, on the roof. Then hail and snow and thunder. At night the howling of cats and coyotes.

He was ruined. He was pretty sure he was ruined. You bet! Filth was washing up around him. Yup! He walked along a washed-out road that went nowhere, smelled filth, found a decaying pig’s carcass. Crows had pecked the eyes out. The skin pecked into pebble finish. Loosened reddish hair on the ground in sheets. The crows had been at the culvert. Inside he could see the rib cage crammed tight into the ridged metal. The guts pulled away by something. Wanna get on the road! Read the bumper stickers! Yup! That’s riiight! A hawk screamed.

He opened the beer, sat in front of his television set. The screen was blue. Then filled with purple-skinned powdered young men sitting in chairs. Gold crosses hung around their necks. A man, insane but calculating, sat before them on a wooden throne. He wore a leather jacket and was reading aloud an article on ants. Every few minutes he would put down the magazine, cluck his tongue and say that the ants were just like certain church people he knew; always cutting leaves. Yup! Kevin opened all of the cans of beer and lined them up before him. How long had he been here? Six weeks? Six years? He was ruined. Yup! Yip! He changed the channel to the porno station and watched simulated intercourse, watched a blonde whore with a big loose blue tongue like a steer’s lap at a man. Or something like a man.

Drove to the store for beer. Buddy leaned over the counter toward him to take the money. Swollen hand sliding down the counter. Forearm the size of a thigh. Foreskin like a banana peel. Black teeth. ‘Yup! Yip! Haya! Yup! O.k.! You got it! You bet! You’re a good man! Wanna bag? O.k.! You bet!’

On the way back he made a wrong turn and bounced through the rutholes of the trailer park. He went up and down the muddy lanes unable to find his way out. He turned and turned past burned-out trailers, past rolls of wire, a reeling man with hair like broken cement, pants soaked in piss. The trees were like pipes. The sky was an X ray. A purple plastic horse on springs in the fireweed. A needle. Crystal. Red water. The trailers were packed closer and closer together. Overhead a jet roared. Yellow-eyed dogs on chains. In the doorways women holding beer cans or cigarettes or babies. Watching him. He drove faster, the car swung in the greasy ruts. The exit loomed suddenly as if hands had raised it from the ground for him. Men leaned on fenders, the clefts of their buttocks visible above the oily pants. The jet shook their beer cans.

He drove up the hill. The jet trail filled the windshield. The noise unbearable. And at the camp ran inside for the rifle. A silvery capsule at the head of the vomiting trail. He pulled the trigger. Again. Again.

You bet! You bet!

58
What I See

Loyal, rolled up in something, seeing through closed eyelids. The stiffening lungs seize, the heart is drowning.

The Indian’s book falls open. He is astonished to see the pages are the great, slanting field. At the top of the field a black scribble of trees, a wall. And through waves of darkening he sees the wind streaming down the slope of land, rolling down the grass, the red awns combing the sunlight, flashing needle stems, the close-stitched earth, the root, the rock.

Acknowledgments

I am grateful for financial support during the writing of this book from The Vermont Council on the Arts and from The Ucross Foundation of Ucross, Wyoming.

I appreciate the help given me by librarians at Dartmouth College Libraries in Hanover, New Hampshire, and The Sheridan County Fulmer Public Library in Sheridan, Wyoming.

Many people eased the passage of this story with time, advice, money, lunch, garden help, encouragement, silence, barbecue, music. Thank you Roberta Roberts, Tom Watkin, Elizabeth Guheen, Laurent Gaudin, Lois Gill, Abigail Thomas, Bob Jones, Gordon Farr, John Glusman, Ernie Hebert. Special thanks to my editor, Barbara Grossman, and to my sons, Jonathan, Gillis and Morgan Lang.

By the same author

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Praise for
Postcards:

‘Annie Proulx has come close to writing “The Great American Novel”’

New York Times

‘Postcards feels like a fifth or sixth novel, not a first. Language that sizzles like meat in a pan … A wonderful writer and an astonishingly accomplished novel’

Chicago Tribune

‘Her first novel fulfils the promise of her short stories … hugely ambitious … The natural description is superb. The dialogue has a raspy bony twang to it. She pushes language to breaking point … a gifted prose stylist who renders her characters on the page to mesmerzing effect’

San Francisco Chronicle

‘The author’s literary ancestors range from Edith Wharton to Nathaniel West. But Proulx sees the grand side too … She sees every part of the national configuration and wraps every character here in a crazy-quilt of literary affection’

Los Angeles Times

‘Postcards triumphantly delivers. You could use the word “great” about Postcards without embarassing yourself’

Boston Globe

‘Rich, boisterous, remarkable … Annie Proulx draws characters who matter’

Washington Times

Also By Annie Proulx

Fine Just the Way It Is

Wyoming Stories

Annie Proulx returns to the Wyoming of
Brokeback Mountain
and the familiar cast of hardy, unsentimental prairie folk. The stories roam over centuries, and capture the voices and lives of the settlers this sagebrushed and weatherworn country has known: from the native Indian tribes to the modern-day ranch owners and politicians, and their cowboy forebears.

Bold, elegant and memorable, these stories of a brutal and magnificent landscape one again confirm Annie Proulx as one of the most talented short story writers.

‘Heartbreakingly beautiful’

Daily Telegraph

‘If more people could write short stories like this, the novel would indeed be in serious trouble’

IRVINE WELSH
,
Financial Times

‘Prepare to be delighted by this … To read her descriptions of the West is to fall hopelessly and inescapably in love’

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