Nowhere Child
Nowhere Child
Rachel Abbott
Copyright © 2015, Rachel Abbott
CONTENTS
One Dark Secret. One act of revenge.
Author’s note
Dear Reader,
Thank you for choosing to read
Nowhere Child
!
Some of you will be interested in this story because you have already read
Stranger Child
and you may be one of the many people who contacted me to ask what happened next to Tasha Joseph.
Others may be coming to Tasha’s story for the first time, and if so I hope I have written this novella in a way that will satisfy you. But if this book leaves you keen to find out what happened to Tasha before the start of
Nowhere Child
and what led to her running away, the answers lie in
Stranger Child
.
With best wishes,
Rachel Abbott
1
It’s quiet tonight in the tunnel. It’s because we’re so cold. We sit huddled in our little groups around fires that we know won’t last long. Andy has lit ours in an old, rusty, catering-size tomato tin that he found outside a restaurant. With a couple of holes punched near the bottom it gives off a bit of heat, although it will soon burn the small amount of fuel we have. We can always get paper to burn, and the brief, bright yellow flame is comforting, but it only lasts a few seconds. Wood is harder to find. The freezing November wind is bouncing off the damp walls, hitting us in icy blasts as if someone keeps opening and closing a door. But there isn’t any door – just a gaping black hole.
There are four or five groups of us down here, sitting in twos and threes huddled around our feeble fires. We keep to ourselves mostly. I can see the odd face, lit from below by the weak yellow flames, features hovering, disembodied, against the black walls, the eyes hollow pits. I can hear the occasional murmur of conversation but mostly I listen to the steady drip from the roof. It is relentless, and I’m not surprised when Andy says that dripping water is used as a form of torture. Another drop joins in, this time with a slightly different tone. There is a pause, and for a second I wonder if it’s stopped. But of course it hasn’t.
Drip-drop. Drip-drop
.
I pull the last bit of chicken from the bone with my teeth. It’s another great find of Andy’s. He hangs around outside the back of a posh restaurant most days and just dives in when food is thrown into the bins. People leave so much on their plates.
I shuffle a bit closer to the fire, and Andy smiles at me. We look out for each other, but he’s a bit older than me, so I always feel I’ve got the better deal. However bad things get, he’s always laughing and he mucks about, exaggerating his Scottish accent to make me giggle. Whenever he is puzzled by something, he rubs his hand backwards and forwards over his straight ginger hair, making it stick up on top. It’s grown long and covers his ears now. He seems older than his years, but when he doesn’t know I’m watching, he sometimes looks a bit sad and lost.
I don’t know what his story is but I do know that at some time in his life he has broken his arm because it’s set at a funny angle. Whatever happened, he can’t have gone to hospital, or it wouldn’t be like that. We don’t ask each other questions, but he knows I’m not who I pretend to be, just as I know that something terrible has happened to him.
I haven’t been to the surface for days, but there are some people down here and in other parts of underground Manchester who haven’t been above ground for years. Andy says at one time there was a whole community – about eighteen thousand people – living underground in Manchester back in the nineteenth century. I don’t know if I believe him.
I can hear a louder voice at the end of the tunnel. It must be somebody new, because there’s something about this place that makes us all talk in low voices – or not talk at all. The newcomer is getting closer to us. He’s stopping at each pitch, crouching down and asking questions. I look at Andy and somehow I know. So does he. I can’t run, though – the guy would catch me in a flash.
Slowly, silently, I shuffle back from the fire into the shadows. The orange flames are still lighting Andy’s face, but mine is hidden. My hoody is a bit big, so I pull the hood as far over my head as I can. I always wear boys’ clothes now, and my hair is less than an inch long all over. When I can, I dye it – but it grows out quickly, and there are only so many places that I can nick the dye from. It’s not good to keep going back to the same shop.
I can see the newcomer in the distance, and as far as I can tell from here he looks like a young bloke, maybe mid-twenties. He’s tall, but he seems top heavy because he’s wearing a dark-coloured puffa jacket and he’s got skinny legs that look a bit bandy to me. I thought when they came for me it might be somebody I would know, but it isn’t, and that’s good. Less chance he will recognise me.
He’s showing something to the people next along from us, and I feel myself start to sweat even in this icy cold.
Now he’s moving towards us. If I keep my head down completely it will seem very suspicious, so with my hood as far over as is sensible I rest my chin on my knees, wrap my arms around my shins and pretend to be staring into the fire. Unless he lies down, he won’t be able to see my eyes.
I desperately want to look at him, so I’ll know him if I see him in the street, but I can’t look up. All I see are his feet – newish trainers, navy-blue with white soles – and his jeans – tight and dark. Definitely not a homeless guy, then. And I was right about the legs.
‘Hey,’ he says to Andy. He fishes a piece of paper out of his pocket, and I know what it is. There are thousands of them flying around Manchester. It’s a poster with a photo of me on it.
Andy grunts a response and carries on pretending to poke the fire with a piece of iron he found somewhere.
‘Do you know this girl, kid?’ he says to Andy. Andy pretends to look at the poster and pulls a face.
‘Nah – she’s not round here or I’d have seen her.’
‘What about your pal here?’ He starts to move towards me.
Casually, Andy holds out a hand and takes the paper, distracting the man.
‘What’s all the fuss about this wee lassie anyway?’ he says. ‘I’ve seen lots of these bits of paper in the wind. What’s the story?’
The man’s attention is diverted from me for a moment.
‘She’s just another runaway, but there are people that want her found – and they’re offering a reward.’
I freeze. This is a new development. If there’s a reward, people are going to be far more interested. It’s only natural.
‘Yeah? How much?’ I hear Andy ask.
Oh no, not you, Andy
.
‘Five grand,’ the man says, ‘and if you help me find her, you can have a cut too.’
‘Fifty fifty?’ Andy asks.
The man laughs. ‘We’ll see – just find her first.’ He looks towards me again.
‘It’s no use asking Harry,’ Andy says. ‘He’s not been above ground for months and he don’t speak much. I just look out for him. He’s only a bairn – just eleven last week.’
The man loses interest in me, and I feel a stab of guilt that I ever doubted Andy. I’m not eleven, of course, but I’m very thin so I could easily pass for younger than I am.
‘Well, just keep your eyes open and let me know if you see her – I’ll give you my number.’
‘Ah, right. I’ll just be using my brand new iPhone to call you, will I?’ Andy’s humour is not lost on the man.
He laughs. ‘There’s phone boxes, thicko, and you can always nick enough to make a call, I’m sure. Here, I’ll write it on the flyer for you.’
He scribbles the number on one of the sheets of paper he pulls from his pocket.
‘I’ll be back in a day or two – see if anybody’s seen her.’
With that, the man moves off further in the tunnel.
We wait in silence until he is well out of earshot.
‘Do you want to tell me what’s going on?’ Andy asks. ‘You don’t have to if you don’t want, but there’s always people looking for you. The woman who hands these out, for one.’ He waves the piece of paper at me. ‘She’s been looking for you for months. The cops were asking around, too, though that was a while back. And now this guy today.’
‘I ran away.’ Andy wants an answer, but it’s all I can give him. ‘I’m just a missing kid like you are.’
Andy laughs. ‘You don’t see nobody offering a reward for me, do you?’
I just smile at him. I want to tell him, but how can I? How can I say that the woman looking for me is my stepmother, Emma, and she’s looking for me because I stole her baby? My own brother.
2
The visitor last night scared me. I don’t know what to think. I need to know if Emma has got some daft notion in her head that she can offer a reward for me. Surely she would realise that it could be dangerous – that the wrong people would be interested? But she doesn’t know what the streets are like and what people might do for money.
I don’t understand why she would do it now, though, after all this time. It doesn’t make any sense. But I need to know, so when I woke up this morning I decided I had to leave the tunnel and try to find out what’s happening.
I’ve seen Emma before, watched her from the distance, but she’s never clocked me. I don’t think she would recognise me now. No more straggly blonde hair. I look like a boy, and that’s the plan – I don’t want anybody to know who I am.
I don’t know how often she comes into Manchester but I know she doesn’t always go to the same part of town. Sometimes she’s up in Piccadilly, other times she’s in King Street or Market Street. She carries a yellow plastic box with her, upends it on the floor and stands on it to make her taller than the passers-by. And she always has Ollie with her; lovely Ollie, with his round, smiling face and his pudgy cheeks; the very same Ollie that I stole from her.
The thought makes me shudder.
I start looking for her in Piccadilly Gardens. She’s not here yet, but I know she often stands on some steps that lead up to a statue, so I move over to the far side so she won’t be able to see me.
I can smell pizza, and it’s nearly killing me. My belly doesn’t rumble any more – it’s way past that stage – but the longing for a huge meal that would make me need to lie down and nurse my bloated belly is sometimes overpowering. A boy walks past, eating a burger, cheese and grease oozing from the bread bun, and I want to steal it out of his hands and run. But I can’t draw attention to myself.
After an hour I give up and start to make my way down Market Street, past the trams and into the pedestrian bit. That’s when I hear her.
‘Tasha! Tasha Joseph,’ she’s shouting. ‘We miss you. Ollie misses you too.’
Then I hear Ollie’s squeaky little voice. ‘Tasha!’ He can make the ‘sh’ sound now. He used to call me Tassa. My eyes fill with tears, but I brush them quickly away.
Emma looks great. She’s got a bright-blue coat on over jeans tucked into flat boots and a stripy scarf round her neck. Her dark hair is shorter, just resting on her collar, and it suits her. I can’t see Ollie because he’s in his pushchair – I can just see the tops of the handles. I want to get closer, but I daren’t.
I listen to her shouting about how she’s trying to find me, and how she wants me to come home, and it’s so very tempting. But she can’t mean it – not after what I did. People are looking at the hand-outs and then just dropping them on the floor. Nobody gives me a second look.
I edge a little closer and duck into the entrance to a sports shop, trying to get a glimpse of Ollie. I can see him now. There’s a black and white spotted blanket over his legs and tucked up under his arms. He’s wearing a blue knitted hat that’s pulled down over his ears, and his little cheeks are a bit pink with the cold. But he’s getting a lot of attention, and loving it.
Suddenly his head swivels in my direction, as if he can feel my eyes on him. He can’t recognise me, though. I’ve got Andy’s black baseball cap on with the visor pulled down. I’m dressed like a boy and I look so different. He can’t possibly know it’s me.
Emma looks down at her son, and she follows his gaze. I’m sure she can’t see me, but she starts to climb down from her box, her eyes fixed on mine, a puzzled expression on her face. I look away and stare into the shop through the open door, as if I’m waiting for somebody. I glance sideways at the window in the entrance, and it forms a mirror of the street behind me. I can see that Emma has grabbed Ollie’s pushchair and she’s coming towards me.