Never Say Never (5 page)

“Did you touch yourself?” Nick asked, still eating.

“No, sir, I did not. You said I shouldn’t. Obviously, the same didn’t go for you, bugger.”

Nick smiled. “Sir. I like it.”

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“Oh, yeah?” Adam’s eyebrows rose. “There are a couple of other things I think you like, too. Maybe we should talk about them. You said something yesterday about punishing me.

You really seemed to get off on the concept.”

“How did it make you feel?”

“I don’t know.” Adam picked over his food. Suddenly, he seemed nervous.

Nick placed one hand over Adam’s. “Listen. Eat, now. When we’re done, we’ll take our wine into the other room and talk. We do have a few things to discuss.”

Adam’s eyes widened. “Anything bad? I mean, are we okay?”

Nick smiled and squeezed the hand. “We’re better than okay. But whether you think it’s anything bad…I guess I’ll leave it up to you.”

With a groan, Adam dove back into his meal and ate, quickly.

Nick swallowed a few more bites and pushed his plate away. Nervous butterflies had taken over his stomach. He’d mentioned talking to Adam. There was no turning back, now.

He didn’t want to turn back. He wanted to be open and honest for the first time in their relationship.

Adam loaded the dishwasher while Nick refilled their wine glasses and deposited them on the coffee table in front of the sofa.

“Come, sit.” Nick patted the sofa cushion next to him.

“Almost done.” Adam wiped off the counter with a clean dishrag and tidied the kitchen before joining Nick. He settled back comfortably, tucking his feet under him, and nursed his wine. “So, you wanted to talk?”

“Yeah.” Nick stretched his long legs out in front of Adam and sipped his wine. When he couldn’t stall any longer, he asked, “What do you know about the BDSM lifestyle?”

Adam’s face went blank. “Not much. Big guys in black leather masks carrying whips, I guess.”

Nick smiled. “Leather and whips can be part of it. Actually, BDSM covers a wide variety of areas. I’m mainly interested in the B and D, bondage and discipline. Have you ever heard of Dominants and submission in sex?”

Adam shrugged. “I know some guys only want to be on top. Like you. I’ve yet to fuck you.” He added quickly, “Not saying I mind. We’ve done everything else, and it’s been fantastic, but I just noticed…”

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Nick nodded. “It’s true. And it’s not like I don’t want to be fucked. But I’m a Dom, babe
.
If I let someone top me, it’s going to have to be one special person.”

“You’re a Dominant?” Adam repeated slowly, as if trying to take it in. “You never told me. And you haven’t let me…so I must not be the special person.”

“Whoa, back up the train, there, lover. I haven’t told you because I didn’t want to scare you the fuck away. I’ve been dropping subtle hints, trying to ease you into the idea. Because, you see, I’ve figured out you
are
the one. I care about you more than I have anybody in a long, long time. I’m anxious to see where this relationship takes us. But it’s time for me to be totally honest about how I feel and the things I want.”

Adam breathed a sigh of relief. “Yes! I want those things, too. Total honesty. I’m crazy about you, Nick. I’d love to see what the future has in store for us.”

Nick smiled, injecting a teasing tone into his next words. “What do you think about submitting to me?”

Adam knocked back the last of his wine and set the glass down. “I honestly don’t know what submitting means.”

“Fair enough.” Nick set his glass on the coffee table and moved closer to Adam. “To be clear, I’m not talking about a total power exchange, 24/7. I’m more interested in what happens in the bedroom—or wherever I choose to fuck you. Because it
will
be my choice.

Totally up to me. When it happens, and what takes place, will be my call.”

Adam raised his eyebrows. “I think our sexual appetites are similar enough. I could live with you calling the shots. But I’ve got to ask, what’s in it for me?”

Nick nodded. “Good question. I was a submissive for several years, and it was incredibly satisfying. The surrender of control freed me. Bound to the headboard, or bent over with my wrists cuffed to my ankles, I developed absolute trust in my partner, my Master. It’s an amazing feeling.”

“Yet, you’re not a submissive any more. Did something happen?”

“No. My needs changed, that’s all. Some people go back and forth in their lives or with different partners. We call them ‘Switches’.”

“What if
my
needs change?” Adam shifted uncomfortably in his seat. “What if I hate it?

I’ve never had someone tell me what to do all the time.”

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Nick reached out and changed their positions so Adam’s back pressed against his chest.

He brushed the curly, blond hair away from one ear and murmured, “Don’t get ahead of yourself. If the idea appeals, simply agree to try it. You’ll know soon enough what you think.”

Adam leaned back against him and spoke quietly. “You want me to call you ‘Master’?”

“Only when we’re playing. ‘Master’ or ‘Sir’.”

“Sir,” Adam repeated, almost to himself.

“Yes, my sweet submissive?” Nick traced his tongue around the inside of Adam’s ear.

“Fuck.” Adam closed his eyes. “My cock just got hard.”

“Mmm,” Nick moaned into his ear. “Remove it from your pants. I want to see it.”

Adam fumbled with the zipper on his Khakis. He shoved them and his briefs down just enough to release his semi-hard erection.

“Getting there.” Nick admired the thing of beauty. “Stroke it for me. Make it nice and hard.”

Adam swallowed. “Yes, Sir.” He grasped his shaft in one hand and dragged the skin up and down.

“I like it.” Nick nibbled the earlobe. “Rub it harder. Yank that bad boy up and down, back and forth. Jack it until you feel your balls rise and you’re on the edge of an orgasm.”

“I don’t know,” Adam hesitated.

“Do it,” Nick said firmly. “Masturbate yourself until your hand’s slick with pre-cum. I want to feel your body tense. Put yourself right there on the precipice. I want you so hot and hard, the slightest encouragement would make you blow. Are you getting there?”

Adam’s arm worked back and forth, furiously. “Close.”

“Tell me when you’re on the edge. Tell me when your gut and your balls are churning, aching for release.”

Adam panted, his face reddening.

Nick’s voice purred seductively, “I’ve been fantasising about you.”

Adam’s body shuddered, and he gasped. “I’m there.”

“Stop.” Nick reached for the hand so close to delivering his lover to Nirvana. He sucked the slick fingers, savouring the spicy pre-cum.

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“Stop?” Adam opened his eyes and looked at him as if he were insane. “Are you fucking kidding me?”

“Nope.” Nick wrapped both arms around Adam, effectively binding him. He nuzzled the sweat-slicked neck and nodded towards the weeping flagpole of an erection. “Just look at it, my darling. Isn’t it gorgeous? Couldn’t you just swallow it in one gulp?”

Adam’s head drooped back against him, breath still coming hard. “You’re killing me, man.”

“‘Master’, or ‘Sir’ is the appropriate way to address me. I’m simply explaining something to you. See that cock, there? It’s mine. You don’t touch it except to wash or pee.

You don’t make it happy. It’s up to me, now. I’ll decide when—and if—you climax. And remember, there are stiff penalties for breaking the rules.”

Adam’s voice came out in a hoarse rasp. “What kind of penalties?”

“Again, my choice. I might withhold your orgasm, or I might paddle your ass until your balls turn blue.”

“Fuck.” Adam turned his head to look at him once more. “Tell me again, what’s in this for me?”

Nick grinned. “So many things, sweet one. You’re going to experience more bliss than you’ve ever known in your life. My every thought, my every action, will be focused on pleasuring you.”

“It seems to me like it’s all about pleasuring
you
. You doing whatever you want to get your rocks off.”

“Ah, it might seem so, at first. I think you’ll find nothing could be further from the truth. I intend to ravage you like a wild animal, and I intend to cherish you, as well.

Discovering your wants and needs and seeing to them is what’s going to—as you say—get my rocks off.”

Adam sighed. “Hearing your words… Shit. I just got hard again.”

Glancing at the waving erection, Nick smiled. “So, we’re in agreement, then? We’re going to give this a try?”

“I can change my mind whenever I want? If something is too intense, I can ask you to stop?”

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“Absolutely. Later, we might put a ‘safe word’ in place. For now, a simple ‘fucking stop, you bastard’ will suffice.”

A wide grin split Adam’s face. “Could I have a kiss, Sir?”

Nick responded with a soul-wrenching buss neither man rushed to end.

“Mmm,” Adam murmured. “When you do that, I could come on the spot.”

Nick raised his eyebrows.

Adam gulped. “With your permission, of course, Sir.”

Nick nodded, satisfied with Adam’s progress. “Exactly what you need to remember
.

Y
our satisfaction is in my hands. Shall we move into the other room and get this party started?”

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Adam stripped out of his clothes as instructed and knelt on the bed. He kept his eyes lowered but tried to see what was going on by using his peripheral vision. His ‘Master’, Nick, had something made of black leather in his hands and seemed to be fingering it lovingly.

Nick moved behind him on the bed, and suddenly, something was around Adam’s neck. Adam inhaled as the cool leather tightened, and he realised it was a collar. “Sir?” he questioned.

Nick buckled the thing and placed his hands on Adam’s shoulders. “My first Master gave me this. It holds very special memories for me. No one else has worn it. I’d like you to have it.”

“May I touch it?”

“Certainly.”

Adam felt the foreign object around his neck and realised there were metal studs on it.

Like a fucking dog collar!
“It’s like I’m your pet,” he murmured, a little shocked.

Nick nuzzled his ear. “All in play. Some Masters call their property ‘slaves’. I prefer

‘submissive’.”

“I’m a fucking wild animal.” Adam hadn’t entirely wrapped his mind around the idea.

“Mmm, I’m not really into animals.” Nick sucked Adam’s earlobe and ran a hand over the curve of his ass. “But I do like a nice, hard ride on my sweet subbie. Rather than yanking your hair when I get aroused, I can tug on your leash. See?” He snapped a long leather strap to the collar and jerked it lightly.

“Aw, fuck.” Adam closed his eyes. He didn’t want to see. He also didn’t want his cock to get hard every time Nick spoke about riding him like an animal. He wasn’t sure he could control himself.

Nick gave a little tug on the leash from behind, and Adam’s head snapped back. “Got your attention.”

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“You’ve definitely got my attention.” Adam felt his dick wave at full erection. “My question is, what are you going to do about it?”

Nick glanced over Adam’s shoulder at the pulsing staff. “Mmm, the first thing I intend to do is to enjoy. Stand up and feed it to me while I lie on my back.”

Adam rose off the bed, constrained by the collar and leash which didn’t allow him to stray far. Nick flopped on his back, his own cock full and hard.

In the past, Adam would have taken a moment to suck his lover’s shaft deep into his mouth. He hadn’t been given permission now, so decided against it this time. He crawled back onto the mattress next to Nick’s body.

“Up here. Straddle my head with your knees. Fuck my mouth with that monster.”

“Yes, Sir.” Ready and willing, Adam climbed carefully into position and inserted his cock into Nick’s mouth. “There you have it, Sir. Suck it. Take it all.”

Nick’s eyes flashed amusement, but he obliged. His head bobbed as he sucked and licked.

Adam closed his eyes and basked in the pleasure. A sharp tug to his leash brought him back to attention.

“Fuck my mouth,” Nick repeated, almost unintelligibly.

“Yes, Sir. Sorry, Sir.” Bracing himself on his knees, Adam plunged himself in and out of the warm channel. Wet and slick, Nick’s tongue massaged every inch of his shaft. Just a few more strokes and he’d be on the verge of shooting.

“Mmm,” Nick groaned, seemingly caught up in the passionate act.

Adam sighed and prepared to let go. His balls churned, and the fabulous sensation of a climax prodded his nerve endings. He tensed his muscles and inhaled.

“Enough.” Nick yanked the leash and pulled his head back at the same time. “Get down there and suck on me. Bring me to the edge, but don’t make me come.”

Blinking back frustration, Adam climbed down his Master’s body until he was close to the rampant erection. His leash didn’t allow him enough room, and he tugged it to loosen it.

“No more slack. Work with what you have,” Nick snapped.

Adam could barely reach Nick’s cock. Each time he bent to lick it, the collar tightened around his neck. It was as exasperating as hell but, at the same time, strangely arousing.

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of it. He drove forward repeatedly, trying to reach the erection, nearly choking himself. He finally latched on and held tight, his airway compromised.

He sucked the best he could and soon discovered Nick slowly loosening his bond. It became easier to breathe and more comfortable to continue the fellatio. Pleased and grateful, he concentrated on making this the best blowjob he’d ever given. He’d make it feel so good, Nick wouldn’t want him to stop.