Loving Lucas (9 page)

“You’re staring,” Lucas teased and Nicholas met his eyes

with a smile.

“More like admiring.”

Lucas made a tsking sound. “Flattery will get you…well,

anything you want.” Even as he said it, Nicholas could

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little and he knew why. He knew what was about to happen

was the one moment Lucas most dreaded.

Admitting that he loved him, that he wanted him, that

had been easy, compared to allowing Nicholas to see him,

and Nicholas silently prayed that Lucas wouldn’t lose his

nerve now, when they had come this far, made this much

progress.

“Luc….”

“I’m sorry. I want this, Nic. I want you. I just….” He

shook his head and Nicholas sat up, taking both of Lucas’s

hands in his.

“You don’t have to be scared with me, Luc.”

“I know. I’ve just built up the dread so much in my

mind….”

“That it’s hard to just let it go,” Nicholas finished for him and he nodded. “I can understand that, but know I love you.

Nothing will change that.” He lifted one hand, kissing it,

wishing he knew what he could say to take away all the fear, but he suspected those words didn’t exist as Lucas sighed

and let go of his hands.

Don’t leave me now, Luc. Come on, baby.

Nicholas noticed Lucas’s hands trembling slightly as he

began pushing the shirt from his shoulders, slowly turning

his back to Nicholas.

He just wants to get it over with
.

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The shirt fell to the floor and Nicholas let his eyes slowly travel up the back of Lucas’s legs, thighs, his wet-dream-inspiring ass, finally looking up to see what Lucas hated

most.

The scars on his back and down the back side of his left

arm.

The skin was puckered, discolored, some areas more so

than others, but Nicholas didn’t find the sight hideous. It just made his heart ache to imagine the pain Lucas had

suffered, and it made him even more determined to give him

the love and happiness he deserved.

Standing, he wrapped his arms around Lucas’s waist,

dropping a kiss on his shoulder, and Lucas trembled slightly in his arms.

“Anyone who would walk away from you is a complete

fool.”

“Nic….”

“And I am many things, Luc, but a fool is not one of

them, so I don’t intend to go anywhere and you had best

accept that.”

Lucas turned his head slightly, not looking at Nicholas,

but close. “You mean that, don’t you?”

“With all my heart.”

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Slowly, Lucas turned in his arms, eyes searching his,

and Nicholas smiled when he shook his head in obvious

disbelief.

“All this time, I have been so afraid.”

“And now?”

“Now, I know I never have to be afraid again. Not with

you.”

“In that case….” Nicholas smiled.

“In that case, maybe we should enjoy our dessert.”

“I like that idea.”

Easily pulling Lucas closer, Nicholas kissed him again, a

long, deep kiss that had Lucas clinging to him as he sank

back onto the bed with Lucas stretched out on top of him,

every inch of their bodies in direct contact.

And it felt astonishing.

I won’t let him go again. Ever. I’ll fight anyone and

anything to keep him in my arms.

Rolling them to their sides, Nicholas slipped a hand

between them, running it down the length of Lucas’s chest

and stomach, finally reaching his cock and smiling when

Lucas gasped at the feel of strong fingers wrapping around

his sensitive flesh.

“Nic….”

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“I love the way you feel in my hand, Luc. I know I’m

gonna love the way it feels to be inside you at long last.”

Lucas arched into the touch, opening passion-heavy

eyes. Nicholas savored the expression, savored the

knowledge that he could do this to the man he loved, that he could make him tremble with need and desire.

“Is that what you want, Luc? Do you want me inside

you?”

“God yes! Please!”

Chuckling, Nicholas pushed Lucas onto his back, kissing

him as he did, moaning in delight when Lucas returned the

kiss with hungry need, no hesitation at all. It seemed as if he really had allowed the walls to fall away. Nicholas was

grateful for that and he fully intended to prove just how

grateful he really was.

This moment, this man, was his dream come true.

Kissing his way down Lucas’s chest, he delighted in

learning what made Lucas moan or gasp or call out his

name. He wanted to know every inch of him, but Lucas’s

hand was tangled in his hair and his own body ached with

the need to release his desire.

“Trust me?” He was breathless as he asked and Lucas

nodded.

“With all my heart.”

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“You’ll never regret that,” Nicholas whispered, standing

as Lucas looked at him. “Can you lay on your stomach for

me? If you’re comfortable, that is….” With a smile and no

hesitation, Lucas easily did as he asked and Nicholas felt as if another victory had been achieved.

“I’m starting to think you have some sort of fascination

with my ass.”

“I actually do have a fascination with your ass…and

every other part of you.”

Lucas laughed, resting his head on his arms while

Nicholas opened the nightstand drawer and pulled out the

lube Lucas had there.

“Well, do you plan on staring all night?”

“Well, as much fun as it is to look, I’d rather play.”

That in mind, he put one knee on the bed, leaning down

to kiss the back of Lucas’s neck, sliding one hand down his hip.

“Nic….”

“Trust me, baby. I’ll make this good for both of us.”

Lucas moaned again and Nicholas smiled, taking his

time, to kiss every inch of Lucas’s back, whispering gentle words, telling him again and again how much he loved him.

How much he would always love him.

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Slipping down farther, he caressed Lucas’s ass, feeling

the muscles tense in anticipation.

“Such a pretty ass….”

“Nic….” There was a growl of warning in his tone and

Nicholas laughed.

“Okay, okay. No more teasing, baby.”

To prove he meant it, he gently pulled the firm globes of

Lucas’s ass apart, leaning down to run his tongue over the

pink, puckered hole. Lucas’s hips bucked off the bed, his

hands tangling in the sheets as he cried out.

“Like that?”

“Please, Nic!”

“Again?”

“Yes!”

Aroused, but also amused by just how demanding his

Lucas could be, Nicholas did as he requested, using his lips and tongue to taste and tease until Lucas was squirming

and gasping words too jumbled to be coherent.

Grabbing the lube, Nicholas quickly coated his fingers,

stretching out on his side beside Lucas, who was still on his back.

Pressing a kiss to Lucas’s cheek, he smiled. “Still okay?”

“I’m better when you’re touching me.”

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“That an invitation?”

“Of course.”

Kissing him again, nibbling his lover’s ear playfully,

Nicholas allowed his fingers to travel to the area he had just eagerly explored, slowly slipping one finger into the tight hole. His own cock felt as if it were about to explode; he was so aroused it was painful, but he was still determined to take his time, to make this perfect for Lucas, because Lucas

deserved that.

Carefully, he allowed a second finger to join the first and as he did, Lucas lifted his hips, biting his lip, eyes clenched shut.

“Please, Nic. More.”

“Whatever you want, baby.”

Slipping in a third finger, he slowly pushed deeper,

curling them, and Lucas cried out again, as Nicholas

brushed over sensitive nerve endings.

Repeating the action several times, he wondered if he

might come, just watching Lucas’s hips thrusting up to meet his hand.

“Nic, I…. God, I need you now.”

“What do you need, baby?” He nipped at his neck again

and Lucas whimpered.

“You. Damn it, I need you inside of me!”

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“There’s no place I’d rather be.”

Withdrawing his fingers, Nicholas gently rolled Lucas

onto his back, nearly losing himself in those amazing blue

eyes.

He dropped his lips in for a quick, hard kiss that had

them both panting as he adjusted himself, hating to break

physical contact, even for a moment.

“Nic.”

“Almost, baby.”

Kneeling, with his legs spread between Lucas’s legs,

Nicholas stroked his hands down his lover’s thighs. He had

to pull in a breath and hold it, trying to control his desire.

The need mingled with the emotions created made everything

more intense and Lucas’s eyes told him he felt the same, as he adjusted Lucas’s legs over his and slowly, he lifted

Lucas’s hips.

“I love you, Luc.”

“I love you, too, Nic.”

Hands cradling Lucas’s hips, Nicholas slowly, carefully,

began easing inside the man he loved for the first time and it was unlike anything he had ever known. He gasped at the

feel of Lucas stretching to make room for him, to welcome

him, warm and hot and so incredible it defied words. It went beyond anything Nicholas had ever felt before.

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Moaning, Lucas arched up to meet him, his hands

gripping Nicholas’s thighs, pushing them closer, taking

Nicholas all the way inside.

“Nic!”

“Luc, I….”

“Move! Please! God, please move, Nic!”

Unable to deny himself, or more importantly, Lucas,

Nicholas began to move, slowly at first, lost in the sensation, in the reality that he finally had what he wanted. Lucas

gripped his hips tightly enough Nicholas was certain they

would bruise but he didn’t care. He loved the sight of Lucas flushed, his swollen lips parted, eyes locked on Nicholas’s, openly expressing his desire and pleasure as Nicholas

wrapped one hand firmly around the straining length of

Lucas’s shaft.

Stroking, pumping, the world turned upside-down as he

and Lucas were pulled into a vortex where what they felt and what they wanted was all that mattered.

“Nic, I’m so…so close, Nic….”

“I know, baby. I know. Just let go. Let me watch you

come, baby.”

With a cry, Lucas came, spilling himself into Nicholas’s

hand, in the instant before Nicholas followed him over the

edge, falling into an abyss of white light and mind-shattering pleasure that left him breathless, his body drained but

humming with an electric charge. His heart thundered

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against his chest and his skin was damp with sweat, but he

had never felt more alive, more complete, as he slowly pulled himself from Lucas’s body to collapse beside him on the bed.

Trembling, Lucas gathered Nicholas against him, each of

them rolling to their sides to face each other.

“Wow,” Lucas smiled tiredly, stroking his fingers through

Nicholas’s damp hair.

“I’d say that was a wow.”

“I must be insane, to have denied us that for so long.”

“Just don’t deny us again and we’ll call it even.”

Lucas laughed, closing his eyes on a sigh and Nicholas

kissed him gently, running a hand up and down his back in

a tender, soothing gesture.

“Love you, Nic.”

“I love you too, Luc. Just relax and let me hold you.”

In answer, Lucas scooted closer and Nicholas held him

tight as his own eyes closed, and together, sated, completely in love, they drifted off to sleep.

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THEY slept for about an hour before waking up and, after

showering together, they finally made it to their waiting

dinner.

The food was cold but still good and the wine was a bit

lukewarm, but they drank it, laughing, barely able to keep

their hands off each other. Lucas had never felt so

completely free, not even before his life had changed so

drastically, and for a while, it was easy to forget the world beyond his apartment, Riley Miller included. Just being with Nicholas was all that mattered. It was all he had ever wanted and there was something incredible in knowing that Nicholas felt just as happy as he did, as they finally made it back to bed for another round of lovemaking.

Afterward, they again fell asleep wrapped together and

Lucas was content, sleeping pressed close to Nicholas.

No matter what, he knew he didn’t want what they

shared to end, because Nicholas was the best thing in his

life.

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The best thing that has ever happened to me
.

Morning came entirely too early, at five o’clock, to be

exact, when Nicholas’s cell phone rang and he groaned in

disgust as he sat up to answer it while Lucas watched him

with sleepy eyes.

Still naked, hair a mess, Nicholas was gorgeous first