Love Notes (21 page)

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Well Mav, we are going to have a problem with that. You see, I really hate football and I don’t think I could handle watching a whole game.” I thought his mouth was going to hit the ground. “What?” I couldn’t even continue the charade, the look on his face was completely priceless. I couldn’t keep myself from laughing. Next thing I knew, I was being swung around with strong arms wrapped around me. I was laughing so hard and he was calling me a big booger. I kept thinking, of all the things to call me, he calls me a big booger and that made me laugh even harder.

He finally put me down and we were both breathless from laughing so hard. I felt dizzy from being swung around and I remember having to grab back onto his shoulders for support. The laughing ceased immediately, then it was suddenly serious. Lord, I loved being in his arms. Safest place in the whole wide world.

Have you ever felt the need to convey all of your feelings and wants into a single kiss? I whispered, “Yes Mav, I will be there at every single game, even the away ones.” He just smiled at me. I didn’t do what he thought I was going to do. Instead I whispered, “Come here.” He completely misread my intentions. He moved his lips down, but it wasn’t his lips I wanted. Oh, well actually I did want his lips, but not just yet. I was going to drag this out for just a little bit longer. I kissed his forehead and then his temples. I kissed every place on his face all except his lips. I got close, but never full on the lips. I gave every place on his face my full attention. Maverick quietly said to me, “You missed a spot Charlie.”

“I’m pretty sure I didn’t,” I replied.

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No Charlie, you did and I’m not waiting anymore for you to give it the attention that it so desperately deserves.” He wagged his eyebrows at me and I couldn’t help it, I giggled and while I was giggling like a moron he attacked my mouth. Well that shut me up real quickly. Before I knew it, I was giving his lips the much needed attention, he said they needed. Kissing Maverick is like being home. I knew he was “it” for me and this is where I always wanted to be.

I shake my head to clear the memory away and take a deep breath. I walk out of the bathroom knowing History class is going to be here before I know it. I need to get over this and deal and know that I can’t hide in a bathroom forever.

Chapter 36-Maverick

I was finally allowed to come back to school. Thank the Lord above. I was doing a lot better with therapy, probably because I was ready to be out of there. I worked extra hard and let me tell you it was hard as shit. I don’t recommend getting any kind of knee injury, cause let me tell you, it hurts like a bitch.

I was terrified at the thought of coming back to school, but I couldn't avoid it forever. I needed to set some things right. I needed with every fiber in my body, to get Charlie back. The moment I returned to school, it was like mass chaos. I was instantly surrounded. I know everyone was happy to see me and don't get me wrong, I was appreciative of the support, it was just very over whelming.

The moment I exited the vehicle, I was accosted by Ashley and Miranda. And wouldn't you know, the minute Charlie and I caught sight of one another, that she would see the two of them sidled up against me? The moment our eyes met, I was lost. Every feeling I had ever had for her, came rushing into me like a bolt of lightning. I started mentally kicking the shit out of myself.

What was I thinking pushing her away? Yes, I lost a possible scholarship for football. But damn it, if this girl isn't more important than any scholarship I could possible get. I really looked at her and then I had to look away, before I lost it. What the hell have I done?

Charlie’s lost weight and she looks so absolutely sad. I did that to her. I did. Nobody else can be blamed–just me. I screwed up big time and at that moment, I vow that I’m going to do everything possible to get her back. I’m going to prove to her just how wonderful she is. I have to get her back, I just hope I’m not too late.

Chapter 37-Charlie

When I walk out of the bathroom, my friends are waiting for me. Will is leaning up against the wall staring, not so subtlety at Tori. They seem to be in a heated conversation and I feel like I have walked in on something private. “Anything I should know about?” I ask.

Simultaneously they respond with, “No.” I glance from one to the other and say, “Okay,” in a drawn out way. I’m not even going to begin to think about what this might be about, or what is going on. However, I will get to the bottom of it. Just not at this very second. Plus, neither of them looks like they’re in the mood for talking at the moment.

We walk down the hall silently and separate off to our respective classes.

The day seems to be flying by, which of course never ever happens when you want it to. I know it’s only like this because my class with Maverick is coming up. I’m dreading the moment I have to walk in there and see him. I have about fifteen minutes until my class with Maverick will start and have to face him. I can’t seem to concentrate on anything, and my nerves are all riled up. I start thinking about the very first time we ever went out on a date as a couple.

I recall being so nervous even though I didn’t know why. I mean, we were a couple already. I remember calling Tori and asking once again, for her awesome fashion sense. Of course she teased the hell out of me at my expense. I remember hearing the front door bell ring and running like mad to get to the door before anyone else, thank goodness I had succeeded. I opened the door and Maverick completely took my breath away. He was all kinds of hot and a freaking bag of chips and he was all mine. I knew when he looked at me that my clothing choice had done what was intended. His eyes looked like they were going to bug right out of his head. Tori had talked me into wearing a skirt. I so don’t wear skirts, mainly because I 'm not tall. I felt like I had stubby legs. She informed me that it didn’t matter and that I still had great legs. So I took a chance. I went with a shorter skirt and found a sequined tank top to wear with it. I brought along a swing sweater just in case it got chilly outside. So maybe the tank was a little snug and showed off all of my curves and was not something I would normally wear without always wearing the sweater. But I took a risk. His reaction made it completely worth it. He grabbed my hand as I shut the door and yanked me to him. Not hard, but just enough to get his point across. “You look gorgeous Charlie. You know I’m going to have to beat the guys off of you with a stick tonight, right? Maybe we should stay home?” I lightly smacked him on the arm, “Oh woman, you can really pack a punch, Okay, okay, we'll go out. I need to show you off anyway. The guys will be so jealous.” I had just rolled my eyes and thought he was completely out of his mind and kinda crazy.

We hadn’t done anything really super spectacular, but yet, we did. If that makes sense. It didn’t matter where we went, as long as we were together.

We went to a nice Italian restaurant . As soon as the waitress showed up, she grew one of those “insta” smiles that you see when a girl sees a good looking guy. She was tall and blonde, just like most of this town’s girl population is. I’m not going to lie. I felt a quick twinge of jealousy when she threw her one thousand watt smile at Maverick. However , he never even glanced her way. Not one glance. And her smile quickly dissipated. He looked at me and continued eye contact with me, as he was telling her what he wanted to drink. Who knew ordering a cherry Coke could sound so hot coming out of a guy’s mouth? Not just any guy though, my guy.

He just kept staring at me. Finally, he spoke the minute Miss Blonde walked away. He reached over the table and grabbed my hand, rubbing his thumb along the pulse point of my wrist. Lord, he sky rocketed my heart when he did that . I glanced down at the tabletop, not used to the attention or the compliment. “Look at me Charlie. Please?” he’d said.

I know my cheeks were on fire. They’d felt like I was standing near a large flame. I glanced at him and could see the sincerity in his face. Especially, in his eyes. “I’m still getting used to your compliments, but I’m learning how you see me. You’ll need to be patient with me, this won’t happen overnight.”

“I understand that. I also know you have had years of listening to someone close to you, tell you things that aren’t true about yourself. I just want you to see yourself the way that I do. I do realize, this’ll take time. I’ll also be here, to continue telling you, until you believe it yourself. Having said that, he’d leaned over and whispered, “Actually Charlie, you look good enough to eat.”

I couldn’t help, but throw my head back and laugh. Leave it to him to not only lighten the mood, but also make me feel like I accomplished exactly what I meant to. Score for me! I couldn’t help but feel inwardly pleased with myself.

Dinner was so nice and easy. We walked out holding hands and I may have had a very smug smile on my face, when we passed by the waitress.

Me, gloating? Okay, maybe just a little. And I enjoyed every bit of it.

We spent the rest of our evening at Lookout Point. It’s not exactly what you may be thinking either. Well it is. but it isn’t. It’s a beautiful overlook, that shows the town. The lights are gorgeous down below at night. It’s also a great place to talk and yes maybe kiss a little.

We did do a lot of talking. There was also some kissing involved. There really isn’t anything I enjoyed more, than initiating ‘It’ and shocking the shit out of him. Maverick never expects it. I’ve always been timid around guys, but I’ve never found anyone that I felt so very comfortable around, or one I wanted to kiss so much.

I grabbed him by his shirt collar and yanked him close. I couldn't help but chuckle the minute our noses collided. I took the opportunity to lick the tip of his nose. I was just playing around, but all of a sudden, his eyes darkened and the storm raging in his eyes was unmistakable. “You know, you just started something right?” I, of course, played innocent. “I’m not sure what you're talking about.” I tried not to laugh, but couldn't help it. He started to say something, but in the moment, I decide to silence him and render him speechless. I threw my arms around his neck and kissed his ear, then his cheek and then his jaw. I started my path to his chin and back up to his lips. His breathing started to get a little erratic. I loved this feeling. The feeling of empowerment and knowing that I was the cause. The minute our lips touched, it was on. On, like Donkey Kong ' as Tori would say.

He put his arms around my back and pushed me towards him. The problem was, we were in a car. A car with no room. I was feeling brave, so I stopped him, told him to hold on and scooted over the console. I sat right in his lap sideways. I was in a skirt after all. His eyes looked as if they would bulge right out of his head. I loved it. I resumed kissing him, but instead of the pace we had left off at, I start back achingly slow. He pulled me close with his left hand around my waist, but placed his right palm on my face. It was like heaven. No other way to describe it. His tongue made its way into my mouth and I opened willingly, giving into the kiss, everything I had. Then he moved his lips and tongue down my mouth and to my jaw line. Teasing me, like I had done to him earlier. Except this time, it sure wasn’t funny. Lord have mercy we needed to stop, but my body didn’t want to.

As if sensing my thoughts Maverick stopped suddenly and sighed. “Charlie, we need to slow down. I’m not ready for this and I know you aren’t either and certainly not like this. Although I could kiss you every damn day of my life.”