Let Me Love You (Love #4) (8 page)

Jaylinn reaches for me and brings me closer to her. She places a kiss on my stomach just above my belly button and then trails a finger down the patch of hair that trails to my dick. She grabs me fully in her tiny hand and pumps up and down so slowly. When she reaches the tip again I pull back and out of her grasp.

Jaylinn looks up at me with those big gorgeous blue eyes of hers.

This is a bad fucking idea but I can’t seem to think with the right head right now. Jaylinn seems to be reading my mind as she takes a few steps back and I watch as her hips sway back and forth. She’s teasing me. She’s fucking teasing me.

I step into the shower and pull Jaylinn in with me, bringing her back to my front. My dick rests against her ass and I have to stop the urge to thrust my hips. “What were you doing in here, Jay?” I whisper into her ear.

My right hand slips between her legs and her head falls back against my shoulder. “Playing with myself.”

“And why were you doing that?” I rub her clit and her legs start to shake. I have control and she knows it.

“Because I wanted to.” She pants, barely able to get the words out.

I let my voice drop lower. “Were you thinking of me when you were touching yourself?”

I circle her entrance with my finger going around and around until she answers me.

“Y…Yes.” Jaylinn moans.

I dip a single finger in her It’s a big fucking mistake on my part because I want my dick where my finger is. She knows it too. Jaylinn tries to spin in my arms but I trap her with my body against the cold shower wall. I thrust my hips, letting my dick slide between her ass cheeks and it’s the most amazing feeling. “Don’t ever,” I thrust a little harder this time, “ever do that shit again.”

I quickly take a step back and watch her eyes flare as she spins to face me. “Fuck you, Cooper. I’ve got to get myself off somehow and you don’t seem to be game for it.”

That pisses me off. I glare hard at her as she smirks at me.

“Is that so?”

I stalk towards her and pin her arms above her head against the wall. “Yeah that is so.” She moans back.

I look around for the vibrator and spot it on the floor near the drain. I keep her arms pinned with one hand while I reach down and grab it. I turn it on and reach down between her legs. I place it on her clit causing her eyes to roll to the back of her head. I tease her for a couple of minutes, letting her squirm before dropping it and plunging two fingers deep inside her. Her head falls forward and she bites down on my shoulder.

“Fuck,” I groan.

I pump my fingers a little faster and curve them so they’re hitting that spot and within seconds she screaming my name as her pussy is gripping my fingers while she rides out her orgasm. When I know she’s coming back down I hold her body up against mine because I know she’s not going to be able to hold herself up for a little bit.

“Damn, Cooper.” Jaylinn says breathily and I lose myself in the sound.

I kiss her hard on the lips, letting my tongue explore her mouth.

“Still feel like you’ve got to get yourself off?” I ask her as I push back some of the hair that’s fallen in front of her face.

“That wasn’t supposed to happen.” Jaylinn smirks at me. “I already had myself worked up before you walked in.”

I chuckle. “Oh yeah?”

“Yup.” Jaylinn pops the p.

She looks down between our bodies and notices that I’m still achingly hard. Her little hand starts to slide down my body but I stop her.

“Let me.” She pleads.

“Not tonight.” I tell her before placing a kiss on her swollen lips.

“Cooper,” She whines.

I ignore her and reach over to turn the water on cold. I’m surprised we even have any hot water left at this point. Jaylinn yelps and steps back out of the spray.

“That’s not right, Cooper!” Jaylinn opens the shower door and jumps out, still dripping wet.

I let the freezing cold water run all over my body but I know that nothing is going to help me at this point and it’s only going to give me a little relief. I know as soon as that water is off, I’m not getting off and that sucks for me.

Fuck, sucks. What I wouldn’t give for that. My head falls to the shower wall a little harder than necessary but I’m hoping it knocks some sense into me.

The last few days Cooper has been doing everything to avoid being alone with me. He’s been meeting with Eli a lot about the whole club business and trying to get it launched before pre-season starts up in February. His time at the gym is lasting a lot longer than normal and when he comes home he’s so exhausted that half the time he falls asleep on the couch. He’s been hanging out at his brother’s or MacKenzie’s house a lot more too.

It’s pretty clear he’s avoiding me.

It’s Thursday afternoon and I just left the gym. A few of the girls from the soccer team called and asked if I wanted to meet up. I agreed because I needed to let out some aggression. I’m super frustrated with the way things are between Cooper and me right now. I know what you’re thinking - I can solve it all by giving him an ultimatum; me or nothing at all. Deep down inside though, I’m afraid that he’ll choose the latter. I know in my heart that Cooper would never hurt me and he’s just keeping me at arms-length because he thinks that’s what’s best. But damn it, he shouldn’t be the one who gets to decide that for me.

No sooner do I get upstairs and start to undress so that I can jump in the shower, than my cell phone rings. I run out of the bathroom in nothing but my panties and bra.

“Hello?” I say after snatching it up from one of the pockets in my purse.

“Hey,” Cooper says.

My heart skips a beat at the sound of his voice, “What’s up?”

He’s in his truck; I can hear his turn signal. “You have plans tonight?”

I shake my head, “No. I was just about to jump in the shower.”

“Alright, I’m going out to dinner with Eli. I wanted to see if you wanted to come out with us.”

He hasn’t wanted anything to do with me since the shower incident, so why now?

“Um, no I’ll just hang out around here and watch a movie or something. Have fun, I’ll talk to you later.”

I hang up before he even has a chance to respond. I don’t want to hear him say ok. I don’t want to hear him say anything right now, unless it’s yes.

My phone rings again as soon as I toss it on the bed. I peek back over at it and it’s Cooper calling back. I ignore it and go back to taking my shower. I stand under the spray for a while, letting the hot water loosen the tight muscles in my legs. I massage the shampoo into my hair and then rinse it and put my new coconut conditioner in.

I’ve just finished shaving my legs when I hear my name being yelled from downstairs. It’s Cooper and he sounds pissed.
Oh well.
I wash off the shaving cream and start to rinse my hair out when the bathroom door bangs open.

I groan inwardly. He could have at least knocked first. What if I had been standing here naked? Not that I would have cared, he’s seen me naked a number of times, but still, it’s the principal that gets my back up. I continue to rinse my hair and ignore him until the glass door slides open and Cooper’s stormy blue eyes glare at me. His jaw is set and he’s gripping the door.

I bring my hands down and cross my arms over my chest in an attempt to cover myself up. “I’m almost done, can this wait please?”

I shiver from the storm brewing in his eyes and from the cold air that’s being let into the bathroom. I know I’m going to have a fight on my hands but I don’t understand why. He’s the one that has been ignoring me.

“Cooper?” I repeat myself.

He shakes his head and closes the shower door. I wait to hear the bathroom door shut before going back to what I was doing, but it doesn’t. I look up to the ceiling, willing for the strength to get through this fight without showing Cooper that my feelings have been hurt.

Ten minutes have passed and I know it’s been more than enough time and I’ve got to face the music. I slide the door open just a bit and reach out for my towel that’s on the hook. I dry off quickly and wrap the towel tightly around my body before getting out of the shower.

Cooper is leaning up against the sink doing something on his phone. He looks up at me and I see his face soften, it’s just a little bit but it’s enough for me to know that he knows he’s in the wrong and I’m on to his avoidance.

“Come to dinner with me?” Cooper asks me again.

I shake my head and hold the towel a little tighter.

Cooper takes a few steps in my direction then he reaches out with his big callous hand and tips my chin up. “Please?”

My eyes close briefly. “I’m really ok, Cooper. Just go out with Eli and have a good time. I’m going to grab some ice cream from the store and maybe see if one of the girls wants to watch a movie or something.”

“Jay…” Cooper says in a warning tone. I watch as he works his jaw back and forth.

“Go live your life, Cooper.” I say with a chill to my voice.

His eyes go wide in surprise. I’m hardly ever cold with him but it’s come to that point now. This is what he gets for ignoring me. He did this, not me.

Cooper grips my upper arms and pulls me closer to him. He bends down so his mouth is close to my ear. “You are my life. You’ve been my life for longer then you realize.”

I gasp and feel my legs go weak. He can’t mean those things. “Don’t lie to me, Cooper. Remember our rule? No lies, no matter what.”

Cooper pulls back and stares intently into my eyes, “No lies, ever.”

We stand there in the chilly bathroom, both looking into each other’s eyes. There are so many emotions, feelings, and yet, nothing is voiced. I know I mean something to Cooper, he’s shown me time and time again. We’ve been friends for years and I’ve had a crush for a long time but I never said anything because I didn’t think Cooper was interested in me that way. Plus I didn’t want things to get weird if I told him how I felt, so I stayed in the batter’s box and never stepped up to the plate. After that night back in Boston, Cooper and I talked for hours; he knew I needed a distraction. The timing of the conversation was all wrong but is there ever a good time for confessing your feelings? He told me that he’s always had a crush on me but knew Hunter would have a problem with it so he stayed away. He also said he stayed away because he, like I, thought that I didn’t like him that way. I confessed to Cooper that I followed him to school because I wanted to see if things could work out between us without the rest of the family around. I could have gone to school with my brother, Hailey, and MacKenzie, because I was offered a soccer scholarship as well, but I didn’t want that.

“Promise?” I ask, finally finding my voice. “Promise you’re not lying?”

Cooper replies back immediately, “Promise.”

“Why have you been avoiding me?” I steel the walls around my heart, preparing for the blow.

Cooper looks away for a second before answering, “I’m sorry.” He sighs, still not looking at me. If I had to guess I’d say that he’s afraid to look at me right now. “I’m just trying to get everything handled before pre-season starts. And yes, I have been avoiding you a little bit after that dirty trick.”

I roll my eyes and push Cooper back a step. “There was nothing dirty about it. I knew what I was doing and I knew the consequences.”

Cooper chuckles and shoves his hands in his pockets. “I thought you would have been in here doing it again. That’s why I came barging in.”

I shake my head and walk out into the bedroom, instantly the mood between us shifts and I’m more comfortable. I walk over to the closet that holds the few outfits of mine that I have here. I really need to get back home to my mom’s. I’ve been spending more and more time here and maybe that’s what’s shifting in our relationship. Maybe tomorrow I’ll actually go to my mom’s and stay there for a little while to give us some space.

Cooper walks up behind me and places a hand on my hip. “Get dressed up. We’re going out and Eli’s going to be there.”

I turn to glare at Cooper and he winks at me.
Jerk.
My walls tumble knowing I’m giving into his request. Plus it wouldn’t hurt to be able to hang out with Eli for a little while, right? You know, just to look at him. That will distract me for a little while at least.