Ivory and the Horn (8 page)

“Can dreams be real?” I ask the courier. “Can we invent something in a dream and have it turn out to be a real place?”

“Beats me, lady,” he replies, never blinking an eye. “Just sign here.”

I guess he gets all kinds.

So now I visit Mr. Truepenny’s shop on a regular basis again. The area’s vastly improved. There’s a cafe nearby where Jeck—that’s my boyfriend that I’ve been telling you about—and I go for tea after we’ve browsed through Mr. Truepenny’s latest wares. Jeck likes this part of Mabon so much that he’s now got an apartment on the same street as the shop. I think I might set up a studio nearby.

I’ve even run into Janice—the little girl who brought me back here in the first place. She’s forgiven me, of course, now that she knows it was all a misunderstanding, and lets me buy her an ice cream from the soda fountain sometimes before she goes home.

I’m very accepting of it all—you get that way after a while. The thing that worries me now is, what happens to Mabon when I die? Will the city get run down again and eventually disappear? And what about its residents? There’s all these people here; they’ve got family, friends, lives. I get the feeling it wouldn’t be the same for them if they have to go back to that elsewhere place Mr. Truepenny was so vague about.

So that’s the reason I’ve written all this down and had it printed up into a little folio by one of Mr. Truepenny’s friends in the waking world. I’m hoping somebody out there’s like me. Someone’s got enough faerie blood not only to visit, but to keep the place going. Naturally, not just anyone will do. It has to be the right sort of person, a book lover, a lover of old places and tradition, as well as the new.

If you think you’re the person for the position, please send a resume to me care of Mr. Truepenny’s Book Emporium and Gallery, Mabon. I’ll get back to you as soon as I can.

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There are seven million homeless children on the streets of Brazil

Are vanishing trees being reborn as unwanted children?

—Gary Snyder, from
The Practice of the Wild

The real problem is, people think life

 is a ladder, and it’s really a wheel

—Pat Cadigan, from “Johnny Come Home”

Two pairs of footsteps, leather soles on marble floors. Listening to the sound they made, Dennison felt himself wondering, What was the last thing that Ronnie Egan heard before he died? The squeal of tires on wet pavement? Some hooker or an old wino shouting, “Look out!” Or was there no warning, no warning at all? Just the sudden impact of the car as it hit him and flung his body ten feet in the air before it was smeared up against the plate glass window of the pawn shop?

“You don’t have to do this,” Stone said as they paused at the door. “One of the neighbors already IDed the body.”

“I know.”

Looking through the small window, glass reinforced with metal mesh, Dennison watched the morgue attendant approach to let them in. Like the detective at Dennison’s side, the attendant was wearing a sidearm. Was the security to keep people out or keep them in? he wondered morbidly.

“So why—” Stone began, then he shook his head. “Never mind.”

It wasn’t long before they were standing on either side of a metal tray that the attendant had pulled out from the wall at Stone’s request. It could easily hold a grown man, twice the 170 pounds Dennison carried on his own six-one frame. The small body laid out upon the metal surface was dwarfed by the expanse of stainless steel that surrounded it.

“His mother’s a heavy user,” Dennison said. “She peddles her ass to feed the habit. Sometimes she brings the man home—she’s got a room at the Claymore. If the guy didn’t like having a kid around, she’d get one of the neighbors to look after him. We’ve had her in twice for putting him outside to play in the middle of the night when she couldn’t find anybody to take him in. Trouble is, she always put on such a good show for the judge that we couldn’t make the neglect charges stick.”

He delivered the brief summary in a monotone. It didn’t seem real. Just like Ronnie Egan’s dead body didn’t seem real. The skin so ashen, the bruises so dark against its pallor.

“I read the file,” Stone said.

Dennison looked up from the corpse of the four-year-old boy.

“Did you bring her in?” he asked.

Stone shook his head. “Can’t track her down. We’ve got an APB out on her, but …”He sighed. “Who’re we kidding, Chris? Even when we do bring her in, we’re not going to be able to find a charge that’ll stick. She’ll just tell the judge what she’s told them before.”

Dennison nodded heavily. I’m sorry, Your Honor, but I was asleep and I never even heard him go out. He’s a good boy, but he doesn’t always listen to his momma. He likes to wander. If Social Services could give, her enough to raise him in a decent neighborhood, this kind of thing would never happen.____

“I should’ve tried harder,” he said.

“Yeah, like your caseload’s any lighter than mine,” Stone said. “Where the fuck would you find the time?”

“I still should’ve…”

Done something, Dennison thought. Made a difference.

Stone nodded to the attendant, who zipped up the heavy plastic bag, then slid the drawer back into the wall. Dennison watched until the drawer closed with a metal click, then finally turned away.

“You’re taking this too personally,” Stone said.

“It’s always personal.”

Stone put his arm around Dennison’s shoulders and steered him toward the door.

“It gets worse every time something like this happens,” Dennison went on. “For every one I help, I lose a dozen. It’s like pissing in the wind.”

“I know,” Stone said heavily.

The bright daylight stung Dennison’s eyes when he stepped outside. He hadn’t had breakfast yet, but he had no appetite. His pager beeped, but he didn’t bother to check the number he was supposed to call. He just shut off the annoying sound. He couldn’t deal with whatever the call was about. Not today. He couldn’t face going into the office either, couldn’t face all those hopeless faces of people he wanted to help; there just wasn’t enough time in a day, enough money in the budget, enough of anything to make a real difference.

Ronnie Egan’s lifeless features floated up in his mind.

He shook his head and started to walk. Aimlessly, but at a fast pace. Shoe leather on pavement now, but he couldn’t hear it for the sound of the traffic, vehicular and pedestrian. Half an hour after leaving the morgue he found himself on the waterfront, staring out over the lake.

He didn’t think he could take it anymore. He’d put in seven years as a caseworker for Social Services, but it seemed as though he’d finally burned out. Ronnie Egan’s stupid, senseless death was just too much to bear. If he went into the office right now, it would only be to type up a letter of resignation. He decided to get drunk instead.

Turning, he almost bumped into the attractive woman who was approaching him. She might be younger, but he put her at his own twenty-nine; she just wore the years better. A soft fall of light-brown hair spilled down to her shoulders in untidy tangles. Her eyes were a little too large for the rest of her features, but they were such an astonishing grey-green that it didn’t matter. She was wearing jeans and a “Save the Rainforests” T-shirt, a black cotton jacket overtop.

“Hi there,” she said.

She offered him a pamphlet that he reached for automatically, before he realized what he was doing. He dropped his hand and stuck it in his pocket, leaving her with the pamphlet still proffered.

“I don’t think so,” he said.

“It’s a serious issue,” she began.

“I’ve got my own problems.”

She tapped the pamphlet. “This is everybody’s problem.”

Dennison sighed. “Look, lady,” he said. “I’m more interested in helping people than trees. Sorry.”

“But without the rainforests—”

“Trees don’t have feelings,” he said, cutting her off. “Trees don’t cry. Kids do.”

“Maybe you just can’t hear them.”

Her gaze held his. He turned away, unable to face her disappointed look. But what was he supposed to do? If he couldn’t even be there for Ronnie Egan when the kid had needed help the most, what the hell did she expect him to do about a bunch of trees? There were other people, far better equipped, to deal with that kind of problem.

“You caught me on a bad day,” he said. “Sorry.”

He walked away before she could reply.

Dennison wasn’t much of a drinker. A beer after work a couple of times a week. Wine with a meal even more occasionally. A few brews with the guys after one of their weekend softball games—that was just saying his pager left him alone long enough to get through all the innings. His clients’ needs didn’t fit into a tidy nine-to-five schedule, with weekends off. Crises could arise at any time of the day or night— usually when it was most inconvenient. But Dennison had never really minded. He’d bitch and complain about it like everybody else he worked with, but he’d always be there for whoever needed the help.

Why hadn’t Sandy Egan call him last night? He’d told her to phone him, instead of just putting Ronnie outside again. He’d promised her, no questions. He wouldn’t use the incident as pressure to take the boy away from her. Ronnie was the first priority, plain and simple.

But she hadn’t called. She hadn’t trusted him, hadn’t wanted to chance losing the extra money Social Services gave her to raise the boy. And now he was dead.

Halfway through his fourth beer, Dennison started ordering shots of whiskey on the side. By the time the dinner hour rolled around, he was too drunk to know where he was anymore. He’d started out in a run-down bar somewhere on Palm Street; he could be anywhere now.

The smoky interior of the bar looked like every other place he’d been in this afternoon. Dirty wooden floors, their polish scratched and worn beyond all redemption. Tables in little better condition, chairs with loose legs that wobbled when you sat on them, leaving you unsure if it was all the booze you’d been putting away that made your seat feel so precarious, or the rickety furniture that the owner was too cheap to replace until it actually fell apart under someone. A TV set up in a corner of the bar where game shows and soap operas took turns until they finally gave way to the six o’clock news.