Honey Flavored Tears (7 page)

I shoved
his arm a little. “Hey if I didn’t want to know I wouldn’t have asked,” I said in return. He looked back at me not breaking any eye contact as he said, “It’s a possibility that Zariah could be pregnant.”

My heart
went on a roller coaster ride through my throat and down into the pit of my stomach then right back up again. I tried not to show how I was feeling on my face. I wanted to be there for him while on the inside I felt like shit and embarrassed. Embarrassed to think that maybe he made up his mind and really wanted to be with me, but no he just wanted me to be there for him as a friend. That’s been hard to do since the day we got too personal…

“When did you find this out?” I asked as I grabbed his hand
tightly so he could know I was there for him.

“The other day, I’m still trying to figure out how this is possible. We always use condoms.”

“Are you sure you didn’t have a slip-up just from being in the moment?”

“
Jaidyn you know how I feel about bringing a baby into this world if I’m not stable just yet. I promise you I always use condoms, ain’t no slipping this way.”

He was right about that, ever since we started having sex we used condoms.
So I knew he was serious. “Well maybe the condom broke,” I said.

“I don’t know,” he said while sighing deeply.
“She says she goes next week to find out if she’s really pregnant or not and I hate to say this but a part of me is hoping she isn’t but if she is…”

“Hey, look don’t stress it you’re going to get through this and you have me to support you,” I said gripping his hand tighter. He looked at me and smiled. With a gentle peck of his lips to my for
ehead, a chill went through my spine. “I’m so glad you’re here right now Jai, you don’t know how much I appreciate it,” he said. He just didn’t know the reasons behind why I was out here at the park with him at 4 something in the morning. It’s crazy how love can make us do things we never thought we would do. Love is a game and so powerful. It had me right where it wanted me.

“You’ve been drinking haven’t you?” I asked finally smelling a faint stench of liquor on his breath when he pulled away from kissing my forehead.

“Nothing gets past your ass huh?” He asked.

“Nope.”

“I drunk some Remy before I came here.”

“
And you drove out here, you know it’s not good to drink and drive.”

Quincy sighed deeply again letting me know he wasn’t in the mood to hear one of my lectures.

“I’m sorry I just care about you and don’t want to see anything bad happen to you.”

“I know you care.” He turned towards me and grabbed my other hand. “Jai I messed up
,” he said.

“Q what are you talking about?” I asked.

He looked me deep in my eyes again and said, “I should’ve just chose you from the get go instead of doing all this back and forth shit you know,” he replied. My concerned look went to a stern one as I sucked my teeth and yanked away from him. “Look, let’s not go there,” I said getting up from the bench. I couldn’t get far with the force of his hand grabbing my hand and pulling me back. He wrapped his arms around my waist. “Can you stop running from me and just listen to me for once?” He asked. The look in his eyes were screaming how much he really needed me right now and Quincy was never the type to need anyone.

“Jai I know all the pain I put you through, I can’t imagine how it feels but I really apologize and if I could turn it around I
would.”

“Just forget it Q, you don’t have to apologize
. I’m okay,” I nonchalantly said.

“Stop doing that,” he said as he shook me a little.
“Stop trying to act like everything that happened doesn’t bother you. I hurt you Jai and I just want to make things better. I feel you slipping away as my friend and a person I care about,” he said getting somewhat emotional.

“You don’t get it Q; I’ve always been here for you. No matter how mad I am at you or how many times you
play the back and forth game between me and Zariah you know that if you called me I’d come running…I’m here now, ain’t I?”

“I never meant to cause harm I just…”

“Quincy just stop, stop trying to run back to me when things get hard for you and Zariah. Start facing your problems like a man.”

Once he heard me say
this, an offensive look came across his face. “I’m not saying that to disrespect you. I’m saying it out of love.”

He sighed
deeply then said, “I know, I know.”

“Then start doing it!” I said loud and firmly. Without another word being said I pulled him
in for a hug letting him know I was there for him no matter what. Sometimes we have to do what we know is best and put to the side what we think is best for us.

                                     
     Chapter 6

                                    
          Author’s P.O.V.

The next week rolled around. Yolanda pulled up to the John Hopkins Clinic on the west side of Detroit. She turned off the car and looked over at her cousin
Zariah who looked like she was in a different world away from reality. “You ready to go do this?” Yolanda asked.

Zariah
got cut short of her thoughts and came back down to reality as she looked over at Yolanda.

“Are you ready to go in and take the test?” Yolanda asked.

Zariah sighed deeply and shrugged her shoulders.

Yolanda
sighed as well. “What’s wrong, hun?” she asked

“I don’t know why I love him so much,”
Zariah said a couple seconds later. “I feel like I’m playing myself, I swear but it’s like I’m too in love to just walk away.”

“What’s going on
?” Yolanda asked.

“He’s still hanging around that bitch
Jaidyn and it’s digging deep into my skin; I can’t take It, I swear. I mean what the fuck was the point of him coming back to me if he was gone keep her in the picture?”

“Man you gone make me whoop this bitch ass
if I hear one more thing about her,” Yolanda said starting to get mad all over again. “How do you know he’s still hanging around her though?” she asked.

“Last
week I heard him in the living room talking to someone at four something in the morning, I couldn’t quite hear him so I got out of the bed and went towards the door and cracked it open. He was so interested in their conversation he didn’t even hear the door open,” she said then chuckled and shook her head. “He told her he needed to see her then after he got off the phone with her he just walked out the door…he didn’t get back home till almost 6 in the morning and he must’ve been sitting so close to her because I could smell her scent all over him.”

Yolanda looked at her cousin and hated to see her look so in distress. She
sighed once again then said, “You know what my mind is made up soon as I come across that hoe I’m giving her the fucking business, I promise you. But until then don’t worry about her. Go in there and do what you got to do,” she said. “You still want to go through with it right?”

Zariah
thought about it for a couple of minutes then said, “Yeah hand me the urine.”

Yolanda pulled out a small size container filled with urine and handed it to
Zariah. Zariah unzipped her pants and slipped it down into her panties then zipped her pants back up.

“Yup that should keep the urine warm,” Yolanda said with a smile.

“It better work, how far along is that girl you paid to give you some of her urine?” Zariah asked.

“She’s four months
.”

“Okay, just making sure,”
Zariah said.

“Alright go in there and do what you got to do I’ll be out here parked.”

“Thank you cousin, for everything,” Zariah replied.

“Girl
, thank me later now go, go,” Yolanda said pushing her gently to get out the car.

“Ok, ok,”
Zariah said as she rolled her eyes playfully and got out the car. She walked into the clinic and over to the front desk.

“Hi
. How may I help you?” the guy at the front desk asked.

“Um
, I’m here to take a pregnancy test,” Zariah said relaxed and somewhat grinning.

                                                Chapter 7

                                         
Jaidyn’s P.O.V.

“
Girrrrllll, we need to talk,” Pierre said as he stormed into my room uninvited scaring me out of my sleep. I was surprised I didn’t die of a heart attack.

“Thanks Pierre, the last thing I need is a heart attack,” I said as
I inhaled trying to calm my heart rate back down to its normal speed.

“I’m s
orry but this is very important,” he replied.

I rolled my eyes playfully and said, “Yeah I’m sure the gossip
at your job is just that damn important for you to come in here and wake me up out of my sleep.”

“Whatever, I know you only got an attitude because you’re just waking up so I’m gone blame it on your crankiness,” he
said as he plopped down on my bed beside me. I shook my head at then slightly chuckled at how he refused to let me go back to sleep.

“So what’s so important Pierre?” I asked him.

“You know how you always tell me about Quincy and his dilemma problems he has with you and ole’ girl,” he said.

“Yes, the problems you never seem to care about,” I said in return as my grin dropped from my face. “What about it?”

“What was her name?” Pierre asked.

“
Zariah…why?” Something told me the next thing that was going to come out of his mouth was going to send my heart on a rollercoaster ride. A ride I wasn’t sure my heart was ready for again.

“A girl named
Zariah came into my job today to take a pregnancy test, I think it was her,” he said in return.

Right when he said that my mind went back t
o the night when Quincy told me it was a possibility that Zariah was pregnant. There was a huge lump forming in my throat, the tears were ready to fall but I wasn’t about to let them.

“Well Quincy did tell me it was a possibility that she could be pregnant,” I said trying to keep my sanity together.

“When did you have a conversation with him?” Pierre asked. I refused to look him in the eyes because I knew the expression on his face matched with the irritation in his tone. I sighed deeply again and said, “We met at our hangout spot sometime last week because he really needed to talk to me,” I said hoping he would leave it at that.

“
Mmm-hmm, well that has to be the same Zariah,” he said in return.

“It can’t possibly be, do you know how many girls have the name
Zariah in this world?” I asked wanting to believe that it wasn’t her.

“
Yeah true but trust me I have a feeling it’s her,” Pierre said.

I jumped up from my bed and walked over to my desk wher
e my lap top was at and logged on to Facebook.com. I typed in Zariah’s name and her page was the first one to pop up. Even though it was private it still allowed me to see her picture.

“Is this the girl you saw at your clinic today?”
I asked as I pointed to her picture. Pierre got up and walked over to where I was at, he looked over my shoulder and after a pregnant pause he said, “Yup that’s her.” My heart dropped into my stomach at this point. I got up from the chair and stood looking at Pierre.