Honey Flavored Tears (11 page)

Later on that day after
Zariah finally got her car back, Isaiah and she went their separate ways. When she got to Yolanda’s house and saw how worried Yolanda was that she never showed up last night Zariah sat her down and explained to her everything that was going on from last night till today.

“Bitch
, is you stupid?” Yolanda asked looking at her cousin Zariah with disbelief in her eyes.

“Yolanda I already got enough drama in my life I’m not trying to add to it,”
Zariah replied.

“Yes you have enough drama in your life but this man wants to just be good friends with you and probably have amazing sex from time to time with no strings attached…WHAT IS THE PROBLEM?”
Zariah sighed deeply and didn’t respond. Yolanda sat down next to her cousin and faced towards her. “Zariah you’re always saying that you’re tired of loving someone who doesn’t love you fully, if Quincy’s heart is not all the way in it, then yours shouldn’t be either.”

“But Yolanda two wrongs don’t make a right,”
Zariah said.

“I understand that but it’s time for you to start living for you
, have fun while you’re still young. You’re 24-years-old Zariah and I understand that you and Quincy have been together since forever but you’re still young and you don’t need all this stress he’s causing you,” Yolanda explained.

“I can’t blame him fully
. I did my dirt too,” Zariah replied.

“Yes and that was because of hi
m leading you to do that,” Yolanda said in return. No matter what the situation was Yolanda never saw her little cousin as being guilty of anything When she was born Yolanda took her under her wing and they have been like two peas in a pod ever since. Zariah’s mother wasn’t really around like that so Yolanda’s mother pretty much raised Zariah like she was her own so half the time Yolanda didn’t see Zariah as a cousin, more like a sister.

“I mean it would be nice to spend time with someone who actually shows me their full attention,”
Zariah finally said.

“Hello it’s about time you realized it besides the way you explained how fine he looks I don’t see how you would let him get away.”

“I did forget to mention he has some beautiful deep brown eyes,” Zariah replied with a smile. “I got a chance to see them in the daylight but I wasn’t going to tell him that his eyes were beautiful just to boost his ego up.”

“As if he hasn’t been told before though,” Yolanda said.

“Right,” Zariah replied and chuckled.

“Give him a call and take him up on his offer. You deserve to be happy don’t pass it up girl.”

“Ok, ok I will call him.”

“That’s all I wanted to hear,” Yolanda replied smiling now.

“I need you to do me a favor.”

“What’s that?”

“I got to go get some more of my stuff from Quincy’s house later on this week and I need you to come with me just in case he acts up.”

“Girl
, you know I got you. So does this mean that you are moving out?”

“No just need to clear my head and I know for sure I can’t do it there,”
Zariah replied.

“No problem
. I’m here for you just know that,” Yolanda replied.

“I know you are…thank you for everything.”

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            Jaidyn’s P.O.V.

“Jaidyn come here,” I heard Pierre yell from the front room.
What could he possibly want?
I thought to myself. I got up from my bed and walked out of my room over into the living room. “What you screaming for boy?” I asked noticing it was another male in the room.

“I wanted you to meet my man Kevin,” Pierre said. He introduced us to each other and I couldn’t help but to smile
.

“Oh wow it is so nice to finally meet you. You’re the Mr. lucky guy that has my brothe
r around here smiling from ear to ear,” I replied as I pulled him in for a hug. I couldn’t just shake his hand this was someone who came into my brother’s life and broke through his cold freezing heart which is impossible to do.

“I take it you have said nice things about me,” Kevin said with a smile.

“You know I do boo,” Pierre said in return as he gave Kevin a kiss on the lips. I was so happy for him.

“It’s nice to meet you too
,” Kevin replied.

“So where you going all dressed up?” P
ierre asked referring to me in my long maxi light blue and green summer dress with light blue and green wedge heels to match. My hair was up in a ponytail with silver hoop earrings to decorate my face.

“I wouldn’t consider myself dressed up but if you must know Ava and I are going out to get some ice cream from Pink Berry,” I replied. Pierre shot me a look but didn’t ask any more questions.

“We will talk about this later,” Pierre said. With that being said Kevin and him went and sat down on the couch and cuddled up next to each other.
Awww how cute.
I thought to myself being interrupted by my phone vibrating on my hip I looked down at the screen and realized it was Ava calling.

“Hello,” I said

“Hey girl I’m downstairs,” she replied.

“Alright
I’m on my way down,” I said then pressed the end button. “Okay Pierre I’ll be back.”

“Alright have fun,” Pierre replied not really looking at me paying more attention to Kevin. I smiled and rolled my eyes playfully as I walked out the front door after grabbing my purse.
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“So tell me something about you,” Ava said to me as we sat at the table in front of Pink Berry eating our ice cream.

“Well what do you want to know?” I asked.

“Tell me what kind of childhood you had.”

“My childhood was happy. I was raised by my momma and my grandma. My dad wasn’t around he didn’t want to be a father to me. But my momma was like my friend I could talk to her about anything and everything and she never lied to me, and my grandma was the strict but sweet and loving one. She didn’t let me slide with anything and she taught me values and how a man is supposed to treat you,” I explained. It felt good talking to Ava she listened and was very understanding.

“
So I’ve been meaning to ask you about your poem ‘Daddy’s Little Girl’. When you performed it on stage it was so much emotion in it. Do you mind telling me the story behind that poem?” I asked.

“Sure I don’t mind. Basically my daddy really wanted a boy first. He felt like if he had a son then a daughter the son could protect his little sister.
Obviously he had a daughter first and things went downhill from there,” she said.

“What do you mean by that?” I asked.

“From the time I was five to my teenage years I just didn’t feel like other girls. They were into boys by the age of 12 and I was crushing on girls. I had sexual dreams about some of my female friends, not intentionally, they just happened. I started dressing like a tomboy by 13. My momma thought it was a phase I was going through. My daddy was livid about it. It just seemed strange to me, my momma was so understanding of what I was going through and my daddy hated me for it. Over time when I realized I liked girls and I came out the closet, I no longer existed to my daddy.”

“Well don’t think of it like that
he’s probably was just hurt.”

“No Jai
, you don’t understand, he hated my lifestyle so badly he abandoned his family by just up and leaving one day. So he and my momma never had the chance to have their son that they wanted. From my “confusion” as he would call it and them arguing about it he had had enough.” She got quiet and started to play with her ice cream by swirling her spoon slowly around in it. I knew it was hard for her to talk about this. I didn’t want to see her down so I had to change the subject.

“Hey you called me by my nickname. I only let people who are close to me call
me by that name; are you trying to get close?” I asked while smiling. She looked up at me and smiled as well.

“I only want to be close to you if you allow me to,” she replied staring me deep into my eyes. Her
comment made my heart skip a beat. There was something about her that had me wanting to be around her more and more. What it was, I couldn’t explain.

“I would love for us to ge
t closer,” I said in return. We sat there and talked for a couple more hours by the time we got back to my place it was just starting to get dark.

“Well here you are,” Ava said as she parked the car and looked at me.

“What you aren’t staying tonight?” I asked somewhat disappointed. I was looking forward to her company.

“I mean I d
on’t want to wear my welcome out,” she said.

I sucked my teeth and said, “Girl don’t be silly. When I start to get tired of seeing you trust me I will let you know
.”

“I hope that doesn’t happen soon,” she said in a flirtatious tone of voice. I looked at her and smiled.

“So are you coming up or what?” I asked.

“
Welllll,” she sung out leaving me in suspense for an answer.

“Come on
, quit playing,” I said laughing while I shoved her playfully. She laughed as well. “Besides I could really use a scalp massage again,” I said.

“Alright I’ll come up,” she said looking at me.

We lay in my bed looking at each other while playing with each other hair. I had on my white camisole and white boy shorts to match while she had on a white wife beater and black basketball shorts. “You have nice soft hair,” I said while running my fingers through her long hair. This was the first time she let it down since she’s been here and it was 4 inches past her shoulders.

“So do you,” she replied. Silence circulated between us for a minute.

“What’s on your mind?” I asked.

“I don’t think you want to know,” she replied.

“I wouldn’t have asked if I didn’t want to know.”

She sighed and took a pregnant pause then finally said, “You remember you said you would tell me if I’m ever going too far with you?”

“Yeah I remember saying something like that,” I replied. “Why do you ask, do you feel like you are going too far with me right now?”

“No I feel like I’m about to though,” she replied.
I looked at her with a confused look on my face at this point.

“Jai
, I would really like to kiss you right now, it’s taking everything in me not to but I really want to,” she rushed out her words and sighed a sigh of relief now that she got the words out.

“How long have you been feeling like this?” I asked her.

“Ever since I first saw you, I thought you were so beautiful. That’s why I always want to be around you, you have this beautiful personality that’s easy to fall in love with. Jai what I’m trying to say is I’ve been wanting to kiss you since the first day I got here and I’ve been doing good holding myself back but I don’t know how much longer I can hold out,” she explained.

I smiled knowing this was uncomfortable for her to explain to me, I didn’t want to make her feel any more awkward. Without a second thought
, I leaned in and kissed her. A peck became a passionate kiss. Her hands roamed my body while my hands did the same to hers. The chills from the night she gave me that massage came flooding back. She caressed my breast and I couldn’t help but to let a moan escape from my mouth. I pulled away catching my breath.

“Did I do something wrong?” s
he asked. I shook my head no. “Do you feel uncomfortable?” she asked.

“No,” I responded. “I just want you to hold me.”

“Sure---sure no problem I can do that,” she said. I turned away from her and scooted closer to her, poking my butt into her pussy and grabbing her arms allowing her to wrap them around me and hold me as tight as she wanted to. She planted a kiss on my shoulder causing me to smile. I felt content with her, for the first time in my life I was finally feeling wanted instead of used and it felt good. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep with happy thoughts on my mind.