“Let’s hear your great idea then … .”
“I’m going as Tinker Bel .”
“As who?”
“The fairy from
Peter Pan
.”
“This isn’t fair,” Madison whined. “We made a pact to al
go as Playboy Bunnies!”
“Bunnies are old.” Mol y tossed her head. “Not to mention
trashy.”
“I’m sorry,” I interrupted, “but aren’t the costumes
supposed to be scary?”
“Oh, Bethie,” Savannah said with a sigh. “Have we taught
you nothing?”
I smiled sheepishly. “Refresh my memory?”
“Basical y the whole thing is just one massive—,” Hal ie
began.
“Let’s just say it’s an opportunity for us to mingle with the
opposite sex,” Mol y cut in, shooting Hal ie a sharp look.
“Your costume needs to be scary
and
sexy.”
“Did you know Hal oween used to be about Samhain?” I
said. “People were real y scared of it.”
“Who’s Sam Hen?” Hal ie looked baffled.
“Not who … what,” I said. “It’s different in every culture.
But essential y, people believe it’s the one night of the year
when the world of the dead meets the world of the living;
when the dead can walk among us and possess our
bodies. People would dress up to trick them into staying
away.”
The group stared at me with newfound respect.
“Oh my God, Bethie.” Savannah shivered. “Way to freak
us al out.”
“Do you remember when we had that seance in seventh
grade?” Abigail asked. The others nodded enthusiastical y
as they recal ed the event.
“You had a what!” I spluttered, barely able to disguise my
disbelief.
“A seance, it’s when you …”
“I know what it is,” I said. “But you shouldn’t mess around
with that stuff.”
“I told you, Abby!” Hal ie exclaimed. “I told you it was
dangerous. Remember how the door slammed shut?”
“Yeah, only because your mom shut it,” Madison hit back.
“She couldn’t have. She was in bed asleep the whole
time.”
“Whatever. I’m thinking we should try it again on Friday.”
Abigail waggled her eyebrows mischievously. “What do you
say, girls? Who’s in?”
“Not me,” I said resolutely. “I’m not getting mixed up in
that.”
The looks they exchanged suggested they were
unconvinced by my refusal.
“THEY’RE so childish,” I complained to Xavier as we
walked to French class together. Doors slammed,
announcements rang over the loudspeaker, and chatter
flowed freely around us, but Xavier and I were locked in our
own world. “They want to hold a seance and go dressed as
bunnies.”
“What kind of bunnies?” he asked suspiciously.
“Playboy, I think. Whatever that means.”
“That sounds about right.” Xavier laughed. “But don’t let
them talk you into anything you don’t feel comfortable with.”
“They’re my friends.”
“So what?” He shrugged. “If your friends walked off a cliff,
would you do it too?”
“Why would they walk off a cliff?” I asked in alarm. “Is
someone having problems at home?”
Xavier laughed. “It’s just an expression.”
“It’s sil y,” I told him. “Do you think I should go as an
angel? Like in the film version of
Romeo and Juliet
?”
“There would be a certain irony in that,” Xavier said,
smirking. “An angel posing as a human posing as an angel.
I like it.”
Mr. Col ins glared at us as we arrived and took our seats.
He seemed to resent our closeness and I couldn’t help but
wonder whether his history of three failed marriages had
left him a little jaded about love.
“I hope the two of you wil descend from your love bubble
long enough to learn something today,” he sniped cuttingly
and the other kids snickered. Embarrassed, I ducked my
head to avoid eye contact with them.
“It’s al right, sir,” Xavier replied. “The bubble’s been
engineered to al ow us to learn from within it.”
“You’re very amusing, Woods,” Mr. Col ins said. “But the
classroom is not the place for romance. When it al ends in
heartbreak, your grades wil pay the price.
L’amour est
comme un sablier, avec le coeur remplir le vide du
cerveau.
”
I recognized the quote from the French writer Jules
Renard. Translated it meant: “Love is like an hourglass,
with the heart fil ing up as the brain empties.” I hated his
smug certainty, as if he knew for a fact our relationship was
doomed. I opened my mouth to protest, but Xavier touched
my hand under the table and leaned across to whisper in
my ear.
“It’s probably not the best idea to get fresh with the
teachers who’l be grading our final papers.”
He turned back to Mr. Col ins, putting on his best
classpresident voice. “We understand, sir, thanks for your
concern.”
Mr. Col ins looked satisfied and went back to writing
subjunctive verbs on the blackboard. I couldn’t resist poking
my tongue out at his back.
Hal ie and Savannah, who were also in my French class,
caught up with me at the lockers. They looped their arms
affably through mine.
“What have you got now?” Hal ie asked.
“Math,” I replied suspiciously. “Why?”
“Perfect,” Savannah said. “Walk with us.”
“Is something wrong?”
“We just want to talk to you. Y’know, have a girl-to-girl
chat.”
“Okay,” I said slowly, wracking my brain to think what I
might have done to warrant this strange intervention.
“About?”
“It’s about you and Xavier,” Hal ie blurted out. “Look,
you’re not gonna like hearing this, but we’re your friends
and we’re worried about you.”
“Why are you worried?”
“It’s just not healthy for you guys to spend so much time
together,” Hal ie said expertly.
“Yeah,” Savannah chimed in. “It’s like you’re joined at the
hip or something. I never see you apart. Wherever Xavier
is, you’re right behind him. Wherever you are, he’s there …
all the frigging time
.”
“Is that that a bad thing?” I asked. “He’s my boyfriend; I
want
to spend time with him.”
“Of course you do, but it’s too much. You need to get
some
distance
.” Hal ie emphasized the word
distance
as if
it were a medical term.
“Why?” I looked at them dubiously, wondering if Mol y had
put them up to this or if it truly was their personal opinion. I’d
been friends with these girls al through summer, but it stil
felt a little early for them to be dispensing relationship
advice. On the other hand, I’d only been a teenage girl for
less than a year. In some way, I felt I was at the mercy of
their experience. It was true that Xavier and I were close,
any fool could see that. The question was, were we
unnaturally
close? It didn’t feel unhealthy given everything
we’d been through together. Of course, these girls could
never know about our struggles.
“It’s a researched fact,” Savannah broke through my train
of thought. “Look, I can show you.” She reached into her
bag and yanked out a wel -thumbed copy of
Seventeen
magazine. “We found a quiz for you to take.”
She opened the glossy cover and flipped to a dog-eared
page. The image showed a young couple sitting in chairs
facing opposite directions but bound together by chains
around their waists and ankles. The expression on their
faces was one of confusion and dismay. The quiz was
cal ed, “Are you in a co-dependent relationship?”
“We’re not that bad,” I protested. “It’s about how we feel,
not how much time we spend together. Besides, I don’t
think a magazine quiz can measure feelings.”
“
Seventeen
gives pretty reliable advice—,” began
Savannah hotly.
“Okay, don’t take the quiz,” Hal ie cut in. “Just answer a
few questions, okay?”
“Shoot,” I said.
“What’s your favorite footbal team?”
“Dal as Cowboys,” I said without hesitation.
“And why’s that?” Hal ie asked.
“Because it’s Xavier’s favorite team.”
“I see,” Hal ie said knowingly. “And when was the last
time you did something without Xavier?” I didn’t like the way
she sounded like the prosecutor in a court case.
“I do plenty of stuff without Xavier,” I said dismissively.
“Real y? So where is he right now?”
“He has a first-aid training session in the gym,” I said
brightly. “They’re going over CPR, but he already learned it
in ninth grade during a water-safety program.”
“Right,” Savannah said. “And what’s he doing at lunch?”
“He has a water-polo meeting,” I replied. “They have a
new junior that Xav wants to train to play defense.”
“And dinner?”
“He’s coming over to make barbecue ribs.”
“Since when do you like ribs?” The girls raised their
eyebrows.
“Xavier likes them.”
“I rest my case.” Hal ie put her face in her hands.
“Okay, I guess we do spend a lot of time together,” I said
grumpily. “But what’s wrong with that?”
“It’s not normal is what’s wrong with it,” Savannah
declared, enunciating every word. “Your girlfriends are just
as important. “It’s like we don’t even matter to you anymore.
Al the girls feel the same, even Mol y.”
I stopped short. Final y the fog lifted and the purpose of
this discussion became clear to me. The girls were feeling
neglected. It was true that I always seemed to be declining
their invitations to go out in favor of spending time with
Xavier. I’d always thought I just preferred spending
downtime with my family, but maybe I had been insensitive
without realizing it. I valued their friendship and on the spot
vowed to be more attentive.
“I’m sorry,” I said. “Thanks for being honest with me. I
promise I’l do better.”
“Great.” Hal ie beamed. “Wel , you can start by joining in
the girls-only event we’ve got planned for the Hal oween
party.”
“Of course,” I agreed, eager to make amends. “I’d love
to. What is it?” I had the sense even before I’d finished the
question that I was on the brink of fal ing into a trap.
“We’re going to commune with the dead, remember?”
Savannah said. “No boys al owed.”
“A seance,” Hal ie said brightly. “How awesome is that?”
“Awesome,” I reiterated flatly. I could think of plenty of
words to describe what they had in mind, but
awesome
just
wasn’t one of them.
3
Unholy Night
FRIDAY came around faster than I expected. I wasn’t
especial y looking forward to the Hal oween party. I’d much
rather have spent a night at home with Xavier, but I didn’t
think it fair to impose my reclusiveness on him.
Gabriel shook his head in surprise when he saw my
costume, which consisted of a white satin sheath dress,
gladiator sandals borrowed from Mol y, and a pair of short,
fluffy synthetic wings I’d rented from the local costume shop.
I was a parody of myself, and Gabriel, as I’d guessed, was
unimpressed. It must have seemed like some kind of
sacrilege to him.
“It’s a little obvious, don’t you think?” he asked wryly.
“Not at al ,” I replied. “If anyone suspected us of being
superhuman, this should throw them off the scent.”
“Bethany, you are a messenger of the Lord, not a
detective in a B-grade spy movie,” Gabriel said. “Try to
remember that.”
“Would you like me to change?” I sighed.
“No, he wouldn’t,” Ivy said, patting my hand. “The
costume is lovely. After al , it’s just a high school party.” She
gave Gabriel a pointed look designed to bring the
discussion to a close. Gabriel shrugged. Even though he
spent his days disguised as a music teacher at Bryce