We were closer to Xavier now and in his eyes I could see
deep pain, but also anger and intense frustration at his
inability to help me. Now I knew I was in real danger. Maybe
we both were.
“Beth … that’s not Wes.” The words chil ed me to the
core and fil ed me with defeat. I tried letting go of Wesley. I
was ready to throw myself off the bike, but I couldn’t move
my arms. They seemed to be pinned by an invisible force.
“Stop! Let me off!” I pleaded.
“Too late,” Wesley replied, only it wasn’t Wes anymore.
His voice was now slick and smooth, a polished English
accent clearly detectable. That voice had haunted my
dreams for so long, I would have recognized it anywhere.
The body I had my arms wrapped around began to shift
beneath my fingers. The broad, muscled chest and wel -
defined arms shrank to become leaner and colder to the
touch. Wesley’s broad hands became slender and turned
bone white. The backward basebal cap flew off to reveal
lustrous black locks that danced in the wind. For the first
time he twisted his face around to confront me. The sight of
him so close made me sick to my stomach. Jake’s face
hadn’t changed a bit. Black shoulderlength hair contrasted
sharply with the pal or of his face. I recognized the narrow
nose that drooped slightly at the tip and the cheekbones
carved out of rock that had made Mol y once compare him
to a Calvin Klein model. His pale lips parted to reveal smal
and dazzlingly white teeth. Only the eyes were different.
They seemed to pulse with a dark energy, and as I looked
into them I saw that they were neither green nor black as I
remembered but a dul shade of burgundy. Just like the
color of dried blood.
“NO!” Xavier shouted, his face contorted with despair.
His voice was swal owed by the wind on the empty
highway. “GET AWAY FROM HER!”
What happened next was a blur. I knew Xavier was
somehow released from his immobility because I saw him
sprint ful speed toward me. My arms too became free and I
tried to wrestle myself off the bike but felt a searing pain in
my head and realized that Jake was now holding a fistful of
my hair. He was maneuvering the bike singlehanded. I
ignored the scalding sensation and struggled harder, but
my efforts were useless.
“Gotcha,” he purred. It was the sound of a contented
predator.
Jake twisted the throttle hard and I heard the engine roar
to life like an angry beast. The motorcycle bucked and
lurched unsteadily forward. “Xavier!” I cried just as he
reached us. We simultaneously outstretched our hands and
our fingers nearly met. But Jake violently veered the bike so
that it slammed into Xavier’s side. I heard a heavy thud as
the metal slammed into his body. I screamed as Xavier
was thrown backward and rol ed limply onto the side of the
road. Then I couldn’t see him anymore. The bike sped past,
leaving him lying in a cloud of dust. Out of the corner of my
eye I could see people starting to make their way up to the
road, attracted by the commotion. I only prayed they’d find
Xavier in time to help him.
The bike hurtled up the deserted highway that uncoiled
before us like a black whip. Jake was driving at such
breakneck speed that when we rounded a bend we found
ourselves almost paral el with the ground. Every fiber in my
body yearned to return to Xavier. My one true love. The light
of my life. My chest constricted to the point where I couldn’t
breathe when I thought of him lying motionless in the dust.
My pain was so al consuming that I hardly cared where
Jake was taking me to or what horrors awaited. I just
needed to know that Xavier was okay. I tried not to al ow
myself to consider the worst although the word
dead
rang in
my ears, clear as a church bel . It took me a moment to
realize that I was crying. My body convulsed with huge,
wracking sobs, and my eyes burned from the scalding
tears.
There was nothing else to do but cal upon the Creator,
praying, begging, pleading, bargaining—anything to make
him protect Xavier. I couldn’t have him ripped away from
me like that. I could survive emotional turmoil; I could
survive the most intense physical torture. I could survive
Armageddon and holy fire raining down upon the earth, but I
could not survive without him. A strange thought entered my
head: If Jake had kil ed Xavier, Jake would have to pay. I
didn’t care what divine laws forbade it—I would seek
retribution for my loss. I was wil ing to pardon any crime, but
one against Xavier, and so help me, God, Jake would get
his comeuppance. I wanted to scratch and tear at the body
in front of me—to punish him for once again infecting my
life with his black presence. I felt contaminated even being
near him. I considered flinging my weight to the side and
trying to topple the bike. I knew that at the speed we were
traveling, we’d probably both end up smeared across the
asphalt, but I was desperate.
Before my thoughts could rage further out of control,
something happened—something I could never have
imagined, not even in my most twisted nightmares. It should
have terrified me; the very idea of it should have knocked
me into unconsciousness. It was so unfathomable that I felt
nothing but a sickening feeling that seemed to come from
my core and spread like poison through my body. The
highway defied gravity and suddenly reared up in front of
us. A deep, jagged crack appeared in its center. The
highway was splitting open. The crack widened like a
hungry cavernous mouth, waiting to swal ow us up. The
wind that whipped my face grew warmer and steam rose
from the broken asphalt. I knew instinctively what it was
from the feeling of hol ow emptiness that emanated from it.
We were heading straight toward a gateway to Hel .
And then it was upon us.
I screamed again when the motorcycle hovered a
moment in midair. Jake cut the engine just before we
plummeted soundlessly into the void. I turned around to see
the aperture close behind us, shutting out the moonlight, the
trees, the cicadas, and the earth I loved so much.
I had no idea how long it would be before I saw it again.
The last thing I was aware of was fal ing and the sound of
my own ragged screams before the darkness consumed
us.
6
Welcome to My World
I looked around, disoriented, and shivered in my flimsy
satin shift. I remembered nothing about how I’d come to be
here. My hair was damp with sweat and the fluffy costume
wings I’d been wearing were gone. I figured they must have
come loose and been wrenched off during the turbulent
ride.
There wasn’t anything about this place that was even
vaguely familiar. I was standing alone in a dark and
cobbled laneway. Fog swirled around my feet and the air
was pungent with a strange odor. It smel ed like decay as if
the very air itself were dead. It looked like the derelict part
of some urban landscape because I could see the smoky
outline of skyscrapers and spires in the distance. But they
didn’t look real—more like buildings in a faded old
photograph—blurry and lacking in detail. Where I stood
there were only brick wal s covered in crude graffiti. The
mortar had fal en out in places, leaving openings that
someone had stuffed with newspaper. I heard (or imagined
I heard) the scuttling of rats coming from behind them.
Overloaded Dumpsters were scattered around and the
wal s were windowless apart from a couple that had been
boarded up. When I looked up, I found that there was no
sky, only a strange expanse of darkness, dim and watery in
some places and thick as tar in others. This darkness
breathed like a living thing and was much more than the
mere absence of light.
An old-fashioned lamppost shedding a milky light
al owed me to identify a black motorcycle propped just a
few meters away. Its rider was nowhere in sight. Seeing the
bike made my mind reel and forced me back to my current
predicament. I fought to make sense of what had just
happened but memory failed me. Random images flashed
through my mind in no apparent sequence. I remembered a
rambling house off a highway, a grinning jack-o’-lantern,
and the laughter and banter of teenagers. Then the harsh
sound of an engine being revved and someone cal ing my
name. But these images were like the pieces of a jigsaw
puzzle that I’d only just begun to assemble. It was as though
my mind were denying me access to the memories for fear
I wouldn’t be able to deal with them. It was dishing them out
in fragments that made little to no sense. Suddenly one
vivid image crashed through the barrier and the recol ection
caused me to gasp aloud. I was back aboveground,
immobilized by fear, as a motorbike driven by a raven-
haired boy recklessly pitched itself through a slash in the
highway. How was that even possible?
I had the feeling I’d been standing in the deserted al ey
for a while and yet had no sense of how much time had
passed. My thoughts felt thick and sluggish, and trying to
navigate my way through them was arduous. I massaged
my throbbing temples and groaned. Whatever happened
had also taken its tol physical y and my limbs felt shaky as
if I’d just run a marathon.
“It takes a day or two to adjust,” said a honey-smooth
voice. Jake Thorn materialized out of the shadows to stand
by my side. He spoke to me with such lilting familiarity, as if
he and I had known each other long enough to dispense
with formalities. His sudden appearance put my senses on
high alert. “Until then you may experience some
disorientation or a dry throat,” he added. His nonchalant
tone was astounding. Despite my confusion I felt like
screaming at him, and if my throat hadn’t felt as parched as
a desert, I would have.
“What have you done?” I croaked instead. “Where am I?”
“There’s no need for alarm,” he replied. I wondered if he
might be trying to reassure me, but he wasn’t able to pul it
off and only ended up sounding condescending. I looked at
him not even trying to conceal my skepticism. “Relax, Beth,
you’re in no danger.”
“What am I doing here, Jake?” It was more a demand
than a question.
“Isn’t that rather obvious? You’re here as my guest, Beth,
and I’ve taken care of everything to ensure your stay is a
pleasant one.” There was such an uncharacteristical y
expectant look on his face that for a moment I didn’t know
how to reply. I looked at him wide-eyed.
“Don’t worry, Beth, this place can be a lot of fun when
you’re with the right people.”
Almost to il ustrate his point the ground beneath us
began to vibrate. A song I recal ed from last summer blared
so loudly it ricocheted off the wal s. It appeared to be
coming from behind solid steel doors at the far end of the
lane. They looked how you might imagine the entrance to a
maximum-security prison. Only it wasn’t a prison but rather
a venue of some sort, indicated by a neon sign flashing
above the doors. PRIDE. I saw the tail end of the letter
P
trail off across the roofline in what was meant to represent
peacock plumes.