Forever Girl (33 page)

“I’m feeling better than I have in a long time. I’m happy that I continued to see Dr. Armstrong. I think she deserves an award or something because the problems she helps people get through are some of the worst things a human can experience. I think she’s a special person to be able to do something like that. I can feel my spark and I don’t feel that void as much anymore.” I say to Dean as we are on our way to Dr. Atkins Office.

“You’re right about Dr. Armstrong babe. She’s a different type of person and there aren’t too many people like her in this world and we got lucky finding her.” He says to me.

“I’m happy that you’ve been making progress. I can see the light coming back into your eyes again baby. That makes me a happy man.” He says as he takes my hand into his.

“We should invite her to a cookout we have planned in two weeks?” I say with a smile on my face.

“I’ll talk to Zeus but I don’t see it being a problem.”

I smile at him and I look out of the trucks window.

“Where is my Yukon?” I ask because normally we would be taking my car and not his big truck.

“I got rid of it babe!” He says to me sheepishly.

“You better start explaining?” I say with a scowl.

“I got rid of that fucking thing a couple of days after you were found
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I don’t want you driving the fucking thing after being kidnaped in it. I ordered you a new Terrain Denali and I ordered an Arcadia Denali for myself. I’ve gotta have something to drive when we go out as a family baby. I’m keeping my truck for work but I wanted something I knew would be safe to have my world in.”

“I love you honey; Thanks for thinking about us in your decisions.”

He looks at me quickly and tells me that he’ll always think of us first. I tell him I still want to go to Denny Ray’s in the truck though and he laughs and tells me that he can arrange that. I smile and I know that we’ll be good.

  “You’re healing well Lyric. You’ll be sore and feel bruised for a couple more weeks but you can get up and around some. You won’t be able to go back to doing everything you were doing before. You can’t drive for another month but other than that you’re doing great.” Dr. Atkins says to me.

“Will the baby will be okay with me getting up and moving around?”

“You’re both out of danger but you need to listen to your body and rest. If you start to cramp or start to spot you need to lay down and call me or your Gynecologist.” He says to both Dean and myself.

Dean shakes his hand and I tell him Thanks for everything. Dean grabs my hand and we walk out of his office knowing that everything’s getting back to where it should be. Dean lifts me back into the truck and instead of taking me home he takes me to an over look in the mountains. He gets out of the truck and comes around and opens my door and lifts me out of my seat. He puts me on my feet and we walk slowly to the edge. He stands behind me with his hands on my stomach and his chest against my back.

“I used to come here and look out at this place and think that this is heaven on earth. I thought that until I was back inside you baby. I knew that you were my heaven on earth. I lost you once and I got my second chance. I thought I lost you again. The thought of losing you about killed me baby.”

He moves us away from the edge and moves to where he’s facing me.

“I brought you to this heaven so that you could see what I considered the closest place to being with you was. I don’t ever want to be without you again. I love you and our children more than anything on this earth. I feel like you all are my heart living outside of my body.”

I have tears running down my face because I understand exactly what it is he’s trying to explain. He then removes something from his pocket and gets down on one knee.

“Will you do me the honor and privilege of being my wife for eternity?”

“Nothing or no one will ever keep me away from you again. Of course I’ll marry you. A million trillion times yes honey.” I say with so much love in my heart for him.

He gets off of his knee and grabs my face and kisses me like I’m his first drink of water in years. He kissed me like this once before and that’s the first time he kissed me after finding us again.

“I’m the happiest bastard in the fucking world right now.” He says to me with tears and love in his eyes.

He puts the ring on my finger and this is the first time I actually look at it. It’s perfect and totally me.

“This ring belonged to my grandmother. It was put in Nic’s safety deposit box for safe keeping. I asked her to get it out the morning I came to your house the first time. I wanted to wait for the perfect time and then I thought I lost my chance. I didn’t want to propose while you were in the hospital so I decided that today would be the best way to close one chapter of our lives and the opening of another.”

“It’s perfect honey and you’re perfect for me. I knew you were it for me when I was sixteen and you haven’t disappointed me.” I say as I kiss him.

“I’m happy that I haven’t disappointed you.” He says with a smirk.

My face gets red and he comes up to me with a smile and laughter in his eyes.

“I knew what you were talking about baby. I just wanted to see you blush for me.”

Chapter 37

Titan

    I’ve already asked for the help of my brothers, their old ladies, Jess, Ellie, and Nic. The brothers have been working on the clubhouse grounds getting everything ready. The women have bought all the party supplies in Harlan County I swear and they’ve made a couple of trips to Lexington. Ellie’s hired the Photographer and told Stone to get Ordained. Jess took my woman’s measurements telling her she was going to buy her some maternity clothes in Lexington. Nic’s been busy getting the rings made that I had drawn up. The sweet butts have been cleaning and planning the meal. I think I’ve got everything in order at least I hope like hell I do. Zeus’s just as nervous as I am and that makes me feel a bit better. I asked Nic to get the wedding book, the engraved mason jars, and non-alcoholic juice for the main table. The old ladies have picked up streamers, table clothes, napkins, silverware, plates, little bells, bubbles, flowers, mirrors, battery operated candles, an arch, mason jars, and those little beads you put in water and food coloring. Ellie’s having the cake being made and she took Jazz to get a dress and shoes and Jamie a new pair of jeans and white button up shirt and a pair of biker boots. The brothers have also gotten new jeans and the same white button up shirts. Jess has my woman’s dress and also her shoes. I asked her to get her to get white converse. My woman has no idea that she’ll be getting married tomorrow. I don’t know how we have managed to keep her out of the loop it’s a fucking miracle though. I plan on waking up early and going to the clubhouse to help with the last minute stuff. The twins are spending the weekend with Captain and Ellie. Jess and Nic will be coming over to do girly shit with my woman in the morning. They’ve already planned to get Mani and Pedi’s and they told Lyric that since she’s not been out of the house for months; they want to get her hair and make-up done also. She complained but they told her they would do it with her. Jess told her that she picked the most amazing dress for her but it’s a surprise and she can’t see it until right before the party.

    I get home and pick my woman up and we head to her Doctor’s Appointment for the baby. We get to find out how she’s healing after her attack. We’ll also find out if we can have sex and fucking hell if I’m not excited about being able to fuck my woman again. I swear my balls are ready to fucking explode. What I’m even more excited about is we have an ultrasound today and we’ll find out if we’re having a boy or girl. I think it’s a girl but my woman thinks it’s a boy. So we have a debate going and it’ll be resolved today. We’re talking smack to one another all the way to the office and we’re both laughing and smiling and I’m happy she has her smile and laugh back. I don’t even care that she’s smack talking me.

“You need to watch what you’re saying to me babe. I’m adding up all you’re punishments.”

I look at her and her jaw’s hanging open and I smile on the inside. I haven’t talked to her in a sexual way since the attack.

“I really thought you’d try to be gentle with me and not be you when we could go back to having sex. I was worried that you wouldn’t want me that way again. I was trying to be positive but you haven’t said one sexual thing to me at all. You haven’t threatened me with punishment even when I was trying to get a rise out of you.” She says to me with a small voice.

“I knew what you were doing babe and I was counting them up. You never have to worry about me not wanting you. We may have to take it easier than we did before but that would be for our baby’s sake. That doesn’t mean that I can’t spank your ass.” I say to her

She smiles at me through her tears and I have to pull off to the side of the road. I push my seat as far back as it’ll go and take off my seat belt.

“Come to me baby.”

She climbs into my lap and I kiss her face and hug her to me.

“You should’ve said something sooner babe. I should’ve been paying attention more. If I had realized that you needed me to talk to you in my dominate way I would have. I was trying to give you time to heal. I wanted to let you know that you’re loved and cared for with the sexual dynamic taken off the table. Baby you’re my everything. I think I’ll punish you for thinking I don’t want you.”

“I should’ve talked to you about my feelings on the matter. I’ll talk to you from now on honey.” She says to me with a giggle and tears still running down her face.

I kiss her one more time and I tell her to get back in her seat so we can get to the doctor.

    Dr. Young tells us that my woman has healed completely. We can resume our sexual relationship. She then tells us that the technician will be rolling the Ultrasound Machine in here in just a minute. My woman pulls her shirt up under her bra and lowers her pants to her pelvic bone. The paper sheet’s tucked in her pants so that gel won’t get on them. The technician comes in and sets everything up and squirts the warm gel on my woman and then uses the probe to take pictures and measurements of our baby. She lets us see the heart beat and we can hear it in the room. It’s like we’re right there in the womb with it. She stops taking measurements and asks if we want to now the sex and we both say “yes” at the same time. The technician laughs and starts to move the probe around and takes more pictures.

    We get home with our new pictures and we’ve been discussing names. Lyric wants to stay with the letter J and I don’t agree. So we’ve decided that we’re going to write down our top ten and come back to the table at a later date and come to an agreement. I tell my woman that I’m going to go pick up this twins and she should lay down and rest. I know the girls have stuff planned for her tomorrow. I want her to rest up tonight.

“Should we tell everyone at the party tomorrow what we’re having?” She asks me.

I tell her that’s a great idea. She smiles at me and I kiss her and turn the alarm on as I walk out the door. I call Zeus and let him know she’s alone in the house. He tells me he’ll head over and keep her company. Lyric’s gotten better about being left alone but only for short periods of time. I understand and she knows somebody will be showing up in the next few minutes to stay with her until I get back with the twins.

  “When we get home you both need to eat your snacks and do your homework. When you two go to change your clothes I also need you to pack a bag for the weekend. You only need to grab play clothes for one day. You two are going to be spending the night with your papaw and mamaw.” I say to them when I pick them up from school.

They love spending the night with them and I think it’s because they get to eat pizza and have sugar cereal and whatever junk they can get out of Ellie and Captain. They don’t get much candy or junk so once a month is fine with me. They’re excited about spending the weekend and then they ask if their momma will be okay all weekend without them. I tell them that they’ll see us tomorrow at the party and then they’ll be home the day after. They think about it for a minute and then they say they’re okay with that. We get home and they do their work and pack their bags. At around 6 pm they’re picked up by their papaw and they rush to him ready to get their weekend started. They come and get their cuddles and kisses from us and they leave with a wave.