Finding Jess (First Wave) (14 page)

“How do you know this is real? That
we are really mates? How can you be so sure?” Jess whispered, causing Amun to
chuckle.

“There was never a doubt for me the
moment, I touched the bracelet you had made for Cari. I knew that you were mine
right then. I spent every spare moment; I had touching it and wishing you were
safe in my arms. The more Cari told me about you, the deeper I fell in love
with you.”

“I was crazy with worry while we
tried to find you; hoping we could get to you in time. When he cut your throat…”
Amun’s voice caught as he remembered back to that horrible moment when he’d
thought he had lost her forever. He squeezed her more tightly and kissed the
top of her head as he tried to control the wave of emotions. He held back the
shudder when he remembered some of the nightmares, he’d had reliving that
moment.

“Somehow I knew you were there;
that you would find me. I could feel you inside of me. I didn’t know how that
was possible, but I knew it was true.” Jess admitted as she hugged him to her
to take his mind off that horrible day. She hadn’t known that it still bothered
him so much.

“Even then you knew you were mine
huh?” Amun asked in a lighter hearted manner than he felt at the moment. He was
hoping she’d acknowledge that she was his mate; she hadn’t yet, and it was
worrying him that maybe she didn’t feel the same way about him despite her
encouraging words. 

“Yes, I knew I was drawn to someone
even then. I didn’t know for sure it was you until I saw you for the first
time.”

Amun’s heart soared at her words,
she may not have admitted she was his mate but what she said was close enough
for his beast to calm and for him to feel much better.

“Amun, mates can have children
right?”

“Yes, mates can have children,
Amalaya. Do you want children?” Amun tried to hide the hope in his voice. He
wanted to have as many children as the All Father would bless them with,
including Lily.

“I would love to have children one
day... m a dozen like Lily and the other children.” She smiled into his chest
thinking about her Lily. She loved that little girl more than anything except
Amun. The admission that she loved Amun didn’t panic her the way she would have
expected it to. In fact, it felt really good to recognize it and say it, even
to herself.

“I was thinking that we could ask
Ivint and Banatar if we could have Lily as our own. I know it would be an
instant family for us and that it might be too soon for you…” He never got to
finish his sentence before Jess straddled his lap and threw her arms around his
neck in a tight hug.

“Thank you, thank you. Do you think
they will let us keep her? Would we have to move to one of the new family
suites? Would we have to wait until the other children’s families came to tell
her? Of course, we would! We can’t let the other children think we don’t want
them too! Wait! Will the other children think we didn’t want them if we only
take Lily? I don’t want them to feel hurt by this.”

Amun put his fingers across her
lips to stop her mind from running through all the questions she was about to
say. He was beginning to have a hard time thinking with her sitting on his lap
like this. It didn’t help that she was bouncing on him in her excitement. His
beast was taking it as an invitation that she wanted more.

“We can deal with whatever we need
to when it comes up. Right now, we just need to be sure this is what we want
before we have Ivint stop looking for another family for her. This isn’t
something we can change our mind about later.” Amun was hoping that by putting
a serious tone to this conversation that it would help her calm and therefore,
his beast as well.

“Oh Amun! I’ve never wanted
anything more! Wait… are you not sure? I understand…”

Amun groaned as he put both hands
on her hips to stop her from bouncing on his increasingly swelling lap; her
excited squirming was undoing all of his control.

“Jess, I am very sure that this is
what I want.”

Jess sat back a little and watched
Amun grit his teeth as he spoke, his hands tight on her hips, eyes closed and
wondered if he was sick until she noticed the front of his black uniform pants.
Did her sitting on his lap excite him that much? And why did it make her feel
hot and excited to think that it did? Normally, she’d be scared if a male was
excited around her, but she wasn’t scared at all. In fact, for the first time
she wanted to see what he looked like; and to touch him.

Feeling a rush of pleasure course
through her, she slowly moved her hips closer to the swelling in his pants as
she spoke.

“Do you think we stand a good
chance of keeping her though?”

Amun had to stop the growl mid
throat when Jess slid further up on his lap. He tightened his hands on her hips
once more to stop her from moving again; unsure how she would react to seeing
how much he wanted her.

“I think we stand a better chance
than anyone else since she’s already bonded so closely to the both of us.”

Again, he gritted his teeth and
held her hips tightly, and Jess wanted to giggle in happiness; it had to be her
that was exciting him. She felt almost powerful and safe at the same time
knowing he would never hurt her or force her. Not sure what else to do to
excite him more, she waited until he loosened the grip on her hips.

“Do you think it’s something she
would want as well?” She slid up far enough to feel his hardness pressed
against her clit and this time she almost moaned from the contact. She had no
idea that such little contact could feel so good and she struggled to remain
still as Amun held her much more tightly this time.

Since he hadn’t moved her away,
only stopped her from getting closer to him, she wiggled slightly against his
cock and laid her head on his shoulder. She smiled as he groaned loudly and
clutched her more tightly.

“Amun, do you think Lily would want
to be ours?” She whispered quietly into his ear causing goose bumps to skitter
across his neck and down his chest. The way she had said 'ours' caused him to
get even harder. His hands gripped her hips tighter then relaxed as he ran his
hands from her hips up to her back and again to her hips.

“Amun…,” Jess whispered out on a
breathless sigh. She’d never felt anything more wonderful than his large,
strong hands massaging her back; the light pressure pushing her relaxed body
closer to his.

Jess groaned as every stroke of his
hands on her hips caused her clit to rub against his hard cock, sending
electric shocks of pleasure to course through her. However, the torture of her
senses didn’t stop there; when his hands stroked up to her back it sent her
breasts rubbing against his chest causing her nipples to harden and heightening
her arousal.

She’d never felt so excited and
confused at the same time; she always hated being touched, but with Amun all
she wanted was more. Unsure what she needed, but knowing she needed more she
wound her hands into his hair and pulled him closer to her. She exhaled a sigh
when she rotated her hips gently against him and pressed her clit tightly
against his cock.

Amun groaned at the feel of Jess
rubbing herself erotically against him as his beast roared in triumph. He was
trying his best to slow things down, to give her a chance to make sure this is
what she wanted. However, his hands and his body would no longer listen to his
mind, only the beast clawing to be let loose to claim his mate.

He let go of her back with one hand
and used it to turn her head toward his, so he could look into her eyes. Her
beautiful blue eyes were half closed; her mouth parted slightly and her skin
glowing. The sight of her so aroused nearly undid him, and he had to stop himself
from grabbing her hair roughly as he used it to direct her mouth to his own.

Jess was a little startled by the
intensity of her feelings when Amun gently stroked his tongue into her mouth.
The feel of his tongue softly rubbing against and licking hers gave her body a
mind of its own, and she began rubbing herself in circles against Amun’s cock
more roughly, his hand on her lower back encouraging her as he helped guide her
how to give them the most pleasure.

Amun couldn’t wait to have her
anymore; his control snapped when she had shyly begun rubbing herself against
him; his beast seeing it as her capitulation to her mate. Without breaking
their kiss, he traced his hand from her hair and down her back until he could
slide it under the cotton pajama top she wore. Her skin felt like warm silk
beneath his fingers, and they both broke the kiss groaning at the feel of his
hand on her bare skin.

Emboldened by her reaction to him,
he thrust his hips upwards and used his hand at her lower back to hold her
tightly to him as he ground his cock against her until she laid her head
against his chest panting, her hands clutching firmly in his hair. 

“Jess…” He began, until what she
did next shocked him into complete silence.

Chapter
Twelve

Jess had been wondering for weeks
what she’d do if she, and Amun was ever in an intimate situation like this.
She’d talked to Cari and even Maggie about it and asked their opinion, but
still she hadn’t been sure what she would do. She’d never been more sure in her
life about what to do about anything, until now.

Pulling her hands from his hair,
she sat back slightly from him and ignoring his questioning look, reached down
and in one, fluid motion pulled her shirt off. Before she could lose her nerve,
she leaned forward and unbuttoned his shirt; peeling it away from his chest,
she leaned forward again and groaned at the feel of his hot skin pressed
against her sensitive nipples and couldn’t stop herself from rubbing against
him.

“Jess!” Amun growled, what little
control he had left was now completely gone.

More roughly than he intended, he
pulled her back from him by her hair and bent her backwards. He kissed her
until she was breathless then moved his mouth to her neck, kissing and licking
her as she writhed against him.

Her mind whirled with feelings and
emotions that she’d never thought she’d experience while naked with a man. She
couldn’t stop her body from arching closer to his mouth as his lips and tongue
danced along her skin in an erotic dance that left her wanting more. She ran
her fingers through his soft, wavy hair and pulled him closer to her chest; her
nipples hard and desperate for his attention.

There had been a part of Amun that
had remained sane enough to try to stop if Jess became distressed, that sane
part of him realized her shy encouragement was the sign he was waiting for from
her that she was ready for more.

Slowly, he lowered his head until
he was able to catch one perfect nipple into his mouth and gently sucked her
deeply into his mouth. He almost smiled at Jess’s moan as she clutched his head
to her breast; ensuring he couldn’t stop. Not that he could if he wanted to
now.

He gently sucked and licked her;
her moans of pleasure becoming louder as she began to buck and writhe against
his cock, which was straining heavily against his pants. He couldn’t stop his
own groan when he moved his hand from her hip to the front of her pants and
untied them causing the waist band to gap enough for him to gently caress where
they’d been around her waist.

When Jess didn’t panic and
continued to moan, he moved his mouth to her other breast, and his hand moved
lower to caress the soft hair of her mound. Her gasp of pleasure when he
lightly moved over her clit encouraged him to become bolder, and he gently
rubbed her clit in circles; his beast roaring in happiness at how wet she
already was for him.

Jess didn’t know what was happening
to her body, but she’d never felt like this before. She knew her body was
straining for something, but what she didn’t know. All she knew was that she
wanted this with Amun and so much more. She threw her head back and moaned as
she rubbed herself against his fingers harder, knowing she was urging him to do
more, and she didn’t care. With his hard cock straining against the bottom of
her pelvis and his fingers working their magic across her clit, she had a
sudden urge to feel him; and not through his pants.

She fumbled shyly with the
fastening on his pants until the smallest of openings allowed him to spring
forward into her hand. She wasn’t sure who moaned louder, him at the feel of
her warm hand gently holding him or her at the feel of the thick heat of him
engulfing her small hand.

She marveled at the feel of him;
like silk wrapped steel. Running her fingers gently up and down the length of
him, she tested the weight of him in her hand and was amazed at how large he
seemed in comparison to her hand. How hot he was and sensitive to her touch, as
he jerked and moaned against her chest as she shyly explored him. Instead of
frightening her, his arousal and reaction to her touch made her desperate for
more.

She continued to stroke his cock
and lifted up enough to slide her pants down until she could lift each leg and
remove them completely. Tossing them to the floor she sat back on his lap until
she was rubbing the front of his cock with her hand and the back with her clit
as she rocked back and forth on him.

“Jess! I can’t take it Amalaya…
please…” Jess ignored his panted objection and continued until she could feel
his body tightening, and he grabbed her hips in an almost bruising grip.

She waited patiently until he
loosened his grip as he calmed, then sat back up and in one, swift motion
pushed him as deeply as she could inside of her. The instant pleasure caused
her to scream out and clutch his shoulders firmly, her body bow string tight as
she arched against him.

Amun growled and grabbed her to him
in a possessive hold; his hands on her hips to keep her from moving away from
him. His worry for her the only thing that keeping him from plunging the rest
of the way inside and claiming her completely. He trembled as he held himself
back and prayed that she was alright and would move soon. The feel of her hot,
wet sheathe surrounding him so tightly more amazing than anything he ever
expected. 

Oh my God, Jess thought to herself;
he felt like heaven. Cari and Maggie had been right when they said that nothing
could ever compare to the feel of having the man you loved inside of you and
making love to you. They were right. His hard, hot cock pushing inside was
nothing like anything she’d experienced before, it was pure pleasure. Even the
feeling of incredible fullness as she slowly sank farther onto him was nothing
short of amazing.

His hands on her hips, panting in
her ear as she lowered herself until he was completely inside of her affecting
her more deeply than she’d thought possible. His growl of possession only added
to the feeling that they were connecting in a much deeper way than merely
physical. She held him to her and just enjoyed the feeling of closeness with
him that seemed to grow by the second now.

Amun wrapped his arms around her
slender back and pushed her downward gently as he thrust his hips upward and
drove more deeply inside of her causing her to moan loudly; hoping that would give
her an incentive to move. He wanted her to be in control of how far they went,
but damn if he wasn’t going to help her along.

“Amun…” Jess breathed on a sigh as
she raised herself up until she was almost off of him. Pausing she leaned down
and kissed him deeply while she resisted the light pressure he was putting on
her hips to encourage her back down on him. She kissed him until his hands
began clutching her desperately, and his kiss became demanding, then plunged
herself back down on him so quickly they both cried out from the pleasure.

By the One! He couldn’t take any
more of this! She was driving him insane, and he was going to explode if he
didn’t do something soon. Amun grabbed her hips tightly and held her to him
while he rotated his hips, lifting her up slightly and bringing her back down
on him and rotating his hips again making sure that the light pressure against
her clit was driving her just as crazy as he felt.

He waited until she was panting and
matching his movements with stronger ones of her own before he loosened his
grip on her and allowed her to control the pace again.

Jess knew the moment his hands let
up their hold on her and began to move up and down on him much faster than his
hold had allowed before. The pleasure was only increasing, leading her where
she didn’t know, but she knew she had to keep going and get to wherever it was.

“Jess…” Was the only warning she
got before he grabbed her again roughly and began thrusting upwards while
pulling her down to meet his hips. The depth of his strokes stole her breath,
the pleasure seeming to radiate through her body and setting it on fire. She
gasped helplessly and held on as every thrust plunged him deeper inside, the
pleasure licking through her nerves and making her writhe against him;
encouraging him to go harder and faster.

Amun could feel the change in
Jess’s body, the way her inner muscles clenched and released his shaft as he
pressed deeply inside of her, and he prayed that she would find her release
soon; he wasn’t sure how much longer he could hold off.

Moments later her inner muscles
squeezed him so tightly he almost came right then; however, when she started
rippling around him with her orgasm, he lost it. He held her firmly as he
continued to come deep inside of her, a part of him praying that they would
create a child. Still panting, he held her lovingly against his chest while she
lay across his body, her head tucked against his shoulder.

One-minute Jess felt like she was
going to explode and the next she had. She held tightly to Amun while the
colors burst behind her eyes, and her body shuddered against his. She’d never
felt so wonderful and relaxed in her life. She smiled to herself when she
rubbed her body against his slightly, and he moaned and gave her a squeeze.

Stretching her legs out a little
without dislodging him from her body proved futile, so she allowed him to
slowly slide out of her body and moved to the side and threw an arm and leg
over him instead. Looking down his body, she couldn’t help but laugh.

“You do realize that it deflates a
man’s ego when you laugh at him immediately after what he thought was the most
amazing moment of his life.” Amun said wondering what she was laughing about,
but not really worried that it had to do with their love making. He knew she’d
enjoyed it as much as he had, and he trusted in that knowledge.

“Oh no! I wasn’t laughing at that!
I was laughing because I was really hoping that the next time you could take
your pants and boots off.”

Amun looked down at her as she hid
her blush against his shoulder, her hair hiding part of the side of her face.
He wasn’t sure what surprised him more, the fact she was thinking of the next
time, or that he really had just moved his pants off enough to claim her; his
boots were still on his feet. Now it was his turn to blush. What kind of man
took his mate this way?

“Jess… I’m so sorry. I…” Jess
reached up and placed her finger across his lips to hush him.

“I’m not the least bit sorry for
any of it. Please don’t make it less beautiful than it was by being regretful
for it.”

“I would never want it to be
anything less than beautiful for you always, Jess. I love you.” Amun held her
tightly so she couldn’t see the tears misting his eyes.

“I love you too Amun. Can we get
your pants and boots off now? It’s hard to cuddle with them on.”

Amun sat up and pulled off his
boots and pants and slid under the covers with her where she’d retreated when
he’d stood up and pulled his pants off.

“Do you think anyone would mind if
you stayed with me tonight?”

Amun almost laughed at her
whispered words. They’d both made more than enough noise earlier that they
would have been heard for sure, yet this she whispered.

“No, Amalaya, they couldn’t drag me
away if they tried.” He gathered her into his arms and jockeyed body parts with
her until they were wrapped up comfortably together.

“Good. I like having you here with
me. I don’t like being alone.”

“You’ll never be lonely again,
Jess. You’ll always have me. You always have.” Amun kissed the top of her head
and gave her an emotional squeeze.

“I know.” Jess gave him a quick
squeeze in return and dropped off into the deepest sleep she could ever
remember having.

*****

“That isn’t possible. This is Dare;
we're talking about!” Banatar emphasized his point by slamming his fist down on
the table in the conference room.

“Sir, we’ve had no contact for
weeks now. None. We have to consider the possibility she’s lost. We need these
resources elsewhere to find the traitor right here and now. I know it’s Dare,
which is why I know this is what she would want you to do. You know it too.” 
Jax stood her ground with Banatar. They’d been in the conference room only a
few minutes when the exchange became heated and tense.

“Banatar, I understand your feelings
on the matter. But she’s right. We almost lost her team because they walked
into a trap. The only way that could have happened is if the traitor had given
someone on the outside that information. If we find the traitor, we may be able
to find out if they know anything about what happened to Dare.”

“We have to think of the children
and the others here as well; every day that the traitor is loose, the greater
the risk to everyone.” Ivint’s heart was breaking for Banatar and his missing
daughter, but he knew that if they didn’t divert their resources to finding the
traitor, next time someone could end up dead.

“The last intel we had was that
Balduen disappeared within a two-block radius of where Dare was last seen. The
description he gave Niklosi of the woman he was following fits Dare; and we’ve
not heard from him either. What we need to do is utilize a minimum amount of
personnel to track down whether or not anyone saw them both together. We’ve
only looked for them separately to this point.”

“If by some chance, they found each
other, then were taken or left together we might have a better chance of
getting more leads to follow.” Reven added. He was just as concerned about the
disappearance of Balduen, but agreed that the traitor needed to be found immediately.