Authors: Carolyn Forche
idam agnaye, na mama
idam agnaye, na mama
(this is for the fire, not for me)
if he exists to another, that is need
if rope were writing he would have hanged himself
if you ask him what happened he will tell you
if you bring forth what is within you
in a bowl polished by the morning light
in a village where the women know how to piss standing up
in carceral silence
in glimpses, broken messages, cryptic signs
in his address book, a pressed poppy chosen from his mother’s poppy bed
in his coat, a small cage of canaries
in his hand a clod of himself to wipe on the walls
in memory: the music of an open spigot
in reverse until you were floating in a flat green boat
in solitary reverie we can tell ourselves everything
in stone is written
in stone
in the bardo of becoming
in the black daybreak, passing through
in the casket window, a face
in the cellar, three crates: rifles, gold & cognac
in the cesium fields
in the chaotic light in the coal-smoked heavens
in the cities of what can be said
in the country of advanced years
in the ecstasy of standing outside oneself
in the fact of parting
in the garden: heliotrope, phlox, rose trees, trellised roses, blue torenia, hibiscus, blue lobelia, lichen, a bamboo grove
in the garden in winter with my son
in the mathematical language of a time to come
in the morning, a white shirt on the line waving
in the night photograph: electric cities, burning forests
in the pole-and-rag tents
in the still-bandaged pines
in the summer, weeds took over the city: horse weeds known as railway weeds grew taller than people
in the surround of that word
in the time after
in the tin lamp’s punched light
in the toy store, a parcel of toys explodes
in the white infinity of mist
in the window a veil of winter
in their radiance a tub of dry milk
in this camp, how many refugees
in this the child’s blue hour
in thought, where they were lost
incapable of imagining annihilation
inhabiting a body to be abolished
inter alia, inter nos
intercessor
into a duration deep within her
into the world, further illuminated by thought
iris, illuminant
is there anything else?
it appears to be an elegy, put into the mouth of a corpse
it became what it was because of us—in that sense
loved
it is as if space were touching itself through us
it is more ominous than any oblivion, to see the world as it is
it is not possible to find you in death’s heaven
it is not raining in the catacombs
it is not you who will speak
it is the
during
of the world
it is the morning of the body’s empty soul
it is worse than memory
it ruins time, the chiasmus of hope
it was all over
it was all there, written in stone, a record of munitions
it was
cinema
it was gruel refused: blue wedges of bread, maggot soup, rice drippings
it was just before the second war, and she had no time for me
it was raining in the catacombs
it was the first time in my life I tasted fish
it was the name of a time, and over there, a place
it was the simplest way to know one another
J’ai rêvé tellement fort de toi
J’ai tellement marché tellement parlé
journey of two thousand kilometers
journey that will have no end
keeping a record of oneself
keepsake, knell, Kyrie
knowing oneself from within
l’heure bleue,
hour of doorsteps lit by milk
le musée hypothétique
lace patterned after frost flowers
language from chance to chance
languid at the edge of the sea
lays itself open to immensity
leaf-cutter ants bearing yellow trumpet flowers along the road
left everything left all usual worlds behind
library, lilac, linens, litany
lifting the wounded
light and the reverse of light
light impaled on the peaks
light issuing from the wind’s open wounds
light mottling the forest floor, crows leaving one limb for another
light of cinder blocks, meal trays
light of inexhaustible light
lighted paper sacks sent downriver to console
like the handkerchief road
like the whispering in a convent garden
like tomb flowers, the ossuary’s skull works
lilac and globeflower, clouds islanding the tilled fields
linked as flame to burning coal, as one candle lighted from another
listening to the stove mice and chimney swallows
little rain holes where the bullets went, rains crater the field, raising each a ring of soot, striking the catch pails and stabbing the tarpaulin.
we live in fog tents, awake, whispering what could once be written on a sliver of rice
lost in paper, shellfire
lupine wind, lingering daylight
lute music written for severed hands
manuscripts in the cold part of the house
matchbooks flaring in a blank window
matinal, mirage, mosaic
meaning did not survive that loss of sequence
memory does not interfere
memory the presence of the no-more
metal soup pots hung to dry, crazed porcelain basins
mirrors, vials, furnaces
misprision
of moments lifted from their concealment
moments of rain ascend in the manner of smoke
more ominous than any oblivion
mortar smoke mistaken for an orchard of flowering pears
mud from the bowels of the city
mud from the disheveled night
music loosening floor tiles, a moon washed in earthly light, the dawn sirens calling men to the mines
music of the hurrying fountains
must release the dead from bondage
must rise from the dead while we live
my dear, I think
yes
my father crossed the field and stood
my hair a cold flag of rain
my hands coated with tomb dust
my mother’s hand broken by a fierce wind
my own: I was utterly there. and when I came back I was still there
naked beneath our names, thrown up by the wit-lost
near dawn, near the river wasn’t it? if one of us
near the lake, where the fireweed was
neither a soul nor a body
neither for us nor near itself
never repeating itself
nevertheless, noumenon, november
new pasts, whole aeons are invented
night shift in the home for convalescents
nightshirt, razor strop, boot-heel
night-voiced viola
no breath of God, no words, and no possibility of restoration
no content may be secured from them
no one prayer resembling another
not a house but a stagnant hour
not blood, flesh and bread but an earthly ecstasy
not isolation but a lack of solitude
not only the flow of thoughts, but their arrest
not wishing to know anything more about oneself
nothing as it was
nothing other than mind
nothing was exiled from itself
now and again like a voice grown suddenly tired
now on the plane in a white-out
objects [heavenly bodies]
as they were in the past
oder nicht
oil soap, orchard, ossuary
old books snowing from our hands
older than clocks and porcelain, younger than rope
older than glass, younger than music
on each tip of grass a wet jewel
on her hand, a moment of ring-light
on lave les corps, on les prépare pour l’ensevelissement
on the blanket then, government issue
on the fifty-fourth day, loss of sight and hearing
on the platform between trains, holding a bottle
on the shortwave, the high whine of the world’s signal
one for the other
one sees and is seen
one sees and is seen approaching the other with empty hands
one stands in line for butter
only the walls that did not face the blast remained white
open shell of heaven
or a failed letter
or that she would admonish me for the years of my silence
or when it first occurred to them to have graves with markers
our atelier of passing trains, citronella smoke, a veiled bed
our hymnic song against death
our most secret selves
past and present sliding into each other
pear trees espaliered along the walls
pen and ink across the boundaries
pink snow downwind of the test site
pinning their intentions to a saint’s dress
pitch smoke chalks the sky over the roof
poppy seed, portal, portrait, prayerbook
present though most often invisible
question after question
quiescent, quiet, quinine, quivering
rain falling into their open eyes
rain in the catacombs
raising each a ring of soot
redemption not an accounting or a debt
refugee, relic, reverie
relief sacks loaded into trucks
relief tents until the horizon
remaining in fear of death but remaining
responsible beyond our intentions
resting language or language under surveillance
reverses itself as we read it
riddles the statues of martyrs and turns
rinses limbs then craters the field
rinses limbs then
rises as wet smoke
rising in bodily light
roads rivered with waste and a tea-colored rain
sacks of soy and manioc, dry milk, rice
sanctuary, sea glass, sorrow
scoop of earth: slivers of femur, metacarpals
searching for something one knows will not be found
set in language and deserted by God
she heard no one’s footsteps, then nothing
she holds lilacs to her face
she meets a man on the mule-steps who has been dead for months
she pulled the lilacs to herself
she puts the rice pot down in the snow
she sees nothing of what is to come
she went with him willingly and without knowing where she was, she saw the country very much as she would have had she walked through a film about herself
she within me
she would never again wander too far into the past
sheltering in the open
shore birds, smoke, the ferris wheel turning
signature by signature in triplicate, rice and dry milk
since last night on the bridge
six hours under fire along the road
six inches from my belly
sixteen clicks after the flag of fire
slow questioners, there was no place in the world for them
smacking the hands of children who miswrote
small talk like white smoke from kindling
snow clicking as it falls into itself, hushed, a little smoke crawling from a stovepipe, following the wind or rising straight, the village so quiet that one can hear the iced branches
snow in the shadow folds,
impasto, gouache
snow on the shoulders of the statuary
so as not to take a single word into my mouth
so as to be taken for refugees
so emptiness cannot harm emptiness
so it appears as if it were what we wanted
so that the dead climb up out of the river to blacken its banks
so that the other comes back
so this is how the past begins—
so we walked, pretending our empty suitcases burdened us
some dance, one holds a dove aloft
some flaw in the message itself
some were burned with cigarettes, some doused with turpentine. every night they poured turpentine through their hair and slept like that, so as to keep the leeches from giving them head wounds
some with wicker baskets, others with gathered flax, some with children in their arms, others with brooms, some dance, others hold aloft a dove someone will be pouring milk while another perishes
something broken and personal, a memory
something holding back the pouring, a turn of the kaleidoscope, a turn again, radiant, beautiful, meaningless so it is easier to choose stones from the ground, a sack of words, pieces of language from something larger, and if a single event caused this ruin, what was that event? what made night a country of terror?
something within me is no longer with him
snow catching on razor wire, searchlit fields
snow through open windows
soul on its way toward earth
sparks of holiness
spoken in unknown words of a known language
stepping back into an earlier life
strands of hair, blood, corpuscled light
streets iced with shop-glass, a flock of stones
stripped trees against winter fields
take no words by mouth
tangled lilacs, peeling walls, darkening lindens
tedium taught me an imaginary world
tendril, torpor, tributary
that even this refuge might be taken:
that ing-ing of verbs in an eternal present
that light traveled from the eye to the world
that nothingness might not be there
that you might become one among others
the after-touching memory of relief
the air around the ringing bells filled with ash
the being that lies half open
the birds became smoke
the blue whorling that once spoke
the blue-stoned streets of river rock
the boiling, sudden clouds of August
the border. anywhere. but the war zone. mattresses roped to the roof