All I Want Is You (12 page)

Blu

              I hurried into the hospital and found Ryder in the waiting room; his face was in his hands. I walked over to him and sat down beside him.

              “Why aren’t you with, Camila?” I was hurting inside for them both, I knew they were so excited to start a family.

              “I needed to get my head together, this all came out of no where. She said she have been feeling pain for a few days, but thought it wasn’t a big deal.” He looked at me broken, something in his eyes changed.

              “You aren’t blaming her, right?” I looked at my brother closely for the first time since I walked up to him.

              “No, I would not say that, she should have said something; we shouldn’t be going through this right now. I was so ready to have a family Blu, I want our dad to at least meet one of his grandchildren.” He broke down and cried, he fell into my open arms.

              I stayed quiet and let him cry his eyes out; I did not know what to say. I have never gone through this before. I just knew I needed to be here for him. Once he finally stopped crying, he stood up and went to check on, Camila. I decided to head back home, I wanted my bed. It’s was a really long day.

              Once I got to the house I went to Ghost’s room, I knocked on the door and he told me to come in.

              “Is everything okay, Blu?” He looked concerned, he sat up in his bed and patted the bed next to him.

              “Camila miscarried, I feel so sad for them both. Ryder wanted to give you a grandchild before you know.” I sat in the bed next to him and looked at my hands.

              “Y’all shouldn’t rush your lives for me, Ryder and Camila will have a child when it’s the right time, things do happen for a reason. It would be nice to see y’all get married and have children, but I am tired. I’m trying to fight this but it might win out. Now cheer up Blu, everything will be okay. Now let your old man get some rest.”

              I kissed him on the check and tucked my father into his bed. I looked at him one last time before I called the door. Tears were running down my face, I felt like he wouldn’t be here much longer.  I walked into my wing and Skie, Monroe and Anika where all watching a movie together on the couch. I shook my head and continued to walk to my master bedroom. I was so tired and just needed rest.

              Once I got into the room, I took off my clothes grabbed a pair of basketball short and a tank top and crawled into bed. I heard the door open and in walked, Skie.

              “You don’t wann a watch a movie with us, bae?” She sat at the end of the bed and looked at me.

              “No, it’s been a long day and I just wanna sleep, Ryder and Camila will be home in the morning and then we are all having a sit down with my father’s doctor.”

              “Okay, well get some sleep, I guess.” She kissed me and headed out the room, I grabbed my phone and went to send Ryder a text.

             
Blu: Everything okay?

              Ryder: Fine as it will be for now, you talk to our father?

              Blu: Yes, I did, I’ll let you know what he said in the morning.

              After that I fell asleep, I woke up a few hours later to Skie getting into bed next to me, she wrapped her arms around me.

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              It was the next morning, I just got out the shower. I put on some leggings and a T-shirt, I put on my house shoes and went down to the family room. Skie went to breakfast with Monroe and Anika; she said she had something to talk to me about when she got back. I was gonna push that out of my mind until after this sit down with the doctor.

              Ryder and our dad where already sitting down on the couch, I sat on the other side of Ghost and we waited for the doctor. I was nervous on what he was going to say. All of a sudden my mother walks in, she had on a pair of joggers and a bebe tank top. She looked pale and skinnier.

              “Thank you for coming Emila,” Ghost spoke up and said. He gave her a slight smile, me and Ryder looked at each other.

              “Mom are you okay? You’re looking a little pale.” I was worried, I think it was time to make things right with her and find out what is really going on.

              “Yes, sweetie I am fine,” she smiled at me and sat on the couch across from me, she started scratching her arms. I was about to say something, but then the doctor walked into the room. he sat down and took a few files out of his bag.

              “So me and Ryder Sr. thought we would sit all of you down and talk about what is going on and hopefully try to prepare you for what is about to happen.” The doctor looked at all of us.

              “First I want to introduce myself, I am Dr. Bluff. I have been treating and working for your father since he was first diagnosed with cancer. We were really hoping things would get better, but things are getting really bad. I question myself on why he is even alive.”

              Ghost took a deep breath and looked at Ryder then me, I knew what he was about to say and we weren’t going to like it.

              “I have decided to stop all types of treatment and stop fighting,” he grabbed both of our hands.

              All of a sudden, tears started falling down my face and Ryder stood up and started spacing the floor. I looked at my mom and she was holding her legs to her chest crying herself.

              “How could you do this to us?” Ryder screamed! “You’re supposed to fight for us!” Ryder was Crying uncontrollably.

              “I feel like this is best, I do not want to leave you guys, but I am tired, I’m tired of the meds, the treatment. I want both of you to know that I love you both and you mean everything to me and I am sorry from the bottom of my heart for everything that I have done to you both. Please respect my decision.”

              I broke down, I was crying so hard I couldn’t see anything. I felt Ghost reach out his arms around me and I felt someone sit on the other side of me. Once I calmed down, I looked at my mother who was sitting next to me. I laid my head on her chest. I whispered I am sorry and she kissed me on the forehead. After a while Camila came downstairs to hold Ryder and Dr. Bluff and our dad went into the other room to talk. I looked at my mom and realized that I missed her so much. I was being stubborn and so mean to her. She needed someone right now, Ghost was her soulmate and her first love and she was about to lose him.

              “Mom I wanted you to know that I am sorry, I just needed some time. I hope that we can start working on our relationship.” I gave her a small smile and put my head back on her chest.

              “You have no reason to apologize, Blu, I know you needed time after what you were told, I’m just hoping one day we can be as close as we were.” She started playing with my hair, her being here made things a little earlier.

Ghost

              Breaking the news to my love ones that I was giving up my fight to beat cancer was so hard. I called my brother earlier and let him know the news, he wasn’t taking it well, either. He was bringing his wife and my nephew over later. I wanted to have a big family dinner tonight. I even reached out to Linda, who was flying in tonight to attend. I wanted to make amends with her and apologize for everything and to wish her nothing but happiness in her new relationship. Maria was in the kitchen cooking a seafood dinner for tonight, and Emila was helping her.  I was sitting at my desk in my office going over some last minute things in my will. I also wrote Ryder and Blu letters. I was finally at peace with my decision, and My kids would be set for the rest of their lives; plus if they had some grandchildren, the would be set too.

              Ryder and my brother were taking over my empire so that was set. My house was getting left for Ryder, Blu and Emila to live in. My restaurants and hotels were going to Emila, and any other property and money was to be split between Blu and Ryder. I left my other daughter some thing too, but not enough as Ryder and Blu, she was ungrateful.  I sent everything over to my lawyer, and left my office. Once, I got upstairs everyone was there. Ryder had Camila and Blue had Skie, I was happy that my kids had significant others to help them out with this hard time. The doorbell rang and I went to answer it, when I opened the door it was Linda and her new boyfriend. I was mad that she had this nigga had a family function, I looked at Ryder who watched his mother. He had anger in his eyes; I hoped they would get the chance to talk about everything, I never wanted him to hate his mother.

              “Well, hello Linda,” I opened the door wider, so they could come inside. This guy she was with looked familiar, but I didn’t want to think too much into it.

              “Hi Ghost, I hope it’s okay that I brought my man,” she gave me a tight smile and wrapped her arms around his waist.

              “Actually, this is supposed to be a family thing, I have some news and there aren’t any outsiders.” I felt Ryder walk up, I knew he wouldn’t be happy about her coming, so I had a small talk with him before inviting her.

              “Who is this?” Ryder spoke up, he was sizing up the man standing next to his mother, I put my hand on his shoulder, so he would calm down.

“I’m Mika,” he reached out his hand and Ryder looked at it with disgust. He noticed, so he put his hand down.

              “Well, Mika, this is a family gathering. So would you mind leaving our home?”. Ryder looked him up and down.

              “Ryder please, I want you to get to know the man that is in my life.” Linda looked at our son with a pleading look in her eyes.

              “I don’t even want you here, so I sure as hell don’t want your so called man in my house.”

              “Fine then I guess I will leave too,” Linda gave me a sad look and started heading to the door.

              “Linda, please stay. I would like to speak to you in private. But, please respect your son’s wishes and have Mika pick you up when dinner is over.” I walked away and Ryder followed.

              I sat down on the couch because I wasn’t feeling good; I needed to rest a little. I watched everyone talk amongst each other. Linda came over and sat next to me, I looked at her.

              “He left, I’m guessing what you have to tell me is important or you wouldn’t have asked me to come all this way.” She looked down at her hands, she looked a nervous.

              “It is important; first I want to apologize to you for not being the man I was supposed to be to you. I turned into someone I hated and I am deeply sorry.” I placed my hand on top of hers and squeezed gently.

              “Ghost, is apologizing for his wrongs. Wow, I never thought I would see the day. But I forgive you, Ghost. That’s all I ever wanted from you is to apologize.” She gave me a warm smile and grabbed my hand.

              “The other thing I wanted to tell you is that I am dying. I stopped treatment a few days and I’m not sure how long I have. I wanted to make amends, and I wanted to wish you the happiness you deserve,” I looked into her eyes; I did have love for this woman.

              “Why would you give up?” She looked at me confused, her eyes started to gloss over.

              “I’m tired Linda, my body can’t take any more of this. I hope you understand my decision. One thing I want from you is to reach out to Ryder. He will forgive you for leaving, it will take some time, but just keep trying to reach out.” We gave each other a hug and she left.

              Everyone started making their way to the dining room, when I tried to stand up the room started spinning. Blu came running over to help me, I was happy everyone else was in the other room.

              “Dad, are you okay?” Blu looked at me with concerned eyes, she helped me sit down. We sat there for a minute.

              “You ready to go into the dining room? Or do you need to go lay down?” She said with sadness.

              “Help me to the dining room, I don’t want to alarm anyone.” We counted to three, and she helped me up. We entered the dining room and I sat at the head of the table. Blu and Ryder sat on my left and right side, Emila sat at the other end of the table. I looked around as everyone was laughing and having a good time. We all ate and joked around, it was a successful dinner. Everyone was starting to leave, and I gave everyone well wishes and hugs. I shut the door, and looked over at Blu and Skie talking; Ryder and Camila were doing the dishes.

              “Blu, Ryder? When you’re done with what you’re doing, come to my room. I would like to have some alone time with you two.” They both nodded their heads, I walked to my room and laid down. Emila walked into the room, and sat at the end of the bed. She looked at me with sad eyes.

              “We never got to get married, you’re not supposed to leave this earth yet, Ghost.” She had tears running down her face, I grabbed her and pulled her close to me.

              “Everything will be okay, I need you to be strong and move on. I know it will hurt but please do that for me?” I kissed her checks then her lips. I held her in my arms for a little while, then Blu and Ryder entered the room. They jumped in bed with us and we turned on my favorite movie,
boys in the hood.
I was happy knowing that I made everything right. I did wish that I would’ve got the chance to marry, Emila. I hope she stayed strong and got off the drugs.

              I looked at my daughter and son, and smiled. I knew they had bright futures ahead of them. I was so proud of what they were doing with their lives. I knew they had bright futures ahead of them. The movie was over and Blu and Ryder got off the bed. Ryder went and turned off the TV and turned and looked at me.

              “Goodnight daddy, I love you,” Blu smiled and kissed me on the check. She gave me a hug and I hugged her back.

              “Goodnight baby girl, I love you more than anything.” I watched as she left the room, she turned back and looked at me one more time.

              “Goodnight pops, love you.” Ryder gave me and hug and started walking towards the door.

              “Goodnight son, I love you too.” I watched as he locked the door, Emila laid down next to me.

              “I love you Emila, you have always had my heart,” I kissed her forehead. My door opened and both Blu and Ryder walked in.

              “Can we sleep in here tonight?” Blu smiled and got onto the bed and so did Ryder. I was the happiest I’ve been in a long time. We all got comfortable in my California king bed. I closed my eyes to sleep