Alexia Eden (FairyTales Don't Exist) (35 page)

“I’ll be right back, I just gotta get something.” I say going to the bathroom and shutting the door behind me.

I open the door to my room and tip toe inside. I see Tyler lying on his stomach clutching the pillow under his head. He’s not asleep, he's just staring out the window with a sad look on his face. I tip toe up to him and he immediately looks up to me.

He turns to his back and I quickly jump onto him and straddle him, I look down at him with a smile on my face, this causes him to chuckle and the mood immediately lightens.

My hands are on the bed on either side of his head while his hands are resting on my upper thighs. I’m looking down at him as he speaks, “I’m so sor-“ but I interrupt him by bringing my lips to his and I get the same tingly feeling I got when I kissed Talon for the first time. It was like I was waking up from a dead sleep….like I was truly alive for the first time and this is exactly where I’m meant to be. The feeling makes my decision to end things with Drake more certain.

His hands immediately glide towards my ass as he squeezes me into his body. I moan while he growls softly. I put my one hand onto the side of his face so that my thumb sits on the right side of his jawline and the rest of my fingers are under his ear, I gently caress his jawline with my thumb as I press my lips harder into his. I feel his lips part and I take the opportunity to slide my tongue to meet his…
he tastes so sweet.

I rest on my elbows on either side of his head as we make out. I pull away from him and look at his dark blue eyes, “I love you Tyler.” I say as I kiss his cheek, then I rub my cheek against his the same way they do when they are trying to show me deep affection. Tyler seems shocked at my affections, I pull away to look at him and I see his eyes all watery.

That’s the Tyler I love… he doesn’t care if he exposes himself to me and it doesn’t make him any less of a man when he does.

“I love you too! So much! I swear I’m not sad, it’s just that….” he mumbles as he sits up with me still on his lap, he wraps his arms around my waist as he looks at me and speaks.

“The first time we met our mate was the same day she was killed, I knew from the moment I laid eyes on her that I loved her and the way she looked at me …she loved me too. Talon and I were so confused because not all twins share mates but we did. We never got to complete the bond with her and fully mate. When she died I thought I would never love again and I would never be loved the way your mate would love you. But now…you came and…I can’t get you out of my head. I love you Angel….I love you so so much.” He says as he looks at me and smiles as the tears tremble down his cheeks. I wipe his tears away then kiss his cheeks where the tears where. I wrap my arms around him and give him another big kiss then I pull away slowly. He brings his cheek to mine and I know what he’s about to do and I let him.

“Why do you guys do that?” I giggle as he removes his cheek from mine.

“It’s our wolf, the gentle touch of your skin comforts them, he’s trying to show you how much he cares for you and appreciates you.” Tyler says and I smile.

“It’s okay Angel, Talon already told me that this won’t happen again until things end with Drake and I understand… we both do.
 It's all meant to happen this way and we should let everything fall in place the way Fate meant for it. You will soon realize who you’re meant to be with and we don’t want to make that decision for you. Only you can….” Tyler says full of understanding.

“You’re right. You know I have to tell him though, I know if I keep it from him, the guilt will eat me alive and I don’t want to lie to him anymore so I’m just going to tell him about the kisses. He at least deserves that much.”
  I tell him and he nods in agreement.

“Come…” Tyler says as he takes my hand and leads me to their room. Talon is already sleeping on his side facing the middle. I gently climb under the covers and cuddle into him with my back against him, Tyler still has that smile on his face. Talon instantly wraps his arm around me and pulls my body into his. I wrap my one arm over Tyler’s chest and he picks up my hand and kisses it.

Today is Thursday and I leave to spend the weekend at Point Bright, I’ve arranged with Drake and Ronny that I will be staying at Georgina’s place. I don’t want to be stuck at their house all day while they have school on Friday, I also don’t want to be in the room opposite Jax or anywhere near him…
I haven’t told them that part though.
I don’t know how long I’m staying but I guess that all depends on how well Drake takes my revelations.

I say my goodbyes to Johnny and the twins before I head to the High School to say goodbye to Alex. The twins were reluctant to let me leave this morning but I reminded them I would be home soon.

I had to drop off a few of the school work I’ve been working on at the office so I told my mother I would stop by her classroom and say goodbye.

It’s a hot sunny day today so I choose a pair of denim shorts with my black Kings of Leon t-shirt, paired with my brown short boots. I let my hair hang loosely down my back with my Ray Bans on my head keeping the hair from falling in my face.

I step into the office and hand the old lady behind the counter my work and assignment that needed to be marked as I ask her where Alex’s classroom is. I leave the office and make my way down the empty hallway in search for my mother.

Following her instructions I come to an empty class room, as I’m about to turn to leave I’m stopped by a deep voice.

“Are you looking for Mrs. Blackwood?” I turn to see an older taller man…
of course he’s good-looking just like every other male down here…must be a werewolf
. I look at him confused, realizing I don’t even know my own mother and fathers last name.

What an idiot…
I internally smack my forehead with my hand.

“Umm…I’m looking for Alex?” I say confused and he chuckles.

“Yes, that’s Mrs. Blackwood. She's taken her class to the bleachers since it’s a nice day outside today. I’ll show you were she is, follow me.”

As we make our way out of the school toward the field, he starts chatting to me. “You are definitely related to Alex, you are a spitting image of her.”

I laugh and look over to him, “Yip, we are related.” I don’t say anymore. I spot Alex by the field sitting with a group of students that look around my age. I walk faster making my way over to her before the stranger starts asking anymore questions.

A couple of guys whistle and I see some girls whispering behind their hands to their friends. Alex looks over to see what they’re all looking at and she spots me.

She gives me a big smile before she rushes up to me and gives me a hug.

“I can’t believe I didn’t even know my own mothers last name! I feel like such a tool!” I say through laughs and soon her laughs join mine.

“I’m so sorry, it never really came up.” She says still laughing at me and I notice the entire class is looking at us with confusion written all over their faces.

“Mother?” I hear one of the girls ask out loud.

Alex stops laughing and clears her throat before she speaks, “Yes class, I would like to introduce you all to my daughter Angel.”

I hear grasps and they seem shocked at the revelation.

“How come no one knew you had a child?” a guy from the bottom stand says with an attitude.

“That’s because I never lived with my mother.” I say as I glare at the guy, I don’t like the way he spoke to Alex.

He nods his head while another boy a few rows up from him says, “Please tell me you’re starting school here!”

The girl next to him nudges him and scowls at him. I laugh, “Nope, sorry.” I hear a few sighs and a couple of the girls let out deep breaths they’ve clearly been holding in.

“No way! You are Talon and Tyler’s girlfriend!” I hear another boy say.

“No… I’m not their girlfriend but I am taken….” I shake my head and turn my attention away from the nosy crowd.

My mother saves me from the current debrief that’s going on with the class and I, “You’re already leaving?”

“Yip, I will only be a few days though, I’m going to miss you.” I smile at her as I wrap my arms around her waist and give her a hug, she returns the hug and rubs my back.

“I’m going to miss you too, when we get back we will have a girls day okay? Just me and you.” Alex says excitedly.

“That’s sounds great! Love you…mom.” I walk away and wave goodbye to all the students. I smile to myself as I walk back to the car, Alex’s grin brightens every time I call her mom.

I take a slow drive because I know Drake has football practice today and he will only be done after five. Ronny finishes school at three so maybe I will get to spend some time with her before Drake comes over.

After arriving at the little trailer I used to share with Georgina. I take my bag out the car and head in. I still have my spare key on me so I open the house expecting to see the mess that was here the last time I was in here.

Instead the house is absolutely spotless. I walk to my room and notice my rooms also clean just the way I left it except on my bed lies a yellow envelope. I place my bag on the chair seated near my door and sit on my bed as I look at the envelope that has “Alexia” written on it, I know whose handwriting it is.

I open the envelope and read ….

Dear Lexi

I wrote this note to you because I knew you would prefer if you never saw me again and I fully understand. My baby girl, words cannot explain how sorry I am for the last few years that you’ve had to put up with me and my issues. I never told you this before but I think after everything that’s happened between us, you need to know about the time I first met you.

I was eighteen the first time I met James, my mate. I met him at a grocery store, he was trying to find formula for you and he wasn’t sure which one was best, of course I instantly knew we were mates. I was afraid because I immediately knew he was half human and I was expecting my mate to be full-blooded but despite that fact I knew I loved him from the moment I met him. I knew the hardships that came with having a human as a mate and I was fully prepared for it all including the fact that I wouldn’t ever be able to have children with him because he was a turned wolf.

He had you bundled up to his chest and you were crying, he asked me to hold you while he packed the cart. You immediately stopped crying when I pulled you from him and the first time I saw your beautiful big eyes I instantly fell in love with you too. James may not have been your biological father but he loved you as he would if you were his daughter. From that day forward I never wanted to let you go, you were our little girl.

Please forgive me for the horrible things I’ve said, I never meant one word, drugs and alcohol make you do and say terrible things. I wasn’t well and I was taking whatever I could to stop the pain I got when I thought of him. I pray that you never go through the pain of losing your soul mate Lexi.

 I miss him so much and I know you did too but you didn’t want to show it because you were trying to be strong for me. I should have been there for you Lexi. You are the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I destroyed you.  I will never forgive myself for the way I’ve treated you.

I love you my baby and you will always be my daughter even though I haven’t been the mother you deserved these last couple of years. I know you probably don’t ever wish to see me again but I am going to get healthy and sober again, I never want to hurt someone the way I’ve hurt you. I’ve caused you to hate me but it’s okay, I deserve that and I love you enough for the both of us. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me for all the hurt I have caused you.

I love you my little Lexi.

Mom xxx

My hands are trembling by the time I read the last sentence, I can see the tear drops that have fallen on the page on my lap and some of the ink in the words have smudged. I didn’t hear Ronny come in but I turn when I see something to my left and I find her leaning against the door staring at me with a sad look. I wipe away the tears and smile at her.

She comes running to me and hops onto the bed as she pulls me into an embrace.

“Aw Lex, I’m sorry, don’t be sad….everything is
 going to be okay.” She rubs my back and whispers words to comfort me. I look up to her and smile.

“Ron…I’m not crying because I’m sad, I’m happy….she loves me Ron. I thought she hated me…but she still loves me.” I say as I wipe away a few more new tears.

“Lexi is that what you thought? You thought she hated you? Of course she still loves you!” Ronny says in shock.

“Thanks, love you too you know and I
 missed you also.” I tell her and she smiles at me.

“Love you too babe and I'm so glad you’re back. I think Chloe was getting annoyed with me hovering over her 24/7.” Ron laughs.

We head to the kitchen where Ronny left the pizza she bought us on the counter. We grab the box and head to the lounge and watch some TV catching up on the last few days.

“Can I ask you a question Lex?” Ronny asks and I already know what’s on her mind.
Shit…