A Life Plan Without You. (77 page)

“You’re going to have to tell me what you want Mi cielo, I’m
not sure what you want me to do? I like to please you. This is
mine, all mine, no one else’s, I’m going to make love to you not
fuck you, well not the first time anyway.” He had his hand up my
dress and he thumbed my sex, damn it felt nice.

The shivers shot like a chilled wind throughout my body, my
head light and the gasp as he thumbed the sensitive nub with his
thumb over and over, saying it was his just his, yes just his, only
his. Umm so nice, I quivered at his touch, as I held his gaze with
mine, his breathing deep and almost panting, not helped by me
slowly unzipping him. I held on to him and shivered at his touch
whimpering under the constant flick of his finger over the same
damn spot wow and ouch and oh boy I’m coming. I collected myself
swiftly together as I began pumping my wayward fiancé, damn he was
hard and as I did he moved me further into the alcove wow he was so
near, so damn hard and so near.

“I believe my first time could hurt, so you are going to have
to go slow and easy. I want you to savour every minute, starting
with kisses on my feet continuing those kisses, I want you to
gently work your way up my leg, kissing here at the top of my leg
at your favourite place, and then with your tongue I want you to
make me come and hard, taking your time, because I want to savour
it and enjoy ever thing you do before this,” I held his dick harder
in my hand, so hard in fact he squealed. “goes anywhere near you’re
favourite place, I want you to make me so wet you can hear me, so
it slides in and doesn’t hurt as much, then to distract me as you
take my gift, I want you to kiss me as if you’re never going to see
me again.” I continued to work his length, slowly.

“Then angel, I want you to take my gift to you and enjoy
making me yours, I want to be sore and wet when you finish, that
taken then we fuck all night. Hard and long, quick then slow and I
want you to enjoy me and everything I intend to do to you. I want
you Sam and I can’t wait much longer, nice as the other stuff is I
need this.” I’d had my hand down his now opened pants, for a while,
he felt so good in my hand. I thumbed over the smooth cap and my
nail skimmed the inside of its slit, he gasped. “I want you to take
me and rock my world, I want you to teach me things and I want this
soon please Sam, yes I’m begging because I want to give myself to
you to show you how much I love you, just you Sam.”

I had my hand around him and began pumping him harder, he
moaned in my ear. Someone passed and I stopped although hidden,
we're not in a soundproof room, but I still didn’t want to be
caught, with my hands in his pants. He gasped as I continued to
pump him harder, enjoying me rubbing the escaped juices into the
end with my thumb. He was so near, but someone was still listening
as we talked, and as Sam could finish himself off, I had to
stop.

“Michelle, you stopped baby. Yes, we will and soon, really
soon I need to be inside you, I want to, I need to be shit Michelle
I want you now.” His tongue delved deep within my mouth, his kisses
as ever wonderful he held the back of my neck with one hand as he
did, and the other running up my silk stockings. This was so nice.
I smiled and left him hanging, returning to our table. He came back
a five minutes later still smiling. He was playing with my thigh
moving his hand up to my sex, rubbing the sensitive spot. He was
turning me on at a dinner table full of his family. Revenge by Sam
oh hell yes but not here and right by Aunty.

“There’s a time and a place Sam, please stop, I’m coming,
please baby not in front of everyone.” He stopped, kissed me and
smiled. I finished my wine. I needed a distraction, my sex was
thumping and needed relief, he almost had me coming at the table,
and he would pay for that. Offered more wine, which I drank as I
talked. I had a few too many glasses of that too. Sam tried to stop
me drinking, but aunty kept pouring.

“She will be fine Samuel she is with us and will be fine, stop
worrying. She has had a horrid couple of days, because of the
family.” He agreed.

“Looks like I will be carrying my girl home. Return the favour
she had to get me home and put me to bed on her own, apparently I
was a lot worse than her.”

“He was damn hard work he lost all control of his legs and he
was so funny and loud.” He gave my lips a soft kiss, and whispered
he loved me again. They both laughed I just held his hand under the
table. I started talking to Jimmy.

“Oh Jimmy Ellie’s coming with me tomorrow after class only
thing is someone’s going to have to see her home. I told her mum
you would, that’s all right isn’t it, you will won’t you?” He
blushed.

“Erg yes I can’t see that being a problem.” He was grinning.
The meal finished and the mini bus came to pick us up. I can’t
remember how much I had to drink, but I’d had more than enough. Zoe
was going home alone in her own taxi, and Andy was going to a club
he liked. She didn’t want to go, so as the sulking had been going
on all night she drank more and unlike me, I’m chatty she was
really catty, which was noticed by everyone. Andy I think was at
the end of his tether with her drinking, this was the first time
Sam had seen me drunk and as my head hurt, it would be the last
time too.

“Fancy the rest of the night, cuddled in bed
Missy?”

“Let me think about it Sam, sex or cuddles? Sex please, but
will stick with the cuddles, but not for much longer Sam, you have
been warned.” The wine had gone to my head, I was so tired, I
yawned, and Sam pulled me on to his lap. I put my head on his
shoulder hugged him. I don’t remember getting home or going to bed,
because I fell asleep in his lap.

My girl is a funny drunk as she chatters on and on, and had
Aunty in stitches at the dinner table, putting Andy in his place
about whispering at table, I laughed too when she mentioned we were
talking about her periods, bloody hell she only had one the other
week! I can’t wait another week not now.

As she clung to me in the cab on the way home I looked at her
pretty face and wanted to make love to her as soon as we got home.
When we got in I carried her to aunties bed, I undressed her as she
was passed out cold, I removed the stockings and the belt and bra
and threw my tee shirt over them, as I did she held my face to hers
and kissed me and then passed out again! My baby does not drink.
She too is a happy talkative drunk, and just my talkative
drunk.

I need a cold, cold shower, as she starts playing with
herself as I watch her I get a sudden urge to be doing that to her,
she’s saying my name over and over oh wow I join her, as I have the
biggest hard on watching her, I match her move for move and as we
find our own release, she smiles and hugs my pillow, umm tomorrow
should be a memorable night…

“Hello you, is something worrying you and keeping you up?” I’d
woken to find Sam sitting in the chair looking at me. He got in bed
and kissed me.

“Just watching my girl sleep, I didn’t want to wake you, you
looked so peaceful.” He is so sweet and mine how lucky am I? My
head aches, way too much wine drank and I may feel a little woozy
in the morning.

“I’m still waiting for those cuddles I was promised.” He was
at my side and just held me, his warm breath felt on my neck as he
rained down kisses on it. I wanted the sex I asked for, but my head
hurts and sleep beckons.

“Night Mi cielo, I love you.” I nestled against his chest as
he curled the hair around his finger sighing as he did still
kissing my neck tenderly.

“Right back at you angel, I love you more.” Lots
more.

I woke first and sat watching him as he slept for a while,
watching his chest rise and fall and the sweet murmurs coming from
the lips, the same ones I wanted to kiss, but I’d really bad, drink
fuelled, morning breathe, so I left him sleeping and grabbed my
pill from my bag and had a quick shower and helping myself to some
things from Kim’s room. Aunty was coming from another
room.

“Good morning, sleep well? Kim said you were to help yourself
to whatever you need.” I smiled as she rubbed her
temples.

“Thanks I have done, I slept very well, though I do have a bit
of a headache, too much wine I think, because I can’t remember
getting home?” We were both laughing, at the wine fuelled memory
loss.

“You and me both dear, good night though. We must do that
again soon. Is Samuel up?” I nodded he was staring as I left the
room.

“Tell him, we need a word when he’s ready.” I smiled said ok
and went to change. I returned to the room.

“Aunty wants a word, angel. Did you sleep well?”

“I always sleep well when I’m wrapped in your arms, you talked
in your sleep last night, and I agree with everything you said.” I
looked at him and laughed.

“I don’t sleep talk at all, what did I say?”

“Umm, that we are going to be happy and that you love me, only
me and wow. Oh and you have a hot boyfriend.” I blushed actually,
blushed.

“Well, that’s a goddamn lie. I don’t got’s me a boyfriend, I
got’s me a fiancé.” Spoken in an American Deep Southern drawl, he
laughed as he threw on his clothes. I changed. Sam went to see what
they wanted.

“Argh Samuel, please sit, good night last night we must do it
more regularly now, and enjoy the comforts Papa wanted for us, I
don’t know how to broach the subject, as it’s well a tad
delicate?”

“Just say what’s on your mind Aunty please!” She handed me a
pack of dated pills and as I looked I am puzzled, what are
they?

“I found those Sam as I made the bed yesterday and Michelle
she hasn’t taken her birth control pills, are you trying for a baby
Son?” I looked at the pack and there were indeed three missing?
Shit is she forcing my hand, when she doesn’t need to? Hell the
trust issues are raising their fucking heads again, why is she
doing that, I want her not kids just yet. I need to speak to
her.

“I don’t know she said she was taking them, so I can’t tell
you, I just know she is the one for me and if she want’s children
then, well we will look at it, but we have things to do and see
first, Aunty don’t worry please she was the one I wanted months
ago. Having children with her was I thought way down the line, but
well we will see. Mum yes we will have children eventually I’d
hoped after we got married.”

Mum smiles and pats my hand. I need to speak to Michelle, how
the fuck do I ask her without blowing my stack at her stupidity
into trying to trap me, when I’m already in love with her, and she
has no need to do it, not that being ensnared by Michelle would be
a bad thing, but so not necessary I love her already and want the
wedding to happen as soon as possible? I must look worried because
Aunty has me in one of her bear hugs.

“Are you sure, this is what you want, Sam?”

“I have never been surer in my life, she makes me happy and
everything’s been better for us all since she’s been part of my
life, our lives.”

“She certainly is a breath of fresh air, I find her to be a
wonderful miracle, sent to sort us out, she is such a wonder and
she adores you Emma, and Sam’s right, she’s changed things for the
better.”

“I need to see to my girl, and get ready for later, are you
two going to be alright in London? The taxi is coming to take you
to the train, your seats are in first class and a car will be
picking you up for the hotel, Andy’s chap down there will be
picking you up and taking you wherever you need to go, just relax
and enjoy yourself. Mum the new dresses I got you will look nice, I
just want you to have a good weekend and relax. Can you do that for
me?”

“We will Son. Are you doing anything nice?” I smile, taking
my girls gift and making us complete Mum, yeah definitely doing
something nice, I need to buy condoms too, I don’t want children
just yet, I want it to be me and her for a while, sex morning noon
and night and trips and passion, we can’t do that with children at
our waist or can we? Nope just us two for a few years…

“I think I will be having a nice weekend, I may take Michelle
out for the day too, and I may even get her to buy a bloody
engagement ring finally!”

“I have lots she can choose from, I’d like her to have one of
mine, as they have spent years in Allison’s bank. They need to be
worn by Michelle.”

“I want her to have her own ring, but thank you Mum, I’m sure
you can give her stuff later, we have all the time in the world for
that she isn’t going anywhere ever!”

Hell, a bloody ring, I like my ring… I just caught the tail
end of that conversation, what the hell were they discussing before
I got there, it seemed very fraught and possibly deep? I went back
upstairs made the bed, hung the clothes up for tonight. Taking his
shirt downstairs as it needed ironing.

“Hello you lot I’ve just had a thought Jimmy will need some
clothes for tonight.” Andy had gone back to the house and sorted
clothes out for himself, and brought Sam a load of things too. They
would be fine. They were looking at moving back home soon and Andy
had, had the locks changed. The police were coming to put a panic
button in on Monday a phone too had been installed for Emma’s
safety, for when the lads were out. I still didn’t want her to go
back, but Emma loved her house, and her neighbours, who had been
there for her throughout those horrid years.