A Life Plan Without You. (15 page)

Umm and she literally fell at my feet too, now she is really
special. She’s a girl who can teach a class full of children and
yet make each one feel they are each her favourite. A girl who with
just one kiss had me hooked and wanting more. She’s a girl armed
with a smile that is so bright, it’s infectious, so much so that
you have to smile with her, even if it makes you look like a
grinning idiot, an idiot who looked around the room to see if that
smile was just for him, and prayed that it was, and finally no she,
she well is totally my type of girl, not Karen by any stretch of
the imagination, nor will she ever be baby, how can she be I have
what I want right here?” Oh hell do I cry again?

I laughed instead and blushed. Good answers and he hasn’t
stopped looking at me, his eyes are still looking into mine, and
his whole face seems to smile, finally… My foot hits pay dirt, my
foot has been massaging his bits, and now he has a huge and hard
bulge, umm happy to see me Mr Todd? He moves into my foot he wants
more? I can do this… I think?

“She started those lessons to get her mitts on you Sam that
much I can promise you. She wants you angel. Right, umm how many
girlfriends have you had?” I don’t think this is going to be the
reply I want to hear. However the question has been asked so let
him answer! He gasps as my foot moves. He still looked at me, but
looked really uncomfortable, he didn’t want me doing this? He
shuffled in his seat, shit an uncomfortable boyfriend makes sense
if he has something to hide or is about tell me a lie? Either that
or he needs me to stop with the foot massage? His hand covers my
foot and gently moves it, umm over stimulated perhaps?

“I’ve had, besides you… Just one other girlfriend, sorry
Michelle baby but shit you’re going to hate this bit, because I’ve
had sex with a quite a few and fooled around with more than a few
others. None of the girls I had fumbles or fooled around with, led
to anything else. None lasted longer than the one off, and none
made it to a second date.

The sex was always drunken weekend sex, after a party or a
boozed up night out with my brother in Heaven. Excessive amounts of
alcohol were always to blame and I didn’t have enough sober brain
cells to say no. There wasn’t any that I’m keen to remember? That’s
a laugh too because I was always too drunk to bloody remember
anyhow, they were all quite forgettable.

Michelle forgive me please because that sounds so harsh, but
it’s one of the few things I have done, in my life that I do regret
doing, my using of all those girls like that. You, Mi cielo, I
intend to do things properly with, but I nearly messed my plans
right up, with what I did earlier I’m so sorry baby.”

Please don’t let her hate me, because I hate myself enough
for the pair of us, and wow I hope that smiles because she believes
me, and that all that shit is in the past? If your listening God, I
made you a promise and apart from the near miss on New Year’s Eve I
have not strayed from the promised path, please let her love me,
old flaws included, I have changed I swear I have…

“You don’t have to apologise Sam, please stop. I liked what
you did, and it was absolutely a first for me. We just need to get
to know each other better and I’m sorry, but sex isn’t yet top of
my list Samuel Todd, I’m not saying never just not yet, though I
actually thought I was going to be deflowered in first contact
alley. Besides I didn’t want to know anything else about the other
girls, I just wanted to know if any of them were serious or more to
the point, what was I going to be compared to. They were all before
me and don’t count as long as I’m the only one your with now I
don’t want to share you either angel ever. Thanks, no more
questions.” He kissed me.

“None, of them compare to you, how can they? The feelings I
have for you have knocked me for six, and I have never felt this
way about anyone before and I’m sorry I grabbed you like that, I
was like a man possessed.” I smiled because he was so frigging
sexy, when he was embarrassed.

“Sam do you have any questions for me?”

Erm, yeah will you marry me now, and there is truth in the
power of prayer thank you God, much appreciated as promised I will
never let you down again? I am in love like never before, shit her
eyes are shining and I need a kiss, wow I need more but coming in
my pants just then was hard to keep a lid on, and not scream yes
God yes, was harder, he wouldn’t have been happy…

“Umm what? What no baby you said you’d only been kissed once
before me, so I guess all this is new to you. I can’t believe it
though because you were very um handy in the alley Mi cielo and wow
your kisses, and this here is down to those naughty feet of yours.
He likes you too. You really are a virgin? I’m the first person you
have done this with?” I know I was blushing because my face was
hot.

“Believe it or not I am Sam, you are the first person to get
this close, and you may have to bear with me. I do pick things up
quickly too, so hopefully, I will learn as we go on, I don’t want
to disappoint you, are you alright with me being a vir...” He cut
me off with a kiss, I ummed into them. Pulling back he smiled and
then he winked…

“I like that you’re pure and untouched, that nobody has been
this close to you, it means a lot, more than you know, honestly
Michelle it means such a lot. Now enough of the chatter. Let’s get
round to the fooling around part. That, I think I am going to like
doing with you, hell I know I’m going to like it. I’m going to
return the favour, from earlier. So baby, shuffle over and put your
head here please, it may be a little lumpy for some reason?” He
pointed at his lap, as I laughed. “Put your legs down there.” I did
just as he asked.

“Really you want me so near your erh, soldier, what if Sam, I
lead you astray? Umm tell me what are you going to do?” I really
was nervous, yet excited.

“Shush and close your eyes, I want to fool around a little,
and return the kisses and do stuff from your wish list and who
knows, we may even have a few wishes that are the same? Shush and
relax we aren’t doing that for a while, please baby we have loads
of time and things to discover before we do that. Shit I’m so sorry
I’m presuming you do want to do that with me?”

“I want to yes but not yet I… I’m not ready, not yet, because
it’s a big thing for me to give away. I can only give that to
someone special the once…” He smiled and as he kissed me, I thought
I heard him say it’s mine, all mine… Umm I was all his too, and
that was his, only his.

He reached down and started. First the neck kisses, the kiss
behind my ear, where he whispered he loved me again I’d heard him
say it once before. Oh hell, what do I say he loves me really? That
was so nice to hear, but was he just saying it? As he bit my bottom
lip I realised what he was doing. Oh bad Sam, he was doing my list
on me shit… My list and yes I do have written down a proper list of
what I want to do to Sam and one I had a load of fun thinking about
and writing down, hell I can start crossing stuff off it too,
because it’s all in black and white, written for my eyes only to
see, in an old school book, currently under my bed, and it ends in
us having fantastic sex.

In a big love, heart on the cover is Sam loves Michelle, for
ever. I signed it too Mrs Michelle Todd, oh hell do I want that, am
I ready? His tongue wrestles with mine, at the same time his hand
moved under my jumper. I arched my back, pushing my breasts at him,
willing him to take them, to play with them, massage them taste
them, oh hell this was… Christ, what was he doing? This feeling was
alien and an all new feeling; it was painful, yes pleasantly
painful was that at all possible those two things combined? Oh hell
yesss...

He had my nipple in his fingers as he pulled and rolled it
between them. The other hand was on the prowl too. They responded,
by becoming hard, the area around them too hardens and they feel
extremely sensitive to his touch, I have never seen them this way
before, their reaction to his touching them seems to please him, he
had gotten to second base on our first date, what a whore. Oh shush
voices…

My nipples tingle and get even harder, it feels like I’m about
to explode, the experience is friggin awesome. He’s now sucking on
them and caressing the hardened tip with his tongue, sending a
myriad of messages and signals to my head and God my sex throbbed
as he suckled on them harder. My sex was warm, tingling and it
pulsed. Oh lord it’s escalating the feelings are getting too much,
oh hell its getting warmer it’s almost burning, As I writhed under
him, his mouth’s now over my other nipple as he sighs, he flicks
his tongue over it and then suckles on it murmuring his delight,
kissing my now heaving breasts sucking at the soft skin and laying
tiny kisses across them both. My body is alive, my sex throbbing
uncontrollably, its frantic throbs are now painful, the throbbing
now getting harder and harder, I shriek in delight as at last he
finishes with a frantic kiss, his tongue and mine soft yet the
noise we’re both making are far from quiet…

Down he went, with his finger tracing a line down to my
waistband. I couldn’t breathe, the gasp as his finger slips between
denim and skin, he’s toying with me, I’m wondering if he’s going to
undo the button of my jeans, was he undressing me were we going to
do the thing he said I would have to wait for, yes please, now God
Sam I want you now, shit did I care? My breath is laboured, I can’t
breathe, I want him, I want him now is all that’s running through
my brain pleaseee take me now, my hand slips between my jeans and I
am wet oh hell am I on my period?

I slip my fingers further down and wow what is he doing to
this place from my breasts, are the two connected? I touch a
swollen lump thing, oh hell my finger touches it again and again as
Sam kisses me, fuck yes, fuck me now… Please God stop me now. I
have an amazing out of body experience and I see myself smiling. I
get hot again I get cold, I feel lighter, I feel fuzzy, oh hell I
don’t know what I’m feeling right now, I know I feel both pleasure
and pain at the same time.

Damn it he headed my words… God is killing me, damn it I’m
dying and still a virgin. I feel like I’m about to die, I’m
lightheaded and Sam is now rubbing is hands over my zip and
massaging my sex, slowly quickly slowly, I wanted to scream, did I
just scream? He kissed me, I’m so hot I’m trembling from the knees,
my backside is clenched tight, my sex throbbed hard oh and my
chest, I’m having a heart attack, he’s killing me, I held my breath
as he kissed me harder and he was particularly needy again, his
kisses helped muffle the sounds that were spewing from my
mouth.

I called out his name and I told him, no begged him to fuck
me, I cried for him, I needed him, I wanted him to take that piece
of me, I wanted him to take my virginity, I think I begged him to?
Then oh no, oh hell I got the strangest of feelings, I have never
felt so confused so immobilised, I couldn’t move, I seemed to be
having a fit of some sort, it came with a fuzzy headed
lightness…

Something must have happened, my heart stopped and I let out a
loud gasp, which was the last thing I remembered was feeling a
harsher more prolonged la petite mort, Sam, c'était tellement
fantastique ange si fantastique… A very fantastic feeling, a
fantastic feeling indeed angel, the little death killed
me…

I kiss her neck and with the same tiny kisses she used,
following her path to the detail, the nose kisses were nice, as I
kissed her open mouth shushing the pleasing murmurs coming from
her, umm, I’m following her list, what next, yeah the neck to
nipples, fuck do I dare? I kiss he neck and her top is open already
so I slid in my hand and as I do she murmurs yes softly, the green
light given, wow I love the feel of her soft skin in my hands her
breasts are firm and as I play with her nipple her arousal is
pleasing to see, her nipples and the surrounding area is taught and
as I suckle at her breast her knees come up and she shivers beneath
me, she’s coming, I can see it I see her buckle beneath me and yeah
I’m turned on, I move to the other and suck hard and my hand is
rubbing at her girlie bits, she is loud as she cries out, wow she’s
a screamer!

I kiss her to silence her a little but as I continue to
please her, she shudders and shakes she cries and she moves like
she is dying, crap as I watch her I find this arousing and fuck I
come too I too shake at the tightening in my groin and then wow I
find my third beautiful release of the night. This is a first for
me watching as she enjoys finding her own release, shit she is
playing with herself I look down and really enjoy watching
her.

I try to calm down too before I come again, but shit that’s
not happening as I spill yet even more tadpoles into my pants, fuck
she is so good to watch. I can’t help but get off. Shit I have
never locked and reloaded twice in such a short time, good to know
I’m not a one shot wonder, and as I kiss her so as to help silence
the next epic orgasm she is having, I think I may have killed her
and I panic a little, gently stroking her cheek, shit she is wiped
out and exhausted as she slowly opens her eyes, her hair is wet and
as she comes around I kiss her again, that was absolutely a first
for me, well for both of us it seems…

Waking me from my little death, I ache, I’m sleepy, I am
embarrassed oh hell yeah unquestionably the later one! I’m wet
through with sweat; my hair at the back of my neck was in tight wet
through curls, between my legs was sore, had we, did we? No? Hell I
would have known surely?