You Must Change Your Life (42 page)

116
   
“I can ask” . . . “two old”:
LP, 184.

116
   
“There is nothing real”:
To Lou Andreas-Salomé, August 8 1903.

116
   
“drawn along”:
To Lou Andreas-Salomé, July 18, 1903.

116
   
“I was as if”:
RAS, 56.

117
   
“You have become”:
RAS, 59.

118
   
“small and”:
DF, 133.

118
   
“in the process”:
DF, 130.

118
   
“There is a lot”:
PMB, 305.

119
   
“man” . . . “good man”:
Rainer Maria Rilke and Lou Andreas-Salomé,
The Correspondence
. Translated by Edward Snow and Michael Winkler. New York and London: W. W. Norton, 2006, 62.

119
   
“Roman winter”:
Rainer Maria Rilke and Lou Andreas-Salomé,
The Correspondence
. Translated by Edward Snow and Michael Winkler. New York and London: W. W. Norton, 2006, 88.

119
   
“Jacobsen's city”:
RL, 194.

119
   
“It was difficult to reach” . . . “He had no”:
Stefan Zweig,
The World of Yesterday: An Autobiography
. Lincoln: University of Nebraska Press, 1964, 141.

119
   
“having a hard time”:
To Clara Westhoff, July 27, 1904.

120
   
“beautiful concern” . . . “sure and calm”:
LYP, 33–39.

120
   
“Do not write love-poems”:
LYP, 19.

120
   
“things that hardly anyone”:
LYP, 34.

120
   
“mental nausea”:
RAS, 261.

120
   
“nameless horror”:
To Ellen Key, April 3, 1903.

120
   
“words about words”:
To Lou Andreas-Salomé, May 13, 1904.

121
   
“firm, close-knit”:
To Lou Andreas-Salomé, May 12, 1904.

121
   
“There are starry”:
RAS, 117.

121
   
“enable me to”:
RAS, 119.

121
   
“To love is good” . . . “difficult.”
LYP, 53.

121
   
“Love is at first” . . .“as burden and”:
LYP, 54–58.

122
   
“teacher of” . . . “questions and”:
Rainer Maria Rilke and Lou Andreas-Salomé,
The Correspondence
. Translated by Edward Snow and Michael Winkler. New York and London: W. W. Norton, 2006, 137.

122
   
“protective” . . . “intensification”:
Quoted in Scott Appelrouth and Laura Desfor Edles,
Classical and Contemporary Sociological Theory: Text and Readings
. Thousand Oaks, CA: Pine Forge Press, 2008, 262–273.

122
   
“Every intensification”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Letters to a Young Poet
. Translated by Stephen Mitchell. New York: Random House, 2004, 101.

123
   
“By inventing a new”:
Quoted in Debora L. Silverman,
Art Nouveau in Fin-de-siècle France
. Berkeley and Los Angeles: University of California Press, 1992, 313.

123
   
“one should not draw”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 76.

124
   
“inner history” . . . “indispensable”:
To Clara Westhoff, June 16, 1905.

124
   
“cuddly” . . . “getting to see”:
PMB, 375.

124
   
“one tear after”:
Quoted in Diane Radycki,
Paula Modersohn-Becker: The First Modern Woman Artist
. New Haven, CT: Yale University Press, 2013, 130.

124
   
“What Paula” . . . “very much under”:
PMB, 377–378.

125
   
“My very dear”:
LP, 228.

125
   
“It is the need to see you”:
Auguste Rodin,
Correspondance de Rodin
,
II
, Editions du Musée Rodin, 1987, 167. [From the French:
C'est le besoin de vous revoir, mon Maître, et de vivre un moment la vie ardente de vos belles choses, qui m'agitent
.]

125
   
“so you can talk”:
To Clara Westhoff, September 7, 1905, in French.

125
   
“its garden”:
To Clara Westhoff, September 7, 1905.

125
   
“Follow my example”:
DF, 178.

126
   
“Without doubt”:
DYP, 166.

126
   
“blocks of sound”:
Quoted in Malcolm MacDonald,
Varèse: Astronomer in Sound
. London: Kahn & Averill, 2003, 15.

126
   
“revolting slaughter” . . . “doesn't know how”:
FG, 497.

127
   
“asininities as if”:
Louise Varèse,
Varèse: A Looking-Glass Diary
. New York: W. W. Norton, 1972, 34.

127
   
“didn't know a damn”:
FG, 493.

127
   
“We have actually three” . . . “sound projection”:
Edgard Varèse, “The Liberation of Sound.”
Audio Culture: Readings in Modern Music
. Edited by Christoph Cox and Daniel Warner. London: A&C Black, 2004. Originally published in 1936. 18.

127
   
“Much more world”:
To Clara Westhoff, September 15, 1905.

127
   
“It is wonderful how”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 78.

127
   
“like a big dog” . . . “recognizing me”:
To Clara Westhoff, September 15, 1905.

128
   
“make good the”:
FG, 502–503.

128
   
“My pupils” . . . “They are all”:
FG, 495.

129
   
“head spin”:
FG, 493.

129
   
“his deepest desire”:
LB, 78.

129
   
“I shall come” . . . “He wants me”:
To Countess Luise Schwerin, September 10, 1905.

129
   
“if you'll deign”:
FG, 493.

130
   
“has become a stanza”:
To Arthur Holitscher, December 13, 1905.

130
   
“joie de vivre”:
FG, 492.

CHAPTER NINE

131
   
“Rilke plunged” . . . “For the first”:
Victor Frisch and Joseph T. Shipley,
Auguste Rodin
. Frederick A. Stokes, 1939, 272.

131
   
“everything”:
FG, 492.

132
   
“how necessary”:
To Arthur Holitscher, December 13, 1905.

132
   
“He shows you everything”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 77.

132
   
“The smallest things”:
To Arthur Holitscher, December 13, 1905.

132
   
“blossoming in this”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 82.

132
   
“flinging themselves” . . . “unspeakable”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 81.

133
   
“good and faithful”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 77.

133
   
“white bird”:
Clara Westhoff, December 2, 1905.

134
   
“Acropolis of France”:
CF, 203.

134
   
“The chief thing”:
Auguste Rodin, “The Gothic in France.”
The North American Review
, volume 207, 1918, 116.

135
   
“suppleness”:
CF, 206.

135
   
“There's a storm” . . . “But you don't”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 81. [Rodin's quote translated from the original French].

136
   
“outrage inflicted”:
FG, 503.

136
   
“liberation”:
FG, 421.

136
   
“mass of untransformed”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 84.

136
   
“the most elevated”:
Ralph Freedman, “Das Stunden-Buch and Das Buch der Bilder: Harbingers of Rilke's Maturity.” In
A Companion to the Works of Rainer Maria Rilke
, Edited by Erika A. Metzger and Michael M. Metzger. Rochester, NY: Camden House, 2001, 90.

137
   
“But I need ‘only time' ”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 83.

137
   
“incapable of love”:
BT, 131.

138
   
“suggests a scatalogical” . . . “bestial countenance”:
FG, 504.

138
   
“I avenge myself”:
RSG, 427.

138
   
“need of my support”:
To Karl von der Heydt, Wednesday after Easter 1906.

139
   
“had left the prime” . . . “In the first fifteen”:
George Bernard Shaw, “G.B.S. On Rodin.”
The Nation
. London, December 1912.

140
   
“indescribable delight”:
RSG, 391.

141
   
“M. Shaw does not”:
RSG, 390.

141
   
“Bernarre Chuv”:
FG, 511.

141
   
“Rarely has a”:
RSG, 390.

141
   
“this truly creative”:
RP, 120.

142
   
“No photograph yet” . . . “except their suits”:
Alvin Langdon Coburn,
Alvin Langdon Coburn, Photographer
. Edited by Helmut and Alison Gernsheim. New York: Dover, 1978, 40.

142
   
“luminous”:
FG, 570.

142
   
“He saw me”:
George Bernard Shaw, “G.B.S. On Rodin.”
The Nation
, London, December 1912.

143
   
“Shaw, Bernard:”
Quoted in Sally Peters,
Bernard Shaw: The Ascent of the Superman
. New Haven, CT: Yale University Press. 1996, 235.

CHAPTER TEN

144
   
“mince-meat” . . . “They've opened up”:
LYR, 75–76.

145
   
“ounce of fat”:
FG, 522.

145
   
“He is mad, brutally”:
FG, 517.

145
   
“Of course I'm a sensual” . . . “not the sensuality”:
FG, 514.

145
   
“understand me better”:
Frederick Lawton,
The Life and Work of Auguste Rodin
. New York: C. Scribner's, 1907, 276.

146
   
“erotomania” . . . “The whole of Paris”:
Quoted in Auguste Rodin, Dominique Viéville,
Rodin: The Figures of Eros : Drawings and Watercolours, 1890
–
1917
. Paris: Musée Rodin, 2006, 64.

146
   
“Sultan of Meudon”:
Alexander Sturgis,
Rebels and Martyrs: The Image of the Artist in the Nineteenth Century
. New Haven, CT: Yale University Press, 2006, 166.

146
   
“Nothing is so amusing” . . . “She takes off”:
LYR, 75–76.

146
   
“some girl or other”:
Alma Mahler,
Gustav Mahler: Memories and Letters
. Translated by Basil Creighton. New York: Viking, 1946, 136.

147
   
“The details hardly” . . . “She wanted to live”:
Jean Cocteau,
Paris Album: 1900
–
1914
. London: W. H. Allen, 1956, 108–109.

148
   
“He ran his hands” . . . “How often”:
Isadora Duncan,
My Life
. New York: W. W. Norton, revised and updated, 2013, 74–75.

149
   
“little wife”:
RSG, 457.

149
   
“very poorly dressed”:
FG, 487.

150
   
“Yes, I am proud”:
RSG, 415.

150
   
“No use disturbing”:
Bernard Harper Friedman,
Gertrude Vanderbilt Whitney: A Biography
. New York: Doubleday, 1978, 288.

150
   
“The Influenza”:
James Wyman Barrett,
Joseph Pulitzer and his World
. New York: Vanguard, 1941, 288.

151
   
“astonishing intensity”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 86.

152
   
“Rodin's disposition had” . . . “brutally and”:
Judith Cladel,
Rodin
. Translated by James Whitall. New York: Harcourt, Brace, 1937, 203.

152
   
“like a thieving”:
To Auguste Rodin, May 12, 1906.