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Authors: Kris Dinnison

You and Me and Him

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Title Page




Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Chapter 31

Chapter 32

Chapter 33

Chapter 34

Chapter 35


About the Author

Copyright © 2015 by Kris Dinnison

All rights reserved. For information about permission to reproduce selections from this book, write to Permissions, Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Publishing Company, 215 Park Avenue South, New York, New York 10003.

Book design by Susanna Vagt.
Cover illustration © 2014 by Susanna Vagt

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data is on file.

ISBN: 978-0-544-30112-2

eISBN 978-0-544-55686-7

For Andy and Kate

Chapter 1

Let’s get one thing straight from the very beginning: I am not one of those shrinking-violet fat girls. I don’t sit alone in my bedroom playing Billie Holiday albums while drowning my sorrows in a carton of ice cream. Okay, once—maybe twice—a year, but not every weekend. I have friends, a great job in a vintage record store, and even some minor social status. But I am an overweight teenage girl going to an American high school. It doesn’t take a clairvoyant to figure out there are going to be some issues.

The current issue: Which outfit will maximize the four and half pounds I lost this summer and minimize the remaining flesh? As usual, my mom’s annual summer diet plan for me didn’t result in any magical transformations, so for the debut of my junior year, I decide on my flowy hippie-chick skirt and a black T-shirt with sleeves too long for the heat of early September. I don’t love this outfit. But it fits, kind of. And it’s not hideous. Most of the clothes in my size look like they were designed for retirees in Miami Beach, Florida. I do not like my shirts bedazzled in any way. Someone in the plus-size fashion industry thinks if you put shiny stuff on a T-shirt, no one will notice the size of the person underneath. This particular first-day outfit is nothing tragic, but it’s more of a fashion whisper than a fashion statement.

I climb on the bus and make a beeline for Nash.

“Maggie.” He gives me a slight wave, then covers it by smoothing down his rockabilly sideburns. (He grooms them, no lie, with mustache wax.) I slide into the seat beside him. Nash shifts upward as the seat sags in my direction.

“Move your skinny ass over,” I say.

“Like my skinny ass has a choice?” He moves. “Nice skirt.” Nash squinches up his face like something smells bad.

I sigh. Nash is all about edgy, and my sixties Woodstock wear does not scream edgy. I feel a trickle of sweat drip down between my shoulder blades.

“Nice hair,” I say.

Nash pats his shellacked do, making sure it has kept its height through the bus ride. Finding all the follicles in place, he turns his attention to me. He fishes a peppermint lip balm out of his pocket and hands it over. He then picks three or four of my long, brown hairs off my shirt. Nash always grooms me like some fastidious chimpanzee mother. Finally, he straightens the silver charm on its chain around my neck. The charm was Nash’s gift to me on the first day of high school. It’s this cool spiral; he says it’s to remind me that he’s got my back. Always. I pretty much never take the thing off.

“Thanks,” I say when he’s done making me presentable.

Nash holds out his hand. “Did you bring the goods?”

I dig in my bag and pull out a Ziploc baggie. Inside is one of my signature breakfast bars, tailored especially for Nash: cashews, chunky peanut butter, oats, cinnamon, dried cherries, and a few dark chocolate chips. I know. Shocking, right? A fat girl who bakes. So cliché. But I started making these bars for Nash a few years back when his dad left and things went to shit at his house. He was living on ramen noodles and cold cereal, so now the bars are part of our morning routine.

I wave the baggie over my head, keeping his breakfast just out of reach. “Who loves you, baby?”

He snatches the bag from my hand and pinches off a corner of the bar, popping it in his mouth. “Mmmmmm.” His mouth is full. “What’s different?”

“A little cardamom. Fewer cherries. It was too sweet.”

“Well done, Mags.”

I wait as he chews, looking out the window at the rows of identical cedar split-levels lining the streets. It’s a decent neighborhood, but it’s in between: not new, but not old enough or cool enough to be vintage, either.

As soon as he finishes breakfast, Nash glances around to see if anyone is listening and leans in close. “Check out the hottie in row two.”

I tilt my head up above the back of the seats and catch a glimpse of tousled, longish brown hair in the left-hand seat. Ducking back down, I ask, “Who is it?” without letting my lips move.

Nash shrugs, and we fan ourselves with our hands. Nash and I have the same taste in almost everything: teachers, music, art, literature, and boys. The good news is we can mock anyone who doesn’t share our aesthetic. The bad news is we have to lay claim to guys we both crush on. There just aren’t that many crush-worthy possibilities in Cedar Ridge.

“Dibs!” we say at the same time.

Nash narrows his eyes at me. We’ve been doing the dibs thing since elementary school, but we didn’t start using it on boys until seventh grade. It’s kind of a running joke with us, this idea that we can have a guy just by claiming him. Never once have any of the crushes reciprocated, but the ritual allows the one with dibs to discuss the object of his or her affection as if romance was a realistic possibility.

“Okay.” I hold my hands up against Nash’s world-famous death stare. “You can have him.” Not a big deal. I’m long past believing in the fairy tale of the handsome stranger who sees past my not-quite-modelesque figure to discover the fabulous Maggie within. After all, that would be some headline:
“fat girl snags new guy.”
I gaze out the window as the bus turns the corner and rolls along the lakefront. The evergreens still cast long shadows a good distance into the lake from the shore. But starting about thirty feet out, the water glitters with early morning sunlight. I steal another glance at the new guy and cross my fingers that Nash has an actual chance with this one.

When the bus rolls to a stop in the parking lot, we descend into the bustling fray. The kids who drive start streaming in from student parking. I link arms with Nash and move in their direction, hoping to blend into the stream and avoid the shame of being bussies. But Nash stops short, which yanks me to a stop. I look up and see New Guy. He’s a little taller than Nash, with sandy brown hair, tan, freckled skin, and these grass-green eyes casting around for something to hold on to. Nash steers us in his direction, and we come to a halt right in front of him.

“Hi,” Nash says. “You lost?”

The New Guy just looks at Nash.

“Nash Taylor.” He hooks his thumb in my direction. “Maggie Bower. Welcome to Cedar Ridge,” he adds, releasing my arm and giving a little bow. “This way.” Nash sweeps his arm in front of him, ushering New Guy in the direction of the main building. They start to move off, leaving me alone, the current of students flowing around me.

I’m not sure if I should follow, but as Nash chats up the New Guy, he gives a surreptitious head jerk, the universal sign for “get your ass up here.” New Guy doesn’t seem bothered by Nash’s bossiness or by Nash leading him around. That fact alone is surprising. Maybe this one will break our losing streak.

Chapter 2

My first-day jitters turn to first-day boredom as the teachers drone on about rules, deadlines, grading policies, and the joy of learning. The only bright spot is third period English. My friend Cece is already there. If Nash wasn’t my bestie, Cece would probably fill that slot. She’s one of the smartest kids at Cedar Ridge: destined to escape our small Northwest town via the Ivy League. She waves me over, and I slide into the seat behind her.

“I’m so glad you took AP.” She turns around to talk to me. “Everybody took regular English this year. It seems like I never end up in the same class with anyone.” She looks around. “Is Nash taking any AP classes?” Her voice is casual, but I can hear the hope sliding underneath her words.

“He’s taking AP English, but I’m not sure which period.”

Cece sags a little, but then leans in. “Who’s the boy you and Nash were with before school?”

I doodle on my notebook. At this rate, the cover will be filled by lunch. “New guy.” I start filling in a spiral I’ve drawn on the cover. “He was on the bus and Nash swooped. I don’t even know his name yet.”

“Nash seemed pretty psyched,” Cece says.

I never really know what to say when Cece talks about Nash. The only place Cece is dumber than me: guys. Not only has she never had a boyfriend; she is nursing a two-year (and counting) crush on Nash. Yep. Cece has a crush on my terminally gay best friend. It’s sad, really, and it annoys the shit out of Nash, but I understand what it’s like to want something you can’t have.

“Maggie!” Nash sort of hurls himself into a desk next to me. “Hey, Cece. Okay, cool. I was thinking I wouldn’t have any classes with you, Mags. That would be a tragic first.”

“Hey, Nash.” Cece’s trying to be casual, but she has this goofy look on her face that can’t be denied. “I like your shirt.”

“Thanks!” Nash looks down like he doesn’t know exactly which shirt he spent an hour deciding on that morning. “You like Pollock?”

“Yeah. Obviously. Who doesn’t?” Cece starts chewing on her pencil like a nervous hamster.

“Most of the art establishment, for one. At least when he was alive,” Nash says.

“Of course. I just meant . . .” Cece flounders in the confusion of her own crush.

“You should definitely watch the biopic they did about him. So cool. I can loan it to you if you want?” Nash waits.

Cece’s face goes bright red. She nods, but this kindness on Nash’s part appears to have made speech impossible for her.

I throw Cece a life raft. “So Cece was just asking me about the new guy.”

“Yeah.” She clings to it, grateful. “He’s cute. What’s his story?”

“His name’s Tom.” Nash takes the bait. My little magpie! “He just moved here from . . . Oh, shit. I don’t remember where now. But somewhere fabulous . . .” Ms. Shone starts class, interrupting Nash. But Nash gives me a grin that says he has a lot more to tell me about the new guy.

After a morning of rules and syllabi, I say a silent thank-you to the universe when Ms. Shone discards the usual first-day litany and has us write a poem about one moment in our summer.

My poem’s about lying on the dock at my grandparents’ cabin watching the Perseid meteor showers. The trees lining the lakeshore were inky black, creating a perfect frame for the brighter dark of the night sky. I searched the skies for a couple hours, listening to music until the batteries died. Hundreds of stars fell that night, way too many for wishes. It was one of the few times in my life that I’ve ever felt small. I turn in my poem, crossing my fingers we won’t have to present them tomorrow.

By lunch I’m almost comatose. Usually Nash and I meet at his locker, which is near the cafeteria door. But when I get close, he is already walking toward the lunchroom with New Guy, or Tom, I guess. I stop short, but before I can decide to turn around and hide in the library for lunch, Nash waves me over, smiling the smile of the newly smitten. Following them, I only half listen to Nash’s tutorial on lunchroom etiquette and the pecking order. Tom nods, looking around the room as we wind through the line and find a spot at the end of a table. Tom draws some curious looks, because he’s new and because he’s with Nash and me. But Nash is putting it on, making the most of his dibs.

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