Top Love: An Alpha Billionaire Romance (Young Adult Stepbrother and Billionaire Romance Stories) (46 page)

Krystal

I didn’t see that happening. I could honestly live the rest of my life without having to see Jen. I am just sitting in my car.  I have no idea what to do. If I go to Eddie’s door, Jen is right.  Look at everything I would lose. But if I go back to Jimmy, what kind of world would I have? I feel lost at this point in my life. My cell rings, and I see Jimmy’s face I slide my finger across the screen and put the phone to my ear.

“Hey babe.” I answer. I know he is there, but he hasn’t said anything yet. I hear him release his breath, and he speaks in that voice that made me get butterflies back in high school.

“Krystal, baby, I need you to come home. Gage is at my mom’s for the night.  We have to talk.”  He sounds like he knows. I was scared of this, but It has time to face the music.

“Ok, I’ll be home soon, ok?”  I tap the end button put my phone in the cup holder and dig out my keys. I start my car and look at Eddie’s one more time. In the front window stands Eddie. He is just looking at me. He nods his head at me like he knows what I have decided and is telling me It has ok. The tears fall. I love Eddie. I will always love Eddie, but I think I have to do this. I have to work things out with Jimmy or at least try. One last look and I mouth the words ‘I love you’.  He mouths the words back.  I put my car in ‘drive’ and pull away from the curb.  

Jimmy

When I woke up, Krystal was gone. I’m no fool.   I know she went to Eddies. I can’t compete with Eddie. I have never been able to. How I ended up with Krystal will always make me wonder. I know that it is time to talk. I sent Gage to my mother’s earlier. I was thinking Krystal and I would spend some time together.  We did spend a little time.  We put a movie in, she sat on one side of the sofa and me on the other, and I fell asleep like a big dummy. When I woke up, she was gone.  There was a note saying she was left to get coffee. I just bought coffee this morning, so I know we have plenty. Its ok, I thought. I love my wife, and I will fight like hell to keep my family together like we are meant to be. If she is coming from Eddie's, I have about 15 minutes to get everything right.  It has time to put my plan in motion. It is fight or flight. I plan to fight.  I just hope Krystal will fight with me.

Krystal

I look at my house from the outside. Gage's toys are in the yard. Jimmy’s truck is in the drive way.  The flowers I planted surrounding the front of the house. My eyes stop at the front door.  Jimmy is standing there. Dark skinny jeans, white wife beater shirt, and bare feet. His black hair is that just rolled out of bed style, which looks so good on him, and his light green eyes on me. How can I love two men? I know I love Eddie. I have loved Eddie for many years, but Jimmy grab my heart in a different way. I love him to. Its time to face the music. I get out of my car and walk to the front door where Jimmy is now holding the door open for me. I do not deserve this man.

“Hi,” I say meekly once I reach the door. I feel like we’re strangers. I don’t know if I should hug him, kiss him or throw myself at his feet and ask for forgiveness. He knows that my mind is moving a thousand miles a minute, because he grabs my chin and brings my head up so that we can look into each other’s eyes and says, “Stop it Krystal.  Whatever happened, it doesn’t matter anymore.  We will figure it out and we will figure it out together.  Do you got me?”

The tears that have been restrained could no longer be stopped.  Jimmy picks me up and carries me across the threshold.  He walks me in the house and places me on the sofa.   He just lets me cry.  I look up and look into Jimmy’s eyes.  I’m about to tell him how sorry I am and then tell him everything but he stops my words by bring his lips to mine. I feel the kiss everywhere. Its deep and its mixed with passion, hurt, love and fear. I know I made him feel all of this. I let him control the kiss. When he breaks the kiss his hands are slowly moving up from my hips until he reaches my shirt.  He pulls it up and over my head. His eyes leave mine, and he does a ‘once over’ of my upper body. When his eyes meet mine again, they are glittering.   I can see the hunger in his soul.  It has not a hunger for my flesh alone, but for my soul.  I let him speak I want to hear what he has to say.

“You are so damn beautiful. I know what happened, Krystal. I don’t want the details.  I know all I need to know.  Details make no difference now.  What matters is that you are here now.  This is where I would like you to stay.  I meant every word of our vows when we married.  I meant them then, and I mean them now.   You have my heart and my soul.  I don’t want them back, and I don’t EVER want anyone but you to have them. The only question now is, can we work through this? Me and you? Can we forgive and move on, or do you wanna be with Eddie?  Okay, so that was two questions, but I need those answers and those answers alone.”

Just as my tears dried up, the waterworks began again.  I wish I could have taken away the pain I have caused. 

“Jimmy, I am so sorry.” He puts a finger to my lips.

“No, Krystal, don’t go there. Just tell me what I need to know, babe.  That’s all I need.”

“Jimmy, we will get through this. I promise. I will do whatever you need or want to make this right.”

That’s all I get out before Jimmy’s mouth is on mine again. I feel his strength as well as his fight. After what I did, he is going to fight for me. I push his wife beater over his head as he unclasps my bra. We are skin on skin. I feel his heat and for some reason it sends chills all over my body. His mouth still on mine, his hands on my back, and my hands in his hair--we just kiss. We kiss like we are in high school again and I just let him to second base, but he isn’t sure how far to take it. Jimmy changes that as soon as I have the thought. His hand moves around from my back to cup my breast. A gentle squeeze then my nipple in between his thumb and index finger making my back arch. His mouth leaves mine.  He kisses down my jaw, bites my ear lobe, and then trails open mouth kisses down my neck across my chest. 

I don’t think we’ve had a night like that in such a long time.  It was as if we were on our honeymoon again. 

Jimmy

After we’ve just had the most passionate night we’ve had in a long time, I prop myself up on my forearms and stare deep into her eyes.  “Babe, we are going to get through it. I forgive you. I forgive us. I don’t want you to tell me about you and Eddie. I don’t want to talk it or listen to it.  I mean what I said before.  We aren’t going to talk about it or think about it. It ends here.”  She kisses me softly as I sit up.   She grabs my wife beater and tosses it on.  God, she looks hot in that shirt, I think to myself. 

“Jimmy, we have to talk about it.” she said softly.  “I don’t want it to eat at you years down the road. If we are going to make this work, you have to know what happen.”  I shake my head back and forth.  I’m not ready for this conversation.  To me, it happened.  I can’t change that.  I see no point in dwelling on it at all, but she obviously feels like she has to continue.  So, I’ll let her for a moment.  

“I’m not going to let it eat at me years from now because years from now, I will have long forgotten Eddie. That’s the only thing I ask is that you cut him out. I know that it will be hard, because the two of you have been in each other’s lives for years.  But I know this much, Krystal.  I won’t--we won’t be able to forget it if he is in our life every day for everything. Is that too much to ask of you Krystal?”  I need her to understand that if he is not seen nor heard, it will be easier to just forget about what happened.  Deep down, we will both know it happened, but Eddie’s presence will not be a constant reminder. 

“It has not Jimmy.  I had already decided that I was walking away from him. I love you and Gage, and I want my family with my boys. You and Gage are the two most important men in my life. You and Gage are what would be hard to give up. Would you sit with me while I call Eddie? You know how hard headed he is. He will think there is hope until I tell him otherwise.  I feel I owe that to us and him.

I start biting on my cheek.  I do this when I’m not quite sure about something, but I guess I may have to do this one last thing—to let this asshole entreat on our lives one last time.  At least It has a phone call and not in person. 

So, I tell her, “I love you Krystal Alexander. Now let’s make this call so that we can relax and enjoy the quiet before Gage gets home. We have all night just me and you. So I plan on taking you in every room, on every surface until we are both too tired to even open our eyes.”  I grin at her slyly.  I love this woman so much.  Yes, it hurts deeply to know that another man touched her beautiful and tender skin.  It kills me to know that he was there once, but I was there first.  I put a ring on her finger—not him.  I gave her a house, and she turned it into a home.  I gave her passion, and she gave me a son.  Everything I have given that woman she has managed to turn into something great.  I know this has had to have eaten her up inside.  I know how she feels, or felt, about him, but I also know how she feels about me.  You don’t marry a man, make a home with him, give him a son, and do all that she has done out of ‘like’ for a person.  I know that sounds old school.  She had dreams of moving away from here and I know one day, I’ll make her dreams come true.  I know she’s quite capable of doing this for herself.  She’s a strong woman.  She’s the strongest woman I know, but she chose to put what she wanted aside to make sure she could spend some time with Gage while he was little.  We are young, so we have the rest of our lives ahead of us. 

She smiles at me and says, “I think that’s the best plan ever.  I don’t think we’ve had the chance to do that just yet.”  Her smile is full of hunger.  I can see her desire for me in her eyes.  “Thank you for being with me through all of this—through loving me despite my mistakes.  I know you may not want to hear this, but I hate to hurt Eddie.  I wish this never would have happened.  I wish I had met you first.”

I can’t take this anymore, so before she can say another word, I crush her lips beneath mine.   It has the nicest way I can think of to tell her to shut up.  When I come up for air, I tell her, “No more, my love.  Let’s go ahead and make that call, get it over with, and move on with the rest of our lives.”

Krystal

It has been close to a month since Jimmy and I had that amazing sex. We still have sex anytime we get the chance, which seems to be a lot more than before. I went to the doctor today and found out that I was pregnant, but I suffer from what they call a missed miscarriage.   I didn’t even know I lost a baby. Is it ok not realizing I lost my child makes me feel like shit? How do you miss a miscarriage?  You don’t just ‘not know’ you lose a kid. On top of that, I got the paper this morning.  Eddie has his own little part in the paper. I thought the article that girl wanted to do was about his one man show. Turns out it started that way but ended with it being about how todays “alpha male has finally grown up, and how high maintenance females aren’t worth it.”  What I want to know is how the hell he would know. Where the hell does he get the right to say anything like that? It was him that lied about having cancer to sleep with someone. He used fake cancer to have his feelings known when all he had to do was be a man and come out and say how he felt. It’s not my fault he was a pussy that decided he had to lie to get what he wanted. My fault lies in believing him.

Jimmy and I are lodging in the front room waiting on the news to come on. We are thinking of doing something with Gage tomorrow, but want to see what the weather is going to be like. When I feel Jimmy go tight, I look up at him and his eyes are on the television.  When I look at the television, I know why. Eddie is on the news. It’s all about his story from the paper, but with some bull about a narcissist female he had in his life who requires constant attention and loves drama.  He also says that this female doesn’t love 100% like a man deserves to be loved.   I think to myself how he needs a fist in his face to plug that leakage of horse shit coming from his mouth, but I do have to say this much.  He is moving on.  We needed for him to be able to move on so that I could move on with my life with Jimmy.  

I look back at Jimmy after I turn the television off.  “ Jimmy is anything he said right about me? Do I love you enough? Are you happy?”

He looks down at me and says, “Nothing he said remotely sounded like you at all, baby.  I’m not saying that just because I love you.  You are a loving and caring woman, Krystal Alexander.  You show me love every single day.   Fuck Eddie, Krystal.  If he would have been smart or even a real man, he would have fought me for you.  He wouldn’t have backed down or rolled over like the pussy he is.   I will never stop fighting for you. I love you and you love me--end of story. Now let’s see if we can catch what the weather is going to be like.” 

How did that man go from ranting about someone he hates to worry about the weather?  Either way, I kiss Jimmy. The man has put up with so much shit from me, I have no idea how I haven’t lost him by now. But the question remains, is it fair of me to stay with him if I don’t feel the same. I love him dearly.  Don’t get me wrong I always will, but we have no passion. Can you make a marriage work with no passion?

Eddie

I decided that I wanted to get Lydia something that is just for me. Yes, I said just for me. At the start, I thought she was just a bump buddy, but she was right. She rocked my freaking would that night and every night since. I really like her. I don’t know if I would use the other L word as you can remember what happen the last two times I said it. It didn’t work out so well for me.  The last girl I said that word took my heart and busted it with a sledge hammer. But shit happens right?  It’s time to pull up my big boy pants and move on. Krystal didn’t have not one problem doing it. I shake my head to clear it. I’m not wasting any more of my time thinking about things I can’t have.  Instead, I’m going to fill my mind with what Lydia will look like in this black and blood red teddy that has all the best parts missing. I decide I’m going to get the black and red one as well as the hot pink one that is see through. Lord, I need to get out of this store and inside Lydia like twenty minutes ago.

I check out and decide to stop for lunch in the mall before I head out. Lydia doesn’t get off for another hour and a half, so I have time to kill. Standing in line waiting to order my food, my thoughts lead back to the first night I got her naked.  Boy that was a good night. She got all of the questions she needed, then it was go time. Once her questions turned silly, I knew I wouldn’t last. Once her shirt came off, I cheated and jumped her. Her body fit mine so well, and we moved together like we had been doing it for years. She felt amazing wrapped around me. With her moans in my ear and her nails down my back, I didn’t think I was going to last. It felt so good. Someone snapping their fingers in my face brings me back to the here and now. Leave it to me to get hard in a fast food joint. I look at the guy to my left that was snapping his fingers at me, apologize for being ‘out of it’, and step forward to place my order. I got a grill chicken salad and a bottle of water. I walk toward the back of the place that way if I space out again, no one will see anything they shouldn’t.

I sat down and look to my right. Just my luck. To my right with her nose in a book is none other than Krystal. All I can do is stare. I don’t get up to leave.   I don’t call her name.  I just stare at her until finally, she looks over at me.  She does a double take, and then our eyes are locked on the other. How long did we sit just staring at each other?   I have no idea. I could have gotten hit by a bus and still I think my eyes would have stayed on her. She looks almost the same. She has small bags under her eyes where she isn’t getting enough sleep, and she has lost weight. I hear her breathe my name as her eyes fill with tears.

I can’t see this. No, I refuse to sit and talk with her if she is going to try and draw me back in. So I go balls to the wall and let it all out.

“Oh, you know who I am now do you? The day you stood outside my apartment, you didn’t know who I was.  When you got into Jen’s car and drove away, or how about when you came back? Instead of coming to me, you got in your car and went to Jimmy. Did you know me then Krystal?”  Words just spewed from my mouth dripping with faux hatred.  I don’t think I could ever really hate her.   I ask all this before she gets a chance to say anything.  She opens her mouth like she is about to speak, and her tears are now sliding down her cheeks.  However, at this point now, I find myself unable to care that she is crying.  I put my hand up to stop her and then begin to speak again.  

“NO, you don’t get to speak. I don’t need your fucking words, Krystal, I have all the actions from you. Dry your tears, because they won’t work this time. I’m happy. I’m happy with Lydia.  I like that she lets me do anything to her body.  I like that she doesn’t hold my past against me.  Yes, if you must know, I told her everything.  I figured it was best to tell her myself rather than you or Jen sullying it up with your drama.   . Lydia is free and wild and fulfills my every fucking fantasy. Just last night we had a threesome, and it was freaking epic. Never in my life have I had that kind of rush with a woman. Lydia knows me, and she understands me.”  Then, the look I’ve been waiting to see for a while now flashes in her eyes.  Finally, I make her jealous.  I’m not done yet.  I keep ranting.  “That’s right, Krystal.  Someone other than you gets me. Only difference is that she chooses me.”

I don’t wait for her to speak. I don’t care what she has to say. I leave my food where it is, grab my bags, and walk out. I hear her say my name before I am all the way out of the store. Once outside, I stand there and breathe deeply, open my eyes, and look around. I look at the window where Krystal and I were sitting, and she is still there with her head in her hands.  I almost go back in there but decide against it. I can’t take another heartbreak when she runs back to Jimmy.