To Love a Shifter: A Paranormal Romance Boxed Set (116 page)

I gasped.  “I do not.”

“Then tell me.”

I grimaced at how neatly I had fallen for that trap.  “Umm…”  A hazy thought formed in my mind.  I gulped.  Certainly not that.

“You’ve thought of something.”

I was doing my best not to, actually.  “No.”

“Deli.”

“Yes?”

“Stop beating around the bush.”

“I’m not.”

I found myself rolled over to my back and Lucian glaring at me.

“Tell me.”

“Well—”

“A word of advice, Deli,” Lucian said gently, his tone making me shiver a little.  Lucian was always scarier when he was nicer.  “Don’t try fooling me.”

“But you wouldn’t want to know.”  I nodded jerkily.  “I just know.”

“Trust me to be the judge of that, mmm?”

A glum sigh escaped me.  “You promise you won’t be mad?”

“I won’t even raise my voice.”

“Ha.  You don’t have to.  The angrier you are, the softer—”

“Stop prevaricating.”

Drat.  He was too smart for his own good.

“What is it then?” he asked a few moments later.

I disclosed it in a single, mortified, and breathless rush.  “During prom night, I almost slept with my boyfriend—make that ex—in the backseat.”

When Lucian didn’t say anything, I peeked at his expression.  He looked…blank.  And then he sighed.

I winced.  “I know.  It’s so clichéd, right?  You’d think I’d know better.”  I was about to defend myself and tell him that at least we were riding in a limousine and not just any cheap car.  But I fell silent instead as his head lowered to my shoulder.

I didn’t know what to think of it except…
this feels good.

His chest rumbled in laughter.

“Err, what’s so funny?”

“Nothing.  Everything.”  He didn’t sound amused now.  He pushed himself up on one elbow.  His other hand tucked loose strands of my hair behind my ear.

“You think I was stupid, don’t you?”

“No.  But you were right.”  A rueful grin tugged at his lips.  It made him so gorgeous I itched to have a camera in my hands to capture the image forever.

“I was?”  He might as well have been speaking Chinese.  I was too entranced at the tenderness in his eyes.

“I didn’t want to know that.”

~~~

“Lucian?”

“Mmm?”

It was three o’clock in the morning.  Dyvian had called half an hour ago, informing Lucian he was staying over at a friend’s house up in DV.  I had begged Lucian to sleep with me, and he gave in when I finally threatened to tell him more about my ex.

I pushed myself to my elbows so I could see his face.  His brows were just the tiniest bit furrowed.  He was thinking about something again.  And with Lucian, that something could be anything from the real estate market conditions in Idaho to my love-and-hate-relationship with Chemistry.  I loved physical chemistry, but the scientific sort hated me.

He coughed a little.  It sounded a little too much like he was trying to hide his laughter but I doubt it.  There was nothing to laugh about.  “Are you okay?”

“Just thinking.”

“Stop thinking,” I urged, unable to help sounding petulant.  I wanted us to savor our first night together, even though it was sickeningly innocent.  I didn’t want him to try predicting stock market trends while he was with me.  Right now, his topmost priority was supposed to be thinking about how pretty I was, how nice it was to have me next to him, and how soon he should have been kissing me.

“Lucian.”  I shook his arm until his eyes finally met mine.  I was surprised to see him smiling slightly.  “What are you smiling about?” I demanded, frowning.

He ruffled my hair.  “Nothing.”

“No, tell me.”

He looked at me for one unreadable moment.  “Tell you what.  Let me know what you think I’m thinking, and I’ll tell you if you’re right.”

“You’ll let me guess until I get it right?”

“I’ll give you three guesses.”

“Deal.”  I sat up, locking my knees under my chin, scrutinizing his every expression.  Staring at him, it was easy to get distracted.  Lucian really was beautiful.  The way his hair fell against his forehead, the shine in his eyes—

“Deli.”  Lucian sighed.

I colored, realizing I had been caught daydreaming.  “Sorry.”

“Well?  Give me a guess.”

“You’re thinking about…me?”  I was joking so I was stunned when he nodded, an approving smile curving on his face.

My eyes widened.  “You are?”

“Yes.”

I gulped.  He sounded too serious.  “Is it bad?” I ventured in a small voice.  My imagination overflowed with pessimistic thoughts.  “You think what happened is a huge mistake, don’t you?  You probably think—”

He pressed his fingers to my mouth.  “Sshh.”  His lips twitched.  “Stop being so melodramatic.”  His voice lowered.  “I love it that I finally got to kiss you.  I’d never trade it for anything.”  He pulled away and leaned back against the headboard.  “But that wasn’t what I was thinking.”

The sweet words and the tender smile on his face gave me hope.

“Another guess?”

I became excited.  “I know.”  Now, why hadn’t I thought of this before?

His eyes widened in alarm.

I smirked.  He probably knew I had guessed the truth.  “You’re in love—”  I couldn’t continue with his mouth suddenly covering mine.

Never the type to refuse something I wanted, I reached out to him but he was already pulling away after the briefest touch of our lips.  “Don’t think things like that, Deli.”

I couldn’t help feeling hurt.  He looked like falling in love with me gave him gastritis.  Surely, it wasn’t that bad?

I pulled away, too, but just so I could see him more clearly.  “What are you saying?”

“Let’s just enjoy this, okay?”

That would have sounded incredibly crass if anyone but Lucian had been saying it.  I tried to understand where he was coming from but my mental GPS couldn’t nail his exact location.  Was it commitment phobia?  Was it an aversion to something about me?

He sighed but I also detected a glimmer of laughter in his eyes.  “Stop thinking crazy thoughts.”

“How do you know what I’m thinking?”

He touched my nose.  “Because I know you very well.”

“But I want to—”  He kissed me again, effectively killing my brain cells.

He pulled away just when I was about to close my eyes.  “I want to keep this between us for now.  You know how I am with other people.  I don’t want anything to ruin what we have.”

I bit my lip.  “I understand, but what about Dyvian or other Evr—”  Another kiss halted my words.

I scowled when I realized what he was doing.  “You’re distracting me with kisses, aren’t you?”

“Am I?”  The mischief in his eyes, a rare sight for Lucian, belied the innocence in his voice.

“Duh.  You know you are.”  I took a deep breath.  “But we have to talk about this, Lucian.  What changed between—”  He kissed me again.

When he pulled away, I said breathlessly, “I’m serious, Lucian.  I want to know how you feel about—”  Another kiss.

He lifted his head a few moments later, chuckling when I refused to let him go.  But he was too strong for me.  “Let’s just take it day by day,” he advised and tipped my chin up.  “Okay?”

I nodded.  “But—”

Another kiss that made my toes curl and he was moving away again.  “We keep things private between us.”

“Promise.”  I was willing to agree to anything just so he’d kiss me again.  I waited, but he seemed content to gaze at me.  That was sweet, honestly, but right now, I was in the mood for something more exciting.

When he still didn’t make any move to kiss me, I decided to use his own strategy against him.  I clasped my hands, feigning anxiety.  “I think we have to talk—”

He smiled knowingly as his face inched closer but I didn’t mind.

~~~

“Good morning.”  I entered the kitchen with a huge smile on my face, but it faded soon enough when only Dyvian smiled back from the table.  “Where’s Lucian?”

He glanced at his watch.  “As of this moment, he’s probably just arrived in Tokyo.”

I choked on my juice and set the glass down carelessly, liquid spilling over.  I stared at Dyvian in shock.  “W-what did you just say?”

He frowned.  “Don’t you remember?”

I moved his plate aside so his mountain of pancakes wouldn’t obstruct my view.  I squinted at him.  He didn’t look like he was joking.  “
Tokyo
?”

He sighed.  “That’s what I said.  He’s had this trip scheduled for ages.  Weren’t you listening to him?  He told us about it over dinner the other night.”

“He did?”  I grabbed a toast and munched on it lifelessly.  “I didn’t hear.”

“You were probably too busy staring at him.”  He moved his plate back and gobbled down half of its contents in just a few bites.  “And knowing Lucian, he was probably too busy constructing a business proposal in Mandarin and Japanese while secretly smirking at you because you’re too
obvious
.”

I was too miserable to come up with a retort.  My appetite was completely gone.  I missed him so much already.  Why hadn’t he reminded me last night?  Why hadn’t he said goodbye?