The Tale of Krispos (135 page)

He got more and more chances to wander where he would without Syagrios. Etchmiadzin’s wall was too high to jump from without breaking his neck, its single gate too well guarded for him to think of bolting through it and away. And as the weather got better, Syagrios was more and more closeted with Livanios, planning the upcoming summer’s campaign.

Phostis did his best to stay out of Livanios’ way. The less he reminded the heresiarch of his presence, the less likely Livanios was to think of him, think of the danger he might represent, and put him out of the way.

Just wandering, however, was beginning to pall. When he’d had Syagrios at his elbow every hour of the day and night, he was sure just getting away from the ruffian for a little while would bring peace to his soul. And so it had…for a little while. But the taste of freedom, however small, served only to whet his appetite for more. He was no longer a glad explorer of Etchmiadzin’s back alleys. He paced them more like a wildcat searching for an opening in its cage.

He hadn’t found one yet.
Maybe around the next corner,
he told himself for the hundredth time. He went round the next corner—and almost walked into Olyvria, who was coming around it the other way.

They both sidestepped in the same direction, which meant they almost bumped into each other again. Olyvria started to laugh. “Get out of my way, you,” she said, miming a push at his chest.

He made as if to stumble backward from it, then bowed extravagantly. “I humbly crave your pardon, my lady; I had no intention of disturbing your glorious progress,” he cried. “I pray that you find it in your heart to forgive me!”

“We’ll see about that,” she said darkly.

By then they were both laughing. Phostis came back up to her and slipped an arm around her waist. She snuggled against him; her chin fit nicely on the top of his shoulder. He wanted to kiss her, but held back—she was still nervous about it. From her perspective, he supposed she had reason to be.

“What are you doing here?” they both asked in the same breath. That made them laugh again.

“Nothing much,” Phostis answered. “Keeping away from mischief as best I can. What about you?”

Olyvria was carrying a canvas bag. She pulled a shoe out of it and held it up so close to Phostis’ face that his eyes crossed. “I broke off the heel, see?” she said. “There’s a little old Vaspurakaner cobbler down this street who does wonderful work. Why not? He’s been doing it longer than both of us put together have been alive. Anyway, I was taking it to him.”

“May I accompany you on your journey?” he asked grandly.

“I hoped you would,” she answered, and dropped the wounded shoe back into the bag. Arm in arm, they walked down the little lane.

“Oh, this place,” Phostis said when they reached the cobbler’s shop. “Yes, I went by here.” Over the door hung a boot carved from wood. To one side of it the wall bore the word
SHOON
in Videssian, to the other what was presumably the same message in the square, blocky characters the “princes” of Vaspurakan used to write their language.

Phostis peered through one of the narrow windows set into the front wall, Olyvria into the other. “I don’t see anyone in there,” she said, frowning.

“Let’s find out.” Phostis reached for the latch and pulled the door open. A bell rang. The rich smell of leather filled his nose. He motioned for Olyvria to precede him into the cobbler’s shop. The door swung shut behind them.

“He’s
not
here,” Olyvria said disappointedly. All the candles and lamps were out; even with them burning, Phostis would have found the shop too dim. Awls and punches, little hammers and trimming knives hung in neat rows on pegs behind the cobbler’s bench. No one came out from the back room to answer the bell.

“Maybe he was taken ill,” Phostis said. Something else ran through his mind:
Or maybe he’d rather starve himself to death than work anymore.
But no, probably not. She’d said he was a Vaspurakaner, not a Thanasiot.

“Here’s a scrap of parchment.” Olyvria pounced on it. “See if you can find pen and ink. I’ll leave him the shoe and a note.” She clicked her tongue between her teeth. “I hope he reads Videssian. I’m not sure. Someone could easily have painted that word on the wall for him.”

“Here.” Phostis discovered a little clay jar of ink and a reed pen below the tools. “He reads something, anyhow, or I don’t think he’d have these.”

“That’s true. Thanks.” Olyvria scribbled a couple of lines, put her broken shoe on the bench, and secured the parchment to it with a long rawhide lace. “There. That should be all right. If he can’t read Videssian, he ought to know someone who can. I hope he’s well.”

A donkey went by outside. Its hooves made little wet sucking noises as it lifted them from the mud one after another. It let out a braying squeal of discontent at being ridden in such dreadful conditions. “Ahh, quit your bellyaching,” growled the man on its back, who was plainly used to its complaints. The donkey brayed again as it squelched past the cobbler’s shop.

But for the donkey, everything was still save far off in the distance, where a dog barked. Olyvria took a small step toward the door. “I suppose I should get back,” she said.

“Wait,” Phostis said.

She raised a questioning eyebrow. He put his arms around her and bent his face down to hers. Before their lips touched, she pulled back a little and whispered, “Are you sure?” In the murky light, the pupils of her eyes were enormous.

He wondered how she meant that, but it could have only one answer. “Yes, I’m sure.”

“Well, then.” Now she moved forward to kiss him.

She hesitated once more, just for a heartbeat, when his hand closed on the firm softness of her breast. But then she molded herself against him. They sank down to the rammed-earth floor of the cobbler’s shop together, fumbling at each other’s garments.

It was the usual clumsy first time, made more frantic than usual by fear that someone—most likely the cobbler—would walk through the door at the most inopportune moment possible. “Hurry!” Olyvria gasped.

Phostis did his best to oblige. Afterward, because he’d rushed so, he wasn’t sure he’d fully satisfied her. At the time, he didn’t worry about it. His mouth slid from hers to her breasts and down the rounded slope of her belly. Her hand was urgent on him. She lay on her rumpled dress. A fold of it got distractingly between them when he scrambled above her. He leaned on one elbow to yank it out of the way. He kissed her again as he slid inside.

When he was through, he sat back on his haunches, enormously pleased with the entire world. Olyvria hissed, “Get dressed, you lackwit,” which brought him back to himself in a hurry. They both dressed quickly, then spent another minute or so dusting off each other’s clothes. Olyvria stirred the dirt of the floor around with her foot to cover up the marks they’d left. She looked Phostis over. ‘Your elbow’s dirty.” She licked a fingertip with a catlike dab of her tongue and rubbed it clean.

He held the door for her. They both almost bounded out of the cobbler’s shop. Once out on the street again, Phostis said, “Now what?”

“I just don’t know,” Olyvria answered after a small pause. “I have to think.” Her voice was quiet, almost toneless, as if she’d left behind all her exuberance, all her mischief, with the broken shoe. “I didn’t—quite—expect to do that.”

Phostis hadn’t seen her at a loss before; he didn’t know what to make of it. “I didn’t expect to, either.” He knew his grin was foolish, but he couldn’t help it. “I’m glad we did, though.”

She glared at him. “Of course you are. Men always are.” Then she softened, a little, and let her hand rest on his arm for a moment. “I’m not angry, not really. We have to see what happens later, that’s all.”

Phostis knew what he would like to have happen later, but also had a good notion that mentioning it straight out would make it less likely. Instead, he spoke obliquely. “The flesh is hard to ignore.”

“Isn’t it?” Olyvria glanced back at the cobbler’s shop. “If we…well, if we do that again, we’ll have to find a better place for it. My heart was in my mouth every second.”

“Yes, I know. Mine, too.” But they’d joined anyhow. Like Olyvria, Phostis saw he was going to have to do some hard thinking about that. By every Thanasiot standard, they’d just committed a good-sized sin. He didn’t feel sinful, though. He felt relaxed and happy and ready to tackle anything the world threw at him.

Olyvria might have plucked that thought right out of his brain. She said, “You don’t have to worry if you’re with child till the moon spins through its phases.”

That sobered him. He didn’t have to worry about conceiving, not directly, but if Olyvria’s belly started to swell, what would Livanios do? He might force a marriage on them, if that fit into his own schemes. But if it didn’t…He might act like any outraged father, and beat Phostis within an inch of his life or even kill him. Or he might give him over to the clergy. The priests of the Thanasioi took a very dim view of carnal pleasures. Their punishments might make him wish Livanios had personally attended to the matter—and, to add humiliation to anguish, would have the vociferous approval of most of the townsfolk.

“Whatever happens, I’ll take care of you,” he said at last.

“How do you propose to manage that?” she asked with a woman’s bitter practicality. “You can’t even take care of yourself.”

Phostis flinched. He knew she spoke the truth, but having his nose rubbed in it stung. As the Avtokrator’s son, he’d never really had to worry about taking care of himself. He was taken care of, simply by virtue—or fault—of his birth. Here in Etchmiadzin, he was also taken care of: as a prisoner. The amount of freedom he’d lost was smaller than it seemed at first glance.

At Krispos’ insistence, he’d studied logic. He saw only one possible conclusion. “I’ll have to get out. If you like, I’ll take you with me.”

As soon as the words left his mouth, he knew he should have kept them in there. Having her laugh at him would be bad enough. Having her tell her father would be a thousand times worse.

She didn’t laugh. She said, “Don’t try to run. You’d just be caught, and then you’d never get another chance.”

“But how can I stay here?” he demanded. “Even under the best of circumstances, I’m”—he hesitated, but finished the thought as he’d intended—“I’m not a Thanasiot, nor likely to become one. I know that now.”

“I know what you mean,” Olyvria answered unhappily. Phostis noted she had not said she agreed with him. She shook her head. “I’d better go.” She hurried away.

He started to call after her, but in the end did not. He kicked at the gluey ground underfoot. In the romances, all your problems were supposed to be over when you made love to the beautiful girl. Olyvria was pretty enough, no doubt about that. But as far as Phostis could see, making love to her had only complicated his life further.

He wondered why the romances were so popular if they were also so far removed from actuality. That notion disturbed him; he thought the popular should match the real. Then he realized that simple paintings in bright colors might be easier to appreciate than more highly detailed ones—and honey was sweeter than the usual mix of flavors life presented.

None of which helped him in his present complexities. Here at last he’d found a woman who, he believed, wanted him only for himself, not because of the rank he held or the advantage she might gain from sleeping with him—and who was she? Not just the woman who had kidnapped him and who was the daughter of the rebel who held him prisoner. That would have been muddle enough by itself. But there was more. For all her fencing with him about it, he knew she took Thanasiot principles seriously—a lot more seriously than Livanios, if Phostis was any judge. And Thanasios, to put it mildly, had not thought well of the flesh.

Phostis still distrusted his own flesh, too. But he was coming to the sometimes reluctant conclusion that it was part of what made him himself, not just an unfortunate adjunct to his spirit that ought to be discarded as quickly as possible.

Almost as vividly as if he were in her arms again, he remembered the feel of Olyvria’s warm, sweet body pressed against him. Sometimes he was not so reluctant about that conclusion, too. He knew he wanted her again, when and as he got the chance.

Digenis would not have approved. He knew that, too. Now, though, he hadn’t talked with the fiery priest, or come under the spell of his words, for several months. And he’d seen far more of the way the Thanasioi ran their lives than he had when he’d listened to Digenis back in Videssos the city. Much of it he still found admirable—much of it, but a long way from all. Reality had a way of intruding on Digenis’ bright word-pictures, no less than on those of the romancers.

If Olyvria was heading back toward the fortress of Etchmiadzin, Phostis decided he ought to stay away awhile longer, so as not to make anyone there draw a connection between them. It was a nice calculation. If he just followed her back, he might arouse suspicion. If he stayed away too long, Syagrios would track him like hound after hare. He didn’t want Syagrios to have to do that; it would anger the ruffian, and Phostis cherished the limited freedom he’d so slowly regained.

He had a few coins in his belt pouch, winnings at the battle game. He spent a silver piece on a leg of roasted fowl and a hard roll, then carefully put the coppers from his change back into the pouch. He’d learned about haggling: it was what you did when you were short of money. He’d got good at it. Despite Krispos’ firm hand, he’d never been short of money before he ended up in Etchmiadzin.

He was chewing on the roll when Artapan strode by. The wizard, full of his own affairs, didn’t notice him. Phostis decided to try to find out where he was going in such a hurry. Ever since he’d realized Artapan was from Makuran, he’d wondered just how the mage fit into Livanios’ plans…or perhaps how Livanios fit into Artapan’s plans. Maybe now he could learn.

He’d followed the wizard for half a furlong before he realized he was liable to get in trouble if Artapan did discover him dogging his tracks. He tried to be sneakier, keeping people and, once, a donkey cart between the mage and him, dodging from doorway to doorway.