Lydia wanted to scream.
She pushed them into her schoolbag.
‘Finished.’ Polly’s voice. At the top of the stairs.
In a final rush Lydia scooped out the books from her schoolbag and dumped all the reels of negative film in their place. She threw the key into the bottom drawer, kicked it shut, and with her books under one arm and the bag under the other, she left the room.
‘You don’t mind, do you, darling?’
‘No, of course not. I’ve got homework to do.’
Lydia kept looking at her mother, her eyes following every flick of her finger -
that finger
- as she skimmed through the latest
Paris World
magazine and each toss of her hair as she lit another cigarette. Why? Over and over it squirmed in her head. Why did Valentina do it? Damn it, damn it, damn it. Why?
Her mother turned to Alfred. ‘We won’t be back late, will we, angel?’
He exchanged a quick glance with Lydia. He had driven her to school that morning on his way to work, and she had mentioned that Valentina seemed a bit tense since the business with Chang An Lo and the soldiers. Maybe it would be a good idea to take her out this evening? A meal at the club? Dancing at the Flamingo? Alfred had jumped at it.
‘Well, I’m not sure what time it’ll be,’ he said with a look of open admiration at his wife. She looked stunning. An elegant new black and white evening gown that was cut low to reveal the full swell of her breasts. Lydia couldn’t look at them. Not now. Not after what she’d seen.
Alfred handed his wife her mink muff and helped her on with her coat.
‘Have a good time,’ Lydia said cheerfully.
The moment she heard the car swing out of the drive, she raced upstairs and pulled out the green dress.
‘Little sparrow,
moi vorobushek
, I think you’d forget an old lady.’
‘No,
nyet
, I’m here. I even have an official invitation.’ Lydia waved the thick embossed card.
‘So grand.’ Mrs Zarya chuckled with delight, her broad bosom swaying dangerously close. She tucked her arm through Lydia’s. ‘And quite lovely you look. So grown up now in your pretty green dress.’
‘Grown up enough to dance?’
Mrs Zarya fluttered her own wide taffeta skirts in a strangely coquettish gesture. ‘Maybe,
vozmozhno.
You must wait to be asked.’
The Serov villa at the far end of Rue Lamarque in the French Quarter was even grander than Lydia had expected, with pillars and porticoes and a long sweeping driveway that was packed with cars and chauffeurs. The reception rooms were lit by ranks of crystal chandeliers and crowded with hundreds of guests in elegant evening dress. All around her swirled the lilting sound of Russian:
Dobriy vecher, Good evening. Kak vi pozhivayete, How are you? Kak torgovlia, How is business?
She remembered to say
‘Ochyen priatno,’ Pleased to meet you,
when introduced by Mrs Zarya, but she did not listen to their names. She was here to seek out only one person. And he was not to be seen. Not yet. At first she stayed at Mrs Zarya’s side, reassured in this sparkling new world by the familiar smells of mothballs that wafted from her overheated figure. Old gentlemen with side whiskers and Tsar Nicholas’s beard came to flirt with Mrs Zarya and kiss Lydia’s hand, while women in long white gloves toured the rooms, displaying their glittering jewellery and Russian temperaments. Lydia lost count of the number of diamond tiaras that glided past.
She wondered what Chang An Lo would make of all this. How many guns just one of those diamonds would buy. Or what number of empty bellies that fat woman’s huge gold earrings would fill. Such thoughts caught her by surprise. They were Chang An Lo’s thoughts. Inside
her
head. That pleased her. That she could look around at all this wealth and see it not as desirable, but as a means of putting right an unbalanced society, was something totally new for her. Balance. That’s what Chang said was needed. But she watched a man with the stomach of a well-fed pig and gold chunks on his pudgy fingers take a glass of champagne from a silver salver without even glancing at the Chinese servant holding it. The servant was gaunt-faced with submissive eyes. Where exactly was the balance in that?
A shiver of shock rippled through Lydia. It was not only new thoughts she possessed, but new eyes. It seemed she really was becoming a Communist.
‘Lydia Ivanova, I’m delighted you could come.’ It was Countess Serova, regal as ever in her cream satin gown with high neck and full skirt, encrusted with pearls. ‘And tonight you are in a different frock, I see. I was beginning to think you only possessed one. How charming green looks on you.’
Lydia found the mixture of insult and praise disconcerting. ‘Thank you for inviting me, Countess.’ This time she didn’t bob a curtsy. Why should she? ‘Is your son here tonight?’
Countess Serova’s cool blue eyes took the measure of Lydia, and without replying she turned her gaze on Mrs Zarya. ‘Olga Petrovna Zarya,
kak molodo vi viglyaditye,
how young you look tonight.’
Mrs Zarya preened herself delightedly and dropped a curtsy, but Lydia did not hear her response because a young woman in black who was standing behind the countess, clearly an attendant of some kind, leaned close to Lydia and murmured in Russian, ‘He is in the ballroom.’
Lydia excused herself and followed the sound of music.
The woman shimmered. In an off-the-shoulder sequinned gown she was seated at a grand piano at one end of the ballroom, her fingernails vivid red against the ivory keys. She was playing a modern piece Lydia recognised. Something by Shostakovich, something decadent. The pianist swung her silky blond waves in time to the rhythm. It annoyed Lydia instantly, that overdramatic way of performing. But why hadn’t the countess invited Valentina to play? She turned away because whenever she thought of Valentina, the photographs in the drawer leaped into her head and made her feel sick. Instead she looked around her.
The room was beautiful. The high ceiling was painted with muscular heroes and nebulous goddesses who looked down on the pale polished-beech floor. Huge gilt-framed family portraits of people with long noses and arrogant eyes were designed to overpower guests of fragile nerve. Gleaming mirrors reflected thousands of pinpricks of light from chandeliers and threw them back into the room to highlight the dancers as they flowed with bright smiles from one end to the other. But Lydia’s eyes were soon elsewhere, on a cluster of men in deep discussion in front of one of the long velvet drapes. One tall angular back in immaculately styled evening wear and with a head of cropped brown hair set Lydia’s hackles rising.
She made directly for it.
‘Alexei Serov,’ she said coldly. ‘I’d like a word.’ She touched the black ridge of his shoulder.
Instantly he turned, and the broad smile that greeted her only infuriated her further. She felt an urge to slap it off his face.
‘Good evening, Miss Ivanova, how delightful that you are able to join us tonight.’ He snapped his fingers at a servant in maroon livery, standing to attention against the wall. ‘A drink for my guest.’
‘No drink, thank you. I won’t be staying.’
A frown crossed his long face at the coolness of her tone. His gaze studied her face, his eyes so intent on hers that she could see tiny golden flecks buried in the green irises.
‘Is something wrong?’ He ran a hand over the thick bristles of his hair and down the back of his head. It was the first time she had ever seen him betray the slightest sign of unease.
‘I would like a word. In private, please.’
His head drew back and he stared down his straight nose at her, half a smile curving his mouth. She did not care for the way he narrowed his eyes, his dark eyelashes used as a barrier between them. Another man with something to hide.
‘Certainly, Miss Ivanova.’
He placed a firm hand under her elbow and steered her effortlessly through the dancers to what looked like a mirror with carved gilded vine leaves around it but which turned out to be a door. More sleight of hand. They entered a small windowless room that contained nothing but a pale green chaise longue and a forest of stuffed animal heads on the walls. A wild boar with twelve-inch tusks glared at Lydia. She looked away and shook her elbow free of the grip on it.
‘Alexei Serov, you are a lying bastard.’
His composure was rattled, but he hid it well. His hand slowly stroked his jaw, revealing cuff links of gold scarab beetles. ‘You insult me, Miss Ivanova.’
‘No, it is you who insult me if you think I won’t realise who it was who sent Kuomintang troops to my house.’
‘Troops?’
‘Yes. And we both know why.’
‘I’m sorry, I don’t understand what you . . .’
‘Don’t. Don’t waste your breath denying it. Your poisonous lies crawl out of the gutter and only insult me further. Because of you I could be in prison now. Do you realise that? And my . . . my friend . . . could be dead. So I have come here tonight to tell you . . .’ She could hear her voice sliding out of control, losing the iciness she’d planned. ‘ . . . to tell you that your plot failed and that I think you are the lowest of the low. A filthy whore-boy to Chiang Kai-shek and his grey devils. Pretending to be a friend to me, yet . . .’
‘Stop, Lydia.’
‘No, I will not stop, you bastard. You betrayed me.’
He seized hold of her arms and shook her. ‘Stop this.’
His face came close to hers. They glared at each other. She could hear the click of air at the back of his throat as he swallowed his anger.
‘Release me,’ she snapped.
He removed his hands.
‘Good-bye,’ she said, putting all the ice she could summon into the single word. She walked stiffly to the door.
‘Lydia Ivanova, in heaven’s name, what demon is inside you now? How dare you march in here with accusations and then refuse to hear my response? Who do you think you are?’
Lydia stopped, one hand on the heavy brass doorknob, but she didn’t turn around. She couldn’t bear even to look at the deceitful bastard. There was a moment’s silence while the dead creatures in the room watched through glass eyes. She could hear her own heart thumping.
‘Now listen to what I have to say.’ His voice was astonishingly calm. ‘I know nothing about troops at your house.’
‘To hell with your lies.’
‘I did
not
betray you. Or your wounded Chinese Communist. I told no one what I saw at your house, you have my word on that.’
‘The word of a liar is not worth spit.’
His angry intake of breath satisfied her.
‘I am speaking the truth,’ he said sharply, and she knew that if she’d been a man he’d have struck her.
‘Why should I believe you?’
‘Why shouldn’t you?’
She swung around. ‘Because there was nobody but you to send the troops for Chang An Lo. You. Only you knew.’
‘That’s plainly absurd. What about your cook?’
‘Wai?’
‘You think he didn’t know? Miss Ivanova, you have a lot to learn about servants if you think they don’t know everything that goes on in a house.’
Lydia swallowed. ‘Wai?’
Alexei Serov was back in control. The stiffness seeped out of his body and his gesture was languorous as he waved a hand in the direction of wherever his own household servants camped. ‘They have eyes that see behind closed doors and ears that hear the thoughts in your head.’
‘But why would Wai . . . ?’
‘For Chinese dollars, of course. He would be well paid for the information.’
‘Oh hell.’
She felt her shoulders droop and her spine cave in. She sought refuge in staring at the feathery ears of a lynx’s head. They were pricked, alert, ready to listen to her excuses.
‘Bloody hell,’ she muttered.
‘I swear I didn’t betray him. Or you,’ Alexei Serov said quietly.
She made herself look him in the eye. This was hard. Angry came easy. Apologetic was much tougher.
‘I’m sorry.’
She wanted to get out the door. Out into the cold air before she melted into an ugly pool of shame on the smart marble flooring. Her tongue felt too big for her mouth. The words could barely squeeze past it.
‘I apologise, Alexei Serov.’
He didn’t smile. Through his half-closed eyes she could not make out what he was thinking and anyway she wasn’t sure she wanted to know.
‘I accept your apology, Miss Ivanova.’ He gave a small formal bow. The little click of his heels scared her. It was the sort of noise you might expect from an executioner before he slices your head off. He held out an arm to her. ‘May I accompany you back to the party? This conversation is over.’
She hesitated.
‘And as a gesture of our renewed friendship, I hope you will do me the honour of the next dance.’ He smiled then, slow and teasing, as if he knew what it would cost her.
‘Last time you said I was too young to dance with,’ she objected. There was only one person now in whose arms she wanted to float.
‘That was six months ago. Then you were still a child. Now you look every inch a beautiful young woman.’ He raised one eyebrow. ‘Even if you don’t exactly act like one.’
She laughed, she couldn’t help it.
‘Oh God, Alexei, I’m sorry my mouth ran away with me. I can be quite respectable when I try, but somehow you always catch me at my worst.’
‘“Filthy whore-boy to Chiang Kai-shek.” That was impressive. ’
She took his arm. ‘Let’s dance.’ The quicker she got it over and done with, the better.
49
Theo sat with the cat heavy on his feet. It was cold. Three o’clock in the morning. He could hear the wind shaking the windows and howling to come in, and it reminded him of the wind on the river at night and how it drove the scows as they nipped from junk to junk with their haul. He was reading in his study, trying to glean strength of purpose from the words of Buddha.
If you want to know your future,
then look at yourself in the present,
for that is the cause of the future.
He absorbed that one.
His future would be decided on Wednesday.
Because on that day Christopher Mason had an appointment to tittle-tattle to Sir Edward with the story of Theo’s involvement in opium trafficking. So he had twenty-four hours to decide.
Empty your boat, seeker
,
and you will travel more swiftly
.
Lighten the load of craving and opinions
and you will reach nirvana sooner
.
Theo thought that was what he longed for, to travel light, but he was coming to the conclusion that he didn’t know himself very well. The young Chinese man in the bed upstairs knew him. Knew his weakness. He could see it in his eyes. Chang An Lo was ready for what might come. Had already lightened his load. Prison was one path that might lie ahead for both of them, but could Theo really face the hell of a stinking cell, cooped up like a bird in a bamboo cage?
If you want to get rid of your enemy
,
the true way is to realise that your enemy is delusion
.
But neither Feng Tu Hong nor Christopher Mason felt much like delusion to Theo. The truth was that Feng could stop Mason. But Feng would want the young man in exchange, despite his disputes with Po Chu. Or maybe because of them.
And then? If Theo made the deal? What would Li Mei think of him?
What would he think of himself ?
He leaned down and stroked the cat’s head. It purred for a second before it remembered to sink its yellow teeth into him.