‘The pullers have loose tongues. They are in the pay of the tongs. Black Snakes could track me. And you. I’ll walk.’
‘I’ll get Liev,’ she said quickly.
‘No, my beloved. I want help from no one who leads to you. You see? I escaped from Po Chu. The loss of face will be worse than a blade in his belly and he will work to destroy anyone who . . .’
She put a finger to his lips and nestled close under the blankets. ‘Sleep,’ she murmured. ‘It’s not dawn yet. Sleep. Grow strong.’ Their bodies clung together.
But when the first hint of grey tinged the skylight, Lydia knew Chang An Lo would be going nowhere today. The fever was back.
45
‘This room smells odd,’ Valentina remarked.
She was wandering around Lydia’s bedroom, picking things up, putting them down, plucking copper-coloured hairs from a hairbrush, straightening the curtain.
‘It’s herbs. I tried out some Chinese herbal teas while you were away.’
‘What on earth for?’
Lydia shrugged. ‘No reason.’
She was sitting on the edge of the bed feeling tense. Her gaze repeatedly scoured the room for any telltale signs, but there was nothing that she could spot. She wondered what her mother wanted. After a rather stilted family breakfast all together, Lydia had bolted upstairs but soon afterward Valentina had drifted in. She was wearing a red wool dress that skimmed her slender figure and made her dark bob look more dramatic. On her wrist was a new bracelet of carved ivory. Lydia thought she looked tired. Finally her mother came to a stop by the window and perched on the sill, facing her daughter. Outside it was snowing again.
‘So who is he?’
‘What?’
‘Who is the lucky young man?’
Lydia’s pulse kicked erratically. ‘What on earth do you mean, Mama?’
‘
Dochenka
, I am not blind.’
‘I have no idea what you’re talking about.’
Valentina reached into the pocket of her dress and for one awful moment Lydia thought she was going to bring out some piece of incriminating evidence, but it was only her cigarette case and lighter. She selected a cigarette, tapped its end on the tortoiseshell case before lighting it, and exhaled a plume of smoke in Lydia’s direction.
‘Sweetheart, have you looked in a mirror lately?’
Lydia glanced at the mirror in the front of her wardrobe, but all she saw reflected was her white nightdress on the chair. Suddenly she was nervous there might be blood on it.
‘Mama, I want to go and feed Sun Yat-sen now. Is this important? ’
‘Ah, my wicked little liar. What were you up to last night? Don’t look so shocked. I know you went to the shed.’
Lydia felt her palms grow moist. She brushed them over the eiderdown. ‘How?’
Valentina laughed. ‘Because I couldn’t sleep. I came in to see if you were lying awake, like in the old days in the attic, but you weren’t here, naughty girl.’
‘Oh.’
‘Don’t you
oh
me. You disobeyed Alfred. You went to feed your precious piece of vermin when you thought we were asleep, didn’t you?’
‘Yes.’ It came out as a whisper.
‘
Dochenka
, a rabbit is not worth making trouble between you and your stepfather.’
A heavy silence stilled the room.
‘Is it, Lydia?’
‘Of course not, Mama.’
‘Now,’ Valentina took a long drag on her cigarette and pointed its glowing tip straight at Lydia, ‘tell me who has got you looking like someone’s lit a fire inside you. Come on, darling, tell your mama.’
Lydia could feel her cheeks flush. ‘I don’t know what you . . .’
‘Don’t be such a ninny, Lydia. You think I can’t see? That I haven’t got eyes? You and Alfred staring across the table over your tea and toast. You’ve both got it bad.’ She shook her head, setting her hair swinging in a girlish way. ‘The pair of you.’
‘Got what bad?’
‘Love.’
Lydia almost choked. ‘Mama, don’t be absurd.’
Her mother made a funny little grimace. ‘You think I don’t remember what it feels like? Lydia, my sweet child, you have changed.’
‘How?’
‘Your eyes shine and your skin glows and you give secret little smiles when you think no one is looking. Even your walk is different. So who is this fellow? Tell your mama. A boy from your class at school who has taken your fancy?’
‘Of course not,’ Lydia said scornfully.
‘Then who?’
‘Oh, Mama, just someone I met.’
Valentina came over and sat down on the apricot quilt beside her daughter. She took Lydia’s face between her hands and looked into her eyes with a dark and solemn expression. ‘Whoever it is, you can keep it a secret if you must, but listen to me. No messing. You hear me? No messing with him. You have school to finish and university to go to, maybe even Oxford if we can get you to England in time. That’s our plan, remember? So . . . ,’ she shook Lydia’s head slowly from side to side, ‘you obey me this time, girl. No messing, absolutely none.’
‘Yes, Mama.’
‘Good. I’m glad we’ve got that straight.’
Lydia tried out a small smile and Valentina laughed. ‘Don’t fret, we’ll leave it there for now. But you tell him from me that I’ll dig his eyes out with a rusty spoon if he ever hurts my daughter’s heart.’
‘Don’t be silly, Mama.’ But she gave her mother a quick hug. ‘I missed you,’ she murmured.
‘Oh yes? Like a cat misses a dog!’
Lydia held her mother’s hand on her lap. It was the right hand, the one without the diamond ring, the one Lydia preferred.
‘And you?’ she asked. ‘Are you happy, Mama? With Alfred, I mean.’
Valentina abruptly put on her enthusiastic face. ‘Oh yes, darling, he is an angel. The sweetest, dearest man who ever lived.’
‘And he adores you.’
‘That too.’
‘I want you to be happy.’
‘Sweetheart, I am. Really, look at me.’ She demonstrated with a big wide smile. She looked so lovely it was hard to believe it was anything but real. Only her dark eyes didn’t sparkle.
‘You’ll have all sorts of nice things now. Just like you wanted.’
‘Just like I wanted,’ Valentina said. She stabbed out her stub in a glass dish on Lydia’s bedside table and lit herself another. ‘But there’s one thing dear Alfred wants me to have that I don’t want.’
‘What’s that?’
‘A baby.’
Lydia’s mouth dropped open.
‘You look like I feel about it, darling. Don’t worry, it won’t happen. Oh for heaven’s sake, what’s the matter? Why are you crying?’
‘A baby,’ Lydia whispered as she wiped her face with the back of her hand. ‘I’d have a brother. Or a sister.’ It had never entered her head as a possibility before, but of course her mother was still young enough. ‘Mama, that would be wonderful. You’d love it.’ She tried to give her an excited kiss, but Valentina pushed her away.
‘What? You’re crazy,
dochenka.
’
‘No, I’m not. It would be perfect. And I’d help you.’
‘What do you know about babies?’
‘Nothing, but I’d learn. Oh please, Mama, say yes. Tell Alfred. Yes. And he’d pay for an
amah
to do all the mucky work, so it wouldn’t be too hard on you and I’d sing to him, or to her, the way you used to when . . .’
‘Stop. Stop right now, little one.’ Valentina chafed Lydia’s hand between her own and said with an odd little grimace, ‘I had no idea. That you would react like this. Are you so lonely?’
‘No. But it would be . . . special. A brother or sister to love.’
‘As good as your filthy rabbit, you mean?’
Lydia grinned at her. ‘Not quite. But nearly.’
‘God preserve me.’
They laughed together and for a moment Lydia thought seriously of telling her the truth about the shed. But with a sudden switch of mood her mother’s eyes widened in horror. She jumped to her feet and faced Lydia with hands on hips.
‘It’s not that Serov boy, is it?’
‘What?’
‘Sweet Christ, I saw him drive away as we arrived home yesterday. Tell me he’s not the one who has got you wagging your tail like a bitch in heat.’
‘Mama! Don’t be . . .’
‘Tell me.’ Valentina seized Lydia’s wrist and yanked her to her feet. ‘Not him. You stay away from him.’
‘No, of course it’s not him.’ She snatched back her wrist and rubbed it. ‘I can’t stand Alexei Serov.’
Valentina narrowed her eyes again and glared at Lydia. ‘Oh,
dochenka.
God strike your tongue black. How do I know when to believe you? You are such a good liar.’
The doorbell rang.
Too many voices. That’s what alarmed Lydia. This couldn’t be a visit by one of Alfred’s friends because they would all expect him to be still on his honeymoon. No, this was something else. Something worse. Silently she moved out onto the landing and peered over the polished banister rail to stare down into the hall. That’s when her lungs seemed to collapse inside her. This wasn’t just worse. This was as bad as it could get. The narrow space was full of uniforms.
‘I’m sorry, Mr Parker,’ the English policeman with the pips on his shoulder was saying, ‘I do understand your objections but I’m afraid we have authority to search your premises.’ He held out a piece of paper to Alfred.
Alfred took the document but didn’t even glance at it.
‘This is a damned disgrace,’ he complained sternly.
Lydia slipped down the stairs. Panic made her fast but it was impossible to sneak past them. Valentina was standing just behind Alfred and grabbed at her daughter’s arm.
‘Oh, Lydochka, what excitement! A whole pack of them. Like wolves.’
There were four English police officers filling up the hall, burly figures with polite manners but hard eyes, and snowflakes melting on their dark-blue shoulders. But it was what was outside that frightened Lydia. Five soldiers. Grey uniforms. The Kuomintang sun on their caps. Chinese troops. Waiting patiently out in the snow with cold, impassive faces.
Voices blurred. She had to get out. Now. Right now.
‘Mama, what are they searching for?’
‘A Communist, it would seem. A Chinese troublemaker.
Some malicious creature has made up a story that’s he’s in hiding here. In our house, for God’s sake. As if we wouldn’t notice. Isn’t that utterly absurd?’ She started to laugh but as she looked at her daughter’s expression, it died in her throat. She pulled Lydia to the back of the hall. ‘No,’ she breathed. ‘No.’
‘Mama,’ Lydia whispered with an urgent squeeze of her mother’s hand, ‘you must make Alfred keep them here. Longer. I need time.’ She squeezed again, hard. ‘Do you understand?’
Valentina’s face was as white as the snow on the doorstep, but she stepped closer to her husband again and slipped an arm around his waist. ‘Angel,’ she purred, ‘why don’t you invite these smart officers to come into the . . . ,’ she glanced at the drawing-room door but to Lydia’s relief seemed to recollect what the French windows looked out on, ‘ . . . into the dining room for a drink and we can discuss this situation prop—’
‘No, my dear.’ Alfred’s mouth was drawn in a straight angry line. ‘Let them get this intrusion over and done with.’
‘Thank you, sir,’ the officer said formally. ‘We will disturb you as little as possible.’
‘No, Alfred, darling. I think this is . . . unacceptable.’
Something in her voice made him look at her. Even through her panic Lydia was impressed. He saw what was in his wife’s eyes, frowned, and touched his spectacles as if about to clean them, but didn’t. Instead he cast a quick glance at Lydia, and then did no more than cover the moment with a cough and turn back to the dark uniforms.
‘On second thought, I think my wife is right. How dare you come barging into my home for no reason? This needs more discussion. ’
‘Sir, I have already given you the reason. We are cooperating with our Chinese colleagues, as it is out of their jurisdiction here in the International Settlement. There really is nothing further to discuss.’
Alfred drew himself up, stiff as a board. ‘I must dispute that. And I will take it up in my next report for the
Daily Herald.
’ He waved a hand in Lydia’s direction. ‘Leave us, Lydia.’ To the officer he said loftily, ‘I don’t want my daughter involved in this . . . fiasco.’
Mentally Lydia pulled out every single pin she’d stuck into the A on the sheet of paper last night. Without a word she left the hall.
‘The soldiers. They’re here. Quick.’
But he was already moving. He had risen instantly from the blankets but swayed on his feet, fighting for balance. His dark eyes blinked hard.
For one brief second she reached out and kissed him. ‘That’s for strength.’ She smiled.
‘You are my strength,’ he said, then seized his jacket. He was otherwise fully dressed, even wearing his boots. Prepared for this moment.
She scooped up the satchel that she had packed with his medicines last night and put an arm around his waist. ‘Let’s go.’
‘No.’ The fever had dulled his eyes but not his brain. ‘Cover our tracks.’ He gestured at the blankets.
Quickly she grabbed them, stuffed them with the hot-water bottle into one of the dusty sacks against the wall, and then piled a heap of dirty straw from the rabbit hutch on top of it. To discourage probing fingers.
‘Thank you,
xie xie
, Sun Yat-sen,’ Chang said solemnly.
Lydia would have laughed, but she’d forgotten how.
The snow saved them. It came spinning down in big floating flakes that blotted out the world. Pavements grew treacherous and sounds were muffled as cars and people faded out of focus into the swirling white world. Out through the garden door with the broken latch. On to the main road. They ran.
How Chang An Lo did it, she’d never know. The cold cut into her face. She was wearing no coat, just a thick wool sweater, but that was the least of her worries. The Kuomintang troops were at the house and once they found it empty, what then? They’d come looking. She kept glancing back over her shoulder but could make out no figures behind, and she held tight to the conviction that if she couldn’t see them, they couldn’t see her. Or could they? The snow turned the air into dense white sheets that blocked out any vision more than a few yards and it made everyone hurry, heads down, no interest in an odd pair rushing over icy pavement.
She had to think. Make her mind work for both of them.
Where to go?
Their feet pounded the pavement in fast rhythm together. Her heart kept pace. Her arm around his waist held him firmly against her side and she could feel him trying not to put weight on her, but once he stumbled. His damaged hand hit the ground hard but he said nothing, just hauled himself up and back to the running. The more they ran, locked in chaotic flight, the more she loved him. His will was so strong. And there was a calmness at the centre of him that controlled the pain and exhaustion. Only the muscle that flickered in his jaw betrayed him.