The Queen's Vow: A Novel of Isabella of Castile (28 page)

And as he shuddered and gasped, the heat of his passion easing that raw pain inside me, I heard him say: “Give me a son, my moon. Give me an heir.”

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

I
had thought of myself as a woman.

I had imagined what being a woman entailed and had strived to fulfill those exacting requirements. But in the weeks that followed our wedding, as October was swept away by the first November snows, as fires crackled in the hearths while outside an arctic wind enshrouded our palace, I realized I’d not begun to experience what being a woman meant.

Nestled in furs in our creaking bed, we explored the realm of the flesh like two ravenous children with nothing else to do. I imagine now that the servants and my ladies went tiptoeing about the icy corridors, attending to their duties with stifled giggles as they were regaled by the sounds emanating from our room, where we luxuriated in oblivion. We had to eat, of course, and this we did, from platters we picked over with our fingers, feeding each other cold chicken in pomegranate sauce and sliced cheese on figs, marveling that no food had a flavor as rich as the taste of each other’s skin. I lay back laughing as Fernando hopped barefoot across the freezing floor tiles to throw more wood on the fire, then rushed back to bed, naked and cursing, jumping beside me with hands and toes like ice.

“Stop it!” I cried as he wrapped himself about me, his chilly fingertips probing. But soon enough I was arching against him as he tangled those hands, hot as cauldrons now, in my hair and plunged to fill me again with his seed.

Epiphany came and went in a blur. We held a celebration for our household, paid for by a loan from Carrillo, and right after the Masses and exchanging of gifts, we retreated back to our cocoon, sheltered from the howling storms that turned all of Castile into a wasteland. Nothing intruded on our idyllic isolation, our
luna de miel;
we were
content to bask in it, to see and be only with each other, to pretend the entire world had paused.

But of course the world had not paused, and eventually we had to get out of bed to send a carefully crafted letter to my half brother. Carrillo had informed us that the moment Enrique learned of the marriage, he had lifted his siege in Andalucía and returned to Castile, riding in dead quiet the entire way; not even Villena had succeeded in cajoling him out of his dark silence. My letter, composed in bed between bouts of lovemaking, with both of us chewing the edges of our quills and spilling ink on each other, implored his understanding. It was our first joint effort as husband and wife, intended to promulgate our official new status while emphasizing our continued fealty. Still, when we sent it by courier, I worried that Enrique had already decided on retribution and that nothing we said or did could change his mind.

With winter upon us, we could do nothing but wait and see. After a time, Fernando and I graduated from the bed to the hearth and began to explore our common interests. We discovered that we both liked chess and cards and had an abiding passion for riding. I was surprised to learn that while he enjoyed the hunt, he too detested bullfighting; he deemed it a “barbarity” and agreed we should never allow the corrida to be held in our honor. Excessive ostentation unsettled him too, for he too had been raised in an impoverished court, where every coin mattered. Most important, he shared my preference for erring on the side of optimism, to seeing the world in terms of what could be achieved rather than what had been lost. He was overly confident and disliked opposition, and in those early days I was content to let him express himself without interference, watching him stride about our chamber declaiming his vision for our future, while I sat by the fire and darned his hose and shirts.

“Arrows and a yoke,” he said, his eyes alight. “That will be our device:
flechas
for Fernando and
yugo
for Isabella—our symbol, surmounted by our
Tanto Monta
. It’s the perfect device for a future king and queen of Castile, don’t you agree?”

I smiled and held up his darned shirt, watching him slip his lean arms into its sleeves and hiding a pang of sudden fear as I glimpsed his body’s silhouette through the frequently washed and repaired cloth.
Sensing the change in me with the uncanny perceptiveness he often displayed, Fernando cupped my chin, raised my face to his.

“What is it?” he murmured. “What makes my moon sad?”

“You know,” I replied.

He faltered. “Enrique,” he said at length, and I nodded.

“He still has not replied to our letter. How long do you think he’ll make us wait? We have no money, Fernando. As princess I was supposed to be given possession of various towns, but so far, nothing has been done. All of this—” I motioned to the room around us, encompassing the palace with my words—“is being paid for by Carrillo. We depend on him for everything.”

“But we requested your due in our letter. Surely Enrique will not deny us the means to live according to our rank. It’s not as if we require much.”

I sighed. “You do not know him. This silence of his disturbs me. I fear he prepares some kind of a trap for us.”

“But we are married now and you are his declared heir. What can he possibly do?”

I shook my head, reaching into the basket at my feet for another of his linens. “I don’t know. But whatever it is, we must be cautious. We must not let him win.”

I saw in the firm cast of his jaw that Fernando wasn’t likely to let anyone get the better of us. But not even he could have expected Enrique’s answer when it finally came, conveyed by none other than Carrillo himself.

Bundled in heavy wool, exuding the chill of the rain-drenched February afternoon, the archbishop flung the parchment onto the table in our
sala
, where Fernando and I took our meals informally, alongside our servants.

“From the cretin and his degenerate,” Carrillo snarled, snatching the goblet of hot cider Cárdenas was quick to offer. Carrillo unraveled the layers encasing his bulk, until he stood, steaming, before the fireplace. He took a long draft, eyeing us as Fernando reached for the parchment. As he read, all color drained from his face.

A pit opened in my stomach. “What does it say?”

He looked up. For the first time since we’d exchanged vows, I saw him hesitate. “Isabella,
mi amor …
it’s … I don’t want you to—”

“Just tell her,” interrupted Carrillo. “She understands the risk she took.” He grabbed the paper from Fernando and read aloud: “… thereby, I do not recognize Doña Isabella’s marriage to Prince Fernando as legal or canonically binding, seeing as the dispensation used to solemnize said union is false. Furthermore”—he lifted his voice against my gasp—“my sister has willfully disobeyed my royal authority, blah, blah, blah.”

Carrillo dropped the letter onto my lap. “In other words, he defies the marriage and may seek to disinherit you in favor of Joanna la Beltraneja; at the very least, he’ll try to wed her to a foreign prince who’ll lend him aid, seeing as he and Villena have wasted their resources on that idiotic siege in Andalucía.”

I sat perfectly still. I heard Beatriz’s knife clatter to the table as she rose in haste to attend me. Summoning my strength, I gripped my chair arms and came to my feet. The parchment slipped from my lap to the floor. Fernando was immobile but Carrillo gaped as I turned, and without a word, walked out. Beatriz and Inés followed close behind me. I did not look at the staring servants, though I did catch the complicit, troubled glance that Fernando’s treasurer, Luis de Santángel, cast in Fernando’s direction. It was like a stab in my heart, for it proved that Fernando had confided his dilemma to others, even as I had been left unaware.

I felt as if I were suffocating as I climbed the staircase to our rooms. I closed the door on my women’s worried faces, turning the key in the lock before I tugged in desperation at my bodice, trying to ease its bone-hard edges so I could fill my lungs with air. I slid in a heap against the door, hands pressed to my breast. I closed my eyes, drawing in shallow breaths. Eventually, the knock came at the door.

I knew who it was even before he said, “Isabella, please. Let me in.”

I heard Beatriz murmur something and I heard Fernando’s curt reply. He knocked again, harder this time. “Isabella, open this door. I am your husband. We need to talk.”

The anger in his tone made me consider leaving him to stew, but I
didn’t want any more scandal, so I stood and turned the key. I moved into the center of the room as he entered, slamming the door shut again on Beatriz.

“You knew,” I said, cutting him off. “When? Before or after we said our vows?”

He met my stare. The skin under his left eye twitched as it did when he was upset.

“Well? Are you going to answer me?”

“Give me a moment,” he retorted.

I took a step to him. “Why would you need a moment? It’s a simple question.”

“It’s always simple with you, isn’t it?” he said tersely. “Good or bad, black or white, saint or sinner—that’s how Her Highness Doña Isabella sees the world.”

I halted, taken aback by his contemptuous tone.

“But I do not.” He paced to the decanter on the sideboard. Contrary to his avowed abstinence, I’d discovered that Fernando in fact enjoyed a little wine at night, in private, and I’d instructed Inés to make sure there was always some ready. I wondered now, as he filled his cup, what other surprising discoveries I was fated to make about him.

“I see all the shades of gray in between,” he said. “I see that men are both bad and good, that we’re capable of great evil and great sacrifice. I know, as you do not, nothing in this world is ever as simple as we think.”

I considered him. “You are undoubtedly right,” I said at length. “I do not know a great many things. But a dispensation from His Holiness is either legal or it is not. And according to the king, the one your father and Archbishop Carrillo procured for us is not.”

“My father is not to blame. He did request the dispensation from Rome, repeatedly, but that pompous ass Pope Pius kept delaying. He finally sent it, as you yourself saw, but he insisted it would only be valid
after
we wed. How was anyone to know—”

“Pope Pius has been dead for five years,” I interrupted. “Pope Paul should have issued the dispensation.” I saw him wince. “But you’ve answered my question, at least. Evidently, you knew the dispensation was falsified even before we said our vows.”

“Isabella.” He drained the cup and came to me, taking my hands in his. “
Dios mío
, you’re like ice,” he murmured.

I withdrew my hands. “I do not like being lied to.”

He let out an impatient exhale. “What were we supposed to do? Tell me. You wrote to say you were in danger, that Enrique plotted to wed you to Portugal and you needed me in Castile, without delay. But Aragón was at war with France; we had nothing with which to bribe the pope, who’d already accepted offers from Villena to refuse us the dispensation.” He paused, searching my eyes. “Yes, it is true: Villena sent envoys to Rome to thwart us. But my father has friends in the Curia and our own Cardinal Borgia from Valencia finally sent us the dispensation, backdated to Pius’s last year of life.”

“And the signature …?”

Fernando averted his gaze. “Carrillo had other papers with Pius’s handwriting.”

“So a man of the Church forged a late pope’s name.” I turned to the window. Outside, heavy rain mixed with sleet obscured my view of the city. “And now you and I are accused by my brother the king of living together in sin, our marriage invalid in the eyes of God.”

“It’s not invalid.” Fernando did not move, but I detected a hint of imploration in his voice. “Carrillo has assured me, we are legally and canonically, under the saints and Church and God Himself, most firmly wed.”

“Do not blaspheme.” I stared, unseeing, out the window.

“The dispensation is just a technicality. We are related, yes, but by distant kinship; it’s not as if we’re brother and sister. Royal couples with far more shared blood than ours have done worse.”

“Is that what it is to you?” I turned to him. “A contest to see what we can get away with?”

“No, of course not. I only meant that—”

“Because to me, it is a grave matter indeed. We require a dispensation; whether or not it’s a technicality is beside the point. A pontiff’s name and signature were falsified; we must make it right. We must request another—one that is legal and binding.”

“And so we shall.” He finally moved to me, clasping my hands again, more firmly this time, so I wouldn’t pull away. “I promise, I’ll write to
Cardinal Borgia myself. But now is not the time. We have more serious issues to deal with.”

“What could be more serious than the validity of our union? Enrique accuses us of a graceless state so he can put the queen’s illegitimate child on the throne in my place.” My voice rose, despite my efforts to control it. “Because of you, your father, and Carrillo, my entire claim to Castile could be in jeopardy!”

“So is our safety,” he said, and I went still. “You left before Carrillo could tell us the rest of his news. Villena has lured the grandees into an alliance against us. We are the enemy, Isabella—you and me. We cannot stay here. Valladolid sits on a plain and as such, we are defenseless. My grandfather has offered us his retainers as protection, but we must take refuge in a castle with a moat and walls thick enough to keep the king’s men out.”